[PerthChick]

LINDOR! I've been wondering about how you're going and what you're up to. I was really happy to see you posting here . Are you in the right head space to lose any weight?

I have had four shocking days. I reckon I broke every single rule, ate all wrong things, and drank NO water. What's that about?

This week I am working 12.30pm - 9pm all week. Not the best of times for being sensible with food, but the challenge is for me to get back on track.

Today's goals are to eat no more than 1600 calories and drink 2 litres of water. Hopefully I can get close…

[LittleKiwi]

Sorry to hear you had a few days off track Ani. But you know what? That's life and you'll be back on the right path soon enough.

I had a great day yesterday, stuck to my points, recorded everything I ate and had a great session at the gym. I even managed to do my usual Monday aerobics class as well as my weights despite the fact I was feeling sick and feeble.

Today I will aim to stick to my points and to go to the gym and do a 40 minute walk or something similar.

[smylie]

woohoo everyone back except barb...

hellllooooo barb???? hello hello??

how is it possible that yesterday i weighed in at 93.3??? how can i have put on 3kg last week without relising it?
binge eating sucks but honestly
lets say the scales are broken

i am recovering from flu
i cleaned out pantry
when i get some money i am going to keep it nice with good foods
same with fridge

am actually eating well but obviously too much

more annoying stuff - i am now 8 days late for TOM.... but have done 4 preg tests all negative! and i am holding off until i know for sure if i am preg or not before getting back on my medication - which i unfortunately now think i need
i threw 2 bins and several other items at benji last night and screamed the house down - for no reason....

gotta go get some clothes on my daughter

have a great day everyone

water water water

i am obsessed with juice at the moment - could that be my 3kg??

[LittleKiwi]

Kel juice is FULL of sugar so that could account for some of your weight gain. Also, if you're not watching your portions the weight can sneak up quickly.

Can I make a suggestion? Go to the doctor! They may be able to tell you for sure if you're pregnant or not. Believe me when I say it's a VERY BAD idea not to be taking your medication!

[smylie]

i am going to the doc on thursday but thinking about going today
but they wont be able to tell for a little while if i am preg or not i dont think if the preg tests arenot showing anything up - my brother said to wait another 2 weeks!!!

[amouse]

blood test will show it now i think.. kel.. get your butt to the quack.. .. lol

it might be why you are moody too.. that or you are about to get one **** on a monthly.. lol ..

im doing good this week .. my scales are not my friends at the moment.. i can get on them and off them and they will show me 2 different weights.. with 2kg differences.. on the wii im 112.. on my scales im 118 or 120.. or maybe even 119 .. lol .. so mine are gonna be thrown out the window very soon.. unfortunalty the wii is my inlaws and not mine.. grrr. so i went and weighed myself on a pair in the chemist today and they show me as 114... i know at the end of thew day it doesnt matter either way im over weight but.. my scales have been going from 116 - 118 for weeks now.. and on the wii. i have lost 1.8 kilos.. in the last 2 weeks on my scales i have gained 2-4 kg.... its not right.. and its pissing me off big time.. i have beeen 100% op.. so I want to buy new scales.. but i want my hubby to buy me a wii ( for my birthday.. so.. if i buy new scales i might not get the wii.. lol.. so for now ill wait and see .. anyway gotta run..

Hubby is dropping the kids off at his parents house and taking me to watch The dark knight in greater union.. we want to do the gold class and get dinner while we watch.. should be great fun. Hopefully not to busy since the movie has been out for weeks now

[smylie]

did you just love the dark knight?? benji did - i took him for his birthday

went to doc - as my brother thought it is too early to do blood test especially coz of breastfeeding and stress - my period could actually go away again!!!!! not fair!!!!

[LittleKiwi]

What did the doctor say about your taking your medication? Are you back on it?

Hope you start to feel better soon anyway.

Sorry to hear of your scales dramas Amy! Sounds like you definitely need to get something sorted soon.

I haven't been able to weigh in this week as the scales at the gym are out being repaired. I'm looking at it as a bit of a reprieve and a chance to catch up.

Good day yesterday, stuck to my points and did a 40 minute walk including 20 minutes with incline.

I've discovered an amazing new treat in weight watchers ice cream sundaes, oh my goodness they are divine! That's my pudding every night at the moment

Goals for today: 1) Stick to my points 2) Do my weights and some cardio at the gym tonight.

Have a great day everyone.

[Lindor]

Kylie! I wish I was as excited to be back here as you were to see me back here! I am trying, really! Good to see you back here to and you seem so much happier too.

Am I in the right head space to lose weight? No!! But I am thinking very negatively just now...and I need to turn that around.

The last 12 weeks or so has been an endless binge for me! Comfort eating to the max! I reckon I gained all my weight from that! I wasn't in the best of places before that, but that was when I discovered a lump on my breast!

From there, it took me three weeks to find the nerve to see a doctor about it, two weeks to get an appointment to see a doctor, five weeks to eventually get an ultrasound and FNA done, another week to get another appointment to get the results of that FNA. At that appointment I got a verbal (as the results weren't in yet) 'at first glance' result of a benign fibroadenoma and advised to return for follow up in a month. Just prior to that follow up appointment I discovered a brown discharge from the nipple and when I explained that to the doctor his face dropped and he said 'now that is something to worry about'. And, no official results for the FNA could be found??? He has referred me to a breast clinic in Perth...next available appointment is early November!!!!

I guess it is kinda natural in this situation (maybe??) to feel a lump and to think cancer and to think death. If I am going to die...what is the point of weight-loss?

Like I said....I gotta turn the negative thinking around. So far the results I have received say it is benign...why can't I accept that???

Anyway...sitting here during my lunch break writing this has left me no time to eat! Not good I know...but hey, it's not a binge!

Sorry for the self-indulgent post.

[smylie]

if you are going to die you want to look good in the coffin!
and also you are not going to die.
but very natural to be worried about all those things - how scary and WHAT A LOAD OF CRAP that first appointment is november that is forever away
so actually that is a good thing - as if you had something and they thought you were going to die there is NO WAY they would make you wait until november


i cant breath in my fat girl skirt
this is not cool

and ani before you ask what i am doing - NOTHING heheheheh i dont have a plan i dont know what to do - i did though start drinking more water (there was no orange juice left)

i keep waiting for some reason to start a proper lifestyle change and keep blaming my messy study
ho hum

[barbegirl71]

I'm here Kel. I always have been.

[7senuf]

Hi Barb.

Lindor heres hugs hope you are ok mentally as well. Know we are here supporting you throughout even if we not in body but in net waves

Amy have you done the Wii fit? My friend got it 3 weeks ago and loves it. She didn't particuly get it for weigh loss though - just cause. And she's addicted. Today (I hadnt seen her in a week) she walked towards me and i said WOW. SHe has curves that we didnt see before. I think I might be gonna gettin one


Kel I here ya. I put on my fav undies today and they are tight. NOT HAPPY. My scales just keep going up grrrr.

Ok, gotta go pee now and my son will have taken over the comp by the time i flush so.............

[smylie]

so barb??
how is it going???

doc gave me referral for blood test for pregnancy but still may not show up for a week or so depending on what my cycle is doing i may not have ovulated when one normally would coz of breastfeeding and my friend stress

so funny vonni about your son- i hope jemima doesnt do that to me... but she is getting good with the mouse and keyboard!

[LittleKiwi]

Oh Lindor, I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time. Finding a lump in your breast must have been terrifying but I agree with Kel that surely if they thought it was something really bad then they'd rush you through the system and not make you wait until November. Try to keep positive mate and please keep popping in here to chat with us so that we can offer our support. Remember that we're here for everything, not just weight loss support.

I had another good day yesterday, did my weights at the gym followed by a 20 minute walk. I did try to run but I've still got a bit of a cold and my lungs just couldn't cope with that. I was slightly over my points but not too drastically so I'm happy with myself regardless.

Goals for today are 1) Stick to my points and 2) Go for a walk after work if the weather holds out.

[PerthChick]

Lindor is there any possibility of you getting a second opinion? I know it might mean a little bit of travel, but waiting until November isn't the best decision for your health.

I would be worried too if the doctor told me 'now that is something to worry about', and I would be reluctant to leave my fate in someone else's hands. I know how frustratingly slow the health system is over here, but I would be on the phone demanding a quicker appointment. Do you really have to wait and come to Perth? Surely there are some decent facilities closer to you!

The worst thing, in situations like this, is the waiting - and the things you conjure up in your imagination while time seems to drag. Matey you need to KNOW what's going on for your peace of mind.

IF it is breast cancer, early detection is really important - treatment and results are very positive, and have advanced significantly.

BUT…

You need to eat for your health, and that includes heaps of Vitamin B. Do some research on the net and you'll find loads of good information about eating for boosting your immune system, and the kinds of vitamins, anti-oxidants etc that will help you. And drink heaps if water and cranberry juice - anything that will flush, stimulate your immunity and better health.

And find a way to manage your stress. Seriously! You're already under a heap of stress from not knowing, and feeling frightened. Get a yoga DVD or download something on YouTube, meditate, make it a project.

I feel very strongly that you need to take back some of your power and not leave it in the hands of strangers and general practitioners. It will be really good for your emotional health if you can do some things that will help you feel that you're doing something proactive.

I'm sorry if this sounds like a lecture, but you're my friend and I hate to see you sounding so helpless and scared.

Why should you care about losing weight now? Because you're worth it - that's why! Even if you have something sinister going on in your body, you will be in a much better place to fight it if you eat more healthy food. And you might begin to believe you're worth taking care of too.

And tell me this: if I came to you and said I had something wrong - a lump in my breast - would you tell me to lock myself away, stuff myself with food and ignore my health? What would you say to me if it were me? And why don't you deserve as much care and attention for YOU?

AND…

Barb I am so glad you popped up in here. Stay with us - Lindor needs us - and aside from that, this place is better for your gentle spirit.

KEL - . That coffin comment was disgraceful. Lindor is worried about her health, and that was not only unhelpful but it's the kind of comment that can make people walk away from this forum. And the last thing Lindor needs right now is to be more isolated.