Good Thursday Morning Everyone
FINALLY, I have time to post! I wanted to get a post on here yesterday but it was impossible, so I'm trying to make up for lost time and posts today. NADINE, ELI'S sister was going to take a 2pm flight out yesterday but ended up taking a 7pm flight out, so plans of mine got sidetracked. I had wanted to give a spinning class a try, but with having Nadine leaving later than expected, with my Mom coming over to visit, with Lauren bringing a friend home unexpectedly and me having to run for pizza before having to take Lauren to school for a drama performance, well, as you can probably see, there's more than one reason that I didn't make it to that first class-oh, lets not forget the trip to the grocery store as well.
I didn't get in any exercise yesterday, though I should of tried a bit harder in the morning, but with the idea of going to the spinning class, as well as having popped that lovely blister I had the night before, I thoguht I'd give myself the morning off-at least the blister got a reprieve. I was able to go out this morning and walk, though honestly, I really didn't feel like going and I couldn't find the strength to run any more than maybe 1 mile out of the 4.5 I did and that wasn't all done in one shot-it took me over 55 minutes-slower than a turtle today, but better than nothing.
Yesterday, my eating was wonderful and I felt sooo good. I had to take a good hard look at myself and have a nice long conversation with myself as well. Having many lapses of good judgement in recent weeks I have to find out why I am allowing this to happen all of a sudden and why I didn't allow these events to happen before over the past 2 years. If I don't come to grips with issues like these, I will never be able to keep this weight off. I'm confident I've got the emotional eating licked now, a major accomplishment in my book, but now I have to tackle how, if I want, to eat something totally off plan on a special occasion/once in a blue moon and get right back on. Instead, I find myself taking the plunge and sinking, not coming back up to the surface quickly, but instead, drowning in the sea of bad food. How was it before that I could go to any restaurant/event and not even give the desserts a second thought? I still don't give them a thought, but when the one the other day was put right in front of my face as part of the meal I couldn't resist. I want - NO - I need to be able to either continually turn up my nose at stuff like this, or learn how to be able to try a little and then get right back on plan. I've always said I envy those who are able to cheat and then get right back on the wagon like it never happened and thus do not see any effects from the cheat, whereas I know and have always said that should I cheat I keep running the other way, and this is EXACTLY what I do. I know myself, so in knowing myself, why do I do this? I want to be able to learn control in this respect. Why do I have control over so many other things? Like cookies I may have for the kids that I use to like, they do nothing for me and I would't think of eating them -it just doesn't make sense sometimes. I guess this is just something else I need to work on within my life and it's something that's going to take time, just as the weight loss did. Hope you don't mind me sharing my personal thoughts on this-wonder if I make sense sometimes.
Anyhow, back to my eating yesterday, there was a feeling of some empowerment I had that I can't really explain, but it felt GOOD!
Not even all the crap food we had in the house that NADINE brought from Canada bothered me at all. I put all of it in a bag and set it on the dining room table with ELI'S work stuff and didn't give it a second thought. Didn't even give it a third thought when ELI came home and started to indugle after dinner on it. THAT felt wonderful and I felt like I was back in control. Today, I'm feeling just as good and look forward to a fabulous day.
I think for me I have to have consistency of some sort. I don't like eating foods that I don't know what's in them. When NADINE made dinner the other night I watched her use a LOT of oil, something we don't do at home, and I really didn't want to eat the food. We went to lunch at the ME restaurant the other day and I have a hard time choosing what to eat because most items come with rice (no subs for veggies at these places) nor do I know how it's made, so I stick to falafels, not the most low-fat item on the menu though. I find that I eat best when I have foods that I've made that I can journal all the info-when I don't know, I don't seem to do as well as I could.
Okay, enough babbling here, I know I'm proably boring the heck out of everyone!!!
GRACIOUS, please explain VICTORIA DAY. It took me years to come and ask what BOXING DAY in the UK was, and it wasn't what I thought it was. Always thought it had to do something with boxing, boy, was I wrong!! LOL!! I take it from your post it's similar to Memorial Day? Are you back SBing, or still Atkining a bit? What I don't understand with Atkins, how the heck do you not have major dookie problems-there's no fiber at all in his plan-that alone would drive me nuts, I'd be so stopped up my hazel eyes would turn brown. Loved the egg and bra story!!!!!
VES, that class you went to, the girl you described reminds me of that commercial with the spinning class and girl named KELLY. I'd definitely complain to whoever you could, esp. if this happens again. Maybe she was having a crappy day, but if not, someone should say something-surely they'd do something to correct her, or at least you'd hope so. Glad your friend saw the SB LIGHT, many people, esp those who should lose weight, think that if you speak one word about your WOE you're obsessed. I think they are more jealous that you found something that works and have the willpower to do it.
JACKK-you never had shrimp before the other day? WOW! I love shrimp, though I never buy it. Did you like it? Nice boss handing over the plastic. Vodka and grapefruit juice??? 4??? How could you go back to work after drinking those??? Re-read the SB book-I've read that thing so many times-honestly, I know what has to be done-just have to keep reminding myself, I need my little mantra tatooed on my hand to continually see - which do you want more, the ____ or the weight loss?!? How's the journaling going?
COUNTRY, thanks for the compliment on Bailey, my niece. I haven't seen her in a few days and I'm sure she's changed a little since being born a week ago, may go by there today and make sure she's still in the cute zone
I too have been watching the different scales on Ebay-want a new one as mine only weighs in ounces and I'd like one that weighs in both ounces and grams. I too bought a pair of
very gentley used Nike sneakers at a garage sale last weekend that I'll have to break in as well - couldn't pass them up, a great $1 purchase. Glad you liked the cheesecake-I dare not make it anytime soon!
NANCE, CONGRATS!!! I know I don't have to tell you, but what the heck, I'm so proud of you!!!!
What an awesome sight to read that you've hit a new low for yourself-I'm behind you 100%, you know that!!! Hey girlfriend, you described kafta there, not kibbe-though both are equally delicious!!! Oops, seems Trixie is going to get an arse beating. I'm sure Floyd egged her on! Hope it comes out-maybe the Oxyclean will do the trick-have to try some on Lauren's carpet where my niece Ainsley barfed orange mac and cheese-on her nice off white carpet! GOOD LUCK!
TRISH, CONGRATS for losing yet another pound AND for hitting a new milestone!!! 30lbs - you go girl!!! Kids are getting out today
Kids aren't out down here until June 12th, and that's to soon for me-not sure what the kids are going to do between end of school and summer school that starts July 8th-hoping their Father takes them on a week trip somewhere to give me some free time-that would be nice. What are you kids doing for the summer? Better yet, what are you going to do with the kids for the summer? Happy belated bday to JORDAN. Congrats on running that 5K!!!! Hey, the offer is open to come visit should you want when you come to the Sunshine State in July!!! Glad to hear you've got a new SB'er going there-always easier when you have someone close that's following the same WOE as you-good moral and support booster!
DARAMUS, CONGRATS on this weeks loss, you are continuing to do well! Whatever exercise you end up doing is going to be not only wonderful for your health, but helpful in toning and weight loss-find what you enjoy doing the most and don't worry about anything else. Go learn to ride horses, I use to love riding when I was a kid, haven't been on a horse since I was 19-lonngggg time ago-you'll probably love it and it's a new experience for you!
GLORY, I hope your daughter realizes she can eat, and eat good food, and lose weight at the same time. LAUREN is almost 14 1/2 and she has no interest in losing the weight. It breaks my heart that she's following in my footsteps-I wish she wasn't in knowing all that I know. What can we do-damned if you say something, and feel damned if you don't-there's no happy medium with a situation such as this.
JBUG, sounds like you are doing quite well thus far on SB, CONGRATS! That's a great loss in 2 weeks!! You did great in the chat room-like you had done it many times before
The dreaded scale question...I think we are all different when it comes to that metal monster. Some people don't even own a scale, some go on it only once a week, while others are totally obsessed with it and continually weigh in many times throughout the day-which is me, I confess, except when I've had a lapse in judgement as I have recently and I KNOW for a fact I'm up (feel it in my clothes) and then, I don't want to have a thing to do with that scale. It's a love/hate relationship. Weighing in and posting your weight is not mandatory at all on this board, nothing is-but we do WIW for those who want to-why WIW some may ask-well, that's the day I started SB and it sure as heck sounded good to me, so that's my coined phrase!
ROSALIE, sounds like you too have the same trouble as I do when it comes to making one indiscretion end up being a day of bad indiscrections! Glad to hear you're back on track-makes two of us-hope we stay on the straight and narrow from here on!! Thanks for noticing my niece being cute-I keep saying she takes after me, though I don't know if anyone believes it!
TONI, so what are you going to make first now that you got the agave - time to scan the recipe boards!!!!! Don't worry about a 1/2lb, esp if you know you are eating right-but if you feel there's something amiss, definitely post one of your menu's from the last day or two. It could be hormonal too - just take a weight and see attitude and don't worry about it. Okay, just took a view of your menu, and with not knowing all the amounts you eat, I'm guessing you aren't eating enough. I also suspect you aren't getting enough fiber or calcium either.
CAT, WOW, thought you'd bit the dust there. I wish you well in your goal to lose 20lbs, not sure if that will be feasible for you or not, but whatever you lose is a definite step in the right direction!!
HORSECHICK, here's your official
WELCOME TO THE BOARD!!! 
Glad you've jumped in and joined us! Always happy to have
ANOTHER FLORIDIAN ON THE BOARD!!! You have the dubious distinction of being the closet person on the board to me now-so with that, as I've said before, we are definitely going to have to meet in the near future. You're doing very well thus far-keep up the great work! JAMBA JUICE, if you are using it as a meal once in a while, well, I wouldn't worry about it too much. DARAMUS likes going there once in a while-but like him, try not to make it a regular occurance, all that juice is like pure sugar, better to eat the fruit and get the fiber, but if nothing else is around and it's for a meal, like I said, once in a while won't kill you. Thanks for posting your BIO on the BIO BOARD, it's always nice to get to know a bit more about our board members. As for making replying to others easier, I do my replies as if I were writing a letter on AOL, but alas, have lost many posts from my computer just cutting off line. I just open and reduce my windows. I'm sure others out there have a much better and easier way. If you look at the bottom of the board if you do your reply in the box, you'll see all the past replies down there, but then again, if you don't do it elsewhere and your computer shuts down or locks up, your going to be *****in with the rest of us who have lost posts just the same way!
HOMESCHOOLING MAMA, first off,
WELCOME TO THE BOARD! Glad you've decided to join our wonderful group. Hmmm, hope you don't mind, but can we shorten your name to MAMA, or would you prefer something else-just makes typing a bit faster
I can relate to where you are at this point as I am 5' 1 1/2" tall and my highest weight ever (that I know of) was 284lbs. That's wonderful should be easier that the entire family will be doing SB-I wish everyone well and good luck. Please don't hesitate to ask questions, we're all more than happy to help. Hope you take a family before picture to compare with the during and after!!! Where in Texas are you? Seems there's now just as many Texans aboard as Floridians!
MEL, glad to see you're still alive and well. Glad to hear you're still doing well, and losing, even if it's slow. Girl, I'm sure you'll be passing me at the WDWM, as will thousands of others - seems this old bod just ain't able to keep up the pace these days.
MONET, I too haven't inhaled the bags of pretzels I have in the house. I seem to go through phases. When something is new I eat a lot of whatever it is and then lose some interest in it. In a way it's good, but then it's bad that whatever it may be ends up going bad and rots or gets bucks. I seem to do this quite a bit-another one of my "problems".
I'm sure you'll have everything together and the wedding will go off without a hitch. I'm not sure if I missed it or not, but did you ever get your dress (I pray so) and if so, what color did you end up chosing?
RED1, don't fret about those 2lbs, trust me, I'm far above 2lbs right now and fretting over those pounds doesn't help at all. Hope things on the homefront are better!!!
KIMMY, sorry to hear that the kids haven't been feeling well and then to hear you seem to be catching something as well-you're probably so run down with no sleep and then being around little sickies-hope you get better soon. WOW, 119, you've really gotten down there girl! CONGRATS!! So, are you trying to stay down there, or are you giving yourself a cushion as I did 119-124? Just don't lose any more weight, we don't want you to vanish into thin air!!!
BETH, glad to see your post-glad I didn't have to call out the National Guard to get you on the board! I can relate to your money woes, but I'm sure you'll get back into the swing of things. Do try to watch your eating, putting in so much wonderful effort and not having results that are due to you just because you're not eating enough just isn't fair and can easily be remedied. Don't worry that you are "bothering" those at work when you need to go to the "urination station" remember, you need to think about BETH first!!! Nice to have someone notice you and your weight loss, definitely a great moral booster. Glad to hear your SD is doing better and back at home. Girl, you brag away about DS-you have bragging rights on here!
TREE, ack, the yogurt! Girl, you have to get better on those labels!!! With peaches now coming into season, try what I do and puree some fruits and mix it into your plain yogurt and put a little sweetener in it, if needed - much better than the stuff already made up out there. If you've tried making the yogurt cheese without success, more than likely the yogurt you had had gelatin in it, not one you want to buy. I like using CASCADE, HORIZON or AXELROD. There's easy instructions on how to make it on one of the old recipe boards, just need to do a search. It's delicious in so many ways.
Well, I've been on this computer for 3 hours now, typing away-can't believe it! Well, at least I'm caught up-sort of. I still have more to say, but no time to do so at the present. I'll try to get back on here later tonight if possible, though don't hold your breath. I have to go with ELI to an art thing at Minnie and Morris' sons work (he's a judge), he's doing some art exhibit in his courtroom and ELI'S supplying the SB COFFEE and pastries and wants me to go-means another night of not getting to go to my weight training class-that's 4 nights missed in a row.
Hope you all have a wonderful day!
Debbie
194/12?/129
SB since 3/22/00
Reached goal 6/10/01
Good morning....
I like my bat too....of course I love Halloween, before I had an angry beaver, which I loved, but he didn't show up too well! That's cool about your house...you must be tickled pink to move into something brand-spankin' new! 
. Drinking like crazy. Hope it will flush out. I've been so tired this week. Went to bed at 9:00 last nite. Even slept thru the nite. That's very unusual. I always get up 1-2 times to potty. LOL. 
Hi everyone, I just registered....
Daughter found 2 more eggs but I got a light from a friend and am trying to do it right this time. TREE- thanks for the heads up on the heat issue, I was just winging it and didn't know the details.
Wedding nightmares
Good Evening Everyone!!
