Welcome LaurenBelle, always nice to have a new member
I've done reasonably well with food this week and haven't eaten anything outrageously unhealthy. Bought my lunch a couple of times (this is a downfall of late) but opted for a nice vegetarian wholemeal pastry pie one day and sushi the other day.
It's been a very busy week as I worked as usual during the day and had a meeting on Monday evening then was lucky enough to work at both Metallica concerts here in Christchurch on Tuesday and Wednesday nights. I'm a huge fan (am actually flying to Auckland to see them in a few weeks) so it was a real treat for me but tiring working from 8:30am to 11:30pm 2 nights running. Working 9:30am - 7:30pm tomorrow too so won't get much of a weekend Oh well, it's good for the bank balance and will help to pay off my holiday spending!
I've quit my gym membership which is a big change for me. I've moved offices though and it was just too far to drive so I decided to give it up. Unfortunately this means that I currently have nothing to weigh myself on! I'm thinking of joining a small local gym near to my home but still deciding so in the meantime I have printed out the couch to 5k running program and I'm going to start that.
Ani where are you hiding? And Lindor?? Long time no post matey, I really hope that you are ok
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I'm ok Julia. Still trying to pull myself together. But, a huge part of me doesn't want to for fear of making things more real and therefore having to accept them.
Mista was such a huge chunk of my life, sometimes I think, bigger than I even realised!
It's five weeks tomorrow...
I still come home from work and the first thing I go to do is check on Mista. I still get up at 4.30am so I can feed him, medicate him, take him outside for a wander and set him up inside again so he is comfortable while I am at work. I still have alarms set to remind me to medicate him. When I am feeding Jezzi, I have found on several occassions, that I have cut up a serve in tiny pieces for Mista. I still find myself regularly looking/listening to see if Mista is awake or asleep. I still have gates set up in the hallway and doorways to contain him when I am out so he can't wander onto the floorboards and slip...I still check they are closed properly before going to work/going out/going to bed. I still have his pen erected in the garden...when I am hanging out the washing, or doing something in the garden, I still check to see if he is ok in there. All of these things remind me of him, and then remind me like a slap in the face, that he is gone...all of these things bring me to tears still!
I feel stupid and foolish for going on like this. Most of you have lost family members and seem to have moved on better than I have over losing a dog! And that is not meant to sound like an attack on you or suggest that I am doing it harder than you. It is a question of how do you do it, and why can't I?
Anyway...diet and exercise is the furtherest thing from my mind at the moment. Having said that, and if I think about it, food intake has been far from perfect over the weeks since...
I am going to try to go for a short walk today, although I have been 'trying' to do that for a few weeks now. It used to be that I'd sit outside with Mista while I was putting my shoes on and preparing myself for my walks or bike rides before.
I'll quit whining now!
Welcome to the newcomers to the thread! I hope you find the support and success that you are looking for!
Lindor, you're grieving and that's normal. You'll never forget Mista and it'll be damn hard to be without him but it will get easier with time.
Well done Lauren that's a great loss! Always good to start off with such a bang
Daylight savings has started and I'm proud to say that tonight I got in touch with a friend and we went for a nice long walk. Even included some jogging along the way! And we've promised to set up walking as a regular thing.
This week's going to be a busy one ... going to get a spray tan tomorrow night then it's the fella's birthday and we're going out for dinner on Wed then Thurs I'm heading to Sydney for a wedding! Looking forward to starting some regular exercise when I'm back.
Lindor - Losing a pet is just like losing a family member, i've been through it before and it is hard but it does get better. I find that if I think about the good times and memories it helps, thinking about missing them doesn't help you move on. It's tough, but you will get through it
LaurenBelle - Congrats! That's an amazing loss, well done!
7sneuf & LittleKiwi - Thanks! I am happy about the drop
Yay Vonni, that's amazing - good work! Sounds like everyone is going well.
I went out of town to some shows, and ate pizza and wings a lot and drank vodka and soda a lot.. and I lost a kilo and a half. Must do that more often! I am nearly halfway there...
Need to get back to the gym but can't see it happening this week because I am soooooooooo busy with work and school. I will try. I decided if I have time to watch tv I have time to go to the gym so we shall see.
New Amazing Race season started here Sunday night - awesome!!
And Gen I have that theory when it comes to the computer. If I can find an hour or more for sitting on my arse at the keyboard I can find time for Gym. Gym is my friend.
Fluid retention from dinner on Saturday night has gone now - and I'm 0.2kg lighter than before. Seems like I've got a nice gradient going at about 0.5kg a week - slow but steady. 25kg loss will take a year at this rate. But 12 kg until BMI is 25 - half a year - one minute at a time.
I'm exhausted. Started back full time this week, and of course it's in the middle of the busiest week of the year. But even though my body is protesting at what I have been doing to it, in a perverse way it feels really good to be doing some heavy lifting, walking a million miles and finishing the day sore and tired.
It's a bit like getting paid to go to the gym .
Anyway, for the first time in months I am feeling confident that I can strike the right balance, and get back on track for losing weight. My plan is remarkably similar to before: count calories, drink water, move my body - and aim to lose at least 300g/week.
Gen I don't know if you heard but the footy Grand Final between St Kilda and Collingwood was a draw, so those of us who are footy tragics get to have one more game before the season ends… And Garry Ablett is off to the Gold Coast.
OK - off to the garden for a couple of hours, then off to the big green shed to earn my keep!
Ani I was actually in Toronto at a friend's house, we got home from a concert and as he flicked thru the TV came across the grand final telecast, so we watched the last quarter. SO frustrating!!
My friend's dad is dying and he adores the Saints, so I would love to see them get up for him. They have tickets so they'll be there again this week.
I got annoyed when i weighed this morning at 94.5 thinking I had gained from 92.5 but then I realized it was 95.2 so I had lost a bit haha. I have started drinking the protein shakes this week to up my protein, actually found a powder that tastes lovely so that's a relief.
Lindor, I don't know what to say except that grief is what it is, and there's no timeline and you can't compare yourself to others. I am ok day to day, but I miss my mum a lot, and think almost every day about how I must tell mum this or that when I call, then realize I can't call. I am still a big sook if I sit and think about her being gone - it still seems surreal and ridiculous to think I will never see her again.
hiya guys.. wow did i miss alot.. im so sorry about your mum gen and mista lindor ..
i did a quick scan through .. and i see a few new faces.. ... HELLO
im Amy i been trying to lose weight here for a long while.. get to a point where i stop loosing then give up for a while.. gain some back get fed up and return once more.. LMAO .. not a very good role model.. but at least im still a good 25+ kilos lighter then when i started.. Oh and i also have a weird fear of getting under 100 kilos.. when ever i get close i get obbsessed then self sabotage.. so yeah im really a nut i guess .. this time however the scales are getting ditched and im just gonna get my head *** and stomach into gear.. as the scales are my enemy.. and have too much power over me ..
So here i am for restart 5 million.. wich me luck i will need it..
Oh well, it's good for the bank balance and will help to pay off my holiday spending!
