Gaylyn, I know EXACTLY how you feel! When I was working on our master bedroom a few weeks ago it didn't matter how much I planned I always ended up ordering in or driving through. I'd just lose track of time and all of a sudden have the family under my ladder telling me they were hungry. Funny, I did the same thing as you - I wore my favorite jeans, that had been getting too big, that fit (snuggly) at that point. I've not kept my bigger clothes. As soon as they get to big I get rid of them. So, I didn't have anything to fall back on. It was get back on track or go naked - and, believe, NOBODY wants to see THAT!
A wierd frus checking in today. I really had a terrible day yesterday. I didn't get up at the alarm to do weights, I didn't run at lunch, I didn't kickbox. I lounged around and went straight home last night. I walked in the door and saw a Creme egg... Then I ate more easter egg, then toast, then ice cream, flapjack, cornflakes, flapjack, easter egg I don't know why. I remember arguing with myself in my head. I think the word "punishment" came out in it somewhere. Like I was punishing myself for not feeling well or just for not making it to kickboxing. I watched a DVD which took my mind off the endless binge, then I had the earliest night! I was asleep at 9pm! Maybe that was really all I needed. If I'd come home and had a nap I might've done ok.
Anyway, it's done now. I got up at 6:20 this morning and lifted weights! I made a protein packed brekky and packed my meals for the rest of the day. I hope I'll be all full today, since yesterday I was hungry too. I think I made poor choices when it came to snacks yesterday. I've got more dresses to try at lunch, then I'll go kickboxing tonight and have a small run while I wait for class to start.
My head's slightly more in the game today. I have a fair bit that will keep me occupied today - phonecalls I need to make, stuff to write, actual things to design! I have to go out on an assessment too, so it will keep me busy!
Here's to a better day and kindness to oneself. I need a self-hug smilie!
Yes, be kind to yourself 2Frus. I've had those days myself and the best thing to do is forget about it, forgive yourself and move on. In the grand scheme of things it is only a minor slip.
You know how we sometimes talk about mistaking thirst for hunger? I wonder how many times we get all kinds of things mixed up? Like JenFrus and her tiredness?
Today for the first time ever ... I'm going to use this little emoticon
In an effort to accurately answer another thread I found that I have been hanging steady weightwise for almost two months
The butt kicker addendum to that was the realization that I was averaging 1650 calories per day.
I'm ashamed to go find the post where I declared that I was gonna kick it up a notch.
And one for me too! I ate Maltesers after my wedding dress thingy today - they all made me look rubbish! Perhaps that was because I ate my body weight in junk food last night?!
Jenfrus! I thought of something. Stephanie told me a few times that she wished she'd worn better undergarments the first time we went dress shopping. Helpful???
2frus, I know how terrible it feels to have a day like the one you had yesterday. For me, being tired is one of the worst triggers. I'll be so exhausted but not quite ready to go to bed. Still, I won't feel like doing anything and I find myself standing in the kitchen just picking away at whatever happens to be there. Before I know it, I've consumed at least a days worth of calories. I'm glad you got some rest and started today off on the right foot. Take care of yourself - you deserve it!
Well, Susan, at least you KNOW what your calorie averge was. I added these extra pounds by NOT knowing how much I was eating. Offically, anyway - I can't help but keep a running total in my head anymore.
So, I've been avoiding the scale. My in laws will be visiting this week and I'm still not going to step on it. I don't need any reason to justify eating poorly or not exercising while they are here. If I have lost any weight (and I really think I have) I am afraid I'll use it as an excuse to indulge. It is better that I just keep plugging along and not letting myself be influenced by a stupid number.
Speaking of the scale...
I was thinking this morning about how, when I reached 134, I weighed myself all the time. I'm talking several times throughout the day. There was some voice in my head that kept telling me that weight couldn't be true and I had to keep verifying it. I'd weigh myself then go check my pants to see if they really were size eights. Then, I'd compare my size 8's to my size 10's to see if there was even a difference. I weighed bags of flour and sugar to make sure it was accurate. It was just so hard for me to wrap my brain around the fact that I weighed LESS than my original goal weight. Anyway, that thought got me thinking about how I had the same attitude when I started putting a few extra pounds on. I mean, my 8's weren't getting too tight it was that they had just come out of the dryer. Sure, the scale was up a pound or two but that was water weight, right? Why is it that, when it comes to weight loss, it is so darn hard to just accept things for what they are? And why do I care so much about the number on the scale when I never trust it anyway?
The funny thing is that now that I'm not weighing myself I'm doing the same thing with my food logs. I'm constantly reviewing fitday. Could I have possibly eaten THAT much food and stayed under 1500 calories? How on earth did I eat so little food and end up OVER 1500 calories?
I can't seem to just eat less, move more, and let nature take its course. No, no, no, I have to micromanage and obsess over something or diet and exercise aren't going to work.
Susan - underwear It's v important. Some of the dresses I've been trying on however have been so flimsy that it wouldn't matter! I at least made sure that I was wearing frenchies rather than strongly elasticated knickers that cut in and bulge wherever they touch! Sorry TMI!
lucky - scales, they're a pain in the butt! I think it's best to keep plugging away - I know when I'm "light" I feel like I can be a all day because I weighed "light" in the morning! As for micromanaging and obsessing - I think if you pay attention to the days where you can eat lots for less than 1500 and try to replicate them most days then you're learning about what fills you and how you respond to certain foods. I know I was surprised when I planned my food for today that it all came to less than 1500 and I knew all that food would be filling. Ok so I've eaten a little more, but that was more head hunger (I used a pear for one head-hunger issue ). I think we're getting there!
I also had a thought last night after this huge blow-out thingie, that, well, what if I'm placing too much pressure on myself to be "perfect". The exercise plan about lifting in the morning, running at lunch and kickboxing. If I screw up one of those I feel like a failure. If I eat more than 1800kcals in a day - even though I'm hungry - I feel like a failure. If I eat a cookie when I'm trying to have a clean day - you guessed it I was really tempted to "wing it" from now on, not obsess over calories or having a week where I get all my exercise in (I don't think I've ever done that!!). Then if the opportunity of a meal out arises I won't be beating myself up because I was trying to have a "clean day". I also remember thinking that I need to listen to what my body is really telling me. If I'm tired I must nap, or not go to class, or not go out trekking round London where junk food is easily accessible. If I'm sick I must rest, if I'm hungry I must eat what my body needs, not what my head needs. If I'm fed-up I must watch Wallace and Gromit
I almost threw the "winging it" approach out with the bathwater, BUT I do feel that, for example, if I want / "need" a bag of Maltesers because of crappy wedding dresses, then I should have them, then this will stave off a huge eat-all-the-chocolate-you-can binge later on in the evening. So I think the best plan at the moment is... Plan the next day's meals (DON'T wing the healthy food) AND if they're as filling as today's food, then I have flexible calories to "spend" on maltesers, creme eggs, pears, toast, eggs, chicken etc! As for exercise - I just think if the alarm goes off and I feel like lifting, then lift. If it gets to lunchtime and I feel like running, then run. If it gets to kickboxing class and I feel like so much doggy doo, then go home. No-one's going to appreciate me collapsing on them in class!
So I think a little balance is called for, some planning and some listening to what my BODY needs, not what my head feels like.
You ladies sure give a person lots to think about. lol
I had a bit of a jolt today. I've been down on myself because I haven't made a lot of progress since March. Which was made worse with the 8 lb backslide from weekend Today, I was reminded of where I came from and how much I have to be proud of. I know that these extra lbs are just a bump in the road and that with proper eating they will come back off.
I had to get the builder to come to the house today because one of our plumbing pipes hangs down below the joist and we can't drywall over it. The builder who came was a guy that I had dated 14 years ago. He couldn't get over how great I looked and the fact that I look better now then I did 14 years ago. And after two kids too! What a wonderful ego boost!
It was just the I needed to see how far I've come and that in the grand scheme of things I'm doing really well. I'm no longer at risk for diabetes, my PCOS is under control, I can keep up with my dd on bike rides and chasing my ds around the park doesn't leave me winded. I still want to get down to 140 and those size 8's but I'm going to start to enjoy where I am now and try to quit obsessing about my 'failures' and concentrate on my successes.
Gaylyn, I like your attitude! I might just try and jump on that bandwagon. Thanks for the reminder how you look at a situation is much more important than the situation itself.
I went to kickboxing last night and did the best I could. I still think I'm feeling a bit under the weather. I ate healthily yesterday all things considered.
Not feeling too bad today - I had scrambled egg whites for breakfast, however they were the leftover ones with Splenda in - I forgot! They tasted strange... especially with cheese. I'm not sure if they've gone off either, they didn't smell... How do you tell an off egg white? I suppose I'll know when I start to
Right must go and hydrate - up to 168lbs this morning (that's up from 163 about a week ago ).
How do you split your weights up? I've joined a gym and I hope to weight train 3 times a week - do you do legs, shoulders/back and arms/chest or what? I'm looking to start a new routine - I'll only have 30 minutes but I figure if I do a split thing, so I can do many many chest/arm exercises in 30 mins, I'll get a good workout!
I don't know why. I remember arguing with myself in my head. I think the word "punishment" came out in it somewhere. Like I was punishing myself for not feeling well or just for not making it to kickboxing. I watched a DVD which took my mind off the endless binge, then I had the earliest night! I was asleep at 9pm! Maybe that was really all I needed. If I'd come home and had a nap I might've done ok. 
for you Susan 
It's v important. Some of the dresses I've been trying on however have been so flimsy that it wouldn't matter! I at least made sure that I was wearing frenchies rather than strongly elasticated knickers that cut in and bulge wherever they touch! Sorry TMI! 
all day because I weighed "light" in the morning! As for micromanaging and obsessing - I think if you pay attention to the days where you can eat lots for less than 1500 and try to replicate them most days then you're learning about what fills you and how you respond to certain foods. I know I was surprised when I planned my food for today that it all came to less than 1500 and I knew all that food would be filling. Ok so I've eaten a little more, but that was more head hunger (I used a pear for one head-hunger issue 
). I think we're getting there!
I was really tempted to "wing it" from now on, not obsess over calories or having a week where I get all my exercise in (I don't think I've ever done that!!). Then if the opportunity of a meal out arises I won't be beating myself up because I was trying to have a "clean day". I also remember thinking that I need to listen to what my body is really telling me. If I'm tired I must nap, or not go to class, or not go out trekking round London where junk food is easily accessible. If I'm sick I must rest, if I'm hungry I must eat what my body needs, not what my head needs. If I'm fed-up I must watch Wallace and Gromit 
listening to what my BODY needs, not what my head feels like.
They tasted strange... especially with cheese. 
I'm not sure if they've gone off either, they didn't smell... How do you tell an off egg white? I suppose I'll know when I start to 
Calling SusanB - calling SusanB!
and I hope to weight train 3 times a week - do you do legs, shoulders/back and arms/chest or what? I'm looking to start a new routine - I'll only have 30 minutes but I figure if I do a split thing, so I can do many many chest/arm exercises in 30 mins, I'll get a good workout!
