[GonnaLooseitagain]

I am still at 160. I have not been counting my calories and ever since my nephews murder I have not been able to get back on track. I am glad I have not gained weight, but I have seen some water weight ups and downs (boy is that annoying). But I am still trying to get on track and start eating healthy again. I hope to be at/below goal weight by the end of June...so time will tell.

[srmb60]

You've done very well. Any family tragedy can knock the stuffing out of us ... let alone something as horrendous as a murder. Most of us will never even have to imagine what that would be like.
We're here and ready to help at any time. And we listen all the time

[2frustrated]

Ditto Susan!

for you gonna loose it - and you will loose it. Like everything else, baby steps.

[daisimae]

Gonna Lose It, Take it easy on youself. Your focus has been elsewhere and for very good reason. You haven't gained weight (absolutley awesome under the circumstances) so that is a positive thing. Only when you are ready to shift your focus to yourself should you do so. In the meantime I hope you and your family are doing well and coming to terms with your senseless tragedy.

[srmb60]

I'm going to measure today. Who's with me?

[daisimae]

I'll give it a shot! I just hope it doesn't depress me too much

[srmb60]

OK here's the scoop. Let me see if I can type it out so it makes sense. I have my measurements from when I was 124 lbs and some from time ago(important note here: make sure to date things if you're keeping a log) probably the end of Mar this year when I was 128.

124--- 128--- now
chest 29.5----30---30
bust 35.5---36---35
waist 27---28.5---27.5
umbilicus 30---31---30
hips 36.5---37.5---36.75
thigh 21.75---22---21.5
calf 14.5---14.75---14.75


And I'm not sure what to make of that.

[getncontrol]

I don't measure in near as many places as Susan. Here are mine.

---------highest weight-starting weight-currentweight-smallest weight
weight---256-----------225-----------152------------150
bust-----49------------46------------38-------------37.75
waist----45------------40------------29.75----------29.5
hips-----55------------53------------39.25----------39


Ilene~~No, I'm not a seamstress. I somehow got roped into making all six ballet dresses for the dance recital. I enjoyed doing the first three but by the sixth one I was sick of it. I think they turned out pretty good though. Here's a couple of pics.



Gaylyn

[srmb60]

What a pretty ballerina!


Gaylyn ... I think I was hoping that my measurements now would be that magical 'smaller because I had more muscle than fat'. But I must be on to something if my calves are bigger. Not much room for fat on a calf any more.
But look at you go! You've lost a foot of boobs! Awesome work! You should be very proud!

[getncontrol]

Susan you made me spit water on my poor keyboard with your 'lost a foot of boobs' comment. lol Actually lucky for me (I guess) I had a lot of back fat. My cup size has only gone down from a D to a C.

Your calf is bigger and your thigh is smaller. I'd take that any day!

My dd starts softball next week so with her practices being an hour long I'll be able to get in an extra 2 hours of walking a week. Hopefully that'll help to kick start the weight loss again.

[3fcuser1058250]

Gaylyn -- What a cutie!!

Susan -- I'm not measuring in I'm just not doing well these days... I haven't run since last Thursday and I only went to the gym once this weeks so far... I also feel bloated so I'm not going to play this time...

[2frustrated]

No I'm not measuring today I went and carried on yesterday as I started - badly!

I ended up eating creme eggs and danishes and half a large easter egg and chips (fries) and fishcake and almonds and chocolate and chocolate and porridge and danishes and toast and crisps (chips) and I was not in control of myself at all. I would estimate it at a 5000kcal day!

What's more I saw the easter egg on the worktop this morning and thought, "Oooh chocolate!" But I stopped myself in time and had my protein shake for breakfast!

I'm taking tonight off kickboxing, I'm going to pamper myself by wrapping up in a blanket and watching videos with a mug of ginger tea. I bought 2 new books yesterday too and vogue. I think I might have time to read them if I blow off kickboxing! My lungs are still feeling a little sore.

Ilene - I think I caught your bloat! Shall we promise to look after ourselves for the rest of the week? I'd like to buy myself some british strawberries and scoff the lot, and wrapping up in a blanket sounds very good right now, with my comfy pyjamas and a fuzzy jumper However all that's going to have to wait till the end of the work day.

Oh yeah, and gaylyn, those dresses are really cute! Can you make me one??

[srmb60]

I'm not sure why I'm not encouraged by my numbers. I'll have to think on that. I suppose I'm just blah all over because of a couple of rotten eating days and not biking either.
I could use one nice day without wind and a 24 hour victory over food.

I'm off to work for a few hours. Be good everyone!

[2frustrated]

Susan - I think when you're looking at things like quarter of inches, the measurements tend to be a bit arbitary... you can lose quarter of an inch just by the way you measure...

I'm having an odd day. HELP! I know I'm not right and I'm not sure what to do to fix it... I feel like I should be all up-beat and ra ra and and because I'm USUALLY like that. And I feel ok in my day to day life, you know at work, I'm doing ok, I've had some compliments on that website I've been doing, I'm having a slight easy day today, not much happening. I've finished that assignment that was causing me to eat like a 3 headed monster yesterday and all in all stuff is ok.

I know I've got a bit of lurgy and I'm not feeling 100%, more like 80%, but I'm still ok. I don't want to go kickboxing tonight because I know it will wipe me out, and I'd quite like a day when I sit down in the evening! Which hasn't happened for about two weeks! But I think I'm having a bit of this "too perfect" thingie that was touched on in Chicks in Control. I feel like I have to be exercising hard or I'm doing myself a dis-service. When I do take every opportunity I have to exercise I absolutely love it, but then, does it knock me for six the next week? I'm not sure whether I feel blah because I have a wierd cold in the background or because I overdid it last week.

And right now, I really could demolish the last stale danish pastry that's sitting in the kitchen! I could easily scoff the rest of my posh chocolate bar. but I won't. I think I'll have an apple. I feel like a fake. I suppose my decisions to NOT eat the danish pastry and the rest of the chocolate are MY decisions, so then I'm not faking, but when I was eating constantly, like yesterday I felt more comfortable, more myself, like it was the real me who was eating that easter egg. I suppose that's what you do, slip into old comforting habits... Almost like I was eating the way people expected me to, because "I'm the fat girl" even though I'm not and I'm nowhere near and I NEVER will be again. But it felt strangely like home... I suppose that's quite scary when you think about it properly.

I can't remember what my point was now, but it's kept me away from the food for a few minutes and I think I've made some head progress.

[getncontrol]

2frus~~I can relate to what you're saying. When I eat, eat, eat I fall back into the whole food is comfort thing. I think that's why it feels so good to binge. While you're doing it anyway. Afterwards is a whole different story. I think it's a little difficult getting used to not being the 'fat one' anymore. I have always been the 'fat one'. From the age of 5 on. I think I hid in my fat. Now that it's gone I sometimes feel exposed. Does that make sense? So maybe that's why you felt more like yourself while you were bingeing. It'll take a while to get used to the new you. Hope you had a good rest of the evening.

Susan~~I know it's all relative but to me your measurements look wonderful. A 27.5 inch waist?!? I wish! Here's some for you to have a good day.

Gonna~~Good for you for trying to get back on track and for not gaining. When my dad passed away in Nov it was a huge struggle for me to keep exercising and eating right. Looking back now, I think staying on track and staying healthy helped me to deal with his death.

Gaylyn