THANKS FOR YOUR PRAYERS EVERYONE -- we had a pleasant ride home. It was so nice to come home to find the grass cut; the guy worked so hard to get it done (it took him 5 hours in terrible heat). May GOD bless him for doing that for us. I have been so busy since we have been back home getting the place cleaned up, sorted out, etc and I am still not finished yet. I have been taking one room at a time but am making great progress.
Rosebud, glad you are home again and I hope your situation is improving
I've got something going on, I have developed double vision and I will be having an MRI to see what is causing this. Prayers will be appreciated.
Rosebud Glad you are home safe and pray everything goes well.
Bargoo You are in my prayers.
I have a very special unspoken prayer request for me. All I can say is that I'm feeling depressed and low. Not happy at all. Not sure I can explain it to anyone. Thanks.
BARGOO -- ^Prayers^ going up that the doctors can get to the bottom of your eye problem; that's no fun. I remember when I first had to start wearing glasses: I was wondering what was wrong with my eyes. Turned out to be just age-related sight change. Have had a bit of a time getting glasses that I like as they keep changing them from the ones I pick when I go into the place. They always have an excuse; why don't they just show me the right ones from the start?
TRISH -- ^Prayers^ going up for your needs today as well; I can get down a bit when the chemo meds kick in (like right now). I am so sore and achy but then have trouble sleeping. Wanna get something done, but it takes a lot of effort, so can't wait for all the side effects to be gone permanently. I was upset about how much weight I gained from the steroids today, so I had to keep praying for the proper perspective and strength to stick to a healthy and balanced eating plan. We all have our up days and our down days ...
First thing this AM, DH and I went out to rake some more of the hay in the back yard. I started raking while he gathered it in our wheelbarrow; then we spread it around our berry plants as mulch. The big blueberry trees came back, as did the raspberry bushes; and one blackberry bush. Maybe I can get the second one to come back later this year or next year, we'll see.
Then we went indoors before it got too hot; and I started sorting our clothes out -- from summer to winter stuff. Some stuff, I tossed; some I packed for later use; and the rest I put into a bag for goodwill. Plus, I did some basic cleaning as I went along as well. Now I am trying to relax a bit for the rest of the evening.
Had a light dinner -- a cup of l/o soup + fish + a salad. I am trying real hard to get back into my plan; and even though I have had some slip-ups, I am going to keep at it and pray that it will fall into place as a I go along.
UPDATE ON MY SM (GRACE) -- my DAD called with good news from Grace's doctors that she won't have to have any chemo therapy. There tests show that that all the cancer was contained in the bladder itself -- PRAIZE GOD!!! I know that has made them all so very happy and relieved as she continues to heal. My DAD says that he is gonna teach her how to use the bags and look for ways to save a bit $$$ on them as well as they are pretty expensive.
Had an MRI Friday and Saturday got informed by my doctor that my cancer has spread to my brain. Starting radiation tomorrow. Some of you know I am in cancer treatment. I had breast cancer many years ago and in recent years it has spread to the bone and my treatment for that has worked well, so far. A few days ago I developed double vision and that is where we are now. I have no idea at this point what lies ahead. I am trusting in the Great Physician.
BARGOO -- I'm sure you thought what I thought: how in the heck did they miss that? But more importantly, we will be sending up diligent prayers on your behalf as usual, my friend. May GOD BLESS you with his peace and comfort at this time, and during your treatments. I know they are not easy to go through but you are so brave. What a great warrior you are: in this trial and as a prayers warrior and encourager. I know that you are loved by all of us and the LORD for your faithful work here ... so to you once again!!!
PRAYER REQUEST FOR MY DH -- (forgot to add this to the other post) Prayers needed that DH will be comfortable and at peace, now that he is back in his own home once again. Every day since we have been home, he has let our dog loose (twice on one day); and he has been losing important personal possessions like his glasses and his new electric razor. Ask that the angels will help me find them and a way to keep our furry baby from getting away on us; and blessings to the two young fellas that grabbed our boy for us yesterday am ...
EDIT2ADD: plus that our neighbours will be more understanding that DH's illness is progressing so fast that he will have to be put into care soon. Pray for wisdom & insight for me on how to best handle this; and what to do with our home when the time comes. MAY GOD's WILL BE DONE in all these matters, as I put all my trust in Him for our future. THANKS, friends ...
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Thanks, for all the prayers, they are so appreciated. I am well into radiation, now. It is not too bad but really makes me tired. I come home and take a nap, yesterday I also had a migraine. I have been on steroids 5 days and have gained 4 pounds.
Bargoo-I was just able to catch up on the postings, so hadn't seen your post until now, but God had you on my mind and I've been praying, even though I didn't know the entire situation ( I always find it amazing that God sends people to our hearts and minds when they need our prayers). You'll be in my prayers for healing, peace, comfort, strength. Our God, the only true God, IS the Great Physician, as you said, and He's got your back
Rosebud-Praying for your DH and you, especially for clarity in how to handle him and lost items, plus understanding from your community. Is there a community outreach that could help those who live around you understand and possibly help by keeping eyes open and call you if they see him or your doggie somewhere they normally wouldn't expect them to be?
BARGOO -- oh, I hear you on the steroids issue -- I couldn`t believe how fast they made me gain weight. It was shocking!!! No wonder Rachel refused to take them. I'm working hard to get that back off and can feel that my clothes are getting looser every day. I try to do some house or yard work each morning and go for a walk after dinner too. So far so good despite all the emotional issues going on around me.
The PGT is still controlling our money -- calling yesterday to say they are diverting our money for August to Toronto, then going to deposit only some of it back into our account to pay the bills. The whole thing is so ridiculous to me and everyone who hears about this situation. I still was not given a clear explanation as to why this happened; no-one wants to fess up. I was told that a letter is on the way from the trusteeship board, but not what the contents are.
RE DH: he is so upset by all this that it goes from bad to worse. I'm not sure how long I can go on with the way he is talking and acting now; we had hoped being at home would make him feel better and it did -- until this trusteeship crap started again. These people have no idea how much they have hurt both of us with this unnecessary measure. I have to answer all their questions; then he hears it and gets upset. I tried to go outside with the phone on the last call but he just followed me there and said that he wanted to hear what was going on.
He has been upset ever since; and I get all the fallout from it. They sit in their ivory towers and play with people's lives and money, and don't care how much trouble and stress they have caused for us; and all without good reason. I am going to see my lawyer next Thursday to discuss this issue, plus my POA and WILL which I have to totally rethink now. More money down the drain that could have been avoided. I answered a 5-page full-scap length questionnaire with detailed info plus documents, AND the 22-page application with more financial details. Talk about overkill for two people who are on a low fixed income with minor assets; it's outrageous really.
I wanted to do a POA and WILL before we left for my surgery but DH refused to as 1) he doesn't accept that he has Alzheimers, 2) he can't bear to talk about death, his or anyone else's; and 3) he doesn't want anyone else controlling him, his stuff, or his money, esp the government becuz he doesn't understand how it all works -- but can you blame him after hearing what has happened now? I have always consulted him on every financial decision I make, big or small.
Even worse, he is now so confused that he thinks that I must have made a mistake about something, and blames me. That's just one more thing to add to my already over-stressed life. First he blamed the doctors, then the government, and now me ... I pray that GOD will bring an end to this crazy situation and soon. I now have to rethink what I need to do for both DH and I in the very near future.
RONNI -- I wish there was; so far we have been fortunate to catch him or he comes back for us. We have neighbours but the very one we thought cared the most has pulled away from us, saying that DH was bothering them. Heck, we had only been home 1.5 weeks and she invited him over for a pop & a chat at least twice. So I called to apologize, and asked if he was bothering them to just send him home. When I heard her complaining to another neighbour not 12 feet in front of me, I made sure that DH has not gone back there again. I was so dismayed and DH was devastated, again blaming me (why, I don't know; I think I'm just handy). Geepers, I'm batting a thousand for the wrong team lately ... Please tell me that this is just not another twilight zone episode from Rod Sterling ...
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I started raking while he gathered it in our wheelbarrow; then we spread it around our berry plants as mulch. The big blueberry trees came back, as did the raspberry bushes; and one blackberry bush. Maybe I can get the second one to come back later this year or next year, we'll see. 
Please tell me that this is just not another twilight zone episode from Rod Sterling ... 