Hey everybody!!
You all are so nice for letting me 'talk' with you on here! This is about the only chance I get to have any adult conversations on a daily basis.
Been reading all the posts and found some time to say hi tonite. So many bdays this month! And ooh slumber parties, I can't wait til Emily gets big enough! Imma play dress up with them too! Yep, my son will be 6 on Oct. 28th. His party is that day. I'm so busy til then! But I'm excited bc my mom and sis and nieces are coming to spend the nite b4 and visit. My DH's family will be here for the party too. We are renting a bouncy thing with a slide. We are all getting in it b4 the guests arrive. LOL! I bet you all would like to see that! Ha! I might break it! LOL. Even my family gets in after other guests leave ..ha! During the party we share tho, the kids can have it then! LOL. Oh and a cotton candy machine, I don't much care for it so it's a good thing to get! I won't want to eat it. Good thing they don't have a brownie machine!
But yeah, it is a fun day here when everyone comes over. It's just rare since we live sorta far from them.
I miss my family all the time!
Anyhoo, belly is hurting today. Dunno why. Hope it goes away tho. The little baby with the shakiness is doing well. Starting to hold his bottle better and they believe the tremors could just go away. I dunno. But found out today anyway that he might be going to his grandma soon. I hope she stays on top of it and gets him care he might need. She seems ok tho. Did I tell you all we call him Mr. Furley? He always makes those faces that Mr. F made on 3's company. Well actually, I call him Furl. I know it's weird. But you can't choose nicknames, they just morph into stuff. LOL. He's really cute. Alert little eyes, always looking around to see what's up. Doc said he'll probably be very hyper later on. Poor kid. But I think he'll be ok overall.
Hmmm.. this is funny. Some of my nicknames are Sal sue sue, pumpkinhead, sally, seelyrawl, sel, sal, lina, sis, leen, pookie, saywahlenier effernaynay.. (dont ask me why.. i know it's from my name Selina Renaye. LOL. My mom is a blast, can be really fun and goofy, guess that's where I get that stuff from.)
The other baby we have we call Gerber. He looks like it! Little round head, blond hair that always stays in place combed to the side and I don't even comb it there! LOL. Light green eyes. Very pretty, that's what all the people say too. Very happy, very funny, smiling, giggly. Really cute. He just miiiightttt get to stay forever. Could take a year or more for court to decide that tho. But that's how I get my babies. Wait it out and be thankful for each day. Pray - ALOT. Ask friends to pray - ALOT. They could walk in tomorrow and take him and I won't even be able to ask how he's doing the next day. I'm supposed to love them like my own but when they want to take them away, I'm not supposed to care at all. That's just so ridiculous. So whatever, I try to live day to day with them. That's all we have.
It's helping that I'm losing right now and I focus on that. Or I think I'd lose my mind wondering what's going to happen. I have no control over my life right now. I can't say to people that I got my 3rd child and I can't name him what we picked out until we hear that they will be terminating which could be months, if ever. And when ppl do see my babies they ask their names, and we don't tell them bc I don't want all our neighbors calling him his old name, bc if we do adopt we will choose the name. So Mr. F and Gerber are who my kids know. LOL. Anyway, I pray all the time that my children won't have to deal with infertility. I'm glad I can adopt these tho. They need us and we need them. I don't know what I'd do if something happened to my kids. We went thru so much to get them. Got my son at birth but didn't sign papers until he was almost 2.5 yrs old. Took a year for Emily. Takes forever, we worry so much. We both gained weight during it all. I am trying not to let that happen this time. I gained when my daughter came too, fear that she was going to go back. Thank God both stayed. Not sure I could continue doing legal risk if I ever lost one I wanted badly. It would be like a death. I know people who have been thru it. Ok, gotta change the subject again! Just pray for us that Gerber gets to stay! But if he goes I'll try again, I'm sure. Heartbroken or not.
Thanks for letting me vent here! It really helps. Sometimes I want to eat so bad to take my mind off it. But then I remember my goal and how far I've come and I don't want to go back again. So I just make some hot tea with sw and low and lime and sit and watch a show or come here and read. I want to get out of the 200s and stay out. I appreciate everyone's support very much. I am going to try to get on my tmill for 30 mins every morning from now on. Rhonda, if u can do 60 I can surely do 30. I will do it right after the boys go to school and after changing and feeding the others. I feel better and more alert when I do.
Anyone dressing up for Halloween? Imma be a cat. I have lots of big wings but too hard to manage the fairy thing when I have the babies so that'll wait til I have less babies! I have black ears and a tail all ready. A friend is having a little thing at her house so we can feed the kids b4 we trick or treat, so that's great. Mr. Furley is hispanic so it seemed perfect to let him be the chili pepper I have for babies! Then I haven't found one for Gerber yet. The two boys are gonna be a ninja turtle and black spiderman and Emily is Tinkerbell. So cute!!
Gerber might be superman. Dunno yet. But it'll be fun!
I guess I better get off here. Chelle, did you decide how late in Dec we can go? The later the better for me but it's fine either way. Just was wondering.
It's great to see you on plan and feeling good. Sorry you can't decorate for Christmas, bummer! U could put a little tree up high somewhere, with lights. I did that when I had 3 toddlers my first year fostering. Now we tie the big tree to the wall behind it. LOL! They could make it slide all the way down some but it wont just fall on them. (Don't worry, we are so cautious, we don't let the babies go anywhere in here without one of us with them anyway.)
Sorry about the haircut Anna. U could wear a headband til you like it again? And too funny with the answer, Daddy. ha!
Tina, thanks. I like your posts too! And I love rainstorms! Goood sleepin' weather. Nice that you help in her class. We like to do that too when we can.
Nova, I gain 5 lbs usually. I hate it! It'll go away tho.
Fit, thank you too. I love the kids.
The weight loss is great. At 217 I'll have 60 off my highest. It's nice. Just feel not so tight in my skin, lol. Can tie my shoes easier, etc. Every ten lbs I feel even better. Can't wait to hit 197 then 177, that will be 100 lbs off! That's like losing two 5 yr old and a baby. Wow. And then we'll see how I feel there. Gonna practice maintaining there for a while for sure. You and I are close in all our weights huh? I think Rhonda is about there too? Nice to know I'm not alone.
You'll be there where u want to get b4 you know it. Just stay OP as much as u can and stay busy with something to do (which Im sure you already know). It's the only way. Exercise or not, your calories will rule and make or break you.
Aud, I think you'd be a blast to hang out with too! LOL. You are funny!
All of you are and would be fun to see in person. Too bad we all live sooo far from each other! I hated that fact when I was on here alot in 2005. I say when we all hit our last goal we fly to a middle-ground state and spend a weekend having fun, go jogging, etc! But everyone has to hit Goal! Hmm.. it's an idea.
Have a great nite ladies! I'm OP for 54 days today. I'll be on day 55 tomorrow. Feels really good. I get impatient thinking it should be coming off quicker but I tell myself it's so much less than last month I need to be glad. And I ask myself why am I in a hurry, it's not like I get to ever quit counting cals. LOL. So it really doesn't matter how long it takes.
Sorry about your knees. I would be so bummed out. Maybe you could focus on upper body for a while. Let us know how the clothes shopping goes. I need to do that soon and keep putting it off. 
all this convo about pee is kinda icky 
Coffee is good this morning. 
But I'm sorry if it's a bad time for u. Just find out b4 you start worrying. 
Those are neat. You are smart to eat ahead bc it really does help, huh? Hope u have fun with ur DH too! 
Day 55 OP today!!!!!! 
That's great. It's tough, I hear. Good for you, girly!!! 
- SO MUCH to do for Party - and here I am on the computer!