Chose to eat sugar yesterday--I had the most miserable headache in the afternoon--allergies--and I needed something to help me that last couple hours at work. I don't regret that decision. It was the bad decision on the way home that I regret--I shouldn't have stopped, should have just kept driving home.
Today, I am choosing no sugar. The headache is gone and I hope it stays that way.
I did get some good exercise in yesterday morning, and I am heading to the gym again in a few minutes.
ugh.. TOM - and bloated feeling - I know i had a really good eating week.. and exercise under calorie target daily - why do i feel so fat??? i can't wait for this time to be over - i'm so done with the monthly issues.
Saw 156 on the scale this morning. Not happy about that at all. Trying not to let it get to me. Small victory last night. On a whim I tried on a bathing suit I had bought last summer. Although I will never feel attractive in a bathing suit again...it made me feel good that it fit. Last summer it was too tight. SO....that made me fee a bit better. I feel so uncomfortable with just 6 extra pounds on my body right now. I can't imagine how badly I must have felt before....I remember being uncomfortable then, just can't remember it now.
So it's been nine days since I last logged on. I want to wish you all a Happy Belated Mother's Day.
The past nine days have been absolutely surreal. I'm not sure if I mentioned before that I had been having mid-section pains that I thought were related to the change in my diet, i.e. gas. Well, I was wrong. It turns out, I had a very active case of pneumonia, which in turn affected my kidneys, and finally attacked my heart. The infection led to a heart attack. I collapsed at the cell phone store and was thankfully able to communicate with the Italian workers enough that an ambulance was called. That was a week ago Wednesday.
Currently, I'm still in the Italian hospital, although now out of the ICU and in a private room. They expect I will be discharged on Monday.
I'm not sure what the moral of my story is, but it could be one of the following:
1. never give up wine, bread, pasta, and cheese all at the same time... it could shock your system, or,
2. when flying from Boston to Rome (I did that two weeks ago) insist the person coughing behind you the entire flight be made to wear a mask, or,
3. when presented with unusual symptoms at the exact same time you've changed your entire eating style, don't assume it's gas... visit your doctor.
In all seriousness, though, I am doing well and am expected to make a full recovery in the next 1-3 months. I won't try to go back and catch up on all of the things I've missed, but I do look forward to keeping in touch from here on out.
TOM is kicking my butt today. I promised myself that if I got on the TM steady state I could stop after 30min, so at least I got that finished. I do feel a little better now. I've started negotiations with myself for a second workout later in the evening, LOL.
Hubby is in Wash DC, trying to fix a broken airplane. The good news is that he got his promotion!!! We aren't sure when he's going to start; sometime in the next few weeks. The 'powers that be' are still ironing out details. His days off and hours will change.
Hubby took tomorrow off so he and my dad could work on the pipes under the house.
Vino, I am so sorry to hear about your heart attack! I"m glad you are doing better now but geesh
WOW - that's terrible, Apassionato but thankfully you were able to communicate so they could call the ambulance. How scary!
Just a quick note here - have been reading but not too much time to post. It's either all the time in the world and I'm posting a TON or just reading and zipping along.
PP - congrats to your hubby on his promotion - great news!
Great news, Annie - on the bathing suit success!! That's what people see, not the number on the scale.
Jules - hang in there - that has to be so unbelievably frustrating for you - GRR. Hopefully she'll see the light soon with the other guy.
FL, Sillycat, Ashley and Kitteh - hope to catch up soon!
Have stepdaughter in for the weekend and we're celebrating her birthday... so shoudl be a busy one. Weather doesn't look that good, though.
Apassionato- hope you feel better soon, you've been through alot, take care of yourself.
Ashley- Anything sweet is my weakness too, I could care less about any other type of food, it doesn't tempt me.
I overate yesterday, but to me it was worth it . I took Kristen out to a pizza buffet, I must have tried about 6 different kinds of pizza and ate 5 desserts. It was nice to have some mother, daughter time even though she didn't speak a word or crack a smile the whole time we where there, I felt like I was talking to myself. Afterward we walked around the mall, I bought her some shorts for summer, then she started getting happy. I guess shopping is therapy. Today she's right back to being silent and depressed, the happiness didn't last for long.
Well, back to dieting today. Got 6 lbs to lose again, I just have no control anymore. My goal once again is 108lbs. by August(It will be 2yrs. since I lost the weight) I weighed 108 when I decided to maintain in Aug. 2009, actually lost more weight after I started maintenance, by November 2009 i was 104lbs. It wasn't a healthy weight, 108 felt right for me, that's where I want to be again! This is so important to me, I do not want to fail. So why do I keep failing? Is food that powerful?
Today was a new day, a new beginning. Exercised 35min & did good on calories & ate clean. I'm gonna try my hardest to keep this up, but when the cravings for junk start, I don't know if I'll be able resist, once I start eating it, I can't stop.
This was a long week, and I don't have a good record of eating to show for it. I did get some good exercise in, though. I must work out my new exercise schedule, now that my work schedule has changed.
Vino-sorry to hear about your heart attack. Wow, I never knew that could happen with pneumonia. I have flown with a mask on several occasions, not because I was sick, but because it seemed like I always got sick after flying.
Vino - how horrible is that - glad to hear you are ok - and got some internet time in the hosp - I'm sure i'm not alone but i HATE hospitals - get well soon!
Still horribly bloated here - today is my day off working out - have cleaning to do and take a walk with a friend this evening.
Had a nice day even though the weather has been chilly & rainy, it will be this way til next Friday, can you believe that. Went to a Farmer's Market that is about 20min away, a nice Amish area. They have beautiful flowers & lots of baked goods. So I didn't get any exercise in today, but I was walking all day in several different stores.
Hubby didn't get home until 10am Sat morning, and had only gotten an hour of sleep, so he slept most of Sat, but then we had a nice night of movies and spaghetti to celebrate his promotion. Good news is he won't have to take these unscheduled trips anymore! Dad is coming over today to help with the plumbing.
quick stop in - won the argument with self - did exercise!
down to 148.8! still TOM so hoping some of that is h2o...
had a whole week of eating pretty well - except yesterday and that only put me 2 cals over my target for the day - so feeling like i'm at least still putting in the effort! sure do remember when it wasn't 1 pound/week but more like 10... oh well - i'm smarter now right?? ha ha ha ha
I've started negotiations with myself for a second workout later in the evening, LOL.
hope to catch up soon! 
