I feel like crap today. Came home between classes because I knew I'd have the house to myself, and wanted to try this Zumba that everyone is so gung-ho about. Well I tried it, couldn't keep up, couldn't get the rhythms down, and I'm so heavy footed and clumsy that I just frustrated myself to the point where now I'm hot and sweaty and crying on my bed. Stupid f***ing Zumba, stupid f***ing obesity, stupid f***ing me.
Oh Neon! Surely you didn't think you were going to be a zumba machine on your first try, did you?! I imagine 9 out of 10 people who do a zumba routine for the first time look like clumsy, heavy footed clods, obesity or no! It takes time to learn those moves, so give yourself a break! You're hot and sweaty -- just leave off the crying on your bed part and it sounds like a great workout to me!!!!
I didn't expect to be literally tripping over myself and scrambling to get the basic moves. I was literally flabbergasted by anything beyond basic movement. I usually love workout videos and was excited to try a new one, but I have completely written off Zumba. It's just too damn fast and too swishy dance-y for me. My weight loss journey is not designed to punish myself for being fat, but to love myself to change it, and I'll never subject myself to feeling so stupid and humiliated again. I feel better about it now, knowing that nothing says I have to do it and therefore I won't do it again, and I can keep trying other things that don't make me so angry and frustrated. Honestly though, I haven't felt so horrible about myself in as long as I can remember. Thanks for the support though. I know that the important thing is that I was up and moving and trying something new. And now I know, I hate it :P
Neon, at least you tried it, now you can try something else new! Have you tried Salsa? I have an exercise DVD that's based on Salsa and it's fun AND easy to follow. Believe me, I am SO uncoordinated it's unreal but I enjoy it, feel like I'm dancing and it gets up a sweat. Try not to be too hard on yourself, you worked out, that's a plus!
xxxxxx sharon
ugh my back has been killing me again fro the last two days, my car is crapping out on me again after I just had it fixed a few months ago, and my dog woke me up this morning by puking in bed right next too me! ugh..
and I'm pretty sure TOM is on his way because Iv'e been super PMS'y and I've noticed my PMS is starting alot sooner then just a few days before he arrives sometimes it's starting a week- week and half of the cravings, bloating, and mood swings!
Rotten day. My financial aid documents are still not in at the office, the buses here are about to go on strike, and I'm 18 hours from home so it's not like there's any comfort to be found. Just... ugh. Miserable.
Coming here because what my mom did was not intentional, she has dementia and can't help it.
She suffers from incontinence and wears Depends, but she sat on my beautiful upholstered (sp?) dining room chair with a totally saturated Depends on. I have protective covers on them, but she removed it before she sat down.
Ugh! I am silently screaming.
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I can pretty much sum up my life with this: I am too friggin fat to be working 3 jobs!!! Im tired, Im grumpy, I keep getting varicose veins because Im on my flippin feet ALL DAY LONG!!! and I can't seem to get anything accomplished these days! I should NEVER have moved back to CO...its toooo expensive to live here! What was I thinking??!!! Oh crap now Im crying...DANG IT!!
welcome to the venting thread! feel free to come here anytime you need and vent away!
Where did you come from before you lived in Colorado? is there any way you can move back? and My oh my 3 jobs! that is wayyy too many for one person to be working! I know I was doing that myself last year and it ran me right into the ground! what about job hunting for another job that just offers more pay? then you could let go of one or two of your other jobs?
I'm already freaking out about my first full day of clinicals tomorrow (6 hours) knowing that I'll be in pain and wondering how on earth I'll make it through....I realize I'm out of granola bars (which I normally take one to class) so I go to drive to the store, and my car won't start! Thankfully my boss is going to drive me to class, but I have NO idea what to do, and not a spare dime to do it!
Breathe....I'm assuming you worked hard to get where you are, it will be hard, maybe even painful, but you WILL get through it. Is there any other snack you can mcgyver? I don't know what plan you're on, but maybe fruit or crackers?
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Originally Posted by Kitsey
*panic attack*
I'm already freaking out about my first full day of clinicals tomorrow (6 hours) knowing that I'll be in pain and wondering how on earth I'll make it through....I realize I'm out of granola bars (which I normally take one to class) so I go to drive to the store, and my car won't start! Thankfully my boss is going to drive me to class, but I have NO idea what to do, and not a spare dime to do it!
boo!
