I worry that I'll completely turn to the dark side. I'm halfway there. I laugh when thin people say stupid things. : /

I worry that I'll become completely shallow and forget that I'm a complete dork.

I worry that my husband might not love me as much when I lose weight.

I worry my friends might feel threatened by me.

I worry that I'm already ostracizing myself by choosing not to have that drink with friends.

Oh. And I secretly buy clothes at hot topic and american eagle for when I can fit in them. It's sad you guys. S. A. D.

This girl right here has 3 tops from Hot Topic hanging in her closet waiting to be able to fit into them (I bought 5, gave 1 away, and fit into 1 already). They were on clearance for $3 b/c the store was going out of business.

I'm worried about spending the rest of my life eating or thinking about eating!

I'm worried that I'll never believe that I look good no matter how hard I try.

I'm worried about being alone.

You can do it! Don't stop, even when it's really hard. :)

Aileen- I totally agree with you
I am scared that I will be preoccupied with weight and calories and food forever even once I reach goal, I am proud of the 45 lbs I have lost but I do not want to live my life with food and weight as the #1 thing I live my life around and schedule around. That's scary..


I'm worried I will still not be satisfied once I reach my goal

I guess all we can do is get to goal and see how we feel, and take it one step at a time. Leap of faith.


I wonder if it's better to be borderline obsessed with weight and normal weight though than being overweight and oblivious? I guess I've just never felt this "aware"

I cringe everytime my boss at work says 'I really need to loose 5 lbs' like really!? Seriously!?
I know everyone has a right to be happy in their body...it's just that she knows how much I am struggling right now (we are friends as well) and I guess I've never had 'just 5 lbs' to loose...so yeah...it gets my blood boiling!
I'm kinda scared that I may just end up like her in the end...worried about '5 lbs' :(

- I worry that I might turn into a sex fanatic. Like seriously, I'm 33 years old and can count on TWO HANDS how many times I've had sex in my LIFETIME! That includes having been married for 6 years (divorced now). I feel shorted and cheated and part of that was because I've been insecure in the past about my naked body. I want my fair share of good hot loving before I croak. (True confession here...don't judge me) :D

No judgment here. ;) I had somewhat of a sexual "awakening" after weightloss and I expect that it will continue as I continue to lose more weight. No shame in that. I'm a woman and I enjoy sex. *shrugs*

Weight Loss Confessions
 

-Ok - I splurged - I had a Snickers today and I didn't love it! Weird...

-I've never been thin, and I'm afraid to be thin because I have no idea what I'll look like

- I'm in love with my best friend and though I know it probably won't happy - I secretly hope he will realize I'm beautiful once I reach my goal weight

-I'm losing weight because I want to be at a healthy weight to offer myself as a surrogate mom for my brother and his wife

-I hate working out...but I think workout clothes are cute!

I so understand that one, I have tons of saved things for smaller days packed that are too young but heck I spent so many years enclosed in my cocoon. lol
~I'm afraid I might have too many screw-ups before I ever get to goal. WHic makes me wonder how many years could it take me. shesh...
~I'm afraid when I get there-I'll completely change' my look' from hip/young to maybe sophisticated? I really don't even know who she is (the me that is waiting to be let free-once I get there.)I don't know 'me' at all anyhow. lol

-edit .. OMG I don't even belong in this group (I'm past 40) lol, I don't
even know how I got here.

Lately I'm afraid that since I'm closing in my lowest weight ever, the happiness I express at my TOPS meetings is going to come off as being full of myself. :(

I felt absolutely skinny the last time I got down to a size 14, but that was 12 years ago. I'm so close again now (fitting into 16's and probably 10 pounds away), and even though I'm sure my size is comparable it doesn't feel the same. I know I'm losing weight and I know my body is changing, but it's not always easy to see, yet at the same time I think I'm seeing myself more realistically than I was back then. :^:

I'm having trouble seeing myself as any smaller because I've never been anywhere below a 14 (unless you count junior high!). I'm a little scared to know what the "real" me looks like without all the padding. I don't know how not to be the fat friend, how to not be the fattest girl in the room. I don't know what to expect from others if I'm not automatically being dismissed as a fat, lazy, and probably uneducated woman (you all know the horrible stereotypes). Long story short, I know I'm approaching "normal" and it will give people a better opportunity to see the real me and I really don't know who that is. :(

Elladorine, you've captured my thoughts exactly. I have no idea how to not be the fat friend.

I confess I can't wait to have surgery after I lose all this weight
I confess I never thought I would ever gain this much weight
I confess I hate to look in the mirror
I confess I was ashamed to be seen out in public with my family being this fat
I confess I am weak and bury my feelings with food
I confess I will always love junk food even if the feelings are not mutual
I confess I was heartbroken to hear about Hostess and was angry that they could not have kept the company from going Bankrupt
I confess I bought 4 Fruitcakes at 0700 the day they announced it and thought about Twinkies even though I have not had one in years!
I confess I will never be in this position again even if Ihave to put a lock on my frig and cabinets
I confess I don't carry cash so it's harder to make impulse purchases
I confess I am proud of myself for looking this thing directly in the eye and confronting it head on like a Pitbull

Yeah, what Natasha said! I think this phenomenon can be attributed to multiple factors, not the least of which is that most women hit their sexual peak as they approach 40. In addition, weight loss does make one feel sexier about oneself AND the estrogen released from fat cells floods the bloodstream and causes hormonal surges... the end result? A desire for good, good lovin'! :dancer:

I worry I will plateau, even if it is just 2 weeks and want to give up. I also am afraid I will become so strict with my counting calories that it will become unhealthy. I am not much for will power, I do really good at not having habits so it is silly I would worry I would become a crazy calorie counter- but that is my confession, logical or not!