My weight loss is BORING, but I also know its sort of my fault, I could have the incentive to take art classes or do something. I think its because I am used to filling up my time with studying, apt hunting and lots of eating. No hobbies really appeal to me at the moment. Now that I don't really socialize by going out to restaurants, my meetups with ppl are limited to having coffee or taking walks together-can't afford/don't want to buy clubbing clothes till I reach goal. Food really filled up the time lol.

Sometimes I go into clothing stores and look at the pretty clothes even though I don't want to try them on yet. But I have to refrain, it makes me sad right after.

I felt so guilty about regaining weight that I wore my fat pants down to the holes and sewed them instead of buying myself new pants. Even now, I don't bother with makeup.

I used to online chat with random guys online and put on makeup to talk to them because it was the first time in a long time that I got male attention-they could only see my face too.

I've always wanted to do ballet, but I felt too insecure, not due to weight but just in general.

I consider seeing a therapist but I am so defensive.

I worry, a lot.

Some days I feel like my weight loss is going so painfully slow that I want to scream, even though I'm averaging more than 1.5lbs per week. But yet when any friends of mine complain that they're losing too slowly (sometimes slower than I'm losing) I tell them that it's a marathon, not a sprint, they didn't put it on in a week so it won't come off in a week, blah blah blah. I really need to practice what I preach!!

I feel less angry at myself for gaining weight, now that I have lived alone and sometimes see my family. I do take responsibility for it, but I also see how factors affected my diet. The nitpicking at every single weight range I have been in, and putting fattening food right into my plate-it kinda goes with the binge/guilty cycle I have had for years. I never thought to see it in that way until I got my confident in myself, and quit instantly getting angry at myself all the time. I see a lot of people here who have been able to lose weight with difficult family situations, and I really admire them for that because I was not able to do that growing up. Funny thing is is that I thought the process would be the opposite-get from blaming environment and blaming yourself. Now I take a more moderate approach when i self-analyze.

I find myself thoroughly confused as I have apparently entered a realm of weight loss where people now easily vocalize their opinions on your progress and the comments range from "what's your secret" to "don't lose any more weight, you look like a boy." I will continue to work towards my personal goal but I miss being in that stage were people didn't mention my weight loss in polite conversation.

Great thread...

I truly believe I'd be loveable if I were thin.
I pray that my daughter is a tomboy and never gets fat.
I count my flaws every day and figure that I'll never be desirable.
I hate seeing my weight. I get deeply depressed when I see the number.
I hate seeing anyone's weight.
I constantly compare myself to others to see if I'm the fattest in the room (I usually am).
I used to research pro-anorexia sites to get weight loss ideas.
When I was 18, I tried smoking cigarettes to lose weight.
I've binged and purged as many as 10 times in a day.
I almost od on exlax.
I fear I'm going to fail at weight loss and always be fat and miserable.

-I've become alot more vain since dropping weight. I look at myself in the mirror entirely to often but I can't stop :(

-I'm afraid to talk about my weight loss with anyone...but most especially men. I somehow feel that they'll be less attracted to me once they see my before picture

-I'm afraid that when I get to comfortable at my weight that i'll stop caring, and gain every last pound back and more

-I lost 150 pounds rather easily(just the last 15 have been a *****) moving more from my job and eating a little less. But when people ask me about it, I make it seem harder then it actually was because weight loss is suppose to be hard right?

I'm 3.9 lbs away from my goal weight as of this morning and I'm thinking of adjusting down because I think it would be harder to maintain a weight loss rather than just keep trying to lose more even if it's not possible to lose more.

* My feelings are hurt when people who never gave me the time of day act like they are my friends now that I've lost weight. Where were they when I NEEDED a friend, lol? Seriously though. I'm amazed by how I'm treated on a regular basis now that I'm a healthy weight (body fat wise yes, bmi I'm three lbs away). Huge difference. Huge.

* I struggle to lose weight the healthy way. I think over the years I've done it/tried it all.

*My weights been plateaued since January when I found out I had a stress fracture in my femur from all the jogging combined with legwork.

*I think my trainer hates training me because I can't get my diet in check.

* When my family compliments me it means more than anything. My 6th grade son told me he can't remember what I looked like when I was fat.

* I wish my husband would follow my example and lose weight because he has high blood pressure, high cholestrol, degenerative disc disease, and just did a sleep study (technician told him he had bad sleep apnea but hasn't heard back from dr. yet). He's my best friend and I don't want to be without him. Scares me.

My biggest confession is that I know I haven't dropped the weight I want to drop because I absolutely suck at self discipline.

That is really sad when I read that :(

I purposely requested to be put on a particular brand of a medication (which I needed) because weight loss was a side effect. My doctor knows this, but I'm embaressed about it.

I'm too lazy to exercise, I'd rather watch TV or hang out with my boyfriend. I walk lots though, so it's not like I'm completely sedentary. I know I need to start weight training soon though, because I don't want to wind up "skinny fat"

Ugh!!! I have NEVER been good at telling when guys are interested in me. I just found out like a month ago that a good friend I had a HUGE crush on about 12 years ago also had a crush on me and wanted to ask me out but was scared of ruining our friendship.

I'm still no better at picking up on it, LOL

Weight gain loss confession: I was bulimic through high school and my first year of college (but never really was all that thin always around 185 even with exercise, purging etc).. once I finally gave up purging my sophmore year of college I got more depressed and started gaining... I've been gaining ever since and am now at 255 at 23 years old.. The worst is I just started grad school and I feel even more judged people automatically assume I don't like sports or outdoors just because i'm fat.... they don't know the old me who played basketball and did track.. I'm so embarassed every day but even more mortified if people knew about my past bulimia.. ugh

My confessions? I've got more fear and doubt about this fitness journey than I'd like:

I'm afraid that I don't have the discipline to reach my goal.
I'm afraid that even if I reach my goal, I'll become complacent and gain it again.
I'm afraid that if I lose weight, I will have nothing left on which to blame my failures in life.
And, for the first time in my life, I can honestly say that I am making an effort to change my body because I want to change my body, rather than trying to lose weight just because the people I love think I'm unworthy of love because I'm fat. How will I feel about all of those people if I actually manage to lose the weight? I'm afraid to find out.
I'm afraid that wanting to lose weight makes me shallow.
I'm afraid of how much I am doing this not because of health but because I want to look good and that's kind of vain.

I am terrified of re-gaining. I don't know where my maintenance calories will end up, but I think they're going to be pretty low. I'm so afraid I won't be able to eat forever at something that averages out to 1700/day, and will start gaining because it's just too hard to maintain.

I wish I was one of those people who could just eat when they're hungry, have a treat once in a while, and just maintain their weight seemingly without conscious effort. I will always have to count calories and feel as though I'm restricting to maintain my weight.

When food is on the table family-style, or when I get a meal in a restaurant, I want to keep eating even when I'm not hungry. Always. If I keep it in front of me, I'll eventually give in and keep eating more. Growing up my parents always served meals family-style and still do that when I visit, but I don't think I'll ever be able to do that if I have a child. I will always need to put my and my family's meals directly on the plates from the kitchen so that I don't risk over-eating. I am envious of people who can sit with food in front of them and not stare at it, wanting to eat it, the way that I do.