So I'm soooo excited... I had a huge NSV... It's my first one ever haha

I had this tiffany's bracelet that I love and have worn everyday since I turned 19... it never fit and I always had to use an extender on it... but guess what... it fits without the extender... and its not even tight...my fat wrists have shrunk :)

Arts - I get migraines a lot, and most of the time it really helps me to exercise, even if its walking on the treadmill. It just gets the blood flowing.

Haley - that is GREAT :)

So I did week 3 day 1, not as terrible as I remembered it, I just really have to pay attention to my breathing.

I started reading "the Secret" and I'm going to continue my whole positive thinking thing.

So - tomorrow the scale WILL be less than 185.0. I WILL stay within my calories for the day, I WILL go spinning tomorrow, and I WILL have an awesome day :)

Stella -- luckily it's not a migraine. Weird, but when I get migraines I actually don't have too too much pain... I just end up with no depth perception, usually have HUGE blind spots, half my body goes numb, I can't think of words and I can't recognize people. It's totally totally weird, but it's true!! This was just a stress/tension headache I think (since I AM in finals right now...yeah...that would make sense, haha!)

So I have gained almost 3 lbs in 4 days and no its not water or salt weight I don't think. Saturday I upped my calories signficantly and added fat back in (haven't eat fat in 2 months). My body doesn't like adjustments I guess. It's so discouraging. I so just want to say screw Christmas. I am supposed to not eat starch at all over the holiday, but I know that isn't feasible (and I have will power). I'm just in a bad mood and AHHHHHH. Need a good scream and cry!

Stella, the secret is a wonderful book, and the positive thinking is always extremely helpful...Its just hard to keep it up sometimes. lol...


I'm super stressed right now. I just realized my school put a $90 hold on my account (I have no idea why) and that they might not let me register for classes in the spring because my old school hasn't sent the new school my transcript because I still owe the old school like $500 that I'm paying in payments...and the old school sent a letter saying I was paying payments and that I would be done by the end of spring semester and they could send my transcript then...but my new school doesn't seem to care and doesn't want to let me register...

and even if I DO get all that worked out, I still have no IDEA how I'd pay for any classes that I DID register for...especially seeing as I don't even have the money to buy Christmas presents or pay for my birth control prescription this month...

I'm really hoping all this stress won't affect my weight loss though. I do NOT want to be back above 200...

Divine: Can you get a student loan?

Air: Hang in there! You can get over this hump!!

Arts: Glad it wasn't a migraine. I never get them but my dad does occasionally and it's horrible.

Stella: Good thinking there...I need to be thinking like that!

Haley: Congrats on NSV! I can't wait until I fit into some pants I bought when we moved back to MS...I could wear them then...can't get them over my butt now!

Haley - That is an AWESOME NSV congrats!!! :hug:

Stella - Positive thinking is the best!

Air - You can make it through the holidays!

Divine - Financial aid? Or like Sgregg said, do you have any student loans?

We picked out our Christmas tree today :D It looks soooo good! We were going to put the lights on tonight but we can't find ours :C And I went into 6 different stores at the mall, AND two department stores and NONE of them had Christmas lights. Three of the stores were Christmas stores - what's up with not having lights?!

So, small dilemma. I have the oppurtunity to go to florida for about a week, leaving Christmas night. I want to go, I always have fun, and it's good for me to spend time with my Dad (he lives in florida during the winter). But I'm really worried about a) feeling fat and not enjoying myself and b) still working out and eating right while I'm there...

:( I want to go because it will be nice to get away for a little, but if I'm self concouis the whole time idk how much fun i'm gonna have...

iwannalose- try not to let it bother you. Remember, you have lost weight, you have made progress and you should be proud

sorry double post

I can't get any student loans, my dad makes too much money and I still live at home...he's just in so much debt that the money he MAKES all gets sucked into that...but of course, no one even thinks about that. He's an engineer, he makes too much, they might give me a couple hundred dollars, but not enough to cover everything...

i'm looking into trying to get access to some scholarship funds I'm pretty sure I didn't use that I won in bowling tournaments (I joined a league when I was 3 and bowled all through high school, went to competitions and won scholarships and all that jazz)...but I don't know if there is anything left because I know I've used a good bit of it...and I don't know if I can even access it anymore because I've lost the information and they're all so old...I'm planning on calling the company tomorrow during business hours and asking if they can find me in their system and send me the information again...

I am trying to become a runner and MAN I am just not any good at it! I was doing 2 min walking/3 min running for 30 minutes and after 20 minutes I was dying! So I stopped with that and did 4 minutes powerwalking with some 15 second sprints at 8.5 MPH! Pretty bummed I didn't stick with the long term running longer, but I don't want to injure myself.

Winter break is getting a little boring(*dodges flung vegetables from people still in school*). I went to high school far away and I don't really know anyone in my town, so it gets a little boring. I miss France!

Sorry this was such a down in the dumps post. Next one will be more cheerful!

Divine - Good luck! I hope you can get it.

Peachy - Maybe start out with slower runs? I only run up to 4.5mph, I'm a really slow runner.

Alright. So two days ago I was 177 on the scale, then after the popcorn incident I was 177.5 and yesterday I stayed WELL within my calorie range - ate soup for lunch and had a salad for dinner. I did not eat that much sodium yesterday and I drank tons of water. HOW THE **** AM I 179 ON THE SCALE TODAY. I checked my digital 4 times and moved it around to see if it was a fluke of where it was placed, then checked my basement scale. I'm trying to not let this frustrate me because I have to take my final exam today and write my other short paper, but UGGHHH WTFFFFF?!

Ok deep breath. Positive thoughts. Bright side? My boyfriend and my friends are sleeping over tomorrow night and my ski trip is soon.

ETA: And two more hops on the scale 15 minutes later and now it's telling me 178.5, still a lb above where I was yesterday.

Stella- Yes positive thinking... Maybe I'll try that too... I'm reading a book by Alice Seabold called Almost Moon... It's creepy...

Mary- Walmart :) ... we always cross post haha... Um the scale is a crazy thing... I gained 7 pounds overnight this week lol and I havent been back on the scale since because I dont want to drive myself crazy... you know you really didnt gain that weight...so yes positive thoughts...have fun with the boyfriend and your friends... you have such a fun social life

Iwanna- You cannot miss out on life's opportunities because you are "dieting" you cannot avoid things because you are afraid of falling off the wagon... go and have a great time...but be mindful of your new lifestyle changes

Peachy- I plan on starting C25k after the new year and I'm terrified... my Resolution is to become a runner lol

Divine- I know many people who didn't have the help of their parents for college and yes they had to work their butt of to afford it but it is possible and you could totally get a loan... and you wouldnt have to worry about paying it until you graduated

Alright ladies I think the Russian and I have a date on Friday... I'm slightly freaking out...

wannalose- you should not let those things hold you back from going. I hope your life is full of fun trips and you are going to have to learn how to eat and exercise and have fun in the right amounts while you are not at home, so it will be a good learning experience too, I hope :) But sometimes I feel like you do to, where I have some events coming up that I just really don't want to go to bc I know I won't be able to stay OP, and I'd rather just stick with my routine.

Peachy- stick with the running but take it slow--injuring yourself is not worth it. It'll get easier tho :)

Divine- good luck finding those scholarships...now that I have my apps in I have to start with the fafsa and fellowship search...ugh.

Mary- I've gained 5lbs in a weekend before...it will melt off once you've been back on track for a few days.

Haley- have fun with the Russian! I love my bf but I'm kinda jealous of you guys in that exciting early stage with boys;)

I'm having a xmas cocktail party tonight, and for once I think a lot of people are actually coming and bringing their friends, so it should be a fun gathering. I only have a few friends around here so I'm excited to meet some new people. I made a new friend in Burlington over the weekend, well reconnected with her actually bc we knew each other tangentially in college, and last night she came out to a very belated bday dinner for me that my old roomie threw me, and is coming tonight too, so that's good :)