My mom said she's noticing a difference in my loss - i.e. when we FaceTime she's seeing that my upper chest isn't as full and my face as well. I don't see either, but I will take the compliment. No, I don't have an issue w/people taking my photo, it's who I am currently, and we all change all through our lives - personalities, weights, hair, etc.
Mam: I am sorry you were picked on. I was too, I don't go to the reunions because if I wanted to see them then I'd look to find them. Most of them I don't care and the sad thing is most stayed in the same town, married the guy next door, now on second or third guys, gained weight themselves, still cheer on the high school team etc and live for the reunions. And they still think they are important as they were all these years ago. They still aren't but I won't be the one notifying them of that.
Tonight - ham steaks in the oven as well as acorn squash with just a bit of butter and a tsp of brown sugar. Im just letting them keep cooking down so the softer the squash the better it all is. I am having an issue w/the calorie limit, I have my app set one click from cheetah, I'd move it weekly if either weight was just sitting there or if I could handle those calories but still felt like I was eating too much. Well right now, I am finding I fill it up quickly as I put in my dinner plans/lunch plans and by the time for my afternoon snack, I have no calories, and right now, I can't go between lunch and dinner w/o a small snack. So if you were me, would you add a few more calories back? Or ignore the snack and just go 6 hours without eating?
Ok - I need adult conversations - it's been a day of costumes and a LO jabbering at me due to short nap today.
Morning - drat -I am up two pounds again. I hate weekends as that's when I have the hardest time watching what I eat when everyone else is at home or we go to town and have to rely on a meal out. UGH! I know, it was the soda probably more than anything but by that point I was watered out. Well, that just means I have to work harder today. I was suppose to hit mini goal 2 by today. I did not. Maybe by the end of the week I will. I guess I get excited that I went down and then follow it by making crappy food choices. Or the fact that TOM is to be here soon. But I will take the blame on it - crappy food choices and get on with life.
Indian summer during the days here - which has been nice but most of my time has been spent working on the costumes indoors - the second one is a about 1/2 done. I will be glad to have those done and move onto the next projects. But I aim to get DS outside today for a bit in the late morning before lunch. We can go chase each other through leaves. Did I just say chase? Yes - with 20 lbs give/take gone - I am now back into the chase category. I have missed that, I am not quick, but I can move a bit easier now.
So send me strong vibes to do well w/what goes in my mouth and my exercise and I will get on with it and hopefully drop below where I should have been this morning.
Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their start to their day!
Mam, I was picked on too but it mostly stopped by high school, or I stopped caring/noticing. Middle school was the worst time for me with that sort of thing. Thankfully it's all in the past now. I hope your body is adjusting to work this week and that you are feeling better.
Lemon, it's easier for other people to see the weight loss changes, so believe your mom! Sorry about your two pounds, that stinks and I totally understand. My TOM had me gaining, then I lost some, and now I just keep bouncing around 201. 201.2 again today! It is becoming very frustrating. I'm heading out to go shopping today and try not to think about it. Also I am gonna try to drink more water, I have been slacking on that this last week compared to my normal intake.
Les: I hate pounds that just hang around or come back! So totally drives me nuts. Here's hoping your shopping trip goes well and you find you are in a new size. Keep an eye out for that new hoodie. I am already pushing water this am and cut my coffee back to do so. Not sure if I will fall asleep quicker today or not w/o it Actually I don't depend on it usually for that, just a warm belly. Here's to loosing those 2-3 lbs that keep hanging around.
AM: Today is one of those days I just need to keep my mouth shut. So I am trying my best, but it's only my LO here with me, so that's a plus. I'm frustrated w/some things and I just want done and out of my hair but they sit there and stare at me. So I will get them done myself, including possibly digging up a bush in the yard today that also drives me batty - it never grows, is one late to flower, looks dead 3/4 of the year. It's out of here! I don't advocate taking living things besides weeds out of the ground but 9 years of driving me bonkers is enough.
Oh and costume - I am further along then I mentioned. Even better! I will be glad to have those done. I found a new project for halloween as well. Will see if I do that or not.
I'm definitely looking for a new hoodie, I'm going to try on several styles and sizes and try to get one that fits well. I'm also looking for some sweatpants or some type of workout pants. It has gotten so chilly here that I can't go for walks in my shorts, and I don't want to do it in jeans, haha. At some point I will need to buy some new sneakers, as I seem to be wearing my current ones out. Funny how long shoes last when you walk 2,000 steps a day, hahaha. Not the same story when you are hitting 10,000.
I say rip that plant outta the ground! If you feel really bad about it, plant it somewhere you don't have to see it, haha. And good for you on the costume! You will have to show us some pictures when you're done.
Lemon too bad we don't live closer together we could have fun being creative together.
Take that brush out....You are doing fine just be patient with yourself. I know it is discouraging to see a gain but as long as you know you have not eaten tons of foods you know it is water. don't let the scale play mind games with you.(Saying this to myself also).
20 pounds done is great. You are able to chase your kids. Not that is an accomplishment.
Les go get that hoodie you will get such a boost it will push you right down under 200....It feels so good for smaller clothes to fit.
As for me today has been alright. Eating is fine. I really believe having one of those protein drinks is really helping me. Oh well I always say whatever works that is all that matters.
I am making one of my soups Barley vegetable. I will be adding some ground turkey to it and maybe tonight. Glass of ice cold milk.
I am getting better everyday just have some moments when I feel a little down just need to break through these times.
Shopping update: didn't find any hoodies or pants that I liked enough to buy. Will check out a few more stores tomorrow. Did a lot of walking and took the stairs several times at the mall, so it wasn't a wasted trip. I also tried a lot on, and fit in some women's XL instead of XXL, and men's L instead of XL. Progress! I did buy another t-shirt that was on sale, I may have an addiction to soft t-shirts haha. But lemon, you will be glad to know it was red, not blue.
I'm under my calories for the day and I have had 2 liters of water. Drinking another bottle before bed, and hoping for a good weigh in tomorrow. Hoping to see anything below 201, fingers crossed.
Mam: thanks for the encouragement! Sure I'd love to craft - I have all sorts of projects in my head at all times. Drives me batty.
How is your DH doing? I hope he's recovered and your stress/fear level has dissipated. No sense in that cortisol building up in your system. How is the movement at work going? And your protein shakes? Is yours a whey based one? That stuff stinks horrible on it's own. I have lived near milk producing facitiliites in my life and well, though it's a helpful by product, it can smell to high heavens. Just keep an eye on the soy if it has it in it.
Les: well, soft t-shirts are good, and comfy. And red FANTASTIC! Hey, get out of the comfort zone girl! Sorry you didn't find much, but you at least were looking for something different and good for you on a smaller size! That's got to make your day. I am still fitting in my stuff, less my bra, so one day I aim to get a bit smaller to move on out. Bra shopping - not my favorite thing to do. The last fitting I had a really nice gal help me out, she wanted me to accentuate my assets and be proud of my goofy size, i think she did that because when I told her of my previous fitting the gal who fit me just snickered on my band size vs my cup and said "we don't have anything for that odd size, why even look". Mind you this was a leggs/hanes store w/the snicker gal and the other helpful one was cacique. But since I am coming down in size, no more cacique, which is good, because they are kind of pricey.
I have the yoga pants/bootcut from walmart. They do fairly well, aren't see thru and don't cost a lot if you are going through sizes frequently. the only caveat for me is that locally you can never find an XL at the store so I'd suggest online. I need a new pair, I have holes in one, paint on the other and the other is just plain too large at an XXL. the mfg is danskin. If you want something more stylish or name brand, i can't recommend, as I have to be mindful of the budget.
Hello violets!
AM: No more weekend benders! This is nuts, I take weight off during the week and add it on the weekend. I am almost back down to last weeks weigh in. I am disappointed, but I did it, now MOVE ON. Of course, the old witch should show w/the change of the wind so that's part of it too. Yeah witchy. Not really. It's funny how that all controls your eating outlook and what you crave prior too. During, I generally am not too bad. It's usually the beforehand that kills me. I aim to be better.
I had the LOs costume done and then it wouldn't go over his broad shoulders, so I had to open it up some more and today will get the final band on it. Of course, when I try to put it over his head he screams and says NO. Fantastic, I will just have the screaming child costume for this year and shouldn't have made a costume instead!
Anyone have any arm exercises to give me? I will try the band today Mam, but it's that inner elbow that is just catching something awful. I don't know if stretching will help or inflame more. But I want it to feel better and be well useable.
Ok - I am off, though I may pop in again this morning. It's been one of those weeks were I crave hearing from others about what's going on in general. That's what happens when your support base is 3-5 hours away and you live in a rural area that is beyond cliquey. So happy day to you all!
I woke up in Onederland! I can't believe it. 199.8 this morning. Might be back up to 201 tomorrow, haha, but for today I am going to enjoy this feeling. Happy scale has my moving average at 200.3, so hopefully this isn't just a fluke weigh in.
Mam- I am so glad you are doing better and that those protein drinks are helping! I hope work is getting easier on your body. How's your tracking going?
Lemon- I am going to Walmart today actually, because I don't want to spend a lot on any of these clothes if I am going to keep losing weight. I am just worried that yoga pants won't be warm enough for my walks. I might grab a pair anyway, and also grab some warmer sweatpants. I have actually been reading a lot of good stuff about the danskin activewear line.
Sorry about your weekends! Hopefully it will get easier for you as you go along. TOM cravings are really hard, but I am trying to keep things around that are at least semi-healthy snacks. Low sodium almonds and lightly salted snap pea crisps when I am craving salty, fruit (and peanut butter if I have extra calories to spare) when I'm craving sweet. Seemed to help a little this time.
Sorry about the costume for the little one. I wouldn't even know where to start to take something out like that. I really feel like sewing is a skill I should have haha. Maybe I'll ask my grandmother to try and teach me. I do have a hand me down sewing machine but I have never used it.
I hope you both woke up feeling great and have awesome days!
Les: YEAH FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!! Keep it going! That's a fantastic feeling. I am feeling like salad today for myself, maybe throw in a chicken breast that's been seasoned, but keeping it light today. I normally don't do short order cook for dinner at my house, but if I make for the three others than maybe. . .
Happy shopping, I just ordered mine online yoga pants that is. You reminded me mine were in rough shape and well, shape. So getting some new ones for the time being and out w/the old!
Yes, hit your GM up to help you learn to sew, it's a lifetime skill and hobby. There are times I enjoy it and other times I don't touch it, but I find a do a lot more now that I have kids and a body I don't want to dress up too often. Well, I am at home all the time, but still, I should dress a bit nicer. Any who, if she's still in your life, have her teach you. It will give you another outlet to expand your horizons.
Les I am so happy for you, you gave me quite the lift when I read you hit onederland. That is so great..
Walmart is probably your best beat for right now to buy clothes that fit. Bigger selection and cheaper. Also the smaller you get the more you will find on clearance.
Lemon sorry about the costume not being liked. But they will remember those when they get older. I too get the yoga pants at Walmart. They have plenty in my size. I get the cheap Just my size shirts too. Can't beat $4 a shirt.
I also get the sweats there too like Les mentioned. I live in these in the winter at home. At work it has to be jeans. No place to put my phone or keys in sweats. (I hate pockets in sweats).
Today has been so so got some bad news about a friend that is hooked on Heroin and he fell off the wagon. So sad so young and such a great guy.
Is your area having a problem with this also. It is really bad with the younger kids here. Many have overdosed.
Still too tired to exercise but the pains are getting less and less each day.
Les your hitting onederland has given me renewed vigor to get going...
Mam: According to the local news, yes it's an issue. It's not uncommon monthly to see at least one OD obituary, but it runs pretty close with suicide. Which sad to say is also on the same obit schedule. So yes, I read more then I see it, but know even in my small town we have it - mainly the bar scene right out of high schoolers seem to be the ages I am seeing. let me tell you, after having to use a daily shot for my last pregnancy - what the heck would one want to shoot themselves daily for? There is no thrill in the needle - EVER.
Les: I need to echo Mam! Way to go! Now, I just want to breeze through the next 35 lbs to join you! I am eating salad tonight again and trying to get that workout down too. Perhaps I can bypass the 235 and go to something like a 233? Here's hoping there is that encouragement. Sometimes I feel like I race myself with the numbers. Who knows. I keep telling myself slow and steady, make good choices etc. I did indeed make dinner for the rest of the family, so they'll have warm and full bellies.
AM: doctor google my friend has indicated I have flared up my mama tendonitis in my elbows. OF ALL THINGS! I have had it before, and I know I had to actually exercise through the pain for it to go away. If you don't use it, you loose it, which was so kindly told to me from a doctor about 15 years ago. So use I will do!
Going to begin the next 33 oz of water - so thus far that will be 99 today. I will probably do one more at the workout, but today I am proud of myself for keeping that going.
Costume done! On to the next 5 known projects - dresses for my DD that keep her looking her age. Besides, she's one who likes to dress up for church or to go visit people, so i oblige in that department.
Alrighty - well heres to a find ending on this day! I aim to move, I aim to drink agua and I aim to keep under my calories today. I CAN DO THIS!
Mam- Suprisingly it is a bit of an issue here as well. I even know a few people who have been addicted to it. So sad. It doesn't hit the news much, but I was shocked it was even a thing around here. I'm with you Lemon, needles are too scary. So glad you are at least having a little less pain, Mam!
Lemon- sorry about your tendonitis, that can be really painful. The arm exercises I do are all listed here.
Thanks to both of you for the congrats! My weight might fluctuate right back up tomorrow, but that's ok. Didn't buy any clothes but again, I did try on a bunch of stuff and was surprised at the sizes I could wear. I left the store feeling awesome, even though I left empty handed. I'll keep looking. We are a little warmer this week anyway, so I have time.
My weight is something that can drive me batty. Here I had 120 oz of water, ate at my calorie total and moved for an hour, and my weight went up. Yippee. YEs, still waiting for the old auntie to show up so I know that's part of it - but WTH?! Frustrating, I should learn not to hop on a scale until after that commences. I am gullible in thinking the scale will tell me good things.
Les: Thanks for the link. I will have to check that out. How's the weight this morning? With your loss have you had to do the undergarment shopping yet? I am finding I will have to soon, I feel like I am swimming - I know we all lose weight in different places, but this time that's my area it seems. Nothing fabulous, but they are telling me I am smaller. I had asked on a thread I began here how often people would switch sizes. A lot depended on goodwill for in between sizes, but that doesn't look doable for me. Maybe I can find a semi decent brand at walmart. Maybe they should come up w/clothing and hawk themselves as the dieters go to place to shop for in between? Sorry - it just made me laugh when I thought of such.
Mam: How are you and the sweating to the oldies? Is Richard helping to motivate you? Did I tell you they think he has become somewhat of a hermit? That's sad, he seemed like such a people person - both in giving and receiving. He's a bit too peppy for me, but glad he's there to motivate so many to move. Hope it gets easier for you! I am sorry about your friend. I have a relative that's an alcoholic, one of many actually, but this one is close by and I know the strain it puts on everyones relationships.
AM: On my way to the gym last night I was driving through podunk town and caught something out of the corner of my eye. Turns out it was a guy rolling around in the highway, he could barely stand, let alone walk. Yep, a drunk, at 7pm at night. I called 911 and asked them to do a check on this guy and make sure he got home safely. Do you know how many people drove right past him? I had crossed the intersection, but turned around because where he was laying in the gutter was dark, observed for a moment and then called. My DH asked why I called 911, I said I don't know the non-emergency number and who knows what this guy was messed up in/with or even if he had been hit thats the coppers job to check on as I was afraid to deal with someone in this condition on my own - these days you never know how someone will react. It's sad when even in a small town you find people laid out in the street on a major local highway.
So I moved, the weight moved up. Woot. Makes me want to wolf down cookies and sweets, but I know that's the whole point of feeling bad about oneself after seeing one set of numbers on one day. NOT GOING TO FALL FOR IT! Instead, I aim to get my water in, move some more, eat as best I can and laugh at the scale and say you aren't the decider and chief! I CAN DO THIS!
Ok - get going ladies! We need to get those scales moving in a downward trajectory for good. I want to do some celebrating some more - Les has hit the onderland train - I have a ways to go yet, mam you keep on trucking. We need to be svelte gals in thought today, the weight will follow!
Keep it going! That's a fantastic feeling. I am feeling like salad today for myself, maybe throw in a chicken breast that's been seasoned, but keeping it light today. I normally don't do short order cook for dinner at my house, but if I make for the three others than maybe. . . 
