Lemon, my weight went up at the start of TOM, and then got stuck until yesterday. You will probably get a woosh after TOM starts or after it ends, as long as you keep up the good eating and water. It can be so frustrating though. My weight dropped again today to 198.6, so between today and yesterday, I got my woosh. I was at 201 for 5 days before that, so I am happy to see the numbers drop.

I do need to buy new undergarments. My underwear are all too big but still fine to wear, so I will wait and try to go down a little more before I buy new ones. My bras however are very much too loose. I was trying to wait so I could skip two band sizes instead of one, but I may not be able to. I buy $10 bras from Walmart though, they don't last very long but they are very comfortable. I found the style years ago and I'm so glad they still sell them.

That's crazy about the guy in the road. Good for you for calling the cops and trying to get him some help. It's amazing what people will ignore.

Hope you both have a really good day! My goals are to get some steps in and drink 3 liters of water. I've done 2.5 the last two days but I need to get that 6th bottle in.

Les: keep up with the water! I think it helps quite a bit however it's when the sweet munchies occur that I have a harder time so I drink more in hopes it dissipates. Its funny the places we notice loss. I keep looking down at my feet and they look a lot more defined on the tops - i.e. I can see more vein structure as well as tendons - not horrible and ropey like older people (my GM had what we called snakes on her feet!), but still not fat and plumpy looking like they did before I started this all. I think I have extra space between my toes as well. Not my ring finger yet!

Yep on the bras - I will have to measure myself and see what I am cup wise after the equation to determine where I should be. The good news is the band size should come down from a 42, what it is today, I don't know but I am thinking I should go at least get a new one and see how that does. Nothings worse than wearing a shirt and seeing your cups are loose and bunchy! Not flattering, almost as good as my back fat. Ick.

I'm also in a 42 and I am hoping to skip to the 38, but I may have to break down and buy a 40. Hoping I don't lose a cup size since the cups shrink with the bands.

I am noticing losses in lots of places at this point, my face and legs both have the most difference. My hands look the same but I had to move my ring to a larger finger so I guess they are a little smaller. But I am most happy about my stomach. It was a huge fat roll that just poked out so far, and now it is a much smaller roll that doesn't stick out as far as my chest, haha. Huge difference! I can't wait until it's gone (even if it's just a bunch of skin at that point)!

Les, you are doing great. Keep up the good work..

Lemon that's awful about the guy. I too would have stopped and called. People no longer want to be bother with anything anymore.

It's sad to hear that the drugs are all our like they are. It is mostly teenagers here. But my friend is 28. He used to work with us. 3 of us women got the mother instinct with him and wanted to help him. We all were devastated when we heard the news. We had so hoped that he had turned the corner.

I drink a lot of water also, and I have been trying to take as many extra steps as I can at work. Eating is better today.

No sweating to the oldies yet just not ready for that yet.

I love Richard I went to see him, he is the same in person as you see him. I believe I have read that he is in a bad depression and he is having problems with his knees. He has given so much to everyone it's to bad he is suffering now. He is 67 now.

LG

Mam: I read somewhere he became horribly depressed w/the passing of a beloved pet. No matter, if you get in a funk, it can really take over your life. I am sorry about your friend. I have never understood the lure of the demons like that and how they can "improve" your life when in fact they just keep wrecking it. Perhaps you ladies will be able to help him turn around at some point before it's too late. You'll get to your video soon enough, you let that body rest and heal some more.

Les: I will have to measure to see where I am at. Haven't gotten to it today - it's been laundry day and just a day to slow down some. LO had his therapy today, so though that's only an hour, it feels like it interrupts the days flow and I don't plan much before or after.

AM: my NSV today - I was in the yard playing and running w/my kids and NOTHING HURT, well, until I threw the football - BUT NOTHING HURT! As in my hips, ankles or toes - my problem areas for so long aren't hurting. Fabulous! And I could keep up more w/the kids than I have been in the past. That's a great feeling to be able to do. Now, if only more would fall off and more zip and energy would ensue.

Project Runway night and I think I might bike during. Hopefully no further men in the road tonight. Geez, what a thing to run up against. And I hope to do some more light weight lifting, I am working that arm area slowly in hopes to stretch it in the way it should be w/o inflaming it further. But perhaps the movement will help things move in all directions as in the scale heading further down the 230s. I'd be happy as a clam if it read 229! Wishful thinking, that probably won't happen for a few weeks, but a girl can dream

happy evening to you all.

Morning Violets!

One tired mama here - had one up w/high fever:vomiting last night and the other one has been coughing all night long. I am dragging way behind - my coffee is a godsend this am. I sit here as I type - looking out my window, the trees are nearly bare (sadness) and the ground littered with leaves. The clouds in the sky foretell of cold to come as they are gray with rain sputtering out every now and then. I guess fall is truly amongst me today. Complete w/the kids crud - it'll make for a day of lounging for them on the couch as there is no school due to quarter end.

Won't hop on the scale today - yesterday in the end turned out to not be very good - the sweets got the best of me no matter what I tried. Drat, I did hop on before bed and I still was ok, but geez, when does the sugar craves ever leave? Do they ever really? Or do I need to ban them completely?

We had planned to go to town today, I am beginning to ready for the holidays and thought we could go to the hobLob for a look at the christmas items and maybe some giftwrap. But since we are down I will just begin work on the next set of projects - both sewing and my halloween window cutouts. Tomorrow is finalize and ready the house outside for winter - pulling dead plants, taking down patio furniture, clean the garage, snowblower in for maintenance and ready for the first snowfall. Ick, who wants to think of snow right now? Not me.

Alright - hope you all found goodness in your scale numbers today! I aim to keep trying today and do better. That's all I can do and just get on with it.

Happy Friday!

Sorry your little ones are sick, Lemon. I hope they feel better very soon! I don't know if the cravings will ever go away. You may have to just ban it totally like Mam. I was craving sugar very badly last night, but I had 300 calories left so I just ate a chocolate chip granola bar. Not a healthy choice, it's basically just a candy bar, but it was only 140 calories so it worked out.

Glad you're able to run around with your kids without so much pain. That has to be a great feeling! Yay for NSVs!

Mam, I'm glad you are doing well with the water and eating. Swearing to the oldies can wait until you're stronger.

My scale dropped another .8 pounds today, so I think I am firmly in Onederland. Happy scale has divided my 80 pound goal into 5 pound mini goals, and so far I have met 6 of 16. Not bad! 8 more pounds to be halfway through my goal, 13 more pounds to be overweight instead of obese. When I started I was in the second obese group. I am happy with my progress, feeling better each day, and ready to keep it up!

Hope you guys have a really awesome weekend!

les: Good for you on the onderland. Keep up what you are doing. Aren't sweets the death of a good day up to that point? Crimenently those little buggers are like hiding behind every corner here or there and sneak up on you like a slap in the face some days. Well too, that's what the scale does to us in the end if we let it.

AM: my FIL took the not so sick child to breakfast with him - they go hang out at the old man morning stop and have pancakes and hot chocolate together. I am glad he takes interest in her as he has his own demons that he deals with and when he's good he's good with her. They have their talks over the hot chocolate, usually about once a month.

In the meantime I just finally had breakfast so in one respect thats good, because this is normally my snack time, so maybe I can avoid one snack today and be just fine. I had my egg and my string cheese and a slice of peanut butter toast. That usually can hold me well past a normal lunch time. Will see if thats true today.

used the bra calculator: I went through 3 of them - one just gave me a blank white box after I entered my info, one only wanted to know what my current size was and how the fit was to confirm if I was in the right size (HAH) and the third guesstimated I was a 38H? WTH? I have never been bigger than a C, ever. Anyone have one site that actually doesn't ask you to round up or down? Can you see me finding 38H used bras at goodwill? Heck no! I will be on the hunt for a better calculator, one that's recommended would be great, so Les - good luck on sizing for you! Be prepared for a laugh as the last one gave me a caveat - "it may not be your bra size" HELLO - that's what I am looking for.

I wore a C cup for years until one of my girlfriends told me to try a D in a smaller band size. It fit perfectly, so that's what I have worn ever since. But maybe I should measure. I never have. You may need larger cup than you think, though maybe not an H, haha.


Edited to add: found some lightweight sweatpants, and I actually bought them in a women's size large! I know they are sweatpants haha, but still. I could only wear XXL in women's before (and sometimes not even that depending on the brand). I grabbed the XL out of habit and my friend said those are too big for you, I can tell just by looking. And she was right. Feels good! Still looking for the perfect hoodie.

les: yeah for smaller size! Always a good feeling. I'm noticing when I'm lying in bed th fat roll on my belly is getting tighter and I no longer can pinch and flop it. So there is hope going on there. I've done the size up/down before but what is shocking is seeing an h. Do they even make such? Hellsbells it's got to look like a child's hat then! If you find a good calculator let me know. I was reading one that said you measure the band and then you measure the boobs by bending over. Same measurement standing straight or flopped over. I just wish they'd all be sized the same but as we find in any clothing that's a bunch of baloney.

AM: DC is on the mend I spent most of the day holding and snuggling him and watching Pixar after Pixar movie. I hate when my kids are ill and in the non verbal stage. You have to guess what's wrong. Needless to say I tried my best w the diet today but it wasn't my priority. Tomorrow I will look at again and see what and where I can do well. And I didn't do too badly tonight.

Happy weekend to you all!

Hey violets,

Went out to dinner and a movie with DH. Will post more tomorrow.

Keep up the good work.

LG

Morning violets!

Best laid plans for today's yard cleanup and it's raining instead. Fantastic! Ok I'm being sarcastic but according to weather it's to end by 10 which should be ok as DH has to take the snowblower in for repair. Then we'll get the garage cleaned out again and get the items away. So I'm not working out at gym today I'm going to use my yard for that instead.

Wishing you all a beautiful Saturday. I may hop on the scale tomorrow with hopes its dropped to the mini goal set by app I sure hope so. Sorry if this sounds like babbles my LO is screeching at me just because.

Hey violets,

I have had my aha moment. Last night at the movies I was so uncomfortable sitting in the movie theater seats I had to make my DH move so I could have the outside.

Then a group of 3 women came late and had to sit next to us. I felt like such a lump on the log. Didn't know where to put my arms cause of all of my fat.

I am done with being fat. Being the heaviest person in the room. Also another thing that happen was last Saturday I was at the nail salon and sat down to get my eyebrows waxed. I turned to my right there was this big fat lady looking back at me in the mirror. IT WAS ME. Oh my god I realized I was big but not that big.

This is very hard for me to post but I must to face the truth and not be in denial.

This morning I talked to my DH crying saying I am done I can't stand myself anymore.

I want this so bad that no food can taste better then being a normal sized person.

Sorry for being so mello dramatic but I really needed to get this off my chest.

Hope you both have a good day and I WILL be shrinking with you now. I will be reporting loses no more hiding from the truth.

LG

Oh Mam, I am sorry you had those moments of feeling bad. I know how hard it can be to have that realization. The good news is you can totally change it and lose the weight. Don't worry about seeming dramatic, we have been there, for sure. Also, please don't be too hard on yourself. What's done is done, and all you can do is make better choices now. Try to stay positive about the changes you make, and focus on feeling better each day.

I think I just got really lucky with this weight loss. I was so upset about something else when I started, that I kind of just breezed through the hardest part: starting. Once I was in the swing of things, it was easy to just keep doing it. But getting started really is the hardest part I think. But you can do it, you have done it before so you know you are capable! And we will both be right here for you.

No more crying, you are gonna lose it and feel awesome!



Lemon, they definitely make a size H, and even larger than that! You probably have to go to a specialty store and spend a ton, though, haha. I measured last night and my measurements put me in a 38DD, and let me tell you, there is just no way! But it gives me hope that I can wear a 38D again instead of a 42D. Will go shopping again soon and find out. Actually I need to go through my clothing because I might have a 38D lying around from the past, and I need to try on some old clothes that I held on to.

Glad DC is feeling a bit better. Non verbal kids getting sick can be tough, but he will be a Chatty Cathy soon, and it will be a whole different story. Just cuddle him for now and keep watching those Pixar movies, haha.

Hope you both have a really good Saturday. Mam, try to go easy on yourself!

Mam: I am sorry you saw yourself w/a critical eye. It's hard, but don't beat yourself up over it, just start to make changes daily. Be it a treat that is ignored, walking 5 more minutes, parking in the outlot at the shopping center, you will find ways to incorporate better choices in your day. Do you know - for myself what I have viewed my body as? Look up the Venus of Wilendorf on google. It's a sculpture of a womans torso - they believe she was a fertility goddess, all I see is her shape of body looking like my own. It's not pretty, but it does give me good reference that I can take the weight off, it may not come off fast, and I still have cravings for sugar based items, but I try to move a bit more and i try to eat a bit better in my day. You can do this too - don't worry about the pity party - we have each done it. Now get a smile on your face, make a good soup and enjoy that your body moves, that you can do things, and that you can still find pretty when you look at yourself in the mirror. And then keep reminding yourself you can do this. Then, if up for it, grab DHs hand and say lets go for a walk around the block.

Les: Ugh - who wants specialty bras?!! Not me, I'd rather keep my C, or go to B again. However, not the case anytime soon. Good for you on finding things that are smaller. My yoga pants shipped, so I will/should have them next week. Thats good because it's getting colder here as well, snow soon enough I am afraid.

AM: I dug out that stupid bush all by myself - frankly it was too easy! I thought I'd be working at it for awhile, it took 4 digs w/the spade to set it loose. It's sitting on the drive waiting to go to the compost heap in town. YEAH! I killed the wigella that has been bothering me since my first spring in the house. There is a dogwood in it's spot, lets hope it goes crazy big - I love the red twigs in winter.

So yes, I moved outside, very good! Diet today is doing better than last week, but not super great. I'd love to eat a big old really good juicy hamburger right now. I am not going to bow to that - but it was still a thought - w/a cold beer. Some other time! I always find it funny the cravings that do pop up in your mind as the day goes on. tomorrow I suppose I will be raking leaves, as our trees have dropped them all in the rain we have had. Well, more movement. I can handle that, just not the blisters that accompany.

My fingers feel thinner - well my whole hand does when I clasp them together, I rather like the bonier feel then that fat little paddies that they were turning into. So I am slowly noticing some changes, just not the ones I had hoped to see, but they are nice surprises when I stop and pay attention.

Ok - off to go make some halloween deco for my house - doing silhouettes for my windows this year. I have about a dozen windows to do for this, I have my ideas mapped out now just need to get DH and DC1 on board to help me out w/it. Yeah!