Geoblewis. I have anxiety about losing the weight as well. How can we be so unhappy about our weight and yet so unready to be thin. I am safe when I am fat I do not know why. Anyone have a theory?
Well, I know why I hang on to it. It's so that I don't have to deal with losing my identity if I get into a significant relationship with anyone. Being fat usually keeps people away. And then I'm safe. I never learned how to hold on to my identity. I'm learning that now, and feeling stronger. I'm sure I'll lose weight at a rate that keeps up with how well I overcome my anxieties.
Weigh in this morning showed me at 247.2 lbs, so I have lost 4.8lbs from my regain! I definitely do not want to go down the slippery slope again, I'm going to stay on track and finally reach goal!
Ubergirl thanks so much I really appreciate your kind words.. I am trying to get to know all of you as well.. slowly and surely .. I respect that convo about being miserable and fat and its true for sure.. I am honestly trying to get happy. I have been miserable for a long time its hard to change..
Well today was a great day a NSV for sure some people noticed my weightloss and one woman called me skinny mini lol ..Geese I haven't lost a lot of weight thus far but damn sure motivated me to continue .. I was so proud of myself today I was beaming haha.. Oh yah I was feeling skinny in the mind lol.. But my work has paid off and now its showing ..I will continue on I missed my 5k walk today cause it was raining so I will have to get out there on sunday morning and do it because I work early Saturday morning.. so it goes I really enjoy power walking with my music on .. I feel powerful and you know that's not such a bad thing.. Hope you ladies and gents are doing phenominal ill chat at yall later .I gotta work off these meatballs I ate lol yah made a bad food choice and im like yah because everyone told you yah lost weight so that means eat the first thing yah see nooooo way .. Lets just say im over it and moving on .. Gosh I am such a character lol
Freckles, this morning, we weigh the same! I'm down 9 lbs. of my regain!
Two more pounds and I'll weigh less than what I weighed at my DEXA scan nine weeks ago. I have another one in two weeks and I'm determined to lose as much as possible by then. And no, I'm not a bit patient with myself about this weight loss thing at all!
I want to be over my fears about weighing less. I'm actually working on it with my therapist. Today I'm going to do some of my homework about the first time I tried to lose a lot of weight and I stopped myself from doing so. It was all about accommodating other people who had issues with my weight loss. Nearly all those people are gone from my life now. And I am so joyful!!!!
Today, I slept in again and finally had my 9 hours of sleep. Yes, 9 hours! I needed it so! I just had my breakfast of one homemade buttermilk and sprouted wheat waffle, plus two egg fried in butter, and a cup of coffee with cream. Yum! I am full! I think we're going to see the Trek movie, AGAIN! I don't want to stuff myself with popcorn, but I will be hungry by the time we go, so we're going to smuggle in sandwiches from my favorite new sandwich shop that makes the most awesome lettuce wraps. And that is it for food today!
Have a great weekend, everyone. I'm checking out till Monday.
Well, friends - unfortunately, I am in Oklahoma near the area that was devastated by tornadoes yesterday, and needless to say, all the turmoil and nerves that went along with being on alert all day caused me to totally lose focus on my diet, so my choices were not healthy ones. I feel like I am ready to be back on track today, and hopefully, we won't have anymore days like yesterday to distract my focus. Congratulations to all of you who have been staying OP! You are to be commended.
I want to tell you that it is understandable that those types of events can pull our focus from our diet and many other things. I am in the area that was hit by Sandy. During the week without power, the last thing on my mind was if what I was eating was on plan, considering everything refrigerated was going bad!...I never really got back on track and I found out a few weeks later I was pregnant so here I am.
But definitely glad you feel that you are ready to get back on track!!
I'm not able to start weightloss yet, but my story is:
I spent most of my early 20s gaining and losing, stuck between the weights 155 lbs- 180 lbs. Always trying to get to like 130 but could never do it. But at that time did a lot of fad diets.
I then gained a lot of weight with baby #1 (2007) and was 240lbs after delivery.
I lost most of it, got down to 160ish. Swore I'd never regain...
Regained with baby #2 in 2010 (220 lbs).
Lost it all! Got down to 140ish, so close to goal....Really really swore I'd never regain...
Almost 30 weeks with baby #3 and 215lbs (ticker needs to be changed) and still 2 months to go....
But this is our last baby.
So the next journey needs to be the last. First to my life long wieght of like 160 where is seem to even out...then to break through that to 140 where I had been once before...then hopefully to 130.
I've only gotten down to 140 once, so I kind of have this fear I wont do it, that I'll get stuck in the 160s, or that for some other reason I'll regain since thats my pattern.
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We will get there! But in the meantime, I have to work on my patience! 
so here I am. 
