Dying to Live

Or maybe its two goals?

So… me and my gorgeous lil boyfriend have been walking together in the evenings. Over the last five days we went out three times. One time we didn’t go out because it was raining, and the other was because he was swamped with work and I don’t like walking alone at night (but I did do a mini walk that morning alone). So anyway… i know it doesn’t seem like much but compared to doing NOTHING it’s better. Also last week I did this really intense workout… oh God who knew 50 squats could hurt so much? I guess it comes from being so heavy. That’s a lot of stress to put on the lower body… I was super sore for three days from that! I got really discouraged and my boyfriend and I went out on a short little walk and we decided that I needed to do little things and do it over a long period of time. I’m too gung ho about things and thats when I get injured and end up not being able to do anything for a long long time… which in the long run is far worse.

So- he and I are walking. Our walk tonight was an okay distance… but not as far as the other night. I wasn’t wearing proper walking shoes… was in some sandals… ugh and forgot to wear comfortable pants. So I ended up cutting it a bit short. Blah. But I told him that tomorrow we need to go on a long walk in the morning and he agreed to it. I think we might walk the dreaded “loop”. I think its like two miles or so. I need to get in the car and drive around it and find out exactly how far it is. Watch… it will be like one mile and i’ll feel like a lazy butt. Lol. We’ll see.

So… the goal I’m getting to is THIS. 10 pounds a month. For as long as it takes to be at a normal BMI. That’s it. It’s doable. I really feel good about it. It’s like two and a half pounds a week or something. With the walking I’m doing and the increase in healthy stuff and water I should manage. Will report back on 5/23 when I do my monthly weigh in.

Til then - adios!

Posted on April 24th, 2010 by bridezilla
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SO I’ve decided that I want to be able to track my progress not only on the weight and what I’m eating etc, but what I’m able to do physically over time. I’ve created a “Friendly Fitness Sheet” which is an excel file that is done in pretty colors and organized by date, and the different exercises I will be performing daily. My goal is to do as much as I can do on any given day and over time, hopefully see my numbers improving. =) I’ve never been able to actively stick to one of these “Exercise calendar things” before, but I’ve been doing a pretty damn good job with tracking my eating and stuff and I think this would just take another few minutes to do a day (and hopefully motivate me to actually DO what I want to do).

Wish me luck! Oh, and if you’d like a copy of the FFS for your very own I can send one to you! Just tell me your email and I’ll send an attachment.

Happy Losing!

Posted on February 27th, 2010 by bridezilla
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I found an awesome thread at the 3fc forum. The title simply asks “What did I say no to today?”

Basically its just things that were temptations, that you said “no” to. You write a list and share it everyday. I really, really like this thread. So I guess I’ll post over here when I feel like it! =)

Today I said no to apple cookies, a hershey’s chocolate bar with almonds, a grilled cheese sandwich, and… hmm…. I know there was something else… oh well. =p

Instead I had an actual apple (for the apple cookies craving), a diet hot cocoa (25 cals whoohoo!), and a (get this) a healthy version of a grilled cheese sandwich of my own invention. I have to say… the first two were awesome replacements. Didn’t miss the cookies or the candy bar. But the grilled cheese thing… lets just say its hard to replicate something so awesome when you’re sticking to the diet I’m on! It “looked” more or less the same but it DID NOT taste anywhere near “Right”. Lol. So anyway, I figured out that an actual grilled cheese sandwich has about 420 calories (most of it fat and bad carbs). My version was 220 calories (very low fat, and only used “good carbs”). Too bad it didn’t taste all that great BUT my craving for grilled cheese did go away and I did feel very full after eating that sandwich and a glass of water. =)

All in all I rocked it - and I’m pretty happy about it.

The rest of the day was filled with veggies and fruit, and a good amount of lean protein. Whoohoo! I also managed to work out even though it was raining! =P

And lastly… I’m looking into some weight loss groups in my area that are free. I have found several. Going to make some phone calls and figure out what meetings will work best for me. Surrounding myself with support is the best thing I can do at this point.

Here’s to loving myself a little more. Cheers!

Posted on February 25th, 2010 by bridezilla
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So - I have decided with my recent digestive issues that I need to kind of clean out my body of the bad stuff and thought the best way to do this is through diet. I did an amazing job today and had 1325 calories (and didn’t feel deprived at all). I ate a cup of brown rice, half a cup of green beans, half a cup of yams, 1 chicken breast, 1/2 small container of greek yogurt with honey, 1/2 cup pomegranate seeds, and 1 apple. The bad thing I had was a PB n J candy bar that was an impulse buy at the Trader Joes…. that candy bar was 300 calories. Ugh. It was good though! =P Anyway, I did very well other than that and even with my mistake managed to only eat 1325 calories for the day.  So I’m proud of myself.

A few days ago I ordered a digital weight watchers scale from Amazon. I didn’t pay for shipping, used their free service, so I hope that it will be here within the next few weeks. I really have to weigh myself everyday. Body measurements just take too long.

Speaking of body measurements! I did measure myself on December 10th, and I measured again a few days ago… lost 3 inches over my whole body (according to my fitday measurement chart thing). So that was surprising. At least something good has happened… and I haven’t really been trying all that hard… so it was even more surprising.

Other than that stuff, I am going crazy with baby cravings. I want a baby so badly! I know that I need to get my body into the best possible shape I can before trying to conceive… so I’m giving myself a year and a half to work at it. My guy and I have decided we will try once he graduates college next summer (2011). I hope that is enough time to get into shape! I think it is…. but I’m really obese right now.

I did some research about getting into shape for a baby, and heard that I need to eat super healthy - lots of whole grains, vegetables and fruits, iron and protein, and that I need to stay away from things that are overly processed, full of empty calories, and excess fat. I totally agree with this and I’m going to work to ensure that my diet is very good (better than its ever been). I know I will need encouragement but I’ve never wanted anything as badly as a baby. Every time I have to force feed myself some asparagus I’ll tell myself that I’m doing it for the baby. Its probably the best motivation there is.

In addition to the diet thing, I need to strengthen my muscles… especially my core muscles. They are really weak. I have an exercise ball which is a great thing and I will be doing some work on there every day to ensure that i slowly build up muscles in my abdominals. Is doing this kind of activity also going to strengthen my back?

In addition to the core exercise, I’m going to do the walking everyday thing. I wish I had the money for a gym membership but I don’t right now, so I’m going to take what nature has given me and do my best.

Anywho… thanks to all of you who have commented on previous posts. I hope to keep this journal going and use it for motivation for myself, and if I help someone else along the way, that’s great.

Love to all of you girls who are trying to be healthy out there! It’s hard! But we can do it!

Posted on February 22nd, 2010 by bridezilla
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Wow. So… Christmas has come and gone… and with it… all the delicious and horrible things that I ate! Ahhhhhh!!

I had a lot of things I kind of regret having now. I didn’t eat any more than anyone else but STILL… trying to lose weight and then just eating what I want is NOT the way to success. Blah. Blah. BLAH.

To keep myself accountable in SOME way (I haven’t been doing my Fitday in the last four or five days… eeek) I will go ahead and list the things I’ve had…

Visit with my boyfriends’ grandmother - Slimrite shake (on the way there)/Woodfire Grill Buffet where I had macaroni and cheese, a single slice of pizza, two scoops of broccoli and cheese, two glasses of Sprite, a scoop of cinnamon apples, 3 fried shrimp, one bite of cheesecake, one bite of lemon merangue pie (AAHHHHH)

Christmas Eve Day - Pringles and cookies… munching all day - feeling really guilty about this

Christmas eve dinner - Slice of turkey, scoop of whole berry cranberry sauce, 1/2 cup mashed potatoes with butter mixed in, vegetarian dish with eggplant and cheese, See’s chocolates, slice of cherry pie

Christmas Day - A couple of cookies, one grilled cheese sandwich, 2 cans of orange soda shared with my bf, mashed potatoes, slice of ham, bite of yams, green bean casserole, cup of southwest corn and salsa, slice of apple and caramel pie

Day after Xmas morning - egg cheese omelet, glass of apple cider, half glass of OJ, One see’s candy, one corn muffin, 3 sausage patties

OMG. OMG. OMG. I’m reading this now and freaking out! Wow. I really really need to be very careful the rest of the year and ALL of next year. Dang. =(

I know I lost a little weight last week… probably gained it all back and then some. Sigh. I’ll have to weigh in soon. I need to go buy a scale.

Posted on December 26th, 2009 by bridezilla
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