Teel, good to have you back with us again.

Yes, we are a chatty group

I think you have to check in 5 times a day to keep up with us

Tis also good to hear that the heart is holding its own, even under the stresses of everything else that is going on around you. Are you still going to be on the Gabapentin or will they try something else. At least you know the weight gain is not the result of shoveling food into you

small comfort that might be.
Mel, thank you for the visualization suggestion. I will try that along with the calming deep breaths I take. I don't have to clean my house of smoke because I don't smoke in the house and haven't for the last 6 years. That's not to say it still couldn't use a good cleaning

I hope you are feeling better yourself today. Sometimes I wish I could flash back 20 years for a bit - I'm sure I felt better way back then but with my luck I'd flash back to a day of horrid cramps or something! The older I get, the more I appreciate that saying that youth is wasted on the young!
Roseblush, sounds like you live in a most wonderful place. I too enjoyed your description of things. Since it is time for you to get on track, tomorrow you can report in what you have done for yourself in a healthy way. Better think hard and act righteously as Mel and Shad have a friend with a cattle prod and they are not afraid to use it if we get slacking here.

Of course from your description, sounds like you wouldn't have a hard time finding a cattle prod or bullwhip yourself which might make things interesting.
Peacock, one of the fun parts of being on an international thread is that we occasionally run into things that mean totally different things in different places. We are big baseball fans in the states and at one point, everyone stands up, stretches out and sings a baseball song - Take me out to the ballgame... dah dah dah. One of the song lines is "Root, root, root for the home team, if they don't win it's a shame..." Well we mean root to cheer on enthusiastically

but apparently to the Australians at least root is another kind of 2 person horizontal happy dance, if you know what I mean. But it's always fun to stumble across these things. Mel, say something to crack the other side of the pond up, will you?
Linus, time to report on your daily adventures. And what has happened to our Shaker? Has Annie kidnapped her? We are all too poor to pay a randsom you know.
Well I think it is time to quit smoking. Yesterday I was in the garage, leaning against the car, smoking with my thoughts elsewhere as is the case. It was cool and I had a sweater on that has big baggy pockets. Something made me glance down (perhaps a FLAMING ORANGE BUTT in a black sweater pocket), but part of the cigarette had fallen into my pocket. Since I am my mother's daughter I have 2 bad habits - 1) the sudden uncontrollable urge to use any loo that I see whether I need to or not and 2) I always seem to have half a box of tissues in my pockets - just what you need bulging out the sides in case the big wing span of heavy hips is not flattering enough. Though they make nice bumper guards too. Anyway, the butt was just about to touch the tissue which would have set me instantly ablaze.

I was standing next to my bottled water supply so I just uncapped a bottle and calmly poured it into my pocket. That's why I never travel anywhere without a bottle of water

I suppose this is a sign from God that I'm getting too feeble minded to smoke anymore.
DH is slow cooking a beef roast outside on the grill. He is following the directions to the exact letter and they said to pour some liquid in the drip pan under the roast. They recommended beer. It was nice to use the bottles we've had laying in the basement for about 10 years but when you go outside for all intents and purposes, it smells like we are grilling beer, not meat. So stand up straight, take a good whiff and when you catch the smell of a pub, head my way and I'll slice you a piece of roast.
Shad, I hope you get as much time off between jobs as you can comfortablely afford. Will give you some time to tackle jobs around the house and I'm sure you'll more than enough keep yourself busy. May your next job keep you out of the traffic but heading to interesting places as you are the resident travel guide here.
Gotta go check on DH now...