Man, it looks like everyone is doing so great!!! I'm proud of everyone!!! I wish I could be two places at once!! I like being in SC because I have my own little schedule everyday of what I need to do. But out here, nothing is organized, I'm being stressed and falling apart.....but this is where my family and friends are! It's crazy, I missed Woes for yesterday, and I doubt I'll have anytime for myself today, since I havent had any since I've gotten here. I havent exercised not one lick, and even though I've not exceeded my calories, I either dont eat but once, or I eat a happy meal from Mcdonalds or something crazy. But if I dont stop and eat something, I wouldnt eat all day. NOT GOOD!! I know, everyone wants to beat some sense into me,....so do I!!! But I dont even have time to do that!! GRRR!!!! My dad seems to need more help than I thought, and I'm the only one who helps him. This is just too ridiculous, I havent spent anytime with my friends and there are still some of them I havent even seen yet. I am ready to go now, but want to stay for my dad.?!?!? Well anyway enough of that, as far as my NCC challenge, I failed on the exercise and not getting stressed out part, but at least I've been eating smaller portions of non-healthy foods. I'll try to eat breakfast today. My husband got a truck, and although I should be happy, I'm not. I could care less about some stupid truck, that is not a family car or what we agreed on. I hate trucks, but who cares, I'll get my own job and get my own car.
Well, sorry so depressing but had to get it off my chest, no one else to talk to or understand!!! My friends just look at it like I'm exaggerating and I just "pretend" to be too busy. I get up at 6 everymorning just trying to make the days longer and dont get to bed until 1 or 2 the next morning, nothing I've done ,except getting my hair fixed, has been for me. But didnt I say that already?!?! Ok, I"m just going to suck it up and move on, life could be worse I guess, and I'm only here for 2 more days. I guess I will just try to spend these 2 doing something for me....well maybe tomorrow, today I have 50 million things to do. I wish I could congratulate you all more on how good you are and maybe put my 2 cents in, but I guess I'm too busy griping and complaining about myself instead of trying to be there for you all!!! I'll try to do better tomorrow, I gotta go start cooking breakfast for my dad!!
Ok, you got it off your chest, and you may need to do it a couple of more times, we will be here for you. Getting it out and off your chest will help you de-stress and then see some positive in it. You are there taking care of your dad because he needs you and you will never be sorry about that! I know how that works, my dad while I was growing up was emotional and physically abusive, and I pulled away for many years, and then I started coming back, in short amounts at times because that was all I could take. Now I'm glad I did because in the long run we have to look ourselves in the mirror and be able to say we did what we felt was right, no matter what else! I may only have him for a few more years and I don't want to have any unsaid positive stuff between us or any regrets about what I didn't do later on. Give yourself a pat on the back because what you are doing will give you a lot now and later on! Hang in there as best you can with the diet and exercise and when you can catch up with some friends and that will help with some stress too!
Well chickies, Saturday is my mini-goal weigh in, and I am a tiny bit nervous, been good but don't want any water weight holding problems to get me into emotional trouble. Got some positive things going on too! My tough love stand with DH worked, he finally started coming around to the idea he should be doing some talking and we have! Love birds again! He might even get lucky this morning, or should I be saying that, ha ha ha!
My jeans have gotten quite baggy, in fact baggy enough for me to not be comfortable in them so my friend is coming to my rescue and loaning me some that her neice sent her when she gained extra weight because of her medication. So that is good. I don't want to buy any pants until I hit goal that way I just buy clothes one time. Also I can do some more cleaning out of my closet and pack them up to go to my sister in law. To bad we couldn't set up a clothes exchange program to help each other out along the way. I have some clothes and my sister in law doesn't need all of them and it is a shame for someone to have to go out and buy some to get through a few sizes and then have to rebuy to do again a little down the line. I have no clue how we could work that if we could do it.
Not going to stay long this morning just checking in, want to get my walk in, since yesterday I finally broke my no exercise moody spell and feel so much better! Holly should have grabbed a tazar gun and stuck it too me to get my butt moving, cause she knows how the highs and lows go!
Good morning everyone. I haven't been around in a few days and when I got up to have I realized, "I miss the girls"
Wasn't feeling to great for a couple of days. Still went and exercised but I had a backed up problem (if you know what I mean) That very rarely really happens. I'm pretty good with the fiber and all. I think it's because I dropped one of my meds (without the doc knowing) And it's for my stomach. I think that may have been it. Got pretty scared one day. Thought I might actually have to go the the ER. That would have been soooooo embarrassing. Fortunately everything ended up ok.....in the end (sorry, kinda gross)
Still battling the scale, no real loss or gain, just up and down the couple of pound. A friend at work, (the one who thinks I should be losing more) who really is a good friend, and I are going to buy a scale to keep in her office and we are going to do monday weigh-ins (to keep us in check over the weekend) and track gains and losses and pay small fines and such to make it a little more fun and have an incentive. Hopefully we will feel accountable and be more careful. Maybe I'll start journalling.
Holly, thanks for the calorie equation and also for the kudo's on my exercising. I know I have a long way to go but I feel like I'm moving in the right direction. The added bonus is this time I'm exercising and not
The other attempts at excercise routines in the past seemed tainted by the fact that I was still and wasn't getting all the benefits of it.
I'm so glad you enjoyed your ride. We haven't done too much this yr. In fact I've only been a passanger once. I still have mental issues with getting on my own. Don't know if I ever will again. It's too bad, I did enjoy it. The old man has been working on his older bike. The dyna is already customized but he's taking it from the old school look and changing it to a lower newer look.
I also wanted to say good for you for staying away from the treats at the meeting. I'm pretty good in front from people. I would be stuffing my face with the leftovers after everyone left. More of a closet eater Maybe that's my problem, I spend way too much time in the closet.
P.S. take those little rides whenever you can. Life is too short and the chores are always there anyway.
Jaymi, I know your frustrated. Not enough time in the day. But at least you have a chance to see friends and family. Before you know it you'll be home and things will fall back into more of a routine. (a crazy busy routine) But your young(and thinner!! woo hoo ) and you'll be ok. Just come here and let it out when you need to.
Maggie, so good to have you back. Congrats on being at goal. 1/2 lb away is goal on my scale. Glad hubby is coming around. See, being confident helps. I know when I'm feeling down about my weight, which is all too often, I let things get away from me. But on a good day...stay out of my way!
Well, I've been babbling a long time this morning. Gonna take a quick cruise around the board and then I have to go run errands this morning. Looks to be a lousy day weather wise. Tomorrow sounds iffy. Hope it doesn't rain tomorrow. I was hoping to go to a local street fair. Anyway, enjoy the weekend all.
Well I'm back from TX, 7 lbs lighter, and I dont even know how that is. I didnt get to exercise not even one day and I didnt eat like I was supposed to. Many days I had happy meals or even cooked food, and many days I had nothing at all. I guess because I kept busy from 6 am to 1 or 2 am helped with the exercise thing. I probably sat down for a total of 5 hrs the whole 9 days I was there. So anyway I guess I'll save my ranting for another day...
Daily Goals
1. Exercise twice Daily
2. Write down calories and food in journal everyday
3. Try to keep a positive attitude
4. Drink at least 8 cups of water daily
Weekly Goals
1. Lose 2-3 lbs
2. Try to do something for myself at least once other than exercise
Goals for the Month 1. Lose 10 lbs for the month
2. Try to add more exercises or add different exercises
3. Try to cut down on TV dinners and cook more
4. Try to exercise outside more and get some sun!
5. Get back to my positive attitude, and continue to try to be a better wife, mother, and person.
Today I am at least aiming for a 3 pt day, since I didnt get to sleep until 3 am, when the alarm went off at 6 to exercise I must of not heard it and my hubby cut it off, so now everything is off balance. 2 pts for Staying on program, 1 pt for exercising, 1 pt for water All I know is when I do everything I get all of my pts!! I cant exercise while my daughter is awake, and since she woke up later than usual that means her nap will be even later and who knows what kind of exercises I will end of trying to do. Right now she is quiet looking at Dora, but duh, she has the TV and I cant exercise in my room, our bed is too big, so that sucks. But I guess my mission for today is to get back on track, and make 4 pts for the rest of the week.
I'm one lb away from my first goal of 145, I cant believe it!!! But the thing is, I've went from a 40DD to a 36 D...!! What gives?!?! I'd rather my butt and thighs disappear instead!! I needed the fat in my breasts to stop them from looking like dried up prunes like the do now!!! SUCKS!!!! But oh well, I guess I'll make a new goal of 125 or 130. My height should go along with like 115 or 120 but that is NOT!! Going to happen! I know that, my body was never made to be that small, and when I did weigh that much I was shorter. But last time, my breasts didnt shrink so much....I dont get it.
Anyways, I'd like to get into at least a size 9 jeans, because it is soooo hard to find a 13/14. And is it just me but am I the only person who hates that store in the mall named "5, 7, 9"?
Ok they had sizes 00, 1, 3 but nothing over 9!!! I could have blown that store up!! But anyway I will try to comment on you all, but my computer Sucks!!!
Holly- I'm gonna try that calculator for myself and for my sister, that seems bad though, my dad is on a 2000 calorie diet (or so he says) I could have sworn he told me 1800. But just the thought of that low amount, plus the fact that he's a man and weighs a lot more...but "Doctors Orders!" But it sounds about right for me, in fact, I didnt even think I could eat that many!! That's kinda exciting! By the way, are you still trying to lose weight or are you just maintaining for now?
Donna- I still think you are doing great, I see that you are trying, but I'm not going to say that you should be losing more because I think the most important thing right now is "what" you are eating, not losing weight. Eating more healthy foods and exercising will help with your other medical issues and that's the important thing, the weight will come off when it's ready. But as long as you know that you are trying, then dont worry about it. Just keep up the good work!!
Maggi- I already know that you've hit your goal so Congrats!! It's hard to buy jeans because when you go and they are too tired it discourages you, but so many of the same size jeans fit differently. Just keep it going girl, you are doing great! I'm so happy for ya!! Also, thank you for your kind words, really I needed them!! My dad and mom just dont seem to realize how much we need them, they dont seem to care about their lives at all!! Or they seem to think we'll be taking care of them forever, but I'm not going to be the one stuck taking care of people who dont even care about themselves. I have my own family and husband. All I can do is try....
If I've missed anything important, I'm sorry, there's so much to catch up on, I'd rather just start from here!!
I know that I may not weigh as much as most people or have as much to lose, but I still struggle as much as anyone else. It's a fight every single day and will be for the rest of my life. I'm 5'0 tall, so people dont realize that 150 or even 145 lbs isnt small on me like some people would think. Alot of people heavier than me says, your not fat and I wish I were your'e size, and yes I've done the same to others when I was at my highest, but I have met people who are the same weight as I am now who wears size 5 or 6, I'm barely fitting into some 13/14. Plus I have to deal with my hubby who seems to be amused all of a sudden with talking about fat people, almost like before I've lost weight he didnt say anything because he might offend me, but now he can let if all hang out. NOT!! I have two obese parents and I get offended when anyone says anything about being overweight. Besides the fact that both of his parents are overweight too, he doesnt seem to think it'll happen to him, or he says oh well If I get big then I get big?!? GRRR, he's maybe 165 soaking wet, which is skinny for a man. I put him in line everytime, I dont make fun of anyone, fat,skinny, black, white, whatever, and I dont want my kids hearing such things and thinking it's kool....ok..where did that come from?!?! Anyway, I just wanna be taken seriously that's all, not that you all arent, but I'm just saying period!!!
Well, I gotta try to get up off my butt and do something.... Will talk with everyone later!
Jaymi
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It's been hard for me to stop by regularly, but here I am!
Jayme, welcome back to your home. Down SEVEN pounds...WOW!!! You're shrinking right before our eyes! I HEAR you about breast shrinkage...thank goodness my husband has always at least said that he likes 'em little...'cause mine sure went away but with a proper bra, or cute swim top, we can still look sexy!
and what a good daughter you are, that you spend that time with your parents to help, even though it disrupted your life for a time. As Maggie said, we do what we know we need to do.
And Jayme, I am now maintaining, but would LIKE to maybe be down 3-4 more pounds, to see how that looks/feels. I'm sure not applying myself too hard towards that, though, with the treats I've been having. But I know the exercising is keeping me in line.
Maggie, hi! Hope your weigh-in was good! An idea about clothes - do you have a thrift shop near you? Consignment, or maybe even a Salvation Army? Church cellar sales...all great places to get CHEAP clothing, even if you only wear them for a few months. Congrats on your tough love stand working!!!
and Maggie, that must have taken alot of courage to try to rekindle a relationship with your dad, after a difficult childhood. You have done the right thing to do it, though. I was estranged from my dad for...16 years or so, and one day my mom showed me a photo of him, in the paper. It was for something good, an award he was given, but at first I thought it was an obituary notice! That shook me up so badly. I realized I had to try to establish contact with him, so I wouldn't regret it, too late. And so I did. We then had four years of re-establishing our relationship, before he passed away.
Hi Donna!!! good idea of "sharing" the office scale with a friend. Just once a week, right? no use making oneself crazy with too-frequent weighings.
About your dh's bike - is what he's doing to the dyna called the "slammed" look? I'm always curious, always trying to learn btw, would he be going to Laconia? We're riding there Friday pm, staying Friday and Sat.night, coming back mid-day Sunday. We'll be traveling with some friends, who are rather respectable compared to us so I might not wear the fishnet bodystocking around them I like to be myself, and have fun, but also don't want to embarass someone hanging with us. I want to start a "just motorcycle" thread so I don't bore anyone else here, LOL!
Well, ladies, how do we get SPRITE back??? Should be all pm her? I don't want to pressure her, but she is missed!
Got to plan my work recipes for the next few days, as I'll be leaving early Friday to get a last minute hairtrim, then pack a small bag, wash and shine up the bike and GO!!
Everyone, stick to your goals! It's worth it!! (JAYME - great goals listed!)
Feels weird checking in at 11:00 on a work day, but I took the day off.
Jaymi, you really are doing well. I'm glad your home. I was afraid of you getting too stressed out, but you handled it all really well. Thumbs up to you.
You've really accomplished alot lately and should be really proud of yourself.
Remember to keep your goals within reach. You have alot on your plate.
Hi Holly, fishnet bodystocking! woo hoo! Good for you. I never got that wild, even when I had the body for it. Cleavage, no problem...but a bodystocking, not me.
I'm off today because we were going to Lake George for Americade and then head to Laconia for Sunday. I was going to leave Sunday nite and drive back but the dh was going to stay for a couple days. He has a friend that lives an hour away in New Hampshire. The trailer we were supposed to stay in was sold. The dh left this morning. He's gonna stay with some guys he works with that are at Americade and then move onto Leconia tomorrow. (By the way, they would love the bodystocking in Laconia)
I don't know if what the dh is doing is called the "slammed" look or not. In NY
alot of people refer to it as a "guinea glider". I'll have to ask when he gets back. It's not going to be as severe. No big huge tire in the back. Its still has fenders. The new mirrors with the turn signal built into the back really look nice. Expensive and illegal. But he's having fun.
Anyway, have a great time and keep the rubber side down!
Hi Maggie, I know what you mean about the exercise. Last week I missed 3 days in a row and it was horrible starting up again. But once I started again I was ok. Lots of pain though. You would think I hadn't done it for 2 weeks. But it was at the same time Aunt Flow was arriving and I blame her for most of the body aches. I just joined a group on the exercise thread. I figure keeping track of the exercise will keep me motivated to keep going since I feel like quitting every time I get on the scale and it hasn't moved. I'm still not journalling as you can see by my signature. I haven't added an smilies.
Well, I really should be getting some work done around here. I've really neglected the place this week not feeling well and all. I promised myself if I got the house cleaned, I'd go get my nails and toes done. Haven't had a mani/pedi in a while and my ugly feet need all the help they can get .
Hopefully my internet won't cut off during this post!! Well anyway I weighed in today twice, once before I exercised and once afterwards. I usually wait until after I exercise...but anyway, before I weighed 146 and afterwards 145. I'll take the 145!! That would mean I beat my first goal! My next goal will be 135. Now that will be the hardest ever!! But we'll give it a try of course!! I don't see me getting rid of these extra thighs, tummy, or hips without taking out some more weight!! Anyway before I go on about myself...let me comment a little:
Donna- Thanks for your comments!! You still seem like you are doing GREAT to me!! Let me know how Lake George went!! The journaling is NOT THAT HARD!!! Really!! Just try it...start if off! My sis was complaining about it, but now I dont tell her anything about it, she does it all by herself! She's lost 2 lbs this week, so give it a try! I still think you are doing excellent!
Holly-Thanks for your comments!! I guess those few lbs arent really that big deal right now that's all. All that sound like to me is that you are really just happy the way you are...or comfortable in your own skin. I can't wait to be that way!!! That sounds sooo exciting. You look great though! Does Sprite still be online?!? If you PM her, I will, but I dont think she knows me though!! It's whatever you want to do!
Well, I cant think of much to update right now, just trying to find stuff to do to entertain my lil sis and the kids during the summer. No money right now makes it even harder!! But oh well, whatever! Well' I hope everyone is doing well!! Everyone let me know how you are doing!!! Take care!
Back from our 36 hours in Laconia had a GREAT time! We're putting together some pics, I'll post a link for when it's all together.
I have to tell you another great reason to exercise regularly...you can ride a mechanical bull, and not ache the next day
How is everyone? I am going to send Sprite a quick PM right after this note, just to tell her that we miss her, and hope she's well. No pressure
donna, I couldn't quite tell from your post if YOU were still going to Americade, then Laconia? If so, that's pretty cool to think that we would be kinda close to each other briefly
**nagging time*** is everyone downing their water? especially important when it's warm and humid! Not that I always manage it, but it's easy to be the nagger, isn't it
Thank you so much for the PM Vermont Mom. Your timing is incredible. I have not be onto the site in over month and the day I go back you have left me a message! It's nice to be missed.
Sorry I have not been around much I started a new job which is about 45 minutes from home so I have much longer days, and my husband has started working nights, so I am like a single mom. Busy! busy! busy! My son is sick tonight so I had a chance to get on here and read a bit of your posts.
Hello to Jaymi and Donna and Magnoliamouth! You are all doing terrific. I put on a few pounds but have also been doing a weigh in at work thing like you Donna and am down 4 lbs in 4 weeks. I am going to a party in July and will be seeing one of my very first boyfriends there. I am happily married and so is he, but I want him to say Damn! Look what I could have had! Instead of Ew! Thank God I'm not still with her! ha ha.
It's nice to be back and I will try to post more often. Good luck to everyone this week. Holly your trip sounded fantastic! Very exciting, I looked at your pics.
Hi everybody.
Missed a couple of days. Been kind of busy.
Jaymi, you are just doing amazingly well. You go for it. You must be looking great. By the way, I've been journalling for 3 days. Not writing down calories but my blood sugars, exercise and what ever I eat. I feel like its homework I have to do. But I'm getting used to it.
Holly, I didn't make it to Americade The trailer we stay in was sold so the dh went solo and stayed with some guys he works with. And the weather was so outstanding. I was bummed. But I still have Sturgis to look forward to.
I'd look forward to it alot more if some lbs would come off. Speaking of lbs. I weighed in on monday at work (our first one week weigh in) and was down 2lbs. We will weigh in on friday as my friend is going on vacation saturday. Then no weigh in for 10 days. I still jump on my scale at home. But I'm only charting the weigh ins at work.
Anyway, glad your back and had a great and safe trip. (so... you really put those muscles to work on the bull.... )
Hi Maggie, You out there? Everything ok?
Sprite, Welcome back. It's great to come here. We really have become such a nice group Sounds like you've got a lot going on with all the changes. I know it's hard, but don't forget to take care of yourself. And congrats on the 4lbs. Have fun at that party, you deserve it..and show em' what you've got. Feel good.
Well, I'm going to take a quick cruise around the board and then going to bed. ttyl.
WHY IS IT THAT I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO TYPE THIS ONE FRIGGIN POST FOR AN HOUR, AND THE AOL KEEPS CUTTING OFF!!! I HATE AOL, I HATE AOL!!! I WOULD RATHER PAY FOR ANOTHER SERVICE THEN HAVE THIS FOR FREE!! WHY IS IT THAT IT JUST DISCONNECTED "AGAIN" WHILE I AM TYPING NOW!! SCR*W YOU AOL!! GRRRRRR!!!! :MAD:
Well everyone, this AOL sucks....how many times have I said it now!! They made me do about 10 different things...and now i'ts freezing up my computer too!! I'm getting really mad! I just typed this long long post with comments and all, and my whole computer froze so I couldnt even try to save it!! I am sooo mad!!! But oh well, this post will be comment free until tommorrow! I need sleep!!!
Ok, OK short comments and I'm off to bed...for real!!!
Holly- The Bull sounds fantastic!! I wish I looked like you do!! But maybe one day I will!!
Donna- I am sooo proud of you for writing in your journal!!! That is so great! I know right now if seems like homework...but it will be just a part of life...like brushing your teeth!! My lil sis just started last week, and I dont tell her or remind her of anything. She runs to her journal and calculate her calories and everything! You will do the same too! It won't be like a chore for long!!
Sprite- I'm sooo glad to see you here!! Welcome Back!!! I'm looking forward to getting to know you! Take care and
Maggi- Where are ya hiding?!?! I hope everything is well, and you better check in with us chickie!!! We miss you!!!
MY GOAL FOR TONIGHT/TOMORROW IS:
I'm sorry I havent been participating like I should, I just dont have the time to rant and rave...which is a good thing right!!! I'm still trying to get myself together...it is hard after being in TX all that time, now exercise is like a chore that I can only get done sometimes....even eating is becoming a chore. Today my calories are low... it is probably unhealthy. But I've been busy all day, I just forgot to eat! Any wayz my day hasnt been good but I will report it anyway:
I only ate 772 calories today...and that is because I forced this dinner down with mega calories!! I had a pork chop, green beans, corn, and chicken flavored rice (which added on the calories!!) I didnt eat it all though, plus my daughter ate a lot of it too. No exercise. I have been trying to wear my pedometer (cheapo one fron McD) But I didnt put it on until about 5 pm. I have only 1679 steps after that!! Well, I've been sitting down since I've gotten home mostly, or standing up for long periods, but not really walking...I did all that this morning!! Oh well, anyway, whatever! I was hyped up earlier, thinking I was gonna try to exercise anyway, but now I'm too tired. I'd rather try to double or triple up tomorrow and finally get some sleep. I know I shouldnt give up...but he*l, my calories arent that high right? I cant seem to get myself together, but I will eventually. Tx really done me in!
Well again, I said this was gonna be short, but I'm rambling on and on.... but I'm sorry for not getting to comment on you all... like I should I guess if I wasnt typing all of this mumbo jumbo all the time, I would have more time...but I still apologize anyways! I'm so tired I almost feel delirious! My sis and hubby are watching the game...which I hate basketball. I'd rather be watching Law and Order, or one of my 10 Golden Girl (8 hr) tapes.... but hey whatever. I have been having MAJOR problems sleeping!! I think playing tennis so late is one problem, because me and my sis be up at 3 am looking homeless!! But I always get up at least by 9, she stays sleep until 12 or 1 and then looks at me like are we going anywhere today!?! I'm going to start going back to sleep early, waking up early, and exercising early. If I can at least get one goal done, everything should be alright! Well let me be off, it's already late.
Jaymi you look great at 145!!!! You don't even look like you need to lose weight! You look fantastic! You have really done well. You should be proud of yourself.
Donna - good job on the journalling, it takes discipline, but well worth the effort. It's amazing how well you eat when you have to write everything down!
Well it is incredibly hot here today and will be even hotter tomorrow. Makes it easier to eat less and drink more!
Jaymi, so glad you included pictures. You look fantastic. You must feel so good. Still journalling. I had a slip today. Candy and chips. Wanted sugar and salty. Had to have both. Was miserable at work and feeling sorry for myself. Now I feel even worse and on top of that, I had to write it down. I hate seeing it in writing. I'll try to remember that next time I feel a slip coming.
You're right Sprite. I hated writing down the bad things I ate and will be more careful what I put in my mouth.
Hey Maggie and Holly! How are you girls?
Well tomorrow is friday, and I don't think I could take one more day at work this week. It's been really stressful. I work in mortgages and we've been having a lot of trouble here in NY trying to clear the title on peoples property. Lot's of stress. On top of that, my back is getting worse. The pain is starting to go down the left leg. I really had trouble exercising this morning. Going to see the chiropractor tomorrow. I hope it helps. I really don't want to miss more than a couple of days of exercise as it's so hard to start up again.
Another Short Post..."Jaymi Style" My day is already shot and wasted, I might as well just say that although, I stayed under calories, exercised, and drank water yesterday, and the day before, I'm not sure if I even deserve to feel good. I'm pretty pis*sed at myself, I have eaten 3 burgers in the last 2 days.... Why reasons/excuses are because:
1. "You cannot eat a stupid salad and drive"
2. "Chicken sandwiches are the same or more calories as burgers"
3. "There is no subway, plus I dont have subway money"
So there, got that out. Today I havent eaten anything, and I havet exercised. I'm sitting here being depressed and upset because MY weigh-in is tomorrow and I have done some stupid things. I dont even want to eat right now...because that means I have to stand up and cook....and I'm too nauseaus for that. Then I need to go to the store, but I'll be hungry, and that will probably lead to another burger, I also need to work out because my daughter just took her nap, but I also have 50 million other things to do...
Holly- miss you!!
Maggi- miss you too!
Sprite- You are sweet! I hope you have a great day!
Donna- I tried to not write it down when I messed up....but that didnt help!! I still felt guilty and know that I did it! Just keep up the good work!
Well this turned into longer than I thought. Sorry for me feeling like crap!! I've been trying to stay positive and be positive...but it's just not working for me right now, and I dont feel like pretending today! Thank everyone for listening to me even though it's not the most enjoyable side of me showing!!!. Please try to work with me! I'm not giving up...I'll get it together sooner or later!
Well I dont want to depress anyone any further So I will be going now!!
Sorry I havent been posting...Time is flying by! Talk with you all later!! I love you chickies!!!
Hi everyone!! 
It's crazy, I missed Woes for yesterday, and I doubt I'll have anytime for myself today, since I havent had any since I've gotten here. I havent exercised not one lick, and even though I've not exceeded my calories, I either dont eat but once, or I eat a happy meal from Mcdonalds or something crazy. But if I dont stop and eat something, I wouldnt eat all day. NOT GOOD!! I know, everyone wants to beat some sense into me,....so do I!!! But I dont even have time to do that!! GRRR!!!! 
Well anyway enough of that, as far as my NCC challenge, I failed on the exercise and not getting stressed out part, but at least I've been eating smaller portions of non-healthy foods. I'll try to eat breakfast today. My husband got a truck, and although I should be happy, I'm not. I could care less about some stupid truck, that is not a family car or what we agreed on. I hate trucks, but who cares, I'll get my own job and get my own car. 
Ok, I"m just going to suck it up and move on, life could be worse I guess, and I'm only here for 2 more days. I guess I will just try to spend these 2 doing something for me....well maybe tomorrow, today I have 50 million things to do. I wish I could congratulate you all more on how good you are and maybe put my 2 cents in, but I guess I'm too busy griping and complaining about myself instead of trying to be there for you all!!! I'll try to do better tomorrow, I gotta go start cooking breakfast for my dad!!
I realized, "I miss the girls" 
(if you know what I mean) That very rarely really happens. I'm pretty good with the fiber and all. I think it's because I dropped one of my meds (without the doc knowing) And it's for my stomach. I think that may have been it. Got pretty scared one day. Thought I might actually have to go the the ER. That would have been soooooo embarrassing. Fortunately everything ended up ok.....in the end 
) and you'll be ok. Just come here and let it out when you need to. 
By the way, are you still trying to lose weight or are you just maintaining for now?
not losing weight. 
Eating more healthy foods and exercising 
will help with your other medical issues and that's the important thing, the weight will come off when it's ready. But as long as you know that you are trying, then dont worry about it. Just keep up the good work!! 
It's hard to buy jeans because when you go and they are too tired it discourages you, but so many of the same size jeans fit differently. Just keep it going girl, you are doing great! I'm so happy for ya!! 
but with a proper bra, or cute swim top, we can still look sexy! 
I like to be myself, and have fun, but also don't want to embarass someone hanging with us. I want to start a "just motorcycle" thread so I don't bore anyone else here, LOL!
The trailer we stay in was sold so the dh went solo and stayed with some guys he works with. And the weather was so outstanding. I was bummed. But I still have Sturgis to look forward to.
Sounds like you've got a lot going on with all the changes. I know it's hard, but don't forget to take care of yourself. And congrats on the 4lbs. Have fun at that party, you deserve it..and show em' what you've got. Feel good. 
Holly- 
I am sooo proud of you for writing in your journal!!! 
That is so great! I know right now if seems like homework...but it will be just a part of life...like brushing your teeth!! My lil sis just started last week, and I dont tell her or remind her of anything. She runs to her journal and calculate her calories and everything! You will do the same too! It won't be like a chore for long!! 
I'm looking forward to getting to know you! Take care and 
Why reasons/excuses are because:
"You cannot eat a stupid salad and drive" 
You are sweet! I hope you have a great day! 
So I will be going now!!
