Hello all! I posted a couple of times last year on here, but I think coming to this forum is really going to help in my success so am planning on posting regularly! For my first post, I wanted to give you a very brutally honest account of what my journey has been so far....
I have always struggled with my weight (I'm 31 now and can remember going on diets as young as 10 and feeling that I was "fat" at age 6). 4 years ago I lost 60 pounds on Ideal Protein; for three months I was absolutely 100 percent strict. Then, I was out to dinner with my new boyfriend, was so tired of never getting to have a glass of wine on our dates and always ordering steak without anything on it, I just lost control and ate all the things one night. I had the hardest time getting back on track after that, but I ended up losing some more weight until I was at the 60 pounds lost. I was 5 pounds away from my goal weight. I didn't phase off, and slowly the pounds crept on. Flash forward to this last summer, still dating the the same wonderful guy, and despite trying every diet, healthy/clean eating plan known to man, working out twice a day, spin classes, you name it- I had put back on 55 pounds of the 60 lost. So this summer I went back to Ideal Protein with a mindset that I would do this more moderately, exercise, maybe have cheese here and there so that I could feel like it was easier to stick to and I would do this knowing that it would be slower. In 3 months, I lost only 15 lbs (compared to the 50 last time), but I was down a ton of inches. But what did I do? I started to question, wanted to go back to "clean eating" which really turned into clean eating, binge on bad foods, repeat. So flash forward to January of this year and decided okay, for real this time it's 100 percent but the occasional glass of wine and maybe if my meat is off plan because I'm out to dinner that's okay. I figured this way, I would be consistent knowing that it's more sustainable. Well, here I am at week 3 of this, and I have lost and gained the same 4 pounds. What I was able to do last time is NOT working for me.
So, guess what? it's time to wake up and be real with myself. I'm not going to get to the results I want by a) questioning something that's worked great for me when I follow it 100% and 2) thinking I can make this "my own" plan and also 3) by having a bad attitude about being 100 percent and OBVIOUSLY i think I've learned I NEED TO PHASE OFF CORRECTLY

. So this is my very honest post about my journey and after a very tough love call with my mom, I'm ready to be in this 100 percent, not 99%. I'm ready to feel confident in my own skin, and to love myself enough to lose this weight! It's on protocol for me this time and I'm excited to see what comes. I'm hoping posting here as well as my "fitstagram" account will be really helpful to stay accountable in my journey and I'm also looking forward to hearing your stories too!
