Thanks Snark.
I did not eat so well today. Many liquid calories. I forgot my water bottle and drank juice at work instead. Ate cheezies. Coffee/hot chocolate on the way home. Muffins (oh those muffins again! but what's a girl to do with 3 bunches of bananas!)
1957 but at least I worked off 744
Hey Terra, It sounds like you really know where you are going, understand what the obstacles in your path are, and are determined to overcome them! Yay! Not wanting to get diabetes is an EXCELLENT reason to want to change your eating and exercise patterns for the better! You just keep on kicking butt and I know you will reach your 150 goal, you can do it!
Well I fell apart on Saturday. Made the mistake of thinking I was going to fast Saturday but I had a party. So I didn't eat all day and was very hungry and drinking and the only thing I could eat was what I brought (vegan cheese) and I ended up eating everything and pretending like it might not hurt me this time. Not only did it hurt (it still hurts. I can't even touch my abdomen), I ate way too much. I couldn't stop once I started.
Fasted yesterday.
131.4 today. So I negated some of the damage with that fast.
Realized I've had another victory though - last time I made muffins they were gone in just over a day. I've had them since Friday and gave some away and still probably could go three days, so I think I'll get them in the freezer. Surprising actually that gf even lasts 4 days but it must be all the bananas
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Hey nice new pic Snark! I really need to get one up.
And I binged on cookies today and now I feel like I am in a food coma. Foggy. Chest pain. Stomach pain. Ugh. Have eaten my days calories by lunch. This stuff really is addictive because when it was out of my system I was not having problems.
And I was a new low of 130 today. Why would I want to ruin it? But I did. Ugh
Ten days until Christmas, and then this year is winding down! I can't believe it is going to be 2015. Where is my hover craft? Where is my vacation home under the sea? All of these things were promised to me by Disney's Carousel of Progress when I was growing up. I want them now.
Well the party was terrible food wise and I'm dealing with the pain of that too. On a very high dose of probiotics to try to balance things.
Ate cheezies today and I feel really bad about it because my plan was to be strict until Christmas.
On we go. 4 lbs to get back to my low ugh.
We are all wery, wery qwiet. Are we hunting wascally wabbits?
Sending out strength and hugs to thems that need it: anybody who may be lurking here, but not posting, and anyone being sucked under by the tidal wave of holiday food and pressure!
well my weight loss has stalled for a few months due to inconsistency. these past few weeks have been really good, eating normally, not really restricting but the weight is still hardly moving and its pissing me off. i have even started swimming. not for weight loss but FFS that should be helping considering I was totally sedentary before.. im thinking back to when I was my lowest adult weight about 10 years ago at 170 pounds. that was months of eating salads, cabbage soups and tiny portions. and 170 was the result. it feels like if I ever get to 170 again it will feel like 125 for how difficult that seems to reach right now. Anyways this post is really because I just had a 2400 calorie drive thru binge and feel sick. despite the sick feeling I grabbed a package of cookies too at the drug store to eat for later. they were 1.99 from 4.99 so obviously I just had to buy them... this is first binge in a while, but the 3rd day of sloppy eating..ate a whole tub of ice cream within 2 days prior to today. so I want to right the ship AGAIN. I can't focus on weight, but I have it to lose. I don't want to eat less but I want to lose weight. I want to lose weight but more than anything I want to get this eating under control. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day.
you know what, I really have to stop being so damn negative
at this time last year I weighed 291 pounds, could hardly move without getting winded and was starting to have trouble wiping myself in the bathroom
now I am swimming laps in a pool enjoying it.
this binge is over, next day is a new day I will slip and fall but there has been great progress that I am thankful for.
well today was no better. the binge continues. 2 fast food joints and on my way to eating another tub of ice cream. im starting to feel out of control again like Ill never want any of my healthy meals again. i think this is comfort eating because I am so stuffed but still eating. maybe the holidays are making me more depressed than usual(this has been a really bad year for me) the swimming is not even helping, I left the pool tonight and started sobbing in my car...i should probably be posting on a mental health forum but regardless of what darkness I am going through food can not fill this void and will not give me comfort just a really stuffed Im- about- to burst feeling. too bad Im not able to make myself vomit because I feel so sick.
I wish I had the answers to how to get you to break the cycle, it seems to be unique for each of us, I just know that the binge eating doesn't solve the problems that are making you sad, it only adds to them. It is worth it to keep trying to break the cycle, so you can heal! Sending you strength and love.
thanks mrs snark. Hugs to you too.
this morning has started out horribly, already a huge binge. I don't know how I went off track so quickly and hard. Might be a good time to visit OA again not sure.
