Location: Kelseyville (Lake County, Northern California)
Posts: 150
S/C/G: 164/155/145
Height: 5'6"
Hello all,
I'm new to this thread. I joined 3FC on Oct. 30 and have lost 4 lbs. with exercising 4 - 5 times a week and eating healthy.
I definitely believe I am addicted to processed and refined sugars like cookies, cakes, pies, and ice cream, so I am avoiding them. In fact, when I first joined the day before Halloween, I binged on Halloween candy, and then on Saturday and Sunday I binged on homemade cookies made with white flour and white sugar!
I am happy to announce I have not had any of those items since Nov. 2! I am starting to lose my craving and feeling great. I do use stevia most of the time, but I still use vanilla syrup in my tea lattes some times. That doesn't seem to trigger me. I also had a Dr. Pepper on Sunday and wasn't triggered by that either. I rarely drink soda anyway. I do eat fruits, such as apples, bananas, and grapefruits and don't seem to get triggered from those either.
I believe I will be okay tomorrow, Thanksgiving, because I never cared too much for pumpkin pie anyway!
Hey lucky, good job. Just eating normally was pretty much my first goal. I guess I kind of did that today. I was very disappointed in myself for having cake, but unlike the last treat I had, I found it disgusting. I didn't go back and stuff my face with more when people weren't looking. I didn't have hot chocolate and muffins and donuts at the coffee shop, just coffee. I call that a success from within a failure.
Hi AshiRose. Good job on staying away from those things since Nov 2. I'm on day 1 again tomorrow, but at least it is still 5 days without a binge.
AshliRose, welcome! You've done something amazing: you've identified your triggers. Just keep in mind that over time, your list of triggers can change. There have been times when I was ok with something and then I wasn't. I still think I'm refusing to be honest with myself about a few things that I just don't want to give up. They don't contain flour or sugar but I feel like they somehow make crave more food. Anyway, I'm so glad to have you join us and hope you'll share your experiences with us. Way to go on the 4 lbs. lost, btw! Woohoo!!!
AmethystJean, I appreciate your support. The restrictor in me feels guilty about eating like a normal person, especially after I've been so off track. However, I do recognize that it's a way to slow down and get back on track and even practice eating at maintenance, which I hope to do one day!
So I got on the scale and I was preparing myself for a 20 pound gain. I really can't tell what I look like in the mirror. I was actually relieved to have gained 10 lbs. instead. I ate very well yesterday (at deficit) and this morning, I was down a little over 2 pounds. I'm going to change my ticker, be honest with myself and focus on the progress. If I can just stay on track I will consider this a blip in the road and a major victory for reigning it in before I put all my weight back on!
Thanks so much for listening. Btw, I've upped my involvement with OA. I'm doing reading and writing and am contacting other members more, as well as my sponsor. I'm going to a meeting this morning and I'm very happy with myself.
Ok, last thing I want to say is that I slept 6 hours again and that is really like a miracle for me since i usually get 3 or 4. The only difference is that I"m taking this Indian herb called Ashwaganda, which I mentioned to you guys before. It helps with anxiety and for me, with sleep. I take one after breakfast and one after dinner. I'll keep you posted!
Hugs to all of you and wishing you a wonderful Saturday!
Welcome AshliRose! Like you, I am triggered by alot of processed sugary things as well, but not by fruit at all. Which I consider lucky. We all have to find our specific quirks and work within our own limitations. You're doing great!
Lucky -- when you say "I still think I'm refusing to be honest with myself about a few things that I just don't want to give up," I hear Fritos being whispered softly into my ears. Of course I will continue to be in denial about that and shush that whisper, lol. So I know exactly what you mean!
Congratulations on working your program and feeling back on the right track! So much of this stuff is mental: how we think about things, how we approach them, how we work through them, how we process, how we continue on. All so key. It sounds like you've found your groove!
Ame -- Great job being very moderate. I think what you did sounds very normal. You tried something, it wasn't good. It didn't trigger a bunch of secret eating! That's a WIN!
Hope everyone is having a great weekend! My Thanksgiving was fine. I still don't have a hungry, so there was no problems for me and I'm just putting along, trying to get used to all the changes that are happening in our lives. Today is "dog butt shaving day". Something to look forward to, lol.
Lucky, congrats on your deficit and 2 lbs. Keep it up. Just keep going moderately along, because extremes either way will just make us binge in the end. Good choice getting further involved in OA. It's kind of like me hopping on the boards here when I need a break or want to eat and really shouldn't.
Snark, I wish I didn't have hunger but at the same time I know that's not true. It took a lot of work for me to get in touch with my body hunger after my ED so I don't want to lose that. I just need to keep in touch with "full"!
Had a very large breakfast, which is disappointing since I've been eating so little the last 2 days and I am going to my friends for a Mexican fiesta today, so I'm a little worried about tonight's calories. I vow not to eat any more until then, and will taste everything I want to but not feel obligated to keep eating because something tastes good. I will try to keep on track with my eating plan, but I'm pretty sure I will be having carbs which are my lunch and not dinner plan.
Food does not have a hold on me! I basically didn't eat today even when my prof/school work had me at a breaking point (I literally cried) and I wanted to buy a pizza and eat the whole thing, but I went to my brothers and saw my baby nephew instead.
I ate a lot yesterday at the Mexican Fiesta, including wine. Probably 1500+ cals but I still didn't gain today and actually after going back to bed for 4 hours and reweighing myself when I got up and had more time to not eat/digest/bloat to go down I had even lost .6 Whoohoo.
Ame -- I hope you ate something, honey (slipping into little, old southern lady mode), you gotta have at least a little somethin-somethin' in your belly!
I'm just sort of trucking along, making myself eat things to, you know, stay alive. I think my migraine meds might be messing with me as well as the stress I'm under. I keep forgetting that Topamax (still fairly new to me) can affect your appetite, and it might explain why so many foods just taste MEH and are therefore unappealing.
People talk about food becoming repulsive, and while I wouldn't go that far, I would say that food just has no sparkle or allure and I don't seem to feel hunger.
Snark,
Never found topamax to curb my appetite or make things taste blah but I've been on it so long. Food definitely tastes good, even "sparkles" so I imagine it's something you might get back.
I did eat 400 cals yesterday. Yeah not a lot - and I'm not the type to not eat when I'm stressed, the opposite usually. I was just so stressed I was nauseous. And making up a bit for the day before.
Today I made lasagna. Ate too much of that, just because it tastes good. I guess some old habits die hard.
I've taken Topomax for migraines. Not only did it not help at all with the migraines, it didn't curb my appetite. I must be the only person to ever gain weight on that medicine. Oh, and did I mention that it made me incredibly depressed? I couldn't speak without bursting into tears. Yeah, it wasn't a pretty sight.
Yesterday I ate like a normal person, but a bit less. Yay! Woke up very early, sleep deprived and with a bad migraine. Boo! Am determined to not feel sorry for myself today. I'll keep on trucking. I put on a very cute dress, tights, high boots and am having a good hair day, so it can't be that bad.
Today I have a food migraine. Lasagna last night, so either it was the sugar content or the rice (pasta) or the dairy. On the plus side after bingeing on lasagna I'm only back to 134 and I imagine some of that is bloat/the fact that it still feels like it is sitting as a rock in my belly. Why do I break my vegan diet? I do suspect I have a prob with rice, but I'm not giving it up just less.
Oh, a good hair day, Lucky, those are the BEST! The whole world looks better when the hair is good! Your whole outfit sounds stylin'! I hope the migraine won't be too disruptive to your day!
I'm sorry about the food migraine, Ame. I hope it will subside quickly! I bet the lasagna was delicious.
Maybe it is stress plus the Topamax that is doing me in, though this does seem to be a really common side effect of the drug, so much so that people try taking it for weight loss I guess.
I HAVE to get my xmas shopping done, plus my xmas cards, and I'm just not feeling it. Ho ho ho. My husband wants a deep fat fryer (gah!), anybody have one and have a recommendation?
Snark - What about the oil free or low oil version of a deep fat fryer?
It is a common side effect, I just think it goes away with time. Although other than the headaches, I honestly am afraid to get off the med because of weight gain!
Finally headache is starting to go away. Today didn't help. Travel all day, so I don't drink because I have 2 - 2 hour bus rides with no access to rest room on the coach. ugh.
I am once again master of my stomach and mind today. Made it to the gym (zumba, 690 cals) and didn't really eat. I even took food with me on my travels and didn't want it. I did eat breakfast and a snack after the gym. I am definitely way under on the cal front and happy. Tomorrow I expect it to skyrocket as I have means to reheat food at work...lasagna (at least i can only eat what i have with me).
I may walk to my friend's after work to drop off her food. That's an hour each way. I'd say that's a good work out for the day...although comparatively cuts into my schoolwork time!
Ame -- You know that song, "It All About Da Oil, 'Bout Da Oil, No Trouble..." yeah, it's like that. (I might be remembering the lyrics wrong). I told him this morning I couldn't pick one out for him on amazon (I was overwhelmed with choices) and he is going to pick it out. I don't fry anything (he wants to use it mostly for seafood,) so he needs to check it out!
Good job being the Master of Your Domain!
How is everyone else doing?!?
*** Edited later because many words were missing and it didn't make any sense (pre-coffee!)
Snark, I hope your husband can get on board the low oil fryer. If they work like they say they do, I don't see why not!
Pretty good day yesterday. I didn't eat the best but I was under calorie and killed it at the gym.
I was busy on the run and hand a dentist appointment so I didn't want to eat before or after it. I had a protein smoothie for breakfast and then a late afternoon snack of carrots and hummus. Lots of carrots and hummus lol Not so good on my tender gums after the dentist but so good. *little bites* Was out again and missed dinner. Stopped at the coffee shop between errands and had a coffee and gluten free vegan pumpkin loaf. It could have been almost 2 pieces. I think that is what spurred me on to the gym even though I was late for class. Then I did, not only zumba, but a new bootcamp class. OMG that was killer. Came in at a deficit of 1400 cals even with the pumpkin loaf! Holy crow. The scale showed it this morning at 103.6. whoohoo.
Boo! Am determined to not feel sorry for myself today. I'll keep on trucking. I put on a very cute dress, tights, high boots and am having a good hair day, so it can't be that bad. 
