Special s for Sum. Sooo sad. I don't know how you and Zumba can stay so positive and energized when you are in the midst of such personal "hardships". (with apologies for my inability to find the precise words to help you feel better.)
I do admire your strength and resilience....as evidenced by the fact that you have not displayed an ounce of irritation or sadness on this forum...until now. Don't kid yourself.....This is a major life stressor....Any of us would be cryin' our eyes out, regardless of the circumstances.
Like you, I chose the "to have loved and lost" path rather than the "never to have loved at all". Doubtless you have known love and joy and, in the face of future "messiness", I hope you and your Spouse can find Gratitude for each other and the Gifts that I know you gave one another.
This we ALL know: You are a smart, determined woman. You are not alone. And you have a Very Bright Future.
Sum, I am so sorry you are going through this. Please know that we are here for you, as I'm sure many others will be too. Give yourself permission to accept help when it's offered..everyone wants the best for you.
Sum I wrote you back in private message so I won't repeat all that here.....Know that you are going to be okay, I know it is hard to believe that now. Right now try and just think about one day at a time, not the future....you are in shock.
SEEMYFEET: you talk about how I can be so positive..Trust me I have my days..but this has been going on for so long, and I was so unhappy for so long that I know this is for the best although it makes me sad that I won't have a family anymore. I feel sad for my kids. But I made a decision a long time ago...that I had two choices....curl up into a ball and have a pitty party and wallow in sadness or grab life by the balls and live it the best way that I can for the time that i have left. I chose the later....
I am so sorry Sum... I have been mia for a few weeks, only my own doing. fell off the wagon and took a few days to find it again...only to come back here and see this news. As like the others you must be a very strong women to only now be letting us into your inner personal ****....that explains the wine the other weekend, no? Please take care of yourself....I understand the not feeling like eating (went through a heartbreaking breakup 2 years ago this month bringing me to my lowest weight as an adult...)....eat small amounts when you can and as Zumba said....stay hydrated...
Okay I'm going to lighten the mood here a bit to maybe take sum's mind off her problems for a little bit. I know when I first found out I was getting divorced I was grateful for any little distraction.........
Today is my second day on this cleanse....should be an interesting if I can get through the day. I"m going to try and keep out of the kitchen as much as possible. Roasting a chicken for the kids and I don't want to be around that bird after it is cooked and served. I know if I get through this day I'll feel so much better.
I'm not going to zumba today because my son has his college planning meeting with the guidance counselor and I am supposed to be there. I get nervous meeting with anyone at school, not sure why. Maybe it is memories of being in a strict college prep school. High school was not the happiest place for me.......
It is a cloudy melancholy kind of day today here.....Not sure if I'll be walking outside, it seems chilly....I'll have to get some exercise into my day somehow....my membership expired at the gym and I can't really afford the membership fee now....so I'll be hoping they run another special .......I'm going to have to find another way to get my workout in.....have a good day everyone..and Sum you are in my thoughts and prayers.........please don't hesitate to contact me if u need to talk...you know i'm always on facebook..
I am at 147.2 this morning, down from 149.8 just this past Friday morning. Started TOM overnight so all in all I count this last week as a success. It always seems that I get a surge of "I need to workout NOW!!!" just a few days before I start. And I did....along with incorporating all the "ingredients" that I know work for me: cardio, green tea twice a day, lots of fresh veggies and fruit, WATER!, and laying off the processed food. Now. If I can just make this work until it all becomes HABIT again I may see 13_ sometime in the beginning of summer. And that's another thing that I learned about myself when it all "clicked" for me that caused me to lose my 75 pounds....I can not put a "im going to lose x amount of weight by x date on the calendar". It sets me up for failure. What I CAN do is all of the above....and the scale takes care of itself. So..for the next challenge I am going to stay away from stating "pounds to lose" or "# to see on the scale". Its going to be about behaviors and let the scale be a guide.....
Thanks for letting me vent about this ladies.... Have a Fabulous Day!!!
I was back at 174.2 this am, so I am going to change my profile to reflect that I've lost 30 pounds, am half way to my goal, and no longer obese on the BMI charts! Pretty amazing that all of that came with one little pound! I'm pretty happy today!
sum - hope you are doing ok today. Did ok yesterday with food, not so much today. Went out for large breakfast this morning and it's been downhill from there. Raining again - so no biking or jogging. I just need fresh air and sunshine. Is that too much to ask?
Thanks ladies And Zumba is right, listening to your success stories about weightloss is invigorating!
I stayed in bed most of the day; I hadn't showered since Sunday. I finally got out, showered, fixed my hair and put some real clothes on I haven't eaten much, and what ever I eat, it does not stay in; I have a feeling I will have no problem meeting my 159 pound goal by May 1st
I did not walk today, nor go to the gym. BUT I will tomorrow. I have weight trained nearly a month, and even though the muscles don't show yet, I feel everything tightening up, my arms feel "heavy" and not ( or less) squishy I am not going to throw that hard work away, I am only about 3-4 weeks away from actually starting to see definition. So tomorrow is a double workout day...walk in the morning and weight in the afternoon. -- Keeping busy and healthy is very important right now!
I may go and see a doc for some anti anxiety meds. I get panic attacks and that is when I start throwing up. I need to be able to keep some food in, otherwise I will not have the energy for the gym and walks.
I was going to treat myself later on this week; pedicure! Pretty feet always make me feel happy
Sorry I have no strength for personals; but I appreciate all of you
Honey know that we all care about you...You have to eat in order to have teh strength to work out....no lie, I almost fainted in the gym a few times when I was depressed.......make sure you hydrate also......
I admire that you are still going to workout during all of this...exercise may become your escape....I know with me I hate the fact that with all that my husband has taken away from me he managed to take my health too when I gained weight...I'm not going to let that happen, hence my struggle to get back in shape. YOu worked hard for those muscles.....keep them baby..otherwsie you are going to lose weight and just be bones and jiggle..not attractive......
Tuesday: 1325 calories, 3.5 mi on the treadmill, 2.5 mi jog @ 5.5mph pace plus warmup and cooldown
I am down another lb this morning but it feels so precarious, like the slightest variable will send me back up over my set point. Will be very careful over the next few. My initial hope was to be at goal by July 4th..this is very unlikely now since I keep letting the "one meal off plan" turn into a weekend off plan.
sum, any ways you can focus on yourself right now are great. Definitely get the meds..I go through phases of panic attacks and they're awful..I carry my meds around everywhere but probably haven't taken one in 2 years. Just knowing they're in my purse helps me through a lot. Stay hydrated and eat what you can keep down..think of it like early pregnancy where whatever you can get down is a positive.Even if you don't know it yet, the rest of us do - you are going to be great.
zumba, looks like it will be a beautiful day here today..hope you can get to the beach.
guac, hope your weather is good there today..yesterday was in the freaking 40's here..took DS to practice and I was wearing a winter jacket and gloves..ridiculous.
luv, how was the elliptical?
jen, what an amazing day you had!! Congrats on all you've accomplished..any reward planned?
plainsgirl, glad to see you..I know something about falling off the wagon myself! What a great whoosh you had!
Good morning everyone.....it is supposedly going to be a very warm sunny day here, I'm looking forward to taking a long walk. Hopefully I'll get a DVD in sometime today.
I didn't lose that much doing my cleanse as I thought I would. Still, I'm down a little bit so I'm happy..hope to get to an even 140 by the time this challenge is over....
Good morning, all! Raining here, but may clear up and be sunny later! I planted a flat of alyssum yesterday in my front beds, so I hoping it doesn't freeze again! I have to get stuff in the ground because of this darn grad party! I was back up to 175 this morning, but we went out for Mexican last night. I'm hoping it's water from all the salt. I'll be drinking a ton today in an attempt to flush it out!
Sum: Thinking about you and hoping you are hanging in there.
Thanks Jennifer! I always balloon after Mexican too, but usually 3-4 pounds, so count your blessings You will be back down in a day or two, plus this is your whoosh time; right after TOM.
I came down with a cold; ugh. DD started her TOM, and I think our bodies have been trying to get back in sync with each other. My handy dandy TOM app says I am due to have it by Friday...but last month I was over a week late. So between this cold and pending TOM I think I am hanging onto water. -- I am below 160, but considering I have prolly retained less than 1000 calories total since last Saturday, my weight should be down way more I am hoping that I could eat something today and actually hold it in.
I was going to go to the gym, but I think it is not a good idea because of my cold. I should let my body rest.
s for Sum. Sooo sad. I don't know how you and Zumba can stay so positive and energized when you are in the midst of such personal "hardships". (with apologies for my inability to find the precise words to help you feel better.) 
And Zumba is right, listening to your success stories about weightloss is invigorating! 
I am hoping that I could eat something today and actually hold it in.
