I am definitely not going to make my goal this challenge. That is ok, I am not going to punish myself on this matter. Still, I was hoping to make some progress. But....
Let me rant about my husband. Thursday he went out for burgers and beers with some guy friends, and brought home a ton of leftover greasy onion rings. Yesterday, I came home to find him baking a batch of his famous walnut, chocolate chip, butterscotch cookies.
Its not like he force fed me or anything, but I feel like he is trying to sabotage me.
It is beautiful here in Oregon today too Jennifer. We have had 4 amazing days in a row. Unbelievable! Yesterday hit 80. I think today will be a bit cooler but the sun is out and it looks beautiful. Hope you get the results you are looking for by the 1st!
Lol cookies are definitely one of my downfalls, June. I decided to make some to send to my college daughter for finals next week.... well let's just say ooops. I know why I avoid making cookies and other sweets when I'm trying to watch my weight now (ha ha well not like I haven't known before). Will get back on track though. I'm going to take the dog to the dog park soon and do my elliptical later (have done that nearly ever day this week). We will get back on track.
Sorry I didn't scroll back to more posts as I need to get off here quickly today. WE can do this everyone! Keep it up!
junem - you could have been echoing my thoughts from yesterday!
Boy oh boy can I relate to the hubby...mine has been on leave for 10 days and has eaten NOTHING but CRAP! Soda, peanut butter m&ms, chips & dip, doughnuts, the list is endless. He seems to think he is on 'vacation'. And it was really upsetting to me - but didn't know why. My final straw was yesterday opening the fridge and seeing a bunch of soda in the door and getting mad. When I got insta-angry I realized that reaction was ridiculous and I needed to stop doing that to myself. It was like an idiot alert-bell went off in my brain or something.
And now I know that it is a control issue for me.
A little (okay, huge) part of me has always been jealous that he eats whatever he wants and feels no guilt or remorse. That's always been the hardest part for me - the insane guilt after eating something 'bad'. That's why I think that my rigid control over my environment makes me feel safe. And why his lackadaisical food attitude is(was) extremely threatening to me. It clicked that the only thing I can control what I eat. His choices are just that - his own.
My emotional issues with food are my own and I am actually glad that he doesn't feel/struggle with the guilt.
What a beautiful Saturday here! Eating well and went for a run, which was much shorter than I had hoped..1.6 miles. But I averaged a 9:30 pace, which is good for me, and walked 1.6 miles also.
2fc, I hear you, and great for you resisting all the temptations!
luv, great consistency with the elliptical..hope you enjoyed your walk too!
june, ugh, sorry..don't you wish they could be on board with our food choices
I wlould really like to keep the ice cream out of the house but even if I don't buy it, DH will just go out and get it, and that's not something he can hide in a cupboard.
jen, yardwork burns a lot of calories! Have fun!
sum, so glad you ate well! You are very strong..you will be great!
guac, stay with us. I'll be lucky of my weight is down 2 lbs for this whole challenge, but I'm still here fighting, and so are you..that's a victory in itself!
I'm in the car on my phone, so I will be brief (too hard to type too much!). Yard work was good and exhausting. DS and I did almost 3.5 hours and I was tired! Tonight DH's band is playing out so we are heading to a bar. I am going to stick to light beer with a water in between! Have a great Saturday night!
natamars - thanks for the kind words. I do think that weight loss is one area where getting an "A for Effort" or and award for participation really does mean something. Even if the results are not immediate and obvious, just the fact I am conscious of the calories I am consuming and have a commitment to getting the weight off means that I am ahead. I haven't given up, and that counts for something.
2 days of eating around 1500 cal; scale 162.2; WTF??
I think I need to see a doctor. Maybe it is the perimenopause, stress....? I am beyond sad. -- Life is so hard right now, and my body is being a butthead. -- Atleast after going through what I went though this week, and not eating; please let me slim down. When people don't eat they usually lose weight
Sorry to be a downer. I just wish there was one positive thing about my life right now. But getting fatter and not eating, feels like a kick in the nuts.
Rant over. Thank you ladies
On a positive note. I went to my vappu party last night. I received so many compliments how pretty I looked I wore this purple flowy dress from WHBM, with matching sky high heels. The dress had a subtle snake skin print; you had to look hard for it though; it was not scream at your face animal print. -- I guess being the greeter boosted my self esteem a bit
I am dragging myself to the gym today. Maybe I will do a walk later on. It is overcast/rainy here, but the rest of the week is supposed to be beautiful. Many walks in my future. And I told my landlord that I would spread all the mulch; I miss the yard work. ( I am itching to start planting my pots of flowers).
Sending all and thanks for dealing with me and my foul moods!!
Here, the only way I will make my 152 goal will be with the help of my colonoscopy scheduled 5/1 LOL. Since its my first, I have no idea how much weight you temporarily lose as a result of the cleanse. Not looking forward to it... But you do what you've got to do. I'm at high risk for having pre-cancerous polyps; we shall see.
I'm a little disappointed that I haven't lost weight this challenge (start: 157.5, today: 157.2) but I've had so many NSV that its actually been a great 6 weeks. I need to ratchet back my portion size to get back to losing. But maintaining is an accomplishment that I'm proud of, too!
Sum: I bet you looked amazing last night! A doctor's visit may not be a bad idea.
Guacamole: I totally agree on the A for effort. The scale cannot be our only measure of success.
Natamars: great job on the run and walk. Hope you're having another beautiful day.
Heidi: Your diet outlook is fantastic. I hope your colonoscopy goes well. I had one at 19 for polyps, but I can't remember if I lost weight (I probably only weighed about 125, so I didn't even think about it) Sigh.
It's been raining here all day, so I am being lazy. I'm also a little hung over (oops), so I'm enjoying some couch time.
Well. Haven't I done such a fine job on this challenge. :/
On the plus side I seem to be "on a roll...." and don't intend to stop any time soon. I AM quite proud of myself for not letting the scale go about 150...the number that I swore to myself that I would NEVER allow myself to see again. I worked too damned hard to lose this weight.
I promise that I will get better at personals. It seems to be a huge downfall for me. You all give me such support and encouragement and I would love to be able to do the same for you. And that would mean getting on here and responding on a daily basis....
Absolutely the weirdest thing has happened. I dropped nearly 4 pounds over night; ya I ran to the potty like crazy. I must have just been filled with water. So today, I exceeded my goal; but it remains to be seen if it sticks.
Sum: nice whoosh! I hope it sticks!! DH is in a band called The Toy Pianos; I guess they are kinda folky/rock. He sings and plays rhythm guitar, harmonica. I'm a tad biased, but I think they're great. Just 5 40-something guys playing for fun. (They have songs and a video on thetoypianos.com).
I was up to 173.4 this morning, so if I'm really good today I will make this challenge. I'm tired of the 170s. I feel like I've been around 174 for ever. I'm definitely ready for our next challenge!!
You have done awesome Jennifer! You dropped nearly 10 pounds during this challenge, right? So what's your goal for our next challenge?
The challenge will be 7-8 weeks long; I will shoot for 7 pounds
I love listening to live bands. -- My kids and DH are quite musical, and there is always someone playing music at our house. -- Glad you had good time and maintained your weight over the weekend (did you have some cocktails?)
Sum: Yes, I've almost made my 10 lb goal; hopefully I will by May Day. I think my next challenge goal will be 10 too. I just have to think of a good splurge for a reward. Clothes may not be the best idea since I still won't be near goal, so I have to think of something else! I also love live music, and yes, I had way too many drinks Saturday! Mostly beer though and I resisted any munchies! I have to drink a ton of water this week!
and thanks for dealing with me and my foul moods!!
