You are NOT a failure Veggie. You are a lovely human being, stop stressing right now luv.
You have lost weight before and you can do it again. You have to want to do it though. I think that's where I am right now, I do want to lose weight, but can fit happily into all of my clothes, in fact some of them are loose on me from my initial weight loss, so I am being naughty in putting off starting back on plan until I start back to work full time in September. I actually remember weighing 11 stone about 15 years ago and thinking I was fat and I would never wear shorts or show any leg if I could help it. Now look at me, add four stone to this body and I live in shorts and have even bared my belly in front of a total stranger and allowed him to make a hole in it!!! I'm either more comfortable with myself or I am just plain mad....a complete nutter as hubby would say.
No matter though, I am happy with myself, my life and me as an individual cos I know I am a nice person albeit a fat one.
So Veggie my dear, head up high, have a cry if you want, but know that you are NOT a faliure, you have been a Godsend to me since I started reading this page, you have great wit and have made me giggle more than once and I like you

Well do this together if you want, let me know ok.
Take care, Love Chris. x