Good evening ladies! I know I have been MIA, but Easter time is very busy around here. DH is the choir director, and his baseball season is just starting, plus we are trying to get dome yard work done before it gets too hot. I think I overdid it a little, I feel verytight and achy. I also think I have a fever. I am off to take a nice quiet shower (the kiddies are in bed) and get to bed early. I hope I am not catching a cold, because it would be devastating if I miss all the Easter things at church. ((hugs)) to all you wonderful ladies!!!

Happy Thursday Everyone......

DS got half of his stitches out of his finger, it was not quite healed. He goes next Wed. to get the rest out and to start therapy. All in all, the x rays show great healing. Amen.

It is beautiful, here in Indy today. It was 82 yesterday and supposed to be that today again. May take Bella (dog) for a walk when I get home. Both of us could use a walk.

Great job on all the losers! YOU all rock!

Hope everyone has a wonderful Easter weekend.

God Bless

Annie

Ahh Emma, yep TOM is a *****. But you'll lose that measly one lb in a day! :)

Happy Saturday!!!

Nothing like physical labour to clear the cobwebs!!

Up at 7am, Clyde was very insistant that I feed him.
Had a nice cuddle with DS. Woke up with the whole family and both cats in bed!

We have an egg hunt in the park at 11. i asked DH to take the rug cleaner back.

I will brainstorm my to do's and then prioritize later.

-make veggie tray and dip
-clean both bathrooms
-move end tables and extra chairs to basement
-fold laundry
-call Avon customers with orders
-make 1 more pan of jello for cut outs for tomorrow
-maybe make cookies for tomorrow, ran out of brown sugar
-go to BIL&SIL for dinner(at 6:30), arrive anytime they say
-take a bath, I am achey from using the rug cleaner

My carpets look glorious!! I refused to put the end tables back in the livingroom. Now there is no place to leave, cups, beer cans etc laying around!!!! *evil chuckle* I am putting the 4 extra diningroom chairs down there too. hee hee. I am getting so minimlist!! I reaaranged the furniutre too. Time for a shift in energy.


HUGS!! and Happy Easter!!!

I thought I had a great week last week. I had no soda, no sweets and I worked out 4 days and I had a gain. I gained 1.60 lbs.

For a split second I just wanted to say the **** with all this. But I don't want to have to buy bigger clothes and I don't like being over 250 lbs much less 200. So yesterday was my 3 month checkup at my Family doctor (she checks my thyroid every 3 months). I talked to her about how I feel my body betrays me. She acted like I might be eating more than I think I am and such. It pissed me off! She did say that my blood works shows that I am slightly Insulin Resistant so she said we would try glucophoge and see if it helped my efforts.

She asked if I was interested in the weight loss surgery. I am NOT! Most people that I know who have had it are thin but they look horrible!

I could just cry. But I'm a fighter so I'm going to fight. I will see her again in 6 weeks to see if the glucophoge is working. I can tell you that I'm going to work my *** off and I will take her my food logs and such. I am trying to get my mind and soul into a position where I truly believe I can do this. I want to so bad, I just need to believe I can and I'm almost there because I'm pissed off and that's when I really acomplish things.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Susie)))))))))) )))))))))))))))))))))))))

Happy Easter!!!
:m: :m: :m: Here is some virtual candy, so we all can say we had some :D!!!

Hello everyone and Happy Easter!

I have been missing awhile I know...had a bout with the stomach/intestinal virus that put me out for a few days....then work to catch up on, then my boyfriend had some issues that he needed support for, so I have been elsewhere. Not sure how the weight is to be honest...I haven't weighed myself in a while....just too much going on and I simply forget. Sounds silly I know, but it is the truth. Anyway, I know that I am doing okay, I have truly shrunk my stomach....I eat about half of anything and am stuffed. Last night had some crab puffs, a salad, and maybe 1/2 cup of pasta with shrimp and I was done. Just can not eat the quantity anymore! :)

Sounds like everyone is keeping on....good for all of you. I may not stop here often, or make a lot of personal comment, but all of you fine ladies make my day and give me inspiration!

Susie....I had LASIK 2 years ago. I was going to have to start wearing glasses with my contacts for reading, so I thought I would just do it! I had 20/200 vision before and now it is better than 20/20 with both eyes working. Since I am over 40 and was facing the need for reading glasses, they did mono vision with me, one eye is for distance and one eye is for close...sounds weird, but over time I really can't tell that they are different. It works great. I had to have an "enhancement" a year after the initial surgery and they was the best! Made the biggest difference of all and now I am glasses free totally! I love it! Best money I ever spent! Good Luck!

Hugs to all
Lilybutt

Hey friends,
HAPPY EASTER!!
Once again I have no good excuse for my absence. I've not been op lately, I've really fellen off the proverbial wagon...LOL. I've only made it to curves 1x in 2 weeks. Dh is off this w-end. We rode the bike to some friends and had dinner. You know it.. I overate..:sorry:
I need to go now.
I'll do personals later, I'm sending ya'll :dust:..and hoping it gets on me.
:grouphug:

Happy Easter, Everyone!
Hope you had a wonderful day.

Susie:
I am IR too, the whole PCOS thing. I was on glucophage for about a year or so, it helped with some skin problems I had due to the IR - uneven skin tone, etc...but I didn't like being ON it. So I stopped. And yes, it's harder for us to lose weight, and we gain in our bellies and all that good stuff. But we can fight it. I totally understand about the gain. I gained 2.6 last week, and I had a good week. 60 minutes of cardio each day. The day before weigh in, I had Chinese, which is full of sodium...and I was also an TOM. I didn't think TOM would affect weight so much. But this week, it came off and then some, so I attribute it all to sodium and TOM. But I know how you feel - I was so upset and didn't have the greatest week this past week, only went to the gym two or three times, and did a terrible job at journaling - and Saturday morning, come to find out I lost 3.8lbs. It's a crazy, crazy, vicious journey that we're on. *hugs*

Stay with it, everyone. Summer is approaching fast and everything we do now will affect how we feel on that first really hot day. I hate the summer because I feel disgusting and fat and all the thin girls are wearing their cute outfits. That is my motivation - I'm not going to be all that much lighter by then, but I know I can feel much better about myself, the way I feel in my clothes and how I look...and I can walk around feeling confident that I'm on the right track.

PS: If anyone is in Weight Watchers or has thought about joining, starting in May, they have a "season pass". You pay for it up front, and it saves money for what 17 actual weeks would cost - the savings is like $45 or something. But it's a great way to start and have 17 weeks paid for and create a 17 week goal. I am going to buy the pass - it will be a great way to keep me going over the summer. It ends in August and it will be really cool to see my progress from May-Aug.

Good Morning Ladies,

Well, I visitied with a freind on Friday that has lost 90 lbs through stomach bypass surgery. She is down from a size 26 to a 16. I was VERY jealous yet extremely happy for her. She has an additional 90 lbs to go. That being said. I got up Saturday morning to go to lunch with my entire family (brothers, sil, parents, my kids) and could not find anything to wear, nothing fit. Too blubbery. With seeing my friend Friday night, then nothing fitting on Sat morning, I just bawled my eyes out with dispare. It seems no matter how hard I try, I cannot stick with any type of healthy eating nor any type of exercising. I am disgusted with myself. My DD, 20 yrs, came into my room and said, "mom, you are beautiful inside and out, no matter what". Well that just made me cry more. I have been so depressed, which lead to eating yesterday. Why am I self-destructing? What is wrong with me that I cannot get a grip on this? Why does food rule me? I think I need mental help. Summer is almost here, I have ZERO clothes for summer that fit, and vacation starts May 29. I won't fit into the airline seat or if I do, not comfortably. I just want to lay down and cry.

Sorry to load you with my emotional problems.

Annie

((((HUGSSSGGG))))) to you Annie. I know just how you feel! Go ahead and cry and then yes believe that you are a beautiful person. You are a beautiful person who is not happy with her weight and that you can change. Just concentrate on losing that 1st 5 lbs. It will make you feel so much better. When you get that off, then the next 5...10 lbs makes a dress size. Today is the last day that you have to feel this way about yourself. You can change it.

I will admit to being jealous of those bypass people but it isn't as easy as they make it seem and I have watched some people who had it 3 years ago put back on 15-20 lbs. There is a great article on it in the May issue of Oprah, go get it and read it.

Thank you to everyone who gave me encourgement concerning my post of my doctor visit. That was such a low day for me. I am not about to give up. I know that it takes a combination of things for me to get this weight off and I will work on it until I find that combination.

Who is with me?! What is your new plan (if you need one) or what will you continue to do (if it's working for you).

:goodvibes :coach:

Annie:
Hugs to you! I try to take it day to day. It's a very rough journey, full of ups and downs. When I think about how much I need to lose, I get so frustrated that I want to give up. I think many of us try weight loss plans and things but tend to give up because we are so afraid of failing. But no matter what you do, you just have to keep plodding away. A friend of mine lost a good deal of weight on Weight Watchers...and it seemed so easy for her, like every time I saw her she was smaller...but as we talked more, I could see how crazy it was for her inside. It's a tough journey. But every week that I have a loss, I know that all the little tiny things I did that week were totally worth it. There is no magic. It takes work. If weight-loss surgery is for you, consider it...but as Susie said, it's not all that easy. You WILL lose a ton of weight really quickly...but that's only because you can hardly eat.

You can hang in there, Annie. Inside, we all feel the same and that's why we are here. You've lost 11 pounds, same as me...and that's a great accomplishment! I keep thinking, oh, just 11 pounds...I have SO much much to go...but I try not to look at it that way.

Stay with us Annie! We care about you!

Girlie

(((((((((((Annie)))))))))))

You ARE beautiful in all the ways that matter. It is such a struggle for many of us. My weight is up too. I have been focussing on other things for a few months. I am happy tho. I really needed to take a break from feeling like a failure all the time. Some bodies hold onto weight a lot harder than others.
Most of us here experience that. Keep in mind all the great things about you, your family and your life. Try to make enhancing those things your goal for weight loss. You can still lose 10lbs before your trip. Focus on a lb a week. Check in here often!!!
Love you!!!

Hey Ladies! Today has been a shitty day. TOM decided to pay a visit this weekend and he is kicking my ***! I have been very aggressive and in a crappy mood all day. Got on the scale and saw that I had gained 2.75 lbs! WTF? My mama insists it's water weight but I'm still pissed! Dammit. That also means that I didn't make my Easter challenge goal. *scrowls* But I'm cool. As much as I craved sugar today, I didn't give in. I'll be damned if I mess up my Memorial Day Challenge.

I went to Walmart to put my scale on layaway (this was just after weigh in and I was depressed) and as I was walking around, I saw this cute beach towel with Betty Boop on it. I love Betty Boop so I got the towel and put it on layaway with my scale. I'm gonna use it as motivation. By the time I go to the beach this summer, I'll be in ONEderland and be able to wrap that towel all the way around me.

Annie: :hug:
We are all here for you. You are beautiful in everyway possible.
The road is VERY HARD, But there are no true short cuts. For every sucess thru surgery there are also people who regain alot of the weight, even that little stomach can stretch.
We just have to pick ourselves up and keep trying. We only fail when we give up. My friend, I'm not ready to give up yet. So wipe those dang tears and get back into the race....:carrot:
I went to curves today. Thats 1x this week. WOO HOO...
I set a new goal of 10lbs by memorial day. That'll be very tough but I'll try..

Good morning ladies!!

((hugs)0 to all who are going through a rough time. Keep plugging away and things will be great!

I had a touch of the flu last week, and it culminated with the stomach bug on Monday. I am feeling better, just disappointed that I sepnt all day Monday in bed and not with the family. I also wanted to go exercise, but that will have to wait until tomorrow. I have to work this afternoon, so I will not be able to go today. Have a great day ladies!!!

Good Morning,
I was lurking yesterday because I was really eating off plan. Started today out the same way and then made a decision to stop it right there! Coming here is my turn around in the road. I might have started badly but I don't need to finish badly. I'm just pretty sure the scales will be up this week. I'm very disappointed in that, but you know, going down the road of eating badly and not exercising isn't going to change it, turing that thought process around is the only thing that will. So, I'm turning around (again)--I keep getting lost on this journey. But just like a road trip I can only get there if I keep going, and I'm wanting to come racing into Onederland.

I have been thinking about my doctor's visit last week and how she told me that if the Glucophage doesn't work I might see a Bariatric specialist. I am not interested in the surgery but I thought I would see if they offer anything else. I didn't find anything but I did do one of their caculators to see what sort of results I could expect if I did do the surgery. It told me to expect to loose 70% of my weight which would take me to 176 and it would take 18 months. Well, my TOPS goal weight for myself is 180. I thought to myself, you know I know that I can loose enough (with a lot of hard work and effort) to get to 180 without the surgery. Seeing those numbers gives me hope that I can do this on my own with diet and exercise and in just about the same amount of time.

So, there is where my head is today. Feel free to comment on these and any other thoughts you have.

Hello Ladies

Thank you so much for the encouragement. I am in a better place today in my head. One day at a time. I did make a dr appt for this Friday. I have had irregular bm's for many years and it is not getting any better. It is to the point I have small accidents before I can get to the restroom. Hopefully the doc can enlighten me on what is going on.

My eating was better yesterday and not so bad today. It is such a mental struggle not to eat. Susie, you are so right about all of this. I just need to focus and not be so hard on myself and negative. I am usually a positive person too.

I want to recommit to healthier eating and exercising, but mentally I am not there. It would just be another failure. Why is this so dang hard?

Hope everyone is doing great today!

Thank you again for the great support. I don't think I could get any more depressed, however I do feel better.

Annie

Good morning ladies!

Well I didn't lose a thing this week, didn't expect to as I ate way too many bad things on Easter Sunday. Silly me decided to go to the store on an empty stomach and by the time I got round my blood sugar was dropping slightly and I ate 2 donuts in the car on the way home. My Easter treat was supposed to be a creme egg but they had none (should have taken that as an omen shouldn't I!) that is how I came to have the donuts...chose those instead as a treat for everyone, only bought 6 so we would have 1 each...

I got home and I had bought some mini croissants for the kids for next day's breakfast, I lost count of how many I ate as I was unpacking the shopping and putting dinner on...I made sure the kids ate the rest the next day. I think the kids nearly keeled over when they asked how many they could have and I told them to eat them all, croissants are mummy's thing and normally is woe betide anyone who might not leave her at least a couple!

I didn't eat any chocolate tho! I was pretty good at dinner (mind you I was so full from the donuts and croissants!) and ate ham and veggies, but I did have some jam tart and sugar free cool whip for dessert (now there's a mix!) but I didn't eat it all.

Monday I was good all day till the jam tart came out after dinner and had a piece with sugar free cool whip again!

At least I didn't gain any weight which is what I thought would happen!

I've been gardening, find it so much easier to do with a little bulk removed. My back yard was an absolute disaster area with things the dogs had chewed up and strewn around (pool filter, pool tools, balls, you name it they cnewed it, they're only puppies tho) and poop patrol hadn't been done in a while so I spent 3 hours cleaning that up last night. All that is left in back yard now is pool skeleton (we're getting a new one as old one came with the house and was a bit nasty) which has to be pulled up out of the crater they put it in and broken down. 2 buckets of poop now in the doggie dooley! I felt great after all that work I have to say!

Hugs to all those going thru physical and mental anguish. I've been there, it helped me put back all the weight and more that I lost before, but has put me in a better place this time thank goodness. It's almost like a lesson learned. It's ok to beat yourself up as long as you know when to stop and don't let it turn into long term abuse. Sometimes a self kick in the pants is a good thing.

We CAN do this girls. I could not do this without all your support. Once upon a time admitting that I had gained a pound or not lost any would have been way too traumatic for me, not now. I know I won't be judged badly, but that I will get the cyberhug that I need to help me carry on, encouragement and good advice.

Good luck to all those on the Memorial Day Challenge. I always set my goals in life too high so I shall just plod along to my goal of 199, even if it takes until Labor Day! Short term goals and me don't go together!

Love and hugs to all of you.

Sarah

Sarah - I tend to nibble as I unpack too - I get so hungry from seeing everything on the shelves! And I LOVE croissants! They are heavenly!

Happy Friday Everyone. It's been so busy at work I haven't had time to catch up. This week has been so strange - I didn't journal at ALL. I start out the days trying to keep track in my head and then by dinnertime, lose it and just say "whatever"! So, it may not be a good weigh in. I'm going to visit family out of town tonite and so I'm going to weigh in at lunchtime instead of early tomorrow morning, and I'm wearing jeans and everything and somehow I'm freaking out about that. I wore shorts and a t-shirt last weekend.

I haven't been eating many veggies this week either. This is totally old-school, but we defrosted our freezer today - yes, we have an old fridge - so we had to eat everything up and we've been eating out most of the week - not horribly bad stuff, I tried to make the best decision. I've gone to the gym three nights this week. I hope I break even, jeans and all.

I need to stop playing this weigh-in game though.

I need to be more dilligent about the gym too.

Girlie

Good morning ladies!! I am feeling much better. The only good thing that came out of it was that food just didn't tase very good, adn so far I am posting a loss. I will WI tomorrow morning and see what it says. Dh and I are going to a White Sox game tonight, his boss gave him the tickets, so it is really a treat because we did not have to pay for them. I am a little excited because THis is our first game this season. We are taking all the kiddies in two weeks. it will be our youngest daughter's first game. I can't wait to take them all!

I am off to a slow start today, and I have to get my behind in action. Later chicas!

Hi Ladies,

Just got back from the doc. She put me on Levbid for my bowel issue, took 4 tubes of blood for various testing, and I have to do the poo test and mail it in. How exciting. Depending on the results, will determine a colonscopy (sp). As for my depression over the weight issue, that I need to get it in my head before I could get it otherwise. My first WI w/WW is today at lunch for our at work program.

God give me the strength to do this for more than a few days, or weeks.

Hope all is well with all you lovely ladies.

Have a marvy weekend.

Annie

Good morning, just checking in to let you know that I'm 2lbs lighter :D

You ladies are so special!!!!

Today started with minor drama. DH is hard of hearing. DD crawls into bed and asks if she can hold her guinea pig, DH hears, the guinea pig is out. He says , WHERE are the cats??. She starts to cry. He yells. I roll over and put the pillow over my head.

The same type of thing happens with DS. I woke to both kids in their rooms crying.Life is smoother when he gets up and leaves for work at 6:30.

I forgot to feed the pets last night. I went to bed at 9 to try and get over this head cold.
They were very happy to see me this morning.

I have read the newspaper online. Drank 2 coffees.

We finally had some rain. The dryness is scary. Our ground was parched and cracked. In APRIL!! They have 6 ft cedar trees on sale at walmart for $25. I will get one for in front of the deck, in front of my swing so I can sit out without an audience.

The house across the road sold! New neighbours. Hoping for kids.There are only 6 houses here. 3 are retirees. (Nice retirees!!)

Trying hard to take the Leadership with Avon to the next level.

My weight is on the back burner as a priority but I am not going wild. I found I was only feeling like a failure and it was spilling over into my thoughts about other parts of my life.
I have mostly been purging around the house and getting it streamlined and it has WORKED. it only takes about a half hour to tidy the main floor then I can dust and vacuum. It used to take 4 hours just to put stuff away. The kids have been more on the ball too. Watching favourite toys get tossed in the garbage works!

The Battle Axe Brigade was fairly well behaved on Sunday. They ARE obsessed with their appearances but it is easy to ignore because they dont comment on mine any more. Very afraid! LOL!!!!!!!!!

The evil aunt looked like death warmed over.

We have NO plans or church this weekend!!!!!


HUGS for all!!!!!!!

WOW!, We had a busy day. The county had a free hauloff day. so we took advantage and hauled off 6 pickup loads of building scrapes. I'm glad all of it's gone.

I did make it to curves 3x this week. The owner has got me doing the advanced workout. You skip the recovery stations and go around 4x. You feel like you had a workout. :carrot:

I'm still messing up on my food, but not as bad
I'm glad to see everyone is doing well. I'll try to post more regularly.



Later Friends :grouphug:

Hey everyone,
I've had a good day, I ate less. I know I went over on my pts but, much better than I have been doing lately. I've been very busy. worked in the garden a couple of hours, went grocery shopping, did 4 loads of laundry, and cleaned in general.
I slept well last night. That is probably where I got all this energy.
I really have plans to get back op. I plan to get to curves 3x next week.
I bought plenty of fresh fruits and veggies....:blah:

What I really need is :kickbutt:

Hope everyone is having a great w-end.

:dust: for all of us.

later

*lurking*

Hello everyone. I'm still learning my way around this site, but I hope you don't mind me popping in here.

I am wanting to lose about 110 pounds total, but my only real concern is the first 40 (to be at 199!!) I don't have a goal time, just preferably before my 25th birthday (in a year and a half!)

Good morning ladies!!!

I ahd a vey busy weekend, and I ate too much, but I am feeling good today, and I am not going to let anything get in my way to lose this weight. I was doing good last week, so I am off to re-start, and hopefully show some results!!!

Deb~ I LOVE fresh fruit and veg. Just wish someone would wash and cut them up for me..........lazy eh!

I am hacking. I felt pretty good yesterday and over did it after a day mostly in bed on Sat.
Just 3 little people today. Big kids are launched to school and were quite pleasant.
Going to story time at 10. MUST do taxes; due on the 30th.
Weight is stagnant. Body aches( cold).
AVON has a new hip hop cardio work out, 3- 10 min segments. It really appeals to me. I will order one. Most work ut things dont catch my interest. Maybe this is something that will get me moving.

HUGS!!!

Monday, Monday,

Weighed in on Friday for WW. OMG what a scary number that digital put out. YIKES!

Holly - I thought about you several times on Saturday. I planted 2 trees, four pine trees, put my little bitty garden out, fixed the wooden fence, and sprayed for weeds. I was out in the sun (79 degrees) all day long till dark. It was the most theraputic (SP) thing I have done in months. It felt great to be out in it. I got a little sunburned, however it is turning to tan already. What a great day.

Entire body was aching on Sunday, including my fingers from digging holes to plant trees and pines.

Eating was not the greatest but much better in the past. I think the Saturday work out helped. Took a walk at lunch today for 25 minutes, brisk walk. Could of gone for longer but my lower back was killing me. SHeesh, I must be getting old. haha

Best get back at it. Have a terrific evening.

Annie

Edited my signature line to match my new start weight. Holy Cow.

YeaH!!!!!! Annie!!!!!!!!! Gardening is soooo good for the soul.Good exercise too!!!!!

All the kids wee snotty and hacking too so we stayed home. Big kids arrive shortly.
I am fadiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnngggg.

Hi ladies,
sorry I've been away for so long. I really am because I have learned that if I'm not checking in daily that I end up gaining. So I'm back here and have to say that I've gained 2 pounds since I've last posted. Makes me disappointed in myself. I have been out walking some though, just eating too much.
I see there are some new people here and that's great!
Hollyhock, oh I'm so sad for your troubles,
Annie, the whole sons finger thing makes me shudder.
Well, I'm offically back at it now,

Hey everyone,
I have had my first fully op day in several weeks :dance:
I even have 2.5 pts left for the day.
I made it to curves and did the advanced wo 4x. It makes me feel like I have hope...
I'm BAAAACK :strong:

Diana: Good to hear from you.

Holly: Hope you and your little angels are feeling better...:hug:

Spring is a great time for renewal...I for one am taking time to recommit my self to getting fit. I'm too old to be thin and sexy so I'll settle for fit and healthy...LOL

Later my friends