My day yesterday was interesting.
I was OP all day and had a good morning with my kids and got them on the bus without incident. I had 2 toddlers here all day. They were great and when they napped I got lots of housework done and did some yoga.When the kids got off the bus they were both incredibly tired,crabby and whining.It was the meet the teacher picnic at 5pm.I was afraid to take them because they were so off.Anyhow, it went alright. A couple of meltdowns from my son.I got fantastic reports about both kids.Hubby met us there .He was edgy and confrontational. He has been having troubles with a guy at work and it has been consuming him.Hard for the rest of us. He and our son butt heads until bed. I was exhausted ands totally drained.Every night for a week now when everyone goes to bed I sit a tremble with stress and frustration. It takes every fibre of my being not to scream and flip on the whole lot of them.None of this is my issue but I am the one left to take care of it all.I hate it. Normally I would eat and eat til bedtime. I haven't been doing it but it is VERY hard.
I know these issues are small potatoes. I have been through much worse and dealt with things fairly well.I think the constantness is wearing me out.
My son came in to me this morning and proceeded to kick, whine and argue with me berfore I really opened my eyes. Then I heard a loud crash and a scream. I went running to my daughter and she was on the floor pinned under her bookshelf.She was climbing it to get a bunny.It scared ther crap out of all of us.
This how most days begin.with some type of total chaos.
Today I am being interviewed by a DR. Ours is retiring. There are no Drs. available but I found one who might take us on. I truly dont know how you raise and care for children without are a fammily physician. I am nervous about it.
Off to put one miserable little boy on the bus.
Good Morning Everyone and Happy Friday,
Yesterday was a little better with the eating but I still overate. I did meet my goal by exhibiting self control over some reduced fat Wheatable crackers and garlic and herb whipped cream cheese. That was my lunch and I could have eaten more and more but stopped myself. The portion I did eat was probably still too much but at least I stopped. I also stopped at dinner with my pasta and homemade tomato sauce but I overate on way too many string cheeses and duplex cookies. Sad to say but that's improvement. I didn't physically journal but I did think an awful lot and came to a few insights. My goal for today is to remain acutely aware of my portions and remind myself of what is "normal". Have a great day all.
Suzy
Well, the scales weren't kind to me last night I really thought I was going to be down, but I gained .75 lbs. I know it's not a lot, but I really wanted them to go down. I think maybe my IC flare had something to do with it. Because I really felt like I had lost. Oh, well. I'll get it next week.
I'm feeling better today. I was able to stay calm during the day. (A lot of prayer helped!) I try to be positive about this disease that I have. I know a lot of other women who live in pain with it everyday. And I'm a lot better than I was last Jan. It's just that when those days come, it really gets me down. I think it's because I have to manage it everyday. I take a lot of meds for it, and I've had to change a lot of my lifestyle to be able to function with it. But I keep praying and I keep doing the things that I know help me to feel better. I can't just give up!
On a positive note, I went to my Accounting class last night and I'm sort of excited about it. Numbers and math scare me..so it's going to be good to learn the therory's behind Accounting and I've learned in life that when you confront something it's not so scary anymore. I'm really trying to overcome things in my life that intemidate me and hold me back.
Holly:You did well to not eat when you were stressed out by all that was going on. Good luck with interviewing the doctor.
Annie: How's your son feeling. How did you do on those goals you set for yourself?
Laura: Feel free to be "real" anytime. I feel like we all need to be more open and honest, most of all to ourselfs. It's scary to do that sometimes isn't it? i know I am. But I'm trying to work on that.
Welcome to Wild Blue.
If I missed anyone, I'm sorry to have missed you.
I've got to get busy at work. The mail just got here..time to go and sort it.
My goal today is to be more positive about things I can't control. I'm going to journal about that and I'll let you know how it comes out.
To continue.....
I did not eat supper last night and I had a small snack around 8:30.I dont remember ever missing a meal in my life but I just was not hungry.I am not hungry this morning either. I may wait it out until I feel some real hunger.
Suzy~ I am with you on the cream cheese and crackers. I think you did very well to stop. I also eat a healthy diet and OP food all the time but tend to over do it. Portions, portions, portions.
((((((HUGS, SUSIE))))))))))) You ARE doing well and you are positive and motivating!!!
My goal for today to to be at peace with my family.
Good Friday morning everyone. The last few days have been so busy here at the office and my home computer is down so this is my first chance to write. I've been doing alright food wise. Last night bf and Iwent to dinner at a great steak place. I didn't do too bad. Didn't order an appetizer and had a small steak with broiled scallops. Instead of the loaded baked potato (3 cheeses, bacon and scallions = yummy) I had the rice pilaf. I finished my plate, but it was worth it. Plus for breakfast I had 1 piece of toast with pb and a cup of cantaloupe and lunch was just a roastbeef on pumpernickel sandwich and water so I really don't feel bad about finishing my plate. Still haven't exercised but I am purchasing the WATP tapes this weekend. Then I don't have to worry about waking up before bf goes to work to go walking I can do it after he leaves. I'm up to make his lunch every day anyway so now I just won't go back to sleep until it's time to get d ready for school and me ready for work.
I haven't had a chance to read through any entries yet. I wanted to make sure I got a chance to write before chaos happens (selfish of me, huh!) I hope everyone is doing well and meeting goals. I'm not being too hard on myself for goals today because Fridays are bf and my night out to indulge in alcoholic beverages while d is with her father. So my goal will be not to order chicken wings or philly cheesesteak to bring home from the bar. Off to read some posts!!! Happy Friday everyone!!
TGIF for sure! Hope everyone is having a super Friday. Not bad here. Weigh in is tomorrow, a little scared about it, as I don't feel I have lost this week. Maybe it is the transition from Phase I to Phase II, and those danged cookies...hehe.
Susie - thanks for asking about my son. He also has two cracked ribs, but is taped up and going to play tonight. I tried reasoning with him, but he is determined to play. I wish I had his spirit for dieting. haha
Holly - I can remember when mine were little, I feel for ya sister. It is stressful enough with children's woes, then to have to take it from the DH. You are awesome, and strong, hang in there babe.
Suzy - mmmmmmmmm cheese and crackers. Seems like no matter what diet you are on, you can only have half of the good stuff. Cheese, but no cracker. That type of thing.
I am staying OP, but still eating too much OP. Nuts and cheese are my downfall. I did do better yesterday and so far not to badly today. Work has been stressful and busy, at least no time for snacking. Look out evenings, here I come. Tonight I have a date, only my 2nd since divorcing. I am just not too much into it yet, and afraid of failing at relationships. Don't want that and a failed diet, so I am focusing on the Beach. YEAH!!
Hope you all stay OP this weekend and all have a wonderful, peaceful journey. Chat with you on Monday!
Good morning,
I'm at the office working this morning. I only have to be here until noon. I don't really mind working on Saturday. I just have to answer the phone for dispatch. It's usually pretty quite.
I've given myself permisson to stay on line until 9:00 a.m., then I need to work on my Account homework.
I thought I might overeat yesterday due to the fact that I was a little bummed about the scales being up at my weigh-in on Thursday. But I had a self-talk with myself and asked myself: Will overating change what happened?--No, will I feel better about myself if I overeat?-no, how will I feel physically if I overeat?-Lousy! Who wants to have indigestion, and feel their clothes tight? If I don't overeat, how will it benefit me?--Next week I will show a loss, or at least have the chance to see the scales go down. If I overeat, then the chance of that happening is gone. Also, for the first time in the whole time I've worked here, I was able to wear a regular xl t-shirt! We had a cookout for our drivers and brokers yesterday and we had ordered company t-shirts to give away. We all had to wear them yesterday and I was able to wear a xl, instead of a xxl! That's want not overeating can do!
I think it really helped for everyone to set daily goals for themselves last week. What do you all think? Want to continue doing it?
I do. My daily goal for today is to be sure that I eat at least 2 veggies. I tend to slack on that on the weekends, because we have a lot of quick meals--especially on Saturday. I'm going to make sure that I have a bag of salad in the fridge and I'm going to buy califlower and brocelli (sp?) I might steam that or just eat it raw with a sandwich instead of potato chips! I'm also going to go for a walk tonight
I'm hoping to get DH's car cleaned up this weekend and I'm setting my Sunday goal to get to the Y to walk and do upper body strenght training.
I am just plain sad today. I have been crying since before 7 am. I have reached the end of my rope with my unhappy little family.I just told them how I was feeling. It has been pretty quiet since.(see journal)
My goal for today is the same. Looking for some peace.
Susie~ we definitely should keep this up. It has been a big help.
Thankyou so much for your offer LauraLynn. It was a long , emotional day. I was on autodrive and managed to get lots done. I cried a lot. I had a good talk with my son and hubby and laid down some very specific expectations and very specifc consequencs. I am hoping for some peace.
Good Morning Ladies,
I have nothing new to report. My eating is still way out of control but today is a fresh, beautiful, fall kind of day so we'll see. If not today then Mondays are a great recommittment day. Holly- I am so sorry you are having a rough time with your family right now. I have days when I cry and feel sad about things too. And times when being a mother/wife is the hardest job in the world. Mom's are always the ultimate answer and the most responsible. It's tough. Susie- WTG with the tshirt. That must have felt really good. I like the way you talk to yourself and find the right answers. You are very consistent which is the key to all of this. Great job! You are truly an inspiration. I think the daily goals worked really well and we should deifinitely continue. If nothing else, it kept me thinking about my plans and goals. Thanks. Kelly- Sounds like you are making some good choices. LauraLynn- We have to find a way to like ourselves enough to lose this weight. We will keep plugging along until we get it. We can do it! Annie- Hope weigh in went well!! Can't wait to hear. You are also an inspiration to me. Hi WildBlue- Great group here for you.
Alright ladies, that's about it. Have a great rest of weekend and I hope we all wake up 50 pounds thinner tomorrow.
Suzy
Well, I was a peaceful uneventful night.The first in a VERY long time. I slept til 9am and woke wiht out a headache. A nice change. Hubby and I just had a normal conversation about our plans for the day without him being sharp or sarcastic.
Maybe we have cleared the air in this grumpy household and are a new path.
I ate chips while watching a movie last night. It has been months and I used to do it all the time(every night). I hope it doesn't hurt me on the scale. It was enjoyable.I watched Chicago.Hubby watched the first 2 minutes and went to bed!
I have sunday school ,groceries and Grandma's hair to do today.It will be nice.
There have been some tough expectations laid out for our son for behaviour in church with a tough consequence.So far he has being trying hard today..........
I need to put some thought into food. Slim pickins here yesterday BUT lots of tomatoes in the garden.
Have a glorious Sunday!
My goal for today is to only eat 2 starchy carbs and not snack before bed.
Hi Everyone,
I was so frustrated yesterday, for many reasons, but the one that I'll mention first was because I could get the website to come up, but then I couldn't get to the formum; the boards just wouldn't open up!
I really needed to be here too. My stress level was full tilt and I gave in to some comfort food.
I hope you all have a great day. I'm going to try to get my stress level under control.
The stress I'm dealing with is about the difficulty I'm having with an Accounting Class I'm taking. I'm just not getting it, and I have to decide by next week if I'm going to drop it or keep trying it.
If I don't get a C or better, I have money I have to pay back to my employeer, if I drop the class I have to pay back the cost of my books to my employer (that's $176.00!). The class was $318.00 and if I get a D, I have to pay back half the class would be $159.00 and also my book fees. So, you can see, this is a very expensive decision!
I'm really stressing about it. I have to decide by Sept. 28. That will give me two days of class lecture to make up my mind.
Why did I even start this in the first place? Because I wanted a degree, and I thought I would just start with a Business Degree, because I could apply it to so many job positions. But I really don't think I want a Business Degree, I think I want a Communications degree or a Human Rescources degree. I can't get those at my local community college. Ok..I'm starting to stress again!
My goal for the rest of the week is to not eat just to relieve stress.
It is a beautiful crisp,sunny day.All is resovled with our son. At least a plan of action has been implimented and hubby is out of his funk. Now it is time for MEEEEEEEE!
I think I need to move more.Or at least get a harder cardio work out. I still haven't gotten the WATP dvd but it was shipped early last week. Maybe today!!With my pedometer on I normally walk betweem 9-11 thousand steps a day. Apparently it is not enough or hard enough.
Today is a new new day. Giant group hug~Susie, Suzy,LauraLynn,Kelly ,Annie, WildBlue and everyone else. Let's do this!!!!!
WELL, my weigh in was not great. I didn't gain, but did not lose either. I stayed the same. I felt that one coming on. HOWEVER, I am kicking butt this week, and WILL have a loss!! I want skinny so badly, I know I can do this and so can you all.
Susie - I love the daily challenges. I have not been all that successful with them, however this week I am going to shine with them. Today, I will not overeat OP foods. I packed my lunch and am not going to go overboard tonight. I will drink ALL my water instead of just half my water. That, I think will help me not to overeat. I was treating myself to a DECAF/SKIM MILK LATTE everyday since starting Phase II, I will cut that back and NO LATTE for me until I have a loss.
Holly - glad to hear you have some peace. That will surely help with other areas of your life.....Come on girl I know you can do this now!!
Kelly - great choices on eating at the restaurant. The hardest part for me eating out is ordering and saying the right thing, after that it is a piece of cake (no pun intended). I try to rationalize eating bad before ordering. Self-sabatoging is not good. Kudos to you for making the right choices.
Suzy - I am right with you on the recommittment day of Monday. Lord knows after no loss last week, I have had to take a hard look at myself and readjust my diet. I should of had a loss, so Yes,,,,recommit it is.
Laura - way to think, get in the right ball park and make that home run with committing yourself to yourself. You can do this, we all can, so lets do it.
Wildblue - where are you?
So ladies, let's get fired up, and kick the weight issue. Let us be in control of us, not let overeating and eating the wrong things be in control. It has controlled me the majority of my life, and I am not going to let it when anymore!!
Giant group hug~Susie, Suzy,LauraLynn,Kelly ,Annie, WildBlue and everyone else. Let's do this!!!!!
