Hi,
I'm getting ready to go to bed and thought I'd check in real fast. I've got some straightening up to do in the kitchen. These guys snack continously. They don't leave big messes but you can tell they been in the kitchen..LOL
I ended up eating a 1/2 c of beef stew and a mini bag of popcorn after dinner.
I was just plain old hungry.

LB- We were leased to Werner Ent. out of Omaha for 11 1/2 years. Hope you enjoy having dh home for a couple of days. My dh drove longhaul most of 30 years. I truly know how tough it is to say bye after a few days together.
He drives in the oil fields now, and still works 60-70 hours a week.

Holly: What a achiever! I haven't even given decorating a thought. I need to get it in gear.

Grandson turns 9 tomorrow. Can he really be that old. It really doesn't seem possible.

Good night and God bless

Hydro has been out since 6am. We have the generator going for the sump pump so the basement doesn’t fill up with water. I ran an extra cord to make coffee and now I have the computer plugged in. Who cares about the fridge when I need my fixes. ROFL!!!!!!!!
Rain all night and big wind today. The school is closed.All the kids are here. SO far it is fun. I am still struggling with this headache that comes and goes. Sinus/weather seems to be the cause.
Food was good yesterday.Water good. It was a good day unitl time to leave for hockey pictures and parents were picking up kids and my darling son had a major freak out. It was awful. I cried the whole way to the rink.He is just such a jerk sometimes( a lot of the time). I am not sure why he thinks it is his right to disrupt the lives of 6 other people with his drama.Needless to say we had a serious chat about it. DH said I should not have taken him for the pic. I didn’t want to let the team down for the team pic and DS is the goalie.I am not sure what was right.Lots of dialogue last night with all of us. Then I called my SIL for our Christmas dinner and she went on about how much my DH doesn’t value me and step in when he could. Which is true.He counts on me as much as the kids do and even when I ask for his help and support it is 50/50 whether he gives it.There is no question that he is very self asorbed.I have expressed all this more than once to him. Not sure what it will take for him to hear it.
Her point was that the loving caring thing to do in most instances is to think about how to help me in what i do for our family and he just plain doesn’t. What triggered this is that he was off work at noon yesterday and knew our plans for the evening and went to a friends and didn’t even check in at home. All the drama of the evening could have been avoided if he was here.He still could have gone to D’s til 4 and then come home but he just assumes I will handle everything and doesn’t think about how to make my life easier.
The sad part is that I DO think of him in these terms. I take such good care of him and his needs.Although I dont hear about the good stuff. I am reminded of how undersexed he is tho.
I am questioning whether or not he really understands how much time, thought ,love and care goes into maintaining and creating the life all of us have. It is disappointing to think that possibly he feels it is his right somehow to be on the receiving end of this and not an equal partner. Enormous sigh.
We did have good dialogue this morning and I did suggest that when he finishes early( which happens often in this weather) to call home and check in with me to see what is needed. He agreed it would be a good plan.It gives me hope anyhow.

Hello,
I just got back from the conference. I've got some unpacking to do and then I'm taking my SIL to her last chemo treatment.

I did well with my food at the conference. I haven't gotton a workout in this week so I made sure that I really cut back on my calories; no snacking allowed. I did have a piece of pumpkin pie yesterday but that's it for the sweets.

I enjoyed my evenings at the conference as we were on our own. I read my magazines and went to a movie with one of my friends last night. We saw "Derailed"...it's very good...a lot of unexpected turns.

I also was able to write in my journal and just relax. I really needed it.

I don't know if I told you but my current employer offered me a new position within the company (I've not heard anything from the other job interview that I went to). My new position is West Coast Inside Sales Rep. I'm looking forward to it and it's going to be so nice to not have to argue with the Homeowner anymore. I start my training on the new position tomorrow.

I need to get off the computer and get things put away. I also have the TOPS program tomorrow night so I need to get that wrapped up.

Holly: I just wanted to send you a big hug (((((hugggggg))))), men are so disappointing at times. When I get into the same feelings that you are having towards DH right now, I try to talk to my DH, and it helps but sometimes I feel like he is just agreeing to what I'm suggessting so that I will shut up and leave it alone. A friend told me once that I could dwell on that or after I've said my peace about it that I could just move on with the direction that we agreed on and to treat him like I would like for him to treat me; that's usually more positive and it's an effort to turn the tide, or she said I could just keep harping on it until he did it or I made myself more miserable. Does that make sense? Anyway...

The rest of you all are doing great! Keep posting...the good and the bad..it inspires me.

Talk to you all later,
Susie

HUGS Susie~I am mostly deglummed. I feel a bit sad. Hubby called from work. we have a damned cell phone for emergencies ,that we pay $28 a month for, that is never used.He just wanted to check in. It was not even a fight and I could tell he felt bad for leaving me in the lurch. I expressed myself, he might have heard it, I will move on. The bus just took the kids to school. I will have somne peace for a few hours. I feel like nesting. it is really cold and windy. HUGS!!

Glad for you about to new position!!!!!!! Woohoo!

Hey Ladies

I am at a loss for words as I am disgusted with myself. I have been a failure with food, each day saying it is the start of a new day blah blah blah. I have been exercising at Curves but not staying OP.

I am depressed about this weight, and just in the dumps.

I will write more when I feel in a better state of mind.

Annie

By following the simple advice I heard on a Dr. Phil Show, I have finally found inner peace.

Dr. Phil proclaimed the way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started. So I looked around my house to see things I started and hadn’t finished; and, before leaving the house this morning I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of Chardonnay, a bottle of Baileys, a bottle of Kahlua, a package of Oreo’s, a pot of coffee, the rest of the Cheesecake, some Saltines and a box of Godiva Chocolates.

You have no idea how freaking good I feel.

Weeeeheeee!!! Life would be so much simpler this way!!!!

Good evening everyone,
I had a terrific day. Did a lot of walking. I didn't do so well on food. I just HAD to have a hamburger for dinner. I had enough activity point to cover it...Luckily. I did make it to curves this am. I'm just going to get my shower and get in pj's. Then watch Lost.

Jenn: I've had a few posts get lost in cyberspace. It's usually the long detailed ones... LOL
Your right, if you are not happy with a food plan you won't stick to it. Best to find somthing you can live with.

Holly: WOOHOO, Here's to innerpeace ... LOL.

Annie: Try just giving yourself some time. Try to get your water and keep going to curves. Try just to maintain for a while. Then ease back into a plan when you feel your eady. It's really hard to stay focused for long periods at a time. Be good to yourself you have been doing great and you will again

JEO~ It was a joke I copied. I will confess to living 15 happy years of my life half pissed and on a carb high tho. I was 50lbs thinner then too. hmmmmmmmmm

((((((((HUGS Annie))))))))) Love ya.

Deb~ you go girl!!!!!! Cheers.

Hiya Sus!!

Phew... I don't know why but I was picturing you wobbling around... LMAO.... I take everything so seriously

Hey everyone,
I just got in and stopped by here before getting in the shower, because I will be falling straight in the bed afterwards... Now that's a plan. I didn't do too well today. I've not had near enough water. Then there the chinese buffet thing. I ate no rice,noodles or anything fried but ate way too much of everything else. I got too lazy to find the points of everything so I just did 20 hope that covered it.

Good night everyone

Morning ladies!!
Got started typing this morning and went out....
9am~4 kids on the bus, 2 preschoolers til noon thirty, Eary years play group at 10, pick up Avon display from playschool to use at market tomorrow, stop in wood craft store( having a sale), dont “need” anything but do love it there, bake pumpkin pies this aft, i have 12 boxes of Avon on the back porch(YIKES), gymnastics and Sam’s club tonight.......
I stayed up to midnight last night watching Tv, ER and then the OC, I did Avon books work during and I needed that much time to wind down. I am feeling a bit anxious in general under the surface, no real reason except my load. I am happy tho. I love my winter decoration I have up. I put dozens of window cling snow flakes on all the windows. looks like lace.The fire is roaring. Cold again!!
Must meditate and get focussed. Ohmmmmmmmmmm........ Breathe.

11:30 am~Got focussed.Feelin’ groovy.
Afte the big kids left I posted then had a toasted tomato sandwich and a bowl of mixed berries. had some quiet time with the 2 little guys, caried in the Avon boxes, went to play group, I am feelin’ fresh and ready for the rest of the day.
i am having a frozen mini pizza topped with tomato and olives and a salad for lunch.
i will bake pies and then sort out the Avon and start to bag it.
I was feeling wistful about how nice it would be to have a different kind of husband earlier this week and last night I saw why mine is just perfect for me, in spite of all the annoying man things. I am COMPLETELY, FULLY and ALWAYS my self with him regardless of what that self is and he accepts and loves me without a second thought. I speak my mind. He speaks his. There are no games on either of our parts.We are who we are and we loved as a whole person unconditionally. Pretty nice even on a bad day.

Hello,
I started training on my new position yesterday and didn't get a chance to check in. Thursday's are always busy for me after work as well because I have TOPS.

I had a little gain at the scales..not much .75 lbs. I'm not going to let it upset me or derail me. I'm working hard this week and next (we don't have a meeting next week due to Thanksgiving) and I WILL show a loss.

We have a busy weekend planned. Doing some shopping for a birthday party I'm going to tomorrow night. A friend of mine is flying home from Washington to see his family, so I know he will come and see me sometime...I'm looking forward to it. I haven't seen him in 1 1/2 years...I'm wondering if I will look different to him?

I just read all the posts and it looks like everyone is hanging in there. I know that Annie (I think it was Annie) was upset with herself. Annie, come back and post..don't wait until you are in a better frame of mind...being here will put you in that frame of mind.

Holly: I giggled when I read about all the things you had finished Thanks for the smile.

Debbie: I was thinking when I read your post how much more physical you have become and that you enjoy that feeling of working your body..it feels like living doesn't it?

I've got to run gals..lunch time is almost over. I'll be around off and on for the weekend. Hope to see a lot of check-ins.

Susie

Good evening everyone,
I had a fair day. I was very busy and did fair on food, I still didn't get enough water. Now that its cooled off I really need to work at drinking more water.
I plan to go to curves in the am.
B- 1c applesauce
s- Mini bag of popcorn
L- 6pt lean gourmet meal, sf jello
S- 8 ritz crackers
D- 6" subway, turkey breast with cheddar cheese, lots of veggies, no dressings.

Annie: I hope you are doing well. Please keep posting. I posted when I was taking a break from my plan, and I think it helped me get back on track quicker.

Susie: You are right the more I move the better I feel. and it doesn't hurt that it got cooler.
Enjoy your visit with your friend. I'm betting you will dazzle him with the new you.

Holly: That is a good explaination of a "Soul mate". Dh and I will be married 32 years on Jan 11. I can't even begin to image life without him.

Jenn: Hope you are doing well.

Later..