Yesterday I was at work and this customer came in - she was someone I have known since 1997. I used to play golf with her and a group of friends every Saturday, and then have seen her on and off over the years, but I guess it is a few years since I last saw her. She acted as if she didn't know me.

Fair enough - I felt a bit puzzled, and then I served her. Throughout the whole thing she acted as if she had never seen me before; she was polite, chatty and quite friendly. As she left it hit me like a brick: she hadn't recognised me .

I've only ever told one person at work about my weight loss - but I might as well have announced it on the notice-board because it seems everyone knows. And ever since then there are a couple of women (both of whom are bigger than I used to be) who really pick on me. They are always making sarcastic comments about my lunch, or saying things like: "you'd better go and unload that pallet - gotta find a way to work off that 20 calories you had for lunch".

One of my closest friends has been making excuses to not see me for almost a year. We started this weight loss journey together two and a half years ago, and would report in to each other every Monday - and we would catch up very regularly and talk about what we were doing, and support each other. We were the same weight, and understood each other's issues. She contacted me through Facebook a couple of weeks ago and I saw a recent photo of her - she has gained so much weight it made me cry.

People treat me differently and I'm struggling to work out where I fit. Maybe that's why food has been a bit of a challenge this week. Blurk!

Ani.. i know we get very one tracked with out conversations at time about weight loss.. and since you friends is avoiding she she obviouly gave up and is to ashamed to see you.. its not you its her.. but when you do get to see her dont talk about anything to do with weightloss of dieting..


The women at work are just jealous that dont get off therte on butts and do something.. but are they joking or being nasty?? Tell them to cut it out if its bothering you ..

And with your golfing friend you should have said hey its me.. how are you.. i think people not recognising you is a great compliment..

woohoo they dont recognosed the hot sexy women you've become.

so Ani what im trying to say is be proud.. its you thats domne it and its you thats gonna keep it that way.. jealous fat people only smirk becuase they are jealous.. your good friend is ashamed.. and other friends you need to say hey its me how are you.. I bet if she had realised she would have gone mad over you and how well you have done..


BE PROUD!!!!

So Ani, did you tell her who you were? That's really hard that you've lost touch with such a close friend but unfortunately it's not unusual. A lot of people will find it really hard to come to terms with the new you.

I know what you mean about being treated differently now that you've lost weight. I had a great figure up until I was in my early 20's and i enjoyed lots of attention from men and was treated with respect by women. When i gained weight, I felt invisible. People either looked down on me or just treated me like I didn't exist.

The worst thing was that being treated like that contributed a lot to shattering my self esteem.

It's certainly not an easy journey to make is it?

I had a really good day yesterday. Went out for dinner and had lovely fish and rice and was within my points allowance for the day. Also went to the gym before dinner and did 30 minutes of weights circuit and 30 minutes walking.

Goals for today are:

1) Stick to my points
2) Write down everything that I eat
3) Go to the gym this afternoon

Hope you all have a great weekend

Wow Ani I bet she honestly didnt recognised the changed you. That happened to me a while ago when i lost the 24kg. People would walk right past me and I'd say hello. They'd keep walking then realise and stop and go wow.

So those b i t c h e s at work are probably really thinking WOW.... look at what she has achieved. And Amy is right, they are probably jealous as all heck. Stuff em, you are happy with what you have achieved so far and we are all really really proud of you. xxx

yo yo! woohoo everyone!

ani - yep yep they are jealous - usually if you are jealous of something you pretend you dont want it that bad yourself.... a bit like me sometimes when i decide i want a baby, if someone else gets pregnant i do pretend i dont want to be.... but i try not to make them feel bad or anything......

amy - i love the look of your holiday, that looks like a real true holiday.... wow the spa especially looks bliss

i have indeedy stuck to points and stuff since tuesday night, it is now saturday night!! and i have maybe had one can of drink in the whole 4 days and it made me feel crook..... which is good i guess but i will have one on monday and see if it has the same affect on me

i weighed myself today and asked benji if i weighed less than 99.7 and he said yes so that is awesome - monday morning i will look at the scales.

GUESS WHAT??
I LOST 1KG THIS WEEK!!!!!!

this is what i've been eating:
brekky - 2 weetbix and lite milk and maybe some banana on it
morning tea - a banana or some grapes
lunch - philly on grainy bread with a piece of lite ham and salad (tiny bit of cheese if i am desperate)
afternoon tea - more grapes
dinner - little portion of low carb like food eg - tacos, meat and veges um i cant remember what else i had for tea this week oh lamb casserole but only quarter cup of cooked rice

i have been drinking water and also lots of diet cordial - today was the first day since wednesday that i had a pepsi max - i think my body is happy with less fizzy stuff

so i am 98.7kg today..... i hit 100kg a couple of weeks ago so woohoo to NEVER seeing that number again!

Hello all!

Figured I should pop in and say 'hi' again.

Been absolutely flat stick with the house...but I am over it now

It's time to wind down and get a real feel for living here. I start work tomorrow...feeling a bit weird about that, but 'new job nerves' always does that to me. I am looking forward to finally getting into a 'normal' routine again, and I know that will help with my calorie counting and possibily exercise too.

I haven't been particularly strict with weight loss as yet, but I have got my meal times set. Since last posting here I have stuck to home cooked meals and no take away sh!t. I have done a heap of work in my garden and now have discovered a 'pleasure' in pottering about in the garden.

Mum leaves on the 6th. After that I will be on my own again and I am eager to get into regular routines...weekly shopping and cooking real meals.

Still waiting for my stuff to arrive...hopefully Wednesday, although there has been a load of rain recently and I know roads from the west have now been cut! We have only just had the roads south and east opened after they were flooded a week ago!

Anyway...must go! I'll get on more often hopefully when my PC arrives!

Hope you are all doing well! And well done Kel on your loss!

A belated happy Australia day to my Aussie mates!

Good luck with the new job Lindor! I'm sure you'll do just fine

Kel, you're on fire mate! Good for you, it's great to see.

I had an average weekend. Was really good with my exercise but not so much with my food.

Took the day off yesterday as the weather was just too good to be stuck inside and I did a big walk around the hills so that was nice.

Goal for today is to stick to my points and do weights and cardio at the gym tonight.

Kel that's fantastic , and even more than the result on the scales I am really proud of your meal plan - keep this up and the weight is going to fall off you.

Lindor it's great to hear from you. I'd be surprised if your things arrive on time - aside from all the rain there's a cyclone in the top end at the moment… but fingers crossed. It's really frustrating isn't it.

Julia what a great idea to take a day off and go walking.

I've got tomorrow and Thursday off - as usual - and you've inspired me to go for a walk somewhere with my camera.

I've decided I'm not going to weigh in for a couple of weeks. I want to see how I go for a month of maintenance. Just want to see what I have learned, and whether or not I have the confidence to maintain - after all, it isn't too many months until I'm going to have to do it for real.

I'm still going to count calories and check in every day, but I'm putting the scales away until the end of February.

Well done Kel on yr loss. Are you feeling full from yr meals or are you still ungry. Hmmmm Maybe I should start eating breakfast again. Prob is i am not hungry in mornings and by the time i am, i am busy so dont sit and eat properly. Maybe eating crap in bed has something to do with the not being hungry of a morning. I am also waking several times a night grrrr. So Starting tonight i am NOT going to have anything to eat whilst I am reading. I will take a glass of water to bed. Lucky for me I am not a cordial or softdrink girl. Sometimes i have a cordial maybe one a day if it's really hot, and probably a glass of softdrink a week lol. My vice is coffee coffee coffee. Hmm maybe thats why i am waking. ok starting next shopping day i am switching to decaf after lunch time.

Lindor what a bummber about yr stuff, i hope you get it real soon. Lets see some before pics of the garden and in a couple of months some progress ones.

Julia thx for the ozzy day well wishes

i am not feeling hungry and when i am i drink more water or diet cordial
i have only had one softdrink since last tuesday
and i am keen to stick to similar meal plan this week

measuring out my portions are really making a difference i think
i am still 'full' and not eating anywhere near as much

lindor - do you even have a bed?
ani - you cant put the scales away til you get under 70?? i dont remember but when are you hoping to achieve that?
vonnnnni - is eb toilet trained yet? i have decided jemima is going to be a ballerina, she wore her ballerina outfit everywhere the last 2 days and stops and dances to all music!
julia - when you said you had a day off i thought u meant from diet and stuff but then you say you went for long walk!!! you go girl!!!
amy - do you still fit in all your new clothes?

i am getting my new tatt next friday! woohoo

Twas the month after Christmas,
and all through the house,
Nothing would fit me,
not even a blouse.

The cookies I'd nibbled,
the chocolate I'd taste
At the holiday parties
had gone to my waist.

When I got on the scales
there arose such a number!
When I walked to the store
(less a walk than a lumber),

I'd remember the marvellous meals I'd prepared;
The gravies and sauces and beef nicely rared,
The wine and the rum balls, the bread and the cheese
And the way I'd never said, "No thank you, please."

As I dressed myself in my husband's old shirt
And prepared once again to do battle with dirt...
I said to myself, as I only can,
"You can't spend a winter, disguised as a man!"

So, away with the last of the sour cream dip.
Get rid of the fruit cake, every cracker and chip.
Every last bit of food that I like must be banished
Till all the additional ounces have vanished.

I won't have a cookie, not even a lick.
I'll want only to chew on a long celery stick.
I won't have hot biscuits, or corn bread, or pie.
I'll munch on a carrot and quietly cry.

I'm hungry, I'm lonesome, and life is a bore...
But isn't that what January is for?
Unable to giggle, no longer a riot.
Happy New Year to all, and to all a good diet.

Ha Ha very good Lindor

Looking back over my food diary, I've overeaten for the past 4 days in a row. Not good!

I'm feeling really tired and unwell too which isn't helping. I didn't get to the gym yesterday and was so tired that I was in bed asleep by 8:20pm.

I think that the problem is that I slept too much on Sunday and Monday and that's made me over-tired. I feel headachey and sick and all I want to do is go home to bed but I know that sleeping more will just make me feel worse.

Goal for today will be to refrain from overeating.

Kel well done on your loss that is a great result... wooohooo...



i have had a pretty good week all up a few days of going over were soon balanced out by 3 days of swimming about 12 hours all up as well as going on the elliptical.. and tramaponline with the kids.. ...

So its been a good week i have weighed myself this morning and im showing a gain of 200 grams.. atm.. but TOM arrived this morning so .. its just fluid will know next week how im doing.. ... Fncy getting tom.. when its 41degrees all week this week.... boooo hissss ... no fair.. no more swimming for me.. oops no scratch that just checked the forcast today is gonna be 44..... yuck

anyway im happy ... my clothes do still fit kel np.. they are jut not loose anymore.. lol my measurmenet havent really changed i have put a little back on my legs and hips .. but no where else.

my belly's an apple my bum's a pear.
No fair when I diet and getting nowhere