oh and vonni the capster cat flea stuff is like $3 or less for one at the vet and i think $5.95 from the supermarket for a multipack.
duchess has fleas too, and i think she gave them to the dogs which sucks coz they have been flea free for years! (which is odd coz they have been in ideal flea conditions)

failed today coz of a small homemade sausage roll, and some shortbread and 2x milo
oh well
could have been worse

lol. laughing reading yr posts kel.

As for the S E X ..... he says he feels close to me. I don't. I feel closer and more loved with hugs. Not even kisses. I love to be hugged.

See I had a lot of probs when young and so to me, sex is just a way for a man to get what he wants and it has no feeling in it for me. don't get me wrong, when we do it's great, but i really don't care if i did or didnt and can quite happily live without it. But hugs..... they make me feel close listening to the others heart beating close to you.

like the cop campaign ---- hugs not drugs. well, hugs cuddles not puddles lol.

OMG Vonni, cuddles not puddles, that's the funniest thing I've heard all week! S e x to me is such a distant memory that I fear I will have forgotten how to do it if I ever get an opportunity again!

When I had low self esteem I used to drink and take random men home with me but now that I don't drink so much and have better self esteem, I seem to have grown some standards. Who would've thunk it?!!

Kel it's SO awesome to hear that it's finally sunk in that quick fixes don't work and that slow and steady wins the race. And if you are still over 80kg by this time next year, so what? The alternative is to be at the same place you're at now and I know that you don't want that. Just think of how much healthier and happier you'll be. You can do it!

My trainer had to postpone our session so I took yesterday off as a rest day. Food wasn't great - after dinner when I should have stopped eating I ate 3 chocolates, 8 plain crackers and 1 big glass of wine so that was about 5 points over what I should have had.

Today is another day though and I have all of my meals planned out. Session with the trainer is now tonight so I'm looking forward to that.

I had some silly woman, who happens to be a friend, tell me she has developed feelings for me a couple of days ago . No wonder I ate like a panicked pig yesterday!

Don't worry girls - this Ice Queen has not melted a bit . I set her very straight and told her that I respect and value her as a friend - and there will never be anything else between us.

You know Vonni, if you find the right person, there's a chance they'll challenge what you associate with s ex. I speak from personal experience, and I am far from resolved on the issue… but I have changed the way I think about it. Not that I'm suggesting Matt isn't the right person - but I suspect that demands for it are just going to trigger stuff. Know what I mean?

Kel! ONLY 80kg? Isn't that a whole lot better than ONLY 99kg? Mate the thing is that by taking it slowly you get the chance to learn new habits, discover what you're doing wrong and fix it - and to make those changes permanent. Yes, you can pick up a shake, drop several kilos, learn nothing - and go right back to those eating patterns that make us fat in the first place. Or you can chip, chip, chip away .

Every kilo we lose and keep off is a MASSIVE achievement, and should never be called "only a kilo". Go and pick up two tubs of margarine, imagine what it takes to make that leave your body - and be really proud of EVERY 'tub of margarine' you lose!

Julia I had one of those days too. Let's just laugh it off and move on… today's a new opportunity to get it right!

Hey Gen - you snowed in? I heard it's going to be -22ºC in Washington tomorrow. Can't remember where you are but I'll take our 40ºC here in Perth over that any day of the week .

Lindor are you there yet?

stuff the margarine! i like to imagine a kilo of oranges - way more dramatic, or a kilo of sugar! hehehehe
AGAIN you are right ani, ONLY 80 will be heaps better than ONLY 99 i think i am annoyed at the numbers coz of where i have been

i need help to figure out what makes me eat
last night I KNEW i was not hungry but i just wanted to eat, i know that if i had left the room i would not have gone back but i couldnt so i had healthier snacks but still..... and then i removed myself from the room with a big bottle of water and drank it but WHY didnt i do that sooner
right now - not hungry but if i went into the kitchen i would eat something coz it and i were there

Yes, we've got plenty of snow here in Pittsburgh at the moment. It's the coldest day for 2 years too - high of -8C and low of -13 C. Roads were awful tonight getting home! I love the snow though - watching it fall, and the streets are all white and silent, with cars just creeping along. It's very peaceful. I even love brushing my car off in the morning with my supercool extender brushy thing!

Must start going to the gym - just wasting my membership, and my legs are so sore just from not using them! Oh, plus I'm enormous. LOL>

**Just saw tomorrow's weather - HIGH of -12C and low of -20C!!

lucky you Gen.... I've never seen snow. we went on lots of family camping trips and motel holidays when i was little but always to the beach or bush. Loved them heaps and maybe thinking about starting getting some camping gear together to start my kids on a once a year trip.

Brrr rather you than me Gen! I suffer through every winter and am really a summer person. It's forecast for 30 today and that will be lovely

Yesterday was an awesome day for me. My food intake was perfect and I had an awesome session at the gym - 30 minutes weights circuit and 50 minutes cardio

I also finally got the guts up to have my trainer take my measurements and estimate my body fat. Eek! My body fat came out at 38.something % so I'll be interested to measure it again in a few months. He did say that using calipers the reading tends to be more than what he thinks it should be so I shouldn't get too hung up on it. From what I've read online so far, the healthy range for women is between 20 and 30%.

Goals for today are to stick to my points and to have a good session at the gym tonight.

never had the whole body fat thing done. maybe i should?????

walked 3 km yesterday. Had to. Car wouldnt start when i went to leave m friends so got a lift home, but walked in morn to see i it would start. nope. had it towed to performance centre to get new starter motor.

walking about 5km this morning pushing pram to go visit a friend... woohoo. i figured if i have a REASON to walk somewhere i might do it more often.

Yesterday it got to 39.8ºC here - and it will be hotter than that today . DISgusting!!!

Vonni I love walking. I know that a lot of people spend money on gyms and other stuff, but walking is free, you can do it anywhere, anytime… and it has significantly helped my weight loss.

Julia! You're having a great week - body fat is a great way to measure our progress, and it's a great motivator.

I have to work in a big tin shed in 40ºC heat today. So the word for today is WATER!

Kel you raised a really good question when you said you needed to figure out why you eat when you're not hungry. It's something I have struggled with for ages - and I'm still trying to figure it out. Sometimes it's boredom, loneliness or anger - and at other times it is the easy access (ie because it's right there in the cupboard), or because I confuse a craving for water with one for food. I don't know - it's pretty complex, hey.

Anyway must go and water some plants before this heat gets unbearable.

drove home AVOIDING kfc and red rooster
woo me
toasted sandwich
ham cheese and mushroom
woo me

woo kel. lol.

Ani I eat heaps when its hot. then feel really crappy afterwards, just that i dont want to hang about in kitchen making stuff so grab easy crap. then sloth on the coach.

BUT you will be happy to learn I DID go for that walk this morning and it was hard work. Its sort of up n down up n down terrain. nothing to steep or long, just the constant shifting. and pushing a pram. That makes it harder. However I DO like walking, but like to go on my own or with a friend. Cause without a pram you can let yr arms go natural and it is easier on the legs. where as pram you are working legs harder.

Your walk sounds good Vonni, especially pushing the pram! That would definitely add to the workout

I was spot on with everything yesterday. Ran for 40 minutes at the gym and then had a good, healthy dinner before going to my friend's place for drinks. I packed a bag with one serving of pretzels (2 1/2 points worth) and only ate those - no more! Also had just 2 vodka and diet lemonades so was fine to drive home and didn't go over my points.

Now it's the weekend and that's always my big challenge - sticking to relatively normal eating patterns while I don't have the structure of work and my break times to work around.

Goals for today and tomorrow: write down everything i eat, stick to my points and do some exercise.

Hope you all have a great weekend.

It got up to 42ºC yesterday, very windy - and of course the local arsonists were out in force. We had a few huge fires here, including one in Kings Park (which is our city park, overlooking the CBD/city and the river) which was deliberately lit.

And it was hideously hot and uncomfortable at work. I drank over THREE litres of water - that's how hot it was!

Today is cooler - only 33ºC - and I'm working 9-5, so it should be reasonably easy to stay on plan.

Kel I'm very proud of you for driving past those fast food places - good stuff!

Julia I find my days off are harder too and I have to plan for them the same way as I plan for my work days otherwise I end up eating too much.

Vonni it's great for your leg muscles to push a pram.

Lindor are you there yet? Can't wait to hear how the trip went and see how you're starting to settle in.

Have a good weekend everyone. I must water the garden and get ready for work.

heheeh i didnt drive past i AVOIDED them, hehehe i didnt think i had 100% will power to drive past so i drove a different way completly home to my toasted sanga
AND i made a sandwich before i went to the opshop and the other chick i work with had a sandwich too and even though we were going to shout ourselves fish and chips I WAS THE STRONG ONE and we both ate our sandwich

why do i keep eating even when i am full?

what is with this crazy weather??? ani 42 is just insane!! i went to kings park when i was in perth that is so stupid that some deliberately lit a fire!
jemima almost did yesterday at fairy party she went to - she came into kitchen where i was and 3 seconds later she left, after she left we could smell burning, she MUST have turned the stovetop on, someone had a teatowel ON the stove so that we could put other stuff on it i guess and it well very quickly started to burn so we turned it off and looked at eachother like "s h*t that was lucky...." without knowing what to say.... just wfhew, happy birthday sorry about your house..... hehehee

here is a link to photos of jem as a fairy!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?ai...7&id=672125417
i did the mummy thing and glued the gems on her singlet the night before, bought a wand from a shop but everything else we had been given or i found lying around! woo me for being good mummy and saving money