Location: You'll never, never know, if you never, never go!!
Posts: 810
S/C/G: 109.6kg/104.6kg/67kg (15/8/10)
Height: 170cm
I weighed in at 96.6kg this morning.
Last night I unpacked from my two week trip to Darwin last month (no comments please ). I am ashamed, and VERY disgusted, to admit that the clothes I wore and bought while there are now a struggle to put on!! One month can do that?!?!?!
Anyway, it was a massive wake up call for me! I now have a home loan to pay off, my budget is now a little (LOT) tighter, I CANNOT AFFORD A NEW WARDROBE!!! And I'll be far from happy if I have to pay for a new wardrobe that is bigger than the one I have now!!!
There is no excuse!!! I am eating WAY TOO MUCH!! And it WILL STOP NOW!!!
My short term goal:
It is now exactly two weeks before my arrival in Darwin.
In those two weeks I want to have reduced my portion sizes considerably and not feel hungry as a result!
I want to be drinking ample water!
And I want to say I want to be down X number of kilos. But I know if I say I want to lose 1.5kg in that time frame I'll no doubt lose that amount in the next few days (water loss). But if I account for that and say I want to lose 3 or 4kg I'll be very disappointed if I don't. So I am just going to settle with losing some weight and as much as I can in a realistic manner.
Ok, the man in my flat has left (airconditioner repairman), I gotta get back to work! Airconditioner appears to be functioning for now...without the associated indoor waterfall that I have had the last four days! I look forward to a nice cool flat to come home to tonight
Just thought I'd pop in and say hi to all. Been a busy few days. TRying to sort my cyclone of a house before new year. I hate new years resolutions but I will make one.......... New Year = New ME. Once I was a neat freak but with all the work study and upheavals in my life i have let the house go badly. I got up at 5am the other morning and was ruthless in my plastics cupboard. And I swear I will not buy another decor or tupperware for the next 2 years at least lol.
Over the weekend i made a start on my office. I threw out 2 boxes (those file size ones) of rubbish, and I still have more crap to sort through. But i plan to finish that by wednesday night. Its a massive job so i aim to do a couple hours at a time, not all in one go.
Next to tackle is my appliance cupboard in the morning. What I havent used in the past 6 mths is going. I am appliance queen. I have
steamer
bread maker
wok
4 toasters (LMAO)
2 milkshake makers
popcorn machine
fairy floss machine
waffle iron
jaffle maker
sandwich press / grill
food processor and blender
handheld blender
beaters
mix master
2 electric frypans
hot dog warmer
coffee cup hotplate (keeps coffee hot after making)
egg boiler
slow cooker
omlette maker
cappacino machine
soda stream
Thats 27 appliances holy cow.
Not to mention my 3 dinner sets
a kazillion serving dishes
2 coffee pots / tea pots
plunger
37 coffee / espresso mugs (what the heck do i need 37 coffee mugs for????)
then after I have tackled my kitchen I am going through my 2 floor to ceiling craft cupboards and being ruthless. donating excess to the nursing home.
Fabrics have already gone to a friend who just started quilting. I havent used my sewing machine or overlocker in 2 years (used to make all the kids clothes before i go so busy)
Been through kids wardrobes and mine.
Linen cupboard is bursting so will do that to. (bursting AFTER I packed up all the blankets lol.) We have 2 doonas each one winter one summer. I have about 10 blankets, 8 lap blankets, 9 quilt covers (at last count)z.
Need I say more?> Thats why new year new me.
I make a goal for myself... NOT a weight loss one, but one of if i see something on special i will ask myself do i really need it? It's not a bargain unless its something i NEED.
Maybe if i start to declutter my house i will also be able to declutter my mind therefore make my weight loss goals more obtainable with a healthy mind.
Location: You'll never, never know, if you never, never go!!
Posts: 810
S/C/G: 109.6kg/104.6kg/67kg (15/8/10)
Height: 170cm
Vonni!! I could have used you to do my packing for me!! I wanted this move to be an opportunity to get rid of excess junk and unused items I have...I can't do it! I swear I wanted to do the "if I haven't used it in 6 months..." thing too!!
I have more that 20 huge packing boxes packed already, including one that I have itemised as "Bottom Drawer Junk"! Really!!! Why do I insist on keeping this crap???
I can't believe all those things you have in your kitchen. Do you actually use them? Lindor there's nothing wrong with 'bottom drawer junk' - even I have some of that, and I am NOT a hoarder by any means.
Hey Gen what's going on with you? I have heard that in the US portion sizes are crazy, but I'm sad to hear you say you're too ashamed to tell us what the scales said. Is everything OK with you?
It's gonna be 38ºC here in Perth today - any chance that might MELT some of this fat off me?
New Year's Resolutions! Hmmm…
1. The Ice Queen melts. Well - that was bold! but I just might, maybe, perhaps let myself feel something. Even if it is a quiet little infatuation with someone. Or maybe not
2. To reach my weight loss goal of 67kg. It doesn't matter how long it takes, but sometime in the next 12 months I want to be there.
This time last year I was 82.6kg, and I felt proud of what I had accomplished. I feel pretty satisfied with what I've managed to achieve this year too. I'm still not where I want to be, but I'm definitely getting closer…
Not much going on - just been coooold here, sitting on my arse, eating as usual. It is hard with the lunches the boys buy at work every day too.
I have made big inroads into the food issue the past week - for some reason, I'm better when I'm on my own. The roomate went away, so I've been pretty good even tho i was off work for 5 days over xmas. I do need to start exercising, just a pain between my achilles and my other foot still sore after my stair tumble at the xmas party - wondering if I cracked a bone in my foot!
Let's just say I am almost 5kg over my previous highest weight!
vonni - no surprise to you guys my house is exactly the same, i have all those appliances but no coffee ones and dont want to part with any of them.... i am de cluttering at the moment too, benji is right into it and making storage room under the house, i bought him a mallet for xmas so hopefully he doesnt knock the house down
ani - reading what you weighed this time last year puts a heap in perspective to me, you have lost so much and still are motivated to lose more
gen - did you say you had an exercise buddy?
lindor - in the last month i have done so much yo yoing but have put on enough weight that i cant fit into clothes i could at the end of November.... tis the season hey....
i am certainly getting into the right mindframe to kick some serious slow and steady butt next year
i am weaning jemima so my boobs hurt BUT it will mean i will have my body back and feel in more control and also mean i can take a stronger contraceptive pill which will mean hopefully everything will be more regular and i will be able to be organised with everything and my body will no longer control me and my plans and my thoughts i will control it
Oops going through my kitchen today I do NOT have 37 coffee mugs, I have 46 LMAO. Man its getting worse, and I still have 3 cupboards to get through. My daughter is coming over on Thursday and we are going through my craft stuff.
Once upon a time i would donate to vinnies or the tip what i didnt want. This time I am boxing everything up and having a garage sale late Feb. Whats left I will dontae to vinnies or the salvos. The money I will put away for some new clothes come winter time. Hopefully will be a few kilos lighter and a dress size down. (fingers crossed).
Going back to Dr Monday week to find out whats going on with my thyroid. Dunno if I mentioned back a bit ago that I had bloods done and ultrasound. Well bloods were normal but Dr scrolled down and it had noters to retest, also she felt my thyroid was large. Ultrasound came back abnormal but don't know yet. The buggers didnt put report in with my disc grrrr lol. I'm one of those sneaks that look at report before taking to Dr.
Ani "maybe not"????? is that maybe not the infatuation or maybe not quiet? lol.
Lindor I have several bottom drawer junk drawers. Matter of fact, and also several cupboards lol.
I cant believe the amount of board games i have to. Havent counted yet but will be sure to post my junk here as with my kitchen.
Gen lucky you. I find it's easier to keep warm than to cool down. Its sweltering here today. I had a bit of choc and that combined with heat and not enough fluids i ended up with a killer migraine. Rang Matt to come get Ebony and had a slepp for a few hours. Took the edge off it at least.
Kel, do you really want to store the stuff? Will you just slowly gather it back in the house? Get rid of it altogether lol. No temptation that way.
You will notice my ticker hasnt moved in weeks grrrr. But I just started my wii fit today and its so fun. Love the ski jump. It forces you to hold your squat and its fun, not counting seconds before you can let it go. It roused on me to when I put my foot down during a balance and stretch exercise lol. The step aerobics is fast paced. My wii fit age is 49 omg. so aiming to get that down to 40 within the month.
How did that happen? It's the end of another year today, and it has put me in a reflective mood.
I just had a look back over my weight loss, and found something interesting:
31st Dec 06: 95.9kg
31st Dec 07: 82.2kg
31st Dec 08: 73.6kg
31st Dec 09: … who knows?
People roll their eyes when you say this is a journey. And when people ask me how I have lost so much weight, they quickly lose interest when I tell them I count calories and exercise - they want a 'quick fix', not the thing they know will work. Not the "journey".
I'm not there yet, and I still have some things to learn about making regular healthy choices, embracing this new life which has made me smaller, fitter, stronger.
I already know I'm going to have loose skin, stretch marks, cellulite and more wrinkles - and for a while that got me down. I've really had to do some work to accept that my body will carry the "evidence" of how much weight I used to carry. For the most part I'm at peace with it now - a little disappointed that I did that to myself - but I can't change the past, so I'm not going to tie myself in knots about it.
This time last year I was on holiday from my 10-year job as a magazine publisher/editor. Had you told me that I would never go back to that job, that I would move house, be working at Bunnings and have had my first book published within a year, I would have laughed in your face.
Had you told me I would find a peace I didn't know, a calm, and a whole new side to my character that working with so many people has brought out in me - I would have thought you were on drugs.
And I definitely would have thought you were mad if you'd told me I would get in touch with my playful, silly side - my creative musical side, my "garden is a work of art" side.
All this just by unwrapping a few layers of fat!
I've lost a few friends along the way; people for whom my weight loss has been too confronting, too hard. But I've found a few friends too.
And I know this journey will continue all the way through 2009. I have prepared for it as best I can by setting out the 'roadmap' of where I want to go - and I intend to enjoy it, to learn, be challenged, confront my fears, and to laugh a lot.
Location: You'll never, never know, if you never, never go!!
Posts: 810
S/C/G: 109.6kg/104.6kg/67kg (15/8/10)
Height: 170cm
Ani...
When are you going to put it all together and publish a book on your journey?
The way you wrote your post there made it more than just a journey, you showed it as an adventure, something of a thrill ride with challenges and obsticals to get through.
Ha ha Lindor - who would read it? Mind you I have been toying with the idea for a while, but we'll see how it goes later this year.
I'm making myself a gourmet dinner tonight - well it's probably pretty plain for everyone else, but this is about me a) learning to prepare nutritious food, and b) changing my thinking, and trying to eat the best food I can.
Here's what's on the menu:
Salad one: shredded carrot and beetroot with walnuts
Salad two: Chopped lettuce, english spinach, spring onion, avocado and cucumber, drizzled with lemon and sprinkled with pine nuts.
Salad three: roasted sweet cherry tomatoes with chives
Protein: 80g of really yummy rivergum ham
Dessert: chopped watermelon, nectarine, grapes, cherries, and kiwi fruit.
YUM!
HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone. I have to get up at 4am tomorrow to go to work, so there'll be no late night parties for me this year. It's going to be 39ºC here tomorrow and there's no way I want to work in THAT heat either sleep deprived or hungover .
). I am ashamed, and VERY disgusted, to admit that the clothes I wore and bought while there are now a struggle to put on!! One month can do that?!?!?!
