Diet Coaches/Buddies - Food OP; CREDIT moi. Long walk; CREDIT moi. The walk went past Whole Foods and I didn't go in; CREDIT moi for avoiding samples by the CBT strategy of staying away rather than working my Resistance Muscle while I can smell them.
My favorite food pusher at work arrived at our meeting with top shelf chocolates again. Interesting that the largest person in the room took the most (3), three others took one each, and I took none. CREDIT moi of course, but the big deal is that it wasn't difficult. Just wasn't about me. The meeting was less boring when the food pusher used a pair of reading glasses to focus a laser pointer onto one of the chocolate wrappers to see it he could start a fire, LOL. Talk of Driven to Distraction.
maryblu - LOL at "balance envy and Yoga envy." Speaking of which, what have you "done about getting some Yoga, meditation, balance (in more ways than one!) into my life?" I feel a twinge of balance envy just thinking about the areas in my life that could use some adjustments.
onebyone - Sending you supportive thoughts for your long day at your aunt's funeral today. Funerals are a time for healing; I hope that includes your relationships with your mom and siblings.
Robin (RobinW) - Ouch for a hip ping; emailing you Tera's chiropractor just in case, LOL. Kudos for switching to upper body stuff instead of quitting.
Anne (wndranne) - Congrats on a new low scale reading. Hope your massage is a healing one.
Tera (twilit tera) - I like your idea, Exercise Deficiency Disorder (EDD). The world needs a disorder that has a non-pill remedy. I'm a big fan of the phrase Nature-Deficit Disorder to describe the kids who have no connection with the natural world, from Last Child in the Woods: Saving Our Children From Nature-Deficit Disorder by Richard Louv. Haven't read the book; got what I needed from the title, LOL.
ChinaMaine - Kudos for the balance exercises on the wii. And Double Kudos (one for each foot) for putting on your socks while standing. Isn't it the greatest that the natural loss of balance with age can be countered with exercise. (Now, there are some other natural losses that seem a tad resistant, LOL.) Methinks savoring small triumphs is indicative of solid Beckian CBT.
The Parker River NRW (National Wildlife Refuge) is one of my favorite birding spots on the planet. It's only a few minutes south of Maine. (Suffering Rose-breasted Grosbeaks envy here, LOL.)
Have a relaxing vacation visiting your mom. Yay for planning a Buffalo Beck Meet. Can't wait to hear.
bucket (bucketwithapurpose) - Kudos for "Exermocisin' through my laziness." Anything to avoid the dreaded EDD, LOL.
Yay for no SAT/ACTs. Is the GED required because you've home schooled yourself? Would love to hear how that's worked for you.
Alas, Dr. Paul Dirac was a revered physicist back when I first met college physics - referred to with awe; his electron equation was the latest and greatest. My attraction to the humility joke was because it contributed to my gut understanding that all our science is an analogy to the real world; the electrons don't care. Of course, the second half of the humility is the PhD bartender, which isn't as shocking an idea now as when I first heard the joke.
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tip: Do not use chewing gum as a resistance technique. Some dieters tell me, "I can resist tempting foods, but only if I chew a piece of gum." To effectively exercise your resistance muscle, you need to get accustomed to eating three meals and three snacks with nothing else in between. It's okay to enjoy an occasional piece of gum, but don't pop it in your mouth because you think, I need it. Once you learn to tolerate the sensation of having an empty mouth, you will be truly free.
The Complete Beck Diet for Life, pg 102
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WI- up .25 lbs. Read my cards but didn’t make a plan. When flying/driving en route to a new place I rarely make a plan. There’s just too many unkowns for me to do it. Generally I try to meet typical calorie limits I have for weekdays and weekends. But I'll still consider it op if I go up to 300 calories over my typical. So, yesterday I thought through the kinds of choices I was likely have and work from there. I have to say I love the ubiquitous-ness of Chicken Ceasar Salad in almost every airport emporium. They are tasty, low calorie, ok on fiber, and easy to carry and eat on a plane.
For dinner, my Mom took me to a nice GF restaurant in Lackawanna for dinner. I had a black bean soup followed by grilled halibut with rice and roasted beets. I love roasted beets! The grilled fish was supposted to have Pistachio butter on it and I requested putting that on the side. I used about 5% of the butter they gave me. Credit moi for good food choices yesterday. I entered all the foods into MFD and I was only 120 calories over a typical weekday. Food – op.
Fatigue: 1.2 (1=Felt Great, 5=Extreme Fatigue) Exercise – op. Yesterday was an upper body workout day. I felt so good yesterday AM I was tempted to move use handweights on 75% of my sets, but I resisted. I was afraid that I would pay the price today in fatigue. I’m so glad I didn’t do that since I’ve woken up moderately fatigued – probably due to traveling…
maryblu Yoga isn’t as touchy-feely as it looks (no meditation required ). The hardest part at first is learning all the basic stretches and moves, and the names. After that it’s really just a slow paced core+stretch exercise routine. I find it both very invigorating and very relaxing. It’s better than having a cup of coffee in the AM. Maybe just give yoga a probationary period? (e.g. ‘I’ll do it for a month and then decide…’) I understand Pilates is probably better for both core and balance, so maybe that’s best for you.
Tera Ouch for a bleh day. But that being ‘so on plan’ was your bright spot! And sorry your pain level was up a bit. And, I’m really glad to hear you’ve broken below 220, it is quite an accomplishment.
Robin I just sent you a PM – can’t wait to meet you too! Kudos for exercising! I know I have to watch for my knees. I can’t bounce, do jumping jacks, or even do squats/lunges too quickly. As soon as my knee complains I do the same as you. I switch over to something else or just stop for a while. It’s the price of no longer being a spring chicken, I believe…
bucket (with a purpose) Kudos for exercising when your heart wasn’t in it, and for not eating after dinner. for not having to take the ACT/SAT. BTW – I didn’t get Bill’s joke either. But it does NOT make me want to study Physics again. In this case, ignorance is bliss…
one by one I’m sure by the time you read this, you’ll have already been to the funeral. My thoughts are with you in the meantime.
Re TOM, when I first read it I thought TOM was some evil boyfriend. Then I finally figured it out. It is evil, to be sure…
Re Pollan. You may not want to follow his plan, but what you’ve read could affect the choices you make. But I’m sure you are right, the core of what you need is in Beck. Credit for realizing that!
Anne Coyotes waking you up – no wonder you are tired and frazzled! Their howls are a bit freaky in addition to missing sleep.
40 didn’t bother me for some reason. I felt that 40s were the decade I’d throw away childish worries about pleasing others and just do what I thought was best. It worked well for me: I quit my job, moved to Maine, got a new job. Now 50 – that drove me crazy. I wouldn’t even let people say the ‘fifty’ around me. So the family joke was to whisper ‘mifty’ when I was around.
On the drive to Logan yesterday I started listening to 'How We Decide' - thanks for recommending it. I love it!! I have a PhD in Cognitive Psych, gotten back in the days when the metaphor for cognition was all parallel distributed processing. I've gone into industry so I've made no effort to keep on current cog psy research. The role of emotion in desicion making is fascinating to me. I can't wait to get to the part where he describes the neuro-psychology processes at work. And makes me think that ST was prescient...
Bill Kudos for avoiding Whole Foods and the silly food pusher. I need to learn ‘it’s just not about me’…
I agree, about how nice it is that exercise can literally bring back what you’ve lost due to aging. I hope it’s one of the intrinsic rewards that keeps me exercising daily for the rest of my life.
NRW – way cool! The book sounds cool too – but it does seem the title says it all…
There is a blue jay hopping around in front of my patio door. I wonder if he realizes how crazy he's making my cat?
Today we go to Golden Cross Clinic, just the prescreening thingie, no doctor today. Any fingers crossed, prayers said, would be very appreciated.
At least I'll be on plan today!
Robin: for stopping at the first sign of pain in your workout. Good luck with those t-shirts!
Bucket: I just love spontaneous dance breaks for sticking with your program!
also for taking charge of your education - being an active participant instead of just counting off days to graduation!
onebyone: sending lots of through this tough time. Try not to tackle too much all at once, hon.
Anne: Coyotes! Fun stuff. I love listening to them on nights I'm not trying to sleep. Good luck resting up and I hope you're feeling much getter soon.
Bill: Very for a free-sample-free long walk! at the food-pusher with the laser pointer! Nature Deficit Disorder sure is an interesting sounding title. One of the reasons I chose something outdoorsy as a celibration this year is that, spending most of my time indoors, I can sometimes feel like I'm living in a thermos - you know, all insulated from the real world by walls, a/c, electronics. Nature used to be something that was right outside my back door, but lately it seems so far away.
ChinaMaine: The description of dinner with your Mom made me ! for staying OP during a trip.
No changes in weight. Today is a rest day! Which means.. I pretty much do nothin'. My body really needs a bit of "nothing" today. These are my risky days, though. With no planned exercise I tend to fall into my "all or nothing" mindset, so I'm on my toes today! Defiantly not going to fall into it this time around. Nope. Not with my handy new skills.
I guess today would be a great day to do all the things I don't have time to do for myself usually. Bath, some nail painting, a chick-flick, and some linguistic book reading might be in store. Ohh this will be a relaxing day, I hope! At the very least, if I feel extremely triggered, I know I can pop by here before I do anything stupid. Yay. :3
Bill - Kudos for resisting Whole Foods and the food pusher. I've never been into Whole Foods, but rumor has it they have almond butter. And I really want to try almond butter. Hrm. I should go to whole foods one of these days.
Actually neither the GED or the SAT/ACTs are really "required". I could just go apply to colleges with my merits, providing only extracurricular activities and my homemade transcript, but that's just too risky and most colleges won't take it unless you're exceptionally amazing. GED and SAT/ACTs make getting into college ~so~ much easier. Well. GED easier. The people who make the SAT, are known as the ETS. I'm assuming ETS stands for Evil Testing Serpent. They're not human, I swear. What kind of person want's to cruelly challenge highschool students to get panic attacks, cram all night long, and kill their social lives to pass this test and be assured they have a "future"? ETS, that's who.
ChinaMaine - Kudos for staying on track during your trip!!
twilit tera - Congrats for hitting your new low!! I'm sending good luck in your general direction.
wow what a day its been
We opened up at 10 and while we were still putting out the signs folks were coming in.
Ive finally gotten a bit caught up!
ChinaMaine~ I pm'ed my business email....I keep that open all day, and it goes to my phone as well. I tend to get here spuratically during the day.
Tera~ a new low = virgin fatloss! Awesome job!
Bill~ Great job on ignoring the food that was being pushed!!
Anne~
Bucket~ great job recoginizing that you are an all or nothing person. I think that is one of the hardest things to change about ourselves. Just taking it as it comes...and stay the course. Good for you!
As for me, Im op all the way! I feel great, and Im happy! Amazing what good clean food and a bit of exercise can do for a person!
Im off to the gym tonight for cardio...bribery didnt work this morning But I'll get there tonight!
Today I woke up tired. I hoped it was traveling yesterday, but I had some pretty serious DOMS yesterday from a core workout on Monday. So, I was hesitant to do another core workout today, since it was very afraid it would cause significant fatigue. Instead, I decided to do 30 mins of yoga instead of 15 mins (and skip the core workout). I don't like to give in and skip exercise totally, because I'd exercise a heck of a lot less if I skipped it everytime I was afraid I'd get fatigued. Besides, I've done yoga 15 mins a day, 5 days a week for months. It never occured to me that 30 mins of yoga would be a problem. It was clear pretty quickly after I was done that any workout was a mistake. I was quite fatigued and ended up being tired for the rest of the day, and sleeping from 3-5 PM. This meant leaving my Mom to get ready for a family bbq on her own. I feel terrible, almost despicable.
Diet Coaches/Buddies - OP food; did gym; CREDIT moi.
Need some re-dedication here. I've crept up to the top of my scale cycling range and am sitting there like a new set point. Think I've become lax with portion size in a couple of places, particularly fruit. When the strawberries were at a good price I bought the two pound boxes and have consumed HUGE portions with my granola at breakfast. And I've just incorporated some large seedless black grapes as an addition to my evening snack of a fruit. So instead of, say, an orange, it's been an orange plus a wad of grapes. A big wad. So, in the spirit of a Beck maintainer, I started last evening to sharpen my portions and try to get back to slowly moving up and down within my range.
onebyone - Waving. Thinking of you with your family at your aunt's funeral. Again sending supportive thoughts for a period of healing.
Robin (RobinW) - Kudos for OP food and for exercise. And Yay for too much business. This country needs to find out whatever it is that you're doing and do it everywhere. Would you mind networking with a few Detroit CEO's?
Anne (wndranne) - Waving. Hope your back is healing.
Tera (twilit tera) - Congrats on the "NEW LOW" - seems like we've heard this before. This Beckie is on a roll.
LOL at the Blue Jay making your cat crazy. That's one trusting bird believing that the patio door won't open.
Hope the prescreening thingie at the Golden Cross Clinic went well today.
ChinaMaine - Yay for roasted beets at a gluten free restaurant where you don't have to worry about cross contamination. And Yay for Lackawanna just because it's a neat name that I'd never heard before.
Ouch for the serious fatigue today and its impact on your visit. Interesting that Wiki gives two competing explanations for DOMS (Delayed onset muscle soreness) but both are from muscle growth. Hope yours has such a positive cause.
bucket (bucketwithapurpose) - Yay for a day of rest - hope you relaxed well and didn't accidentally do something, for crying out loud.
Yep, almond butter is pretty amazing - as is cashew butter, pecan butter, and walnut butter. But I think almond butter is about the best. Be warned though, while almond butter is only about twice the price of peanut butter, the others get very pricey. I try it periodically and am blown away, but always go back to peanut butter because that's the taste I've always known. I suspect that peanut butter sticking to the roof of my mouth brings back many happy memories of childhood so I'm just confusing eating with happy emotions, LOL.
LOL at "Evil Testing Serpent" - yep, demonic they are.
Readers -
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Success Skill 9 Get Back on Track - Right Away
You may not ralize that all long-time maintainers, and even people who have never had weight problems, overeat from time to tome. Why don't they gain weight? Because they don't think about it catastrophically. Instead, they just use their skills to get back on track immediately. They don't get down on themselves. They don't get hopeless. They tell themselves, Okay, I wish I hadn't done that. ... Oh, well, I'll eat a bit less the rest of today.
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Bill~ business has been good, but I thought of you the other day when one of our customers came into the shop with awesome news. I thought, about the comment you made a while ago about telling President Obama how well some folks are doing and hiring staff!!
This fella started this business in the dead of winter, at the height of the economical mess! He has doubled his membership since my husband and I joined, and he's hired a full time event planner and has one intern from one of the colleges working for him. He's still working his "day job" too! I was so happy for him when he came in to introduce us to his new staff members!!
I just love seeing these little businessese thrive!! He even had a big write up in one of our local publications. It hasnt even been a year for him! How cool is that!?!!
Im doing a fly-by....I need my coffee before I get to the gym and I want to be done with all that, so I can hopefully hook up with ChinaMaine today!
Wait, I want to pick your Beck Brains about something.
Im eating op, keeping to what works for me. Here is the thing. Im fighting with myself over eating when Im not hungry.
I eat 3 meals a day, usually a snack at 3pm with my coffee. Well lately that snack is left, and lunches are very late. Because Ive been busy, but also not hungry.
Last night I was NOT hungry at all! I really didnt want to eat supper, and fought with the logic. Its supper time, I need to eat. Otherwise I'll be hungry later.
So I went to the gym and did my workout, thinking I'll be hungry by the time I get home.
Nope...I wasnt.
So I tested myself. Lets just leave it until I AM hungry. Because I need to eat to fuel my body, otherwise it's just overeating.
Ok...by 9pm I could feel a slight nagging headache coming on. I still wasnt hungry. But I took that headache as a sign that I should eat. At 9:30 I had 2 little chicken thighs. I still wasnt hungry...you know sometimes you eat and it seems to stimulate your appetite, and you are suddenly famished? No, none of that this time.
What are your thoughts? Im fighting with "habits" and "shoulds" when Ive been doing alot of reading about "fueling" the body when you need it rather than following past habits.
Credits: (I did awesome yesterday.) sharing a regular sized single scoop of sweet cream with raspberry mixin at Marble Slab (a treat we'd been planning all week) , putting in extra time in the pool after discovering that beer was going to be offered at movie night this time Limiting those beers to 2, even though I'm such a heavyweight. Not cleaning my plate at dinner! Over all, even with the extra goodies, I kept a calorie deficit!
I qualify for a 30% discount at Golden Cross, so that's something at least. If I need to go to the hospital and can't pay, I have to apply for charity separately.
I see a doctor next friday. I'm coming prepared.
Today, B and I are hanging around the home. Mostly to play video games, although I want to work on the next window vinyl design and virtually arrange furniture in the apartment we'll be moving to next month. Staying home and eating things we make here will ensure that I'll be on plan today.
Bucket: for all the ideas you had yesterday to help you fight temptation! I think doing self-care is a fantastic way to stay on track, sending yourself clear messages that you care about yourself will have a positive effect for certain!
Robin: at virgin fat loss! I'm glad that business is hoppin'. It may be stressful but it keeps you going. for OP all the way
I'm a proponent of the "eat when you're hungry" school of thought. Unless there is clear evidence that something has messed up your hunger signals, I think how you feel is the best indication of whether you should eat. The flip side is that one should stop eating when one no longer feels hungry, which I think is the biggest problem for a lot of us.
ChinaMaine: Yikes at the fatigue levels! for trying to choose an exercise appropriate to the situation instead of either plowing through something that would do a lot more harm giving up the notion of exercise altogether. Even though it didn't work out, you made the best decision you could at the time, and learned from the experience. Ain't nuthin' despicable about that.
Bill: for recognizing where you've been slipping and taking steps to control it.
Wake up late? Check. Have nothing to do today? Check. Watch TV when you first get up? Check. Not regret doing anything on Friday? Check. Well, it looks like Saturday is on track. -yawn-
Credit for me for eating a treat responsibly last night, defeating the cravings to go back for seconds on my treat, aaand staying within my calorie range. Hurrah!
Bill - Feel free to throw some fruit my way. Gosh, my parents don't buy enough of fruit or veggies. XD Always a bag of potato chips laying around, but not a whole lot of bananas, strawberries, grapes, brocolli... you get the drift. -le sigh-
One day I want to try all the nut butters out there. It'd be a lot cheaper to make it, wouldn't it? Turns out it's pretty easy to make any nut butter, just patience to stand infront of your loud food processor as it grinds up the nuts into buttery goodness. No oil needed or anything! Maybe I 'aughta invest in a variety of nuts and see what I can come up with.
RobinW - Maybe you could eat smaller meals with less dense foods? If I eat a lunch of beans, oatmeal, and peanut butter, I'm not hungry for the rest of the day. But if I have a small lunch of a salad with a variety of different veggies, and maybe some nuts on the side, I'll defiantly be hungry for the afternoon snack I had planned. But if you are doing that, I'd just go with the flow and stick to listening to your body. -shrug- Just my point of view.
twilit tera - Wowza you did a lot yesterday. lol. Kudos!!
Coaches/Buddies My birthday party is today, and we are to have a house full of people shortly. This conveniently coincides with my planned feeding frenzy, aka carbo loading, plan to prepare me for the race on Monday.
I'm still feeling really distracted. Crises at work happening at milestone birthdays give one reason to reconsider a lot of big things in life. Career change? Anyway. I have a lot on my mind now, and for once it is crowding out thoughts of food.
Lousy personals again today, friends. Sorry. I'm glad you all are here, and I'm guessing I'll get it together again soon.
But RobinW since you asked. I've noticed lately, and this is a relatively new experience for me, I'm getting preoccupied and stressed out, and not really noticing I'm hungry until I'm HUNGRY! And then I eat more than I normally would have planned (which is offset for me right now by the fact that I'm, get this, forgetting to eat!!). Anyway, the point is hunger cues can get messed up, and you may be hungry at a low level even if you aren't registering it. I'm a big fan of "If it ain't broke don't fix it" but it is something worth watching for.
Back tomorrow, probably another quickie. Looking to get in a longer post on Monday after I race.
The funeral for my aunt went off easily yesterday. I cried, especially when we were in the church. I am not of any faith but I love churches and they always move me as sacred spaces. The prayers that are offered and have been offered up in those spaces always move me. And, in this case, as they were for my aunt and her eternal soul, I was especially moved. I saw her in her casket. I needed that. I regret I didn't touch her. Odd that. I thanked her for being good to me as she was. I can't say I have processed this yet. I really don't think so. I feel kind of like there's a sheet of glass or something over my feelings. I keep waiting for the big eruption of emotion but perhaps there is none to be had. I find this odd.
We siblings are all made up again. Were we ever at odds I wonder? Seems not I'll go with this. This time I won't make the mistake of thinking of my brother and sisters as "family". That totally messes me up. Better to treat them as "friends", then I know how to be/what to do. These are all complications of having spent my childhood away from them. It still don't come natural.
Foodwise my weight is up once more. Could be hormonal influences and I am sure some of it is, but nevertheless I am on the threshold of 270 and coaches I am having two weird symptoms. I am scared to even type them out but will.
1) when lying in bed for the night and trying to get to sleep my upper/outer thigh on the right side only, was going numb and now, it doesn't feel numb anymore but more like supersensitive and "on fire". It's very strange. It also gets that "cold/cool" sensation like when your foot goes to sleep and it's coming back to life you know? This morning it took a bit for the sensation to go away. It's gone now and there's no weakness or anything but I'm concerned. I purposely set out to work that thigh muscle today, mostly to test it and see if it's up to snuff. It is. Could this be a pinched nerve somewhere? A bad mattress? Some odd combo?
2) My 4th toe of my right foot (same side as the thigh business) "twinges". Every once in a while it just hurts. I can't describe the pain: not sharp, kind of "jagged"? Tingly but to the X degree. Is this gout I wonder... I have certainly ingested my fair share of "rich food" in my life.
All signs point to a change of direction coaches. All signs.
I'm scared and I've been avoiding going to the Dr. My gut tells me I am too heavy for my frame. Once before I felt like this and I had strange pains then too that went away once I shed weight. My worry, of course, is that no matter what I won't shed the weight and that even if I do I have permanently damaged myself by eating recklessly, without concern for life, or, literally, limb.
I think I need to go back to Overeaters Anonymous. I need the support of a group.
And I need to face my EDD disorder (good abrev. here gang) and coaches, here's the happy part of my post for the day... brace yourself for my new BIKE! (see attached jpg). There's a huge community garage sale once a year and this morning was the day. I held it in my mind to find a sturdy bike I would not fear riding. I have a 10 speed racer built for lightweights with skinny little racing tires. I love that bike but am worried over flattening the tires. I am hefty. I need a hefty bike and big fat tires. Anyway I found the bike on the second street we went down for $15. The tires are flat but the rubber isn't old. It's got some rust and I think the front brakes aren't working, the back is though. The kickstand won't kick up and out of the way, but otherwise it is great! I went to Canadian Tire and got WD40 and some rust remover/sealer, some sponges to wash it and I'm going to get the pump and see if the tires hold air. You know, before we left I said to myself "I just want a Supercycle like I had as a kid" and I couldn't believe it but this bike is a Supercycle brand!
So we got in about 3 hours of walking (credit moi) and on our travels I only saw 2 other bikes, one way more expensive at $60 and another super rusty but I would have bought it had I not found this one. And also, just cause we were on the street, I saw a flyer for the local art store that they were having their warehouse sale today (I didn't even know they had a warehouse!) so we went there and I got some art supplies. I got a great idea for a series of paintings last night so this is all just so good. And tomorrow I get to start my garden at my friend's house. I now have all my seeds and 3 bags of compost in our rental car waiting to be delivered to my garden site: 2 organic compost and one an exotic shrimp (!), compost, peatmoss mix. So decadent. That bag will be for my melon crops. They always get the most babying in my garden. I melons.
I am almost done In Defense of Food and have started The New Rules of Lifting for Women. Whoa! That book's loaded with good stuff! I am willing to take the time to do the research to find what will work for me. I do know I do have to begin again. And really if I just ate food, mostly plants, and not too much, I'd be just fine.
Sorry for the marathon post. There's more but I've taken enough of your time. everyone for your kind thoughts and wishes for me and my family. It feels good to come here and get it out and down on "paper". Thank you.
Diet Coaches/Buddies - Took a walk in gorgeous sunshine - although cool enough to need an over-shirt; CREDIT moi. Walked past a new hole-in-the-wall frozen yogurt place with tiny FREE samples. That's ideal - a good-for-me food in a tiny volume. Wolfed both the plain and the blueberry with joy. Thought of a dozen reasons to buy a pint to bring home. Didn't; CREDIT moi.
Stuck to my new goal of sharpening my portions all day. CREDIT moi. Sorta unfortunately, the scale showed a three pound dip this morning. Ouch - too much reward for a one day effort. The scale reading gods are teasing me to relax my vigilance. No way; I have a potluck event today so I declare here to do one plate of Food, not too much, mostly vegetables.
onebyone - Wonderful news that you used the occasion of mourning for your aunt into a re-connection with your family. What an amazing final gift from her to all of you.
Ouch for your two symptoms and Double Ouch for feeling scared. I'd encourage getting yourself to a doctor pretty quickly; the scared feeling is capable of eating at you whether the pain is a big problem or a little problem.
Kudos for buying a bike; what a find. And Kudos for so promptly going to (the amazing, ubiquitous, won't come to the US) Canadian tire to get what you need to put it on the road. That's smartly taking care of yourself and countering your EDD.
Sending supportive thoughts for you to find your way back to a food plan. No good suggestions on which way to go; just reminding you that we've seen you on plan for many months around here so know that you can do it.
Robin (RobinW) - Great news about your friend's thriving business. And even better news that he brings his new staff members to introduce them to your business - riding the wave you are.
Kudos for heading to the gym after work. You can count me with the group who sticks to my three meals and three snacks. I buy into the argument that it's good for my head to know that, when facing unplanned food, I can tell myself that I'm only a couple of hours max away from a planned eat. I'm concerned that if I allow legitimate hunger to accumulate, I'll eat trying to chase satiety; and I can quickly chomp down a whole lot of food before full kick ins. YMMV. Good luck making your choice there.
Anne (wndranne) - Ouch for the work crisis doubling up with your birthday stress. Ouch for feeling forced to consider a career change on someone else's schedule. You didn't mention your back, so I hope it's under control for your race on Memorial Day.
Kudos for having a party for your carbo-loading. Now that's good planning.
Tera (twilit tera) - Kudos for working in all those goodies while still maintaining a calorie deficit. And monster Kudos for "Not cleaning my plate at dinner!" - for that's I'm openly jealous since that skill is not a regular with me at all.
Sending supportive thoughts to the doctor who has to face you "prepared" next Friday. Hope he's got the moxie to serve you well.
ChinaMaine - Waving. If memory serves me, we last heard from you wandering the streets of Buffalo looking for a sign shop, LOL.
bucket (bucketwithapurpose) - Congrats for sticking to plan all day, LOL. When a day of decompression is called for, so let it be. And Kudos for staving off the cravings for seconds on the treat. Did you use a specific Beck strategy for fighting that?
Like you idea of making your own nut butters. Perhaps the best money saving part is that you can make a small amount to try it out instead of having to buy a whole jar. And, you can control what goes in. Kinda amazing, but even at Whole Foods, which sells peanut and almond butters with absolutely no other ingredients, the more exotic nut butters sometimes contain soybean oil or salt.
You got me drooling with your comments about almond butter. By the time I had my regular weekend peanut butter on toasted whole wheat bread ends with toasted pecans and banana sandwich, I was craving. Soooooo good.
Readers -
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Success Skill 9 Get Back on Track - Right Away
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Unsuccessful dieters do just the opposite. Instead of immediately getting problem-solving oriented, they lose perspective and then make poor decisions. When they eat something they shouldn't, they often tell themselves, This is terrible! I'm so weak! I lost control! I can't believe I did that! I might as well give up and eat whatever I want for the rest of the day because, starting tomorrow, I'll have to cut my calories way back and deprive myself.
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I'm off to the farmer's market this morning and not as a vendor but as a customer. I don't have enough work ready to go out to the market yet. I'm hoping to get some fresh eggs mostly and some good hearty bread.
After the market I am off to Ravenswing a craft/music festival in the same city park that I will be having my event in in about 7 weeks. I am curious to see how they set it up and what theya re doing there. the info for their event is very similar to what we have been proposing, but I suspect our events are very different. I'll take the info of those I am keen on and contact them with the details about our July event. I guess I am head hunting!
I had a good night the leg wasn't a bother. I wonder if the focus on getting exercise helped? YES of COURSE. SHeesh. DH promised to join me in a bike ride today (!) so I am looking forward to that this afternoon and the further working of my greater thigh muscles.
I'm off. It's a beautiful day out there. Enjoy your Sunday.
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Should I be concerned about the quick drop? It's almost 5 pounds this week. Even if I'm up one tomorrow it'll be 4. I'm not hungry, though. I don't feel deprived. I'm just on plan more consistently than I was last month. (And will be today too!)
Bucket: for a controled indulgence!
Anne: Hooray for the party/carb loading syncronicity! As for personals, well, we all go through those times. It just happens to be your turn.
onebyone: Glad the funeral was good. Happy news about being reunited with your sibs. Hooray for new bike!
Those are scary symptoms. Both sound like a circulation problem, and could be linked to diabetes. Get thee to a doctor right away!!
Bill: for enjoying a healthy FREE sample without bringing home unnecessary calories.
The doctor I see will be an intern, the clinic is for med students completing their residency. They're supervised, of course. That arrangement worked well for me at Parker, where I met C. I'm hoping that, as a med student he won't be prone to the attitude I've seen in many doctors, assuming that the doctor has all the answers and the patient oughta just shut up and listen.
Friday
Thursday's Report
). The hardest part at first is learning all the basic stretches and moves, and the names. After that it’s really just a slow paced core+stretch exercise routine. I find it both very invigorating and very relaxing. It’s better than having a cup of coffee in the AM. 
Maybe just give yoga a probationary period? (e.g. ‘I’ll do it for a month and then decide…’) I understand Pilates is probably better for both core and balance, so maybe that’s best for you.
that being ‘so on plan’ was your bright spot! And sorry your pain level was up a bit. And, I’m really glad to hear you’ve broken below 220, it is quite an accomplishment. 
Then I finally figured it out. It is evil, to be sure…
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I feel great, and Im happy! Amazing what good clean food and a bit of exercise can do for a person! 
flyby
Saturday and I'm checking in
I'll go with this. This time I won't make the mistake of thinking of my brother and sisters as "family". That totally messes me up. Better to treat them as "friends", then I know how to be/what to do. These are all complications of having spent my childhood away from them. It still don't come natural. 
melons.
Happy Sunday
