I feel like life's playing a cruel joke on me where whatever I want gets dangled in my face and then gets snapped away just as I'm about to a good grasp on it. It's making it very hard to be happy about anything lately.
Having a very hard time getting my butt off the couch! I need to work out but I am sooooooo lazy! Want to blame it on the pregnancy but I think I am using it as an excuse, because I feel awesome!
I don't want to give myself a free pass this time around, don't want to end up with 50 lbs that I don't need!!!
Don't wanna go to work. Don't wanna deal with school. I just wanna stay at home and sleep - I don't even care about food at this point, I'm just so darn tired!!!
Today I had: a tooth pulled (a back molar), 4 cavities filled and a crown placed AND the novocaine wasn't working well and I felt way more than I should and had like a triple dose.
My teen was at home with the flu which I hope to heck I don't get (or the 7 year old - or anyone, of course).
But, my MIL trumped me and had major oral surgery today, so she gets to belly ache and moan as her surgery was major (and it was - I'm not trying to take away from that), but don't I get to feel a bit bad?
So, I picked up the 7 year old from school, ran to the grocery store to get pain meds, made dinner and will soon do the dishes. And had to suffer through my MIL belittling the dental work I've had done (oh, root canals are easy)... Um, I've had 4. 2 were easy. One was a nightmare (I didn't numb and felt the whole darn thing bad) adn the other I had terrible infection that was the worst pain I have ever experienced in my life (and I've had PAIN)...
Sigh... It would help if I liked my mother in law as a person, but man... it's hard to be nice with making her soft foods and planning for her dental surgery when she gives ZERO empathy to me - ever... sigh... at least my husband is nice to me!
I ate too much on Monday and Tuesday and took a few days off from weighing myself, but I plan to do it tomorrow.
I am whining because I'm SCARED of the stupid scale and what it's going to say tomorrow. I just want so badly to get back to a comfortable weight and I feel like I'll never get there at this rate.
I'm really annoyed. With the calorie count grader. I have been focusing on just counting my calories with IF. It makes me think about the food I'm eating, but not obsess about it. I want to make healther choices with my food (IE, clean) but right now, it's not always possible. So today I had, as a snack, a lettuce wrap. Swiss cheese, some roast beef and a big leaf of iceberg lettuce. The grader gave me an F on that. I've eaten worse foods a gotten a better grade than that. REALLY? Seriously? I'm not even going to look at the grade anymore. -fume-
I'm really annoyed. With the calorie count grader. I have been focusing on just counting my calories with IF. It makes me think about the food I'm eating, but not obsess about it. I want to make healther choices with my food (IE, clean) but right now, it's not always possible. So today I had, as a snack, a lettuce wrap. Swiss cheese, some roast beef and a big leaf of iceberg lettuce. The grader gave me an F on that. I've eaten worse foods a gotten a better grade than that. REALLY? Seriously? I'm not even going to look at the grade anymore. -fume-
Eh... don't worry about those things. They want everyone to eat way more carbs and way little fat. My calorie counter every single day warns me about eating too much fat. (I eat a lot of nuts, olive oil) Well, Pffft to that. I'm not of the mind that those kinds of fats are bad for me.
My school sent home this lengthy survey to test my son's IQ and Asperger's. (which in itself is a completely different whiney story) It took my husband and I a few hours to fill it out, and we left it up on our bar in the middle of the kitchen....
Later on, i go in there and realize that one of my 2 cats has made a mess all over them. They're just soaked through and smell awful. I have no idea why my cat would do that...he NEVER does anything like that. Perhaps it's a sign that he feels exactly the way I do about the surveys...BLAH.
Either way, I have to go back to the school, ask for more and fill them all out again. "Hi, I need another one because we destroyed the first one."
Just what I needed! I'm 26 years old and just recieved the diagnosis. My IQ is above 99% of the popultion. The catch? It has an ADHD filter on it. I used to always joke with people that I am the genius blonde who can't spell, has the memory of a goldfish half of the time and an attention span the size of knat. Now that joke is backed up by numerous tests and all I really want is to be normal. I want to know what it's like to sit still for 10 minutes, or read two whole pages in a book without having your mind wander off. I want to know what it's like to have impulse control like a normal person and not run into walls because you saw a sparkly object on the ground. At the same time, I know a lot of normal people wish they could be as adventerous as I am, as happy overall as I am and find beauty, love and whimsy in life like I do. Guess as with everything, it's a trade off
I am COLD even with a heavy sweatshirt over a snug shirt, a blanket, and heat packets in my slippers! I want winter to be OVER and I want my crummy retail winter job OVER and I wanna be at my great summer job and I wanna ride my motorcycle
I am not that difficult of a person to figure out, especially after 17 years of marriage. GRRRRR!
