Ok You would think I had learned to NOT walk along the side of a road ARGH. No traffic coming towards me, a Big White Van swooooshes by about 2 inches from me and my head (side mirrors) and I almost got sucked in by the draft (Jerk face was speeding to boot) I was wearing lime green pants and a white top... HE COULD NOT NOT SEE ME. ARGH... Only funny thing I could think of, maybe he wanted to pop my bubble butt and see if it would deflate.. ggrrrrrr

That's scary!

Dee it sure was.... and its a neighborhood street to boot. CRAZY drivers here in Florida!!

I'm back up in weight.
I feel bloated and gasy and my work pants are so tight.
I hate night shifts.
MY ex emailed me pretending to be someone else and brought up everything about our past. But the fact that he's so stupid to think I wouldn't know it was him. Either way I win because two years later you still can't get over me. I even told a friend on sunday I was over him because I can finally read old journals about our break up and feel nothing. (guess thats more of an accomplishment.)
I have 30 minutes left of work then I can go home and sleep all day before I come back for another 12 hour shift.

I am leaving tomorrow to visit a good friend for the weekend, and while I'm always glad to see her ... she's kinda living my dream life and sometimes I catch myself getting a little jealous.

Work has just plain SUCKED this week. Waking up early for clients who don't show up, not being able to get enough sleep, and just the general work blahs. I'm ready to be paid what I'm worth! I'm ready to be accurately rewarded for the time, education, experience, and general AWESOMENESS I bring to my job. But instead, I have a company who would rather loose their employees every 2-3 months and disappoint their clients than pay to keep their employees.

I want to branch out into my own training business, but it's slow going. Part of that is my own lack of motivation to figure out what I need to do and to DO it, mostly because I am SO TIRED when I go home that I just focus on trying to take a nap so I can make it another day without a migraine! The workout class I've tried to start up on the weekends only has 1 person who wants to come! Not that I expected 30, but 4-5, at least. So that de-motivates me, too.

Plus my dog has been worrying me. She's been limping for a few weeks, but it doesn't seem to bother her other than when she stands up. She still runs around after squirrels, runs around the house, etc. But I'm afraid to take her to her favorite place (the park) because I don't want to make a problem worse. I will take her to the vet if I need to, but she still seems to be at that point where I should just wait it out and save myself the few hundred bucks.

With all this tiredness (this week especially), I have NOT been able to stick to my willpower. I'm glad that the worst I'll do is have a few extra bowls of cereal, 1 glass of wine, or some chocolate on my non-chocolate day, but it still bums me out that I just cannot find the willpower to STOP SNACKING!!!

And lastly, people in general. People who don't use their blinkers, cut you off (or come into your lane and YOU have to brake so you don't get hit), then flip you off when you honk. People who drive down the shoulder because THEY don't want to wait, causing everyone else to wait longer to get on the feeder road. People who DING MY DAMN DOOR in the parking lot and don't leave notes! People who take up 2 lanes to drive under the speed limit. People who think that as soon as they're done with weights at the gym, they don't need to put them up. THIS is why I just want to stay at home with my dogs and my guy all day....

Is it sad that I don't feel any better?

Same. I thought I'd cry at the proposal but I didn't. I tried on what felt like a million dresses and my reaction was indifference to digust (At the dress, not me). I wound up picking one that I really liked on the hanger but the sample didn't fit. So I'm HOPING it looks good on me.

I like this topic. This week is a week where I need to whine.

Just found out on Wednesday I'm losing my job because they are shutting down our office. We found out via OTHER PEOPLE and when enough rumors swirled the business administrator told us over a conference call. It's not until September and I hated my job anyway but I'm stamping my foot about it. My fiance was asked to step down at his job over a month ago because they found out he had no plans of being a company man. And now I'm going to lose my job. And we had started making progress with paying off our debts and paying for our wedding and saving for house. Now we have no idea about any of it. I already booked like everything for the wedding and signed contracts and paid down payments. So we either have to go through with what we picked when we both had office jobs or we have to cancel and pay those fees. And I'm upset god damn it! It felt like things were getting better but now they are getting worse.

Lmao. The profanity filter changed my second to last sentence up there and it made me smile.

god damn it

*******it

^if you take out the spaces

As someone who has subscribed to this thread, I didn't appreciate seeing the original post from Krampus in my mailbox.

Ooh, I have lots to complain about!

Firstly, I'm so darn overwhelmed by all of this. Going back to school on Sunday. Easy to pack for, right? NO ! Because I have to pack all the stuff I will need for the summer, too, because I'm working at my school over the summer. not to mention my school is in the middle of nowhere, and I can't drive, so finding somewhere to stay is soo difficult.
So now I have to pack for a 3 1/2 month living situation that I'm not even sure about.

Also, as much as I love my school, I don't want to go back at all because of my roommate. I can't stand him. I hate living with him. The only reason I moved in was so 3 friends could take my old room. And how do they repay me? Blasting base all the time, so the walls rattle and I get anxiety.
I've been looking for a single this entire semester. I have been on my hands and knees at the head of the housing committee for a new room. And nothing.
and then what do I find out? My friend is getting a double to herself after break! ALL TO HERSELF! And up until a few weeks ago, she was always raving about her living conditions- three great friends all in one room, they all love it....
I'm the extreme introvert who never gets any genuine alone/quiet time... and it's making me so depressed. So depressed.
It's really bad for my mental health, but there's nothing I can do. it's not fair.
(And I've tried to get my friend to at least let me move in with her, but she would rather have a single...)

I hate this.

A person, that I once considered my best friend (of 19 years), cut me off in 2010 because I am not a "yes man" and would not agree with or participate in her high school behavior towards everyone anymore. She then proceeded to lie and bad mouth me to anyone that would listen (luckily they know me and took her words with a grain of salt) actually try to re-enter my life. To top it off she wants to be a part of my bridal party (no worries there because I'm not having one). No apology, no eff you... nothing. Just heeey girl *friend request*... when is your wedding... who is your maid of honor... I better get an invite ....... Ummm no. We cannot and will not just pick up where we left off. You were wrong and until you acknowledge that like a woman, we are not Ok (and honestly even if she addressed what was done, its a wrap). Get bent.


I have been holding this one in for about 6 months. I am still a bit (VERY) mad at my mother for ruining my proposal. He was trying to surprise me (and I would have) but he asked her permission (single Mom) and she was too excited. I know she was just happy for me and couldn't contain herself so I am actively trying to forgive her. It was a Freudian slip about a week before. TOTALLY ruined it. I knew about 5 days before and had to fake a shocked happy reaction. How I really felt was sad and irritated that she spoiled it. I LOVE LOVE LOVE surprises... so yeah, there goes that. And he would be so disappointed if he knew his big surprise was ruined so I will never tell him. I am still upset, I can never get that moment back and it would have been EPIC...so I should suck it up and get over it huh I guess one day I will. She's the only Mom I've got and she meant well so...

Well that was cathartic

Did you tell her any of that? I recently had a friendship implode because a friend of mine asked my advice about an affair she's having with a married man. She didn't like my answer and relegated me to "acquaintance" status after that. I deeply resent that she did that to me. She asked. I answered. Our friendship of several years should have been strong enough for me to express my concern and empathy for the man's wife without my friend ditching me. I haven't had the courage to actually come out and say it yet, though. I probably should.

It sucks when your friends can't be mature adults about situations and they run off because they're children... But in that case, who really wants them as friends, anyway? Just sucks it took so long for ya'll to find out.

My rant of the day is: This chick I have been in a running "competition" with about everything (we're enemies & have been since high school, its not like this is friendly competition) is down to like, 141 lbs... And well, I'm about 20 lbs behind her. I HATE HER! And she's using slimfast! But it is the BEST motivator ever, I'll say, lol! I'm not overeating a BITE til I at least catch her!

I'm anxious but when am I not these days? I'm in a new relationship and I'm very happy but there's this girl...it's a stupid story really, no point in telling it. As far as I can tell, nothing bad is going on, but - and I've been holding this in for a few days now so I need to let it out - I don't like her. I don't know her but I don't trust her. I've seen too many girls try to steal boyfriends away to be comfortable. I don't like that they seem to talk every day, I don't like that I feel sad. I'm so frustrated and I don't like that either.

You know what else I dislike? The ellipsis. Most loaded punctuation in the entire English language...

Those situations suck, but either he'll be honest or he won't. If he's a decent guy she could be naked, feeding him alcohol and bribing him but he'd still be faithful.

What's their relationship?