I think I am subconsciously afraid to get under 300 lbs!!
I swear that this week I am doing everything and anything to sabotage myself! Yesterday was a *bad* day and I gave into old habits of binging. It was weird, I did not eat my typical things I would eat like chocolate and candy, etc. I ate fast food and just grabbed stuff from the fridge. Today is yet another new day and I am back OP, but I have to wonder if I am doing this to keep me from losing.
I am sorry to be such a downer...I just needed to vent!!
peggy we all have days like that... i am getting so frustrated myself i just want to quit but i know i wont do that i have come to far... we just have to dig our heels in i guess and not give in to temptations.. i think it is a psychological reaction to the dieting .
peggy we all have days like that... i am getting so frustrated myself i just want to quit but i know i wont do that i have come to far... we just have to dig our heels in i guess and not give in to temptations.. i think it is a psychological reaction to the dieting .
I know. Like last Sunday I was on the road from 4:00 AM until 8:30 PM. I was good all morning and then went down a slippery slope from noon on. Well, I guess confining it to ONE day as opposed to a week, month, year...or more is an accomplishment! One day at a time...I can't change what I did, but can try harder.
Sharon-I’m still waiting to start the gown. I’m afraid to begin too soon for fear it will be too big for me in the fall. I’m hankering to start though.
Jill-I’d take those 2 pounds down this week. I’m driving myself like crazy, and getting no where. I’m starting to wonder if I need to dramatically change my diet.
Lavandel-I love putting on clothes that are too big. The problem comes when clothes actually fit me. I feel confined. I actually have a pair of pants that have been taken up so many times that the crotch hangs almost to my knees. My husband calls them my harem pants.
Emily-congrats on passing the test. You are so close to the end now. I understand about being so nervous that all you can hope to do is limit the damage.
Brenda-3 pounds is great. It is better up than down.
Peggy-You will find that we all have that problem around big numbers: 300 200 or 100 pounds lost. I’m lucky that my 100 and 200 pounds lost happened around the 400 and 500 pound marks so they co-incided. It is a fear of failure getting in the road of our success. Just do the best you can. Start weighing in kilograms, and by the time you switch back to pounds, you will be over the hurdle without realizing it.
I am off to walk at the mall, and look for dress coat fabric. Have an OP day everyone.
Peggy you shouldnt take a 'bad day' for such a bad thing really. So what if you did what you werent suppose to, or eat or whatever, the most important thing is to recognize it, even enjoy it and then just start again the next day. If you feel angry or sorry about it its not gonna do you any good. I ate a pizza today and I enjoyed it. So what no harm done, I'll be better tomorrow and I know I wont crave for anything fatty for a while now hehe. So dont be angry with your self, just try to do better the following days. You can do it
Chatrine...oh god I didnt even think about what if they start to fit again...that is so not gonna happen lol. LOL@harem pants...draw flowers on them and you can be a belly dancer hehehe
I had my weekly weigh today, I've lost 4 lb, which I was very surprised to see ,considering TOM and everything..so yaaaay its a good surprise. Though my scale shows 8lb more then at docs, I prefer the one at docs better , but I still keep my trackers by my own scale, it wouldnt be fair to me to just write off the 8lb, I havent really lost, but hey I still love the docs scale
Whats wrong with me? I made two posts today? wow lol
Just popping in for a bit to see how everyone is doing! Looks like it is going to be a fine weekend here, with lots of sunshine! I certainly couldn't pass it up today, so I went out this morning and did some walking ! Got to get toned up for the 19th, you know...
Had a tasty grilled chicken salad for a late lunch; talk about feeling satisfied! The thing was so big, I think I'll be able to get three meals out of it. Heh. Wow...what a contrast from the days a medium pizza would last only one meal.
Well what a weird day I’ve had today. On the one hand it was good because one of the more fashionable clothes shops over here have FINALLY realised there are big women in the world and they now sell gorgeous clothes that go up to a size 26. The bad thing is that I had to buy the t-shirts that I did buy in that size 26! When I started this diet I was a size 30/32, and 112 lbs later I should be buying clothes in much smaller sizes than a 26! Deep down I knew that it was just a case of clothes there being a 26, but in my normal shop I can buy a 22, but still I let it get to me. I had a day where I just felt fat, fat, fat, and that although I’ve lost a great amount of weight I don’t look any better. Of course instead of letting it inspire me to stay OP I used it as an excuse to not bother counting my points today. I know that’s silly, especially after eating Toblerone and biscuits yesterday. Hmm, I think I just need to count this as yet another diet break, and I’ll get back on plan properly soon. The good thing is that although I am slowing down my weight loss progress when I have these breaks, I also know that I CAN and WILL get back on plan and I WILL continue losing the weight. Knowing that makes me feel good But enough about me………….
Patti - I know what you mean about wanting to get your exercise done all in one go rather than in 10 minute spurts. I often think it would be easier for me to do two lots of half an hour exercise at home, but that means getting all sweaty twice. Much better to just get it all out of the way in one hour and have a shower to freshen up afterwards. I hate to harp on about it, but I really think you would benefit BIG STYLE from buying a Gazelle Rider. It’s so much easier on the joints, your knees included, much more gentle than a treadmill. You could still do 10 minutes on the treadmill but the rest of your time on the Gazelle
Daren’s back is a lot better, though he’s still having to be careful with the way he moves around. Fear not, VERY little stops him from playing his games, in fact when he CAN’T play that’s when I know he really is very poorly
Catherine - about your drooling I won’t mention the ‘T’ word again so you won’t need to change again
Metachick - enjoy your mini break away. I am itching to have a break away myself, but money restrictions prevent it. Oh well, maybe next year How cool that you’ll be at the opening of an amusement park, I hope you and your son have a brilliant time.
Kayley - how is that fresh start going? It’s wonderful to have the ‘click’. I keep having that, but lately I also seem to be clicking off again too quickly I’ll persevere though
Missy - 9 lbs lost in a week Well done!
Sharon - sorry that you are still feeling rough, I hope you will feel much better especially if you do end up going to your mums for the long weekend. that the weather is nice enough for you to be able to go and enjoy some walks in the fresh air on the beach
As you know from our chat I didn’t behave today food wise, but tomorrow until my Most Haunted party I will be good
Jilly - great news on the weight loss, you are back on track
Lavandel - I know what you mean about not wanting to buy new clothes because hopefully soon they too will be too big for you. That’s what I was like today when I had to buy some t-shirts for the summer. I picked quite a few to try on, but opted for buying the cheaper ones because I am not paying a lot of money that hopefully in a few months will need to be given away
A big on the 4 lbs lost
Em - on passing your big nursing exam You did so great and so very rightly are proud of yourself I bet hubby is really proud of you too
Brenda - brilliant news about your 3 lbs lost, well done
Jenn - great news about your lb loss for yesterday, did you see another loss when you weighed today?
Peggy - it’s so weird how sometimes we seem to sabotage myself when it comes to dieting. I think the main thing you have to do is not think of days like today as being bad, just think of it as a break, try not to feel guilty because it makes getting back on plan that much easier! You WILL get under 300 lbs, you aren’t a quitter and you just have to remember that
Xena - LOVED AI tonight, and was pleased with the results even though I think both that went out sang great. Now 3 out of the 4 left are my faves, so it’s going to get hard to see any of them go
Ok got to go have a shower now. Take care all, have a great weekend and hopefully I’ll be posting again tomorrow.
Emily - This may sound like a weird idea (many of mine are) and it may just be the 'teacher' in me talking, but could you possibly look at the food challenges in the new ward as a kind of 'test'. By that, I mean could you pick a score you would like to receive for that placement - say a minumum of 80% - then that is how often you MUST pass by those treats. If you work 5 days a week, you may tell yourself that if you pass by the treats 4 days a week, you can have something on the 5th day because you would still be achieving an 80% score. Does that make any sense at all? It made sense when I first thought about it. It is just that you have worked for SO long now basing your achievements on 'scores' and percentages. You are always so proud of yourself when you 'pass' and I am wondering if there is some way you can transfer this concept over to the eating challenges at work.
Just a thought. I truly hope you find some way to overcome this challenge, or to at least ride it through with as little damage as possible.
Zelma
P.S. I hope to be later to write a LOT more and to do some personal replies. I am SO proud of everyone who is staying OP and to those who have a positive attitude no matter where they are heading on their journey. Those of you who are sick, I hope you are better soon.
Wow, so many losses here!! It's wonderful! According to the scale, I should see a loss this Sunday, but I'm not going to get my hopes up just in case I don't for some reason. I'm almost done with laundry, and should be heading home soon. I doubt I'm going to make it to the gym before they close at 9...since it's already 7:30! But I'll get at least a walk in. TTYL!
No worries. I am not beating myself up over poor food choices I made this week. This is a lifetime commitment and I will have breaks now and again. It just struck me odd that it was happening with only 8 lbs to get past a big milestone. Maybe I overthink things. Who knows. I just figured it was something I was subconsciously doing to myself for some strange reason.
In any event, I stayed OP all day today. Onward and DOWNward!!
Catherine: When you make that recipe you will have to let me know how it turns out. Glad you will be not over doing it on the yard work.
Shadie: Hope the new insulin does it's magic for you! Thanks for the info on the Cpap. I think you are right, sleep is something I am sooooo needing!
Lesley: Hope you enjoy your time when you DH gets home!
Jilly: Yippe to you on the 2 pounds lost and on making all the positive food choices!
Ammi: I bet your hair looks FAB! My braces are not hurting my teeth anymore. The chain is actually one rubber band that is continual on the bracketts. I chose Dark Blue. I will have to send you a photo of them. lol
Patti: Feel better real soon hun!
LeeAnnC: Congrats on getting to the 50 pounds mark!
Jenn: Welcome back, Congrats on your new baby and your 2.5 pounds this week.
Lilion: Okay friend, time to move it, move it, move it, get moving on the elliptical! You can do it hun. Come on now.
Metachick: Have fun with your son at the Phantom of the Opera!
Missy: Whoop! Whoop to you on -9 pounds! Fantastic.
Sharon: Awesome on another -4! Before you know it you will be laying down to zip a size 12! Feel better soon!
Lavandel: Great NSV on the clothes being too big. Also, huge congrats on the -4 more pounds!
Emily: Yippeeee! Congrats to you on passing your essay! Way to go EM
Brenda: Congrats to you on another -3! You are soooooo close to being in the 2's I am so excited for you.
Peggy: Hugs and hang in there.
Zelma: HI hope you are doing wonderfully.
As for me, I am doing well. I am anxiously awaiting my CPAP, staying op and hoping for a good weigh in on Monday. I had to be in the hospital for a day and a night due to chest pains but it was rulled, after a bazillion tests, to be stress and over doing it on exercise with a low potassium count. I had to have iv's to bring it up and except for a bit dizzy and bruises on both arms from the iv's and blood tests, I am feeling much better. I couldn't be loosing weight soon enough. Hope nobody gets any more weight related problems. Stay healthy my girls. Stay op and enjoy life! Hugs to you all,
Blessings,
Annie
, but I still keep my trackers by my own scale, it wouldnt be fair to me to just write off the 8lb, I havent really lost, but hey I still love the docs scale 
! Got to get toned up for the 19th, you know...
But enough about me………….
I won’t mention the ‘T’ word again so you won’t need to change again 
Well done!
that the weather is nice enough for you to be able to go and enjoy some walks in the fresh air on the beach 
on passing your big nursing exam 
you will have to let me know how it turns out. Glad you will be not over doing it on the yard work. 
DH gets home!
and on making all the positive food choices!
FAB! My braces are not hurting my teeth anymore. The chain is actually one rubber band that is continual on the bracketts. I chose Dark Blue. I will have to send you a photo of them. lol
soon hun!
time to move it,
elliptical! You can 
to you on -9 pounds! Fantastic.
you know it you will be laying down to zip a size 12! Feel better soon!
another -3! You are soooooo close to being in the 2's I am so excited for you.
in there.
and bruises on both arms from the iv's and blood tests, I am feeling much better. I couldn't be loosing weight soon enough. Hope 
nobody gets any more weight related problems. Stay healthy my girls. Stay op and enjoy 
life! Hugs to you all,