This is my first time reading this thread...I can't believe I missed it! I am in tears reading these confessions and writing my own. Here goes.
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Originally Posted by LosinitinCO
- I do not accept compliments because I am not proud of myself.
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Originally Posted by Shyanara
I'm a lot skinnier in my head than in reality. When I'm in a good mood, I feel sexy and irresistible and beautiful, and then I look at pictures and think OMG, that's not me!
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These above, and then here are my own:
• 3 years ago, I began a lifestyle so I could have more energy for my children. In the process, I lost over 20 pounds. I wish I had never lost that weight because I was happy with myself before. Now that I’ve lost that weight and gained it all back (plus more), I feel like a big, fat loser.
• I met my current best friend who is overweight when I was skinny. She loved me then. I gained weight. She loves me now. She has been working out since January and is losing weight and I’m afraid she’ll be skinnier than me.
• My sister has been naturally thin her entire life. All of her friends who are moms are very thin. I think she doesn’t respect me because I didn’t work hard to get my pre-children body back.
• My sister just had her first babies (twins) four months ago. I hoped she would hold onto pregnancy weight. She didn’t.
• I am ashamed to go out in public because I lost weight and gained it all back. I am sure people are judging me and thinking that I was on some sort of fad program that didn’t work, like everything else.
• I had a breast reduction last year and I thought it was the best thing I had ever done in my life…until a few weeks ago when I took what I hope are “before” pictures and my stomach was bigger than my boobs.
• I judge my 400 pound friend. Not for being obese, but for having obese children.
• When I lost weight a few years ago, a friend was doing it with me. We both lost weight and both gained weight back, but me more than her and I hate her for it.
• My goal weight is 135 because my lowest adult weight after having 4 children was 138 and I had 3 pounds of boobage removed when I had a reduction, but secretly I wonder if I can get down to the 120s.
• My mother is always on my case about my weight. Last Thanksgiving, we got into a fight about it and she hasn’t talked to me since. She’s 69 years old and I miss her. Getting thin would make her happy (and maybe get her off my back.)
• When I meet new people, I want to tell them, “I used to be skinny, you know.”
• I hate telling people I am on Weight Watchers because I am sure they are thinking to themselves that I shouldn’t even bother since I won’t stick with it/it won’t work.
• For the first time in my life, I ran 6 miles on Saturday. I think people don’t believe me because there’s no way a fat chick like me could do that.
• I am reading these confessions and am amazed at the women who are afraid of losing weight because they don’t want to attract attention. The best part of being skinny for me was all the attention I got. Now I feel like a whore.
• I don’t buy myself nice clothes at my current size because I don’t think I deserve to look nice.
• I don’t have any recent pictures of me on Facebook…only skinny pictures.
• Cancer made one of my best friends skinny. Even though it ended up killing her, sometimes I still wish for a disease to make me skinny.
• I think my husband is more attracted to me when I am thin and that he only has sex with me now to get his own.
• I blame my husband for my weight gain.
And for one good one: I used to want a tummy tuck, I don't anymore. Even when I get skinny (and I will) and have that flab hanging off me, I hope it will serve as a reminder that I have had 5 pregnancies and 4 beautiful children resulted from it and also of how I've conquered my demons. Thanks for letting me share.