Shad - I understand the antsy and annoyed feeling. I hope you got out and exercised...that always helps me to work those feelings out.
Red and Apple - I hope you both are doing okay.
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I've been getting on the scale in the mornings for the last few days and have been pretty consistently seeing 218s and 217s...and then today...BAM...220! WTF!! I do NOT need this the day before my official WW weigh in day! At least no more prednisone...hopefully my appetite will calm down. I've got to bring more zero point food to work to snack on.
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Good day yesterday. My weight is now 80.6 down .5kg from last week which I am happy about. Now just have to keep on keeping on and shut my mouth during the weekends.
Michelle I can so sympathise with you and the weight. It is just so easy to put on and so hard to take off.
Catch up with the rest of you soon
Last edited by Shad; 09-16-2009 at 05:49 PM.
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Had a good food and exercise day yesterday. I was feeling pretty frustrated that the scale isn't being kind...we'll see what the WW scale shows later today. I was reading posts from the 100-lb club about how much they exercise and I decided to step it up a notch last night so that I can get out of the 220s. I did an hour of cardio, followed by about 10 minutes of abs. Tonight I'll be going to the gym for at least 1/2 hour of cardio followed by my favorite 1/2 hour strength training class. I got the audio book of You On a Diet from the library and though I just started listening to it this morning, those docs have a sense of humor and really use some funny analogies.
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Shad - Congrats on the weight loss! You're doing great! I, too, have a big problem on the weekends....the weekdays are so much more structured for me and much easier to stay on plan.
Red - Sorry to hear that you had some early Halloween challenge horrors and had to restart. But good on ya' for getting back here and restarting! You're still doing great with many of your challenges!
I had a very pleasant surprise at weigh in today. My home scale this morning said 220...but when I weighed in at lunch time, I was 219.2, so I was down 1.6 pounds, despite the prednisone! I'm in the Two Teens!!! And I have begun to step up (pardon the pun) my exercising...so hopefully this downward trend will continue!
I am seriously thinking of taking an extended break from the challenges.
I am not in a good way and wonder if the pressure of the challenges is making things worse.
The past week has been a very bad one for me as the pain from my fall has totally disrupted my exercise and routine. I don't think my eating has been any worse at all but I seem to have gained and that is very depressing. My pants are tighter than ever and my clothes check today was worse than last week....I would have to say noticeably, if not significantly.
I truly no longer believe I can lose weight or that even if I lose a bit, I will immediately gain it right back. And that very belief is probably the biggest block to losing weight. But is constant vigilance needed? Is it because my eating patterns are so ingrained that I gain the weight right back? I am not drinking any where the amount I used to and even with that, my weight stays basically the same.
Any advice. Be gentle please. I know I'm in a terrible low because of my fall and the continuing pain and feelings that all is working against me and/or is futile.
diyana, I am happy for you that you have seen a loss this week. How do you deal with the, dare I say, slow progress. And excuse me if you don't see it that way. I certainly don't mean to rain on your parade. Not that 1.6 lbs is slow, but in general? You seem happy about what you get (and Shad too) and that's something that I can't muster because every time I lose I seem to gain it right back. Oh, I wish I would have something that looks truly good happen to me, something that is truly good. I am so in need of it.
Ok, I'm just going to try to suck up and accept the reality. It is damn easy to put on weight and damn hard to take it off. That's the sum of it. Why bemoan it? That's an unneeded expense of energy. Deal with it! ....still, any kind words are most welcome. I'm really feeling like a loser...in the usual sense of the word.
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Took a pause on water. Not enough went past the teeth and over the tongue. Only one pause left on all the challenges. I've been doing these challenges for what seems like for ever and still they are not ingrained.
Weight is up slightly this morning, but I think that maybe because I had Tandoori chicken with rice last night - yes I made it myself but I also had smoked salmon in my lunch yesterday and that has plenty of salt in it. So I won't get excited here. It's only a small amount.
This journey is about discovery and realisation, not about condemnation and self berating. I ought to remember that and work to overcome my hurdles and hiccups. To become a better me. Ummmmm that really needs working on.
I don't want to talk about it...at least I got a lot of walking in today. I definitely feel like I am on the mend. There is still pain, especially now after all that walking but it is far, far better than it was.
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I had a great workout at the gym last night and got a total of roughly 14000 steps in. Today, I'm going to walk at lunch and after work. I've got to take advantage of this gorgeous weather while we still have it. It's cooled off some from the mid 80s we had earlier in the week, but it's still very nice.
Red - Sorry to hear that you're in a funk. Personally, I think that you're giving up the booze and the cigs is a HUGE reason to celebrate! Think of the wonderful gift you have given to your body with just those two changes. Even if it doesn't show on the scale, your lungs and liver (and other organs) thank you profusely every day for not poisoning them anymore! And you've cut back on caffeine and sugar - which are TREMENDOUS accomplishments!! I am SOOOO proud of you!! You are definitely a WINNER in my book!! And I TOTALLY understand the frustration you're feeling in terms of the pain. While my back was giving me fits (for months), I couldn't walk more than 5 minutes. I tried to do what I could, but often got frustrated and felt like "what's the point", which led me to very unhealthy eating. The illness and pain (not being able to work out) I was experiencing late last year and earlier 2009, coupled with a "why bother since I can't workout" mindset led to me gaining back all 40 of the pounds I lost in the first 9 months of 2008. Very, very frustrating. It is WAY easier to put the weight on than to take it off. For me, all it takes is a WTF attitude. For me....I HAVE to try and stay positive, stay extremely vigilant and accept every little bit of weight loss as a blessing (even though I did work my arse off to earn it - sometimes it doesn't show). And in my work-sponsored weight management group, the nurse who leads it asked me if I can keep up with this vigilence and keep doing what I'm doing for life. I said that yes, I understand that I will NEVER be able to go back to the slug-like sedentary lifestyle and high-fat, high-sugar eating habits. That being said, I do think, for me, some flexibility is necessary. If I have a cookie, I have a cookie. Am I going to give up cookies (and other food porn items) PERMANENTLY? No. Heck, I might even occasionally (a couple times a year) treat myself to some authentic Chicago deep dish pizza (which is nearly 2 days of WW points for a extra small personal size pizza). I'm just learning to view these as very occasional treats, rather than a staple of my diet. As for me, I am viewing the 1.6 lb loss as a great accomplishment after bouncing between 220 and 221 for weeks, and I was on prednisone and eating CONSTANTLY! I work with someone who is doing WW at Work now but is planning on quitting because she's not losing as fast as she'd like. She was hoping to get to goal by October. She is noticing that for her, it's very difficult and rare to achieve a loss. She did well in the beginning and even though she's doing everything right...she's at a plateau. But she only has a few pounds left to get to goal. I think it is very true that when you have A LOT to lose, the weight does come off a little easier - not easy by any means. And I tell her that while I may have lost over a pound this week, I still have 70 pounds to go. I'm going to be at this for a year or two just to get to goal (and then still not be able to go back to my old habits).
Shad - You are SO right...the journey is about discovery and self-realization. And about persistence, not perfection. I KNOW I will get to goal this time because I'm NOT going to quit. And as long as I don't quit, I cannot fail. Good on ya' for your challenges....only 1 week to go 'till completion! And I hear ya', it's hard for me to consider these good behaviors ingrained when I would often love to go back to my couch-potato, high-fat/low-veg lifestyle, but I know that doing what I did would just get me back to where I was (or something like that).
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Red - I'm so very glad you're feeling like you're on the mend. I would suggest that after you walk, you ice your hips, back and anywhere that you feel might be especially sore. That, along with a couple over the counter anti-inflammatory pain meds like Advil or Aleve, really helps me.
diyana -- Thank you for that long post. I wish I had someone like you right here with me so I wouldn't get so down on myself, always thinking nothing of my accomplishments. I don't know why that is. I guess I just never had anyone like that and it's not something I think people tend to do naturally. Well, I mean, even if you do think you've accomplished something, the glow wears off very quickly and you can't keep patting yourself on the back. I think maintaining is the hardest for this very reason. How long can you say, "oh, guess what, I did this, or I did that....it's been xx days since xx." It wears off and others get tired of it. I don't know. Maybe accomplishments are something you have to cultivate and gloat on in private, but I think you DO need to do that, otherwise, like me, I feel I have done nothing much at all.
You're right, I guess. Giving up regular drinking and smoking and a lot of the sugar must be doing my body some good, my body and my mind. The fall off the horse is a setback, nothing more, but naturally, it's affecting my mind and body as well. I always realized this morning that, yes, I CAN go to the gym. I just may not be able to do anything near my usual routine. But, I could stretch or lightly pedal a bike, which would probably be better than staying away from the gym and feeling my entire life routine has been disrupted. Gosh, I am so inflexible that when life forces me to change, I don't bend with those changes and incorporate them into my routine, but wander lost and aimless. What a fool!
I think I have to just stop pressuring myself. Flexibility is a problem with me because I tend to snowball, say, with sugar or anything really. Anyhow, I've got to start looking at the big picture more, I think and take care of things along the way, instead of this I'll-wait-till-I'm-thin-and-I-feel-like-a-million-bucks kind of thinking.
diyana, you're doing great on the walking. 14,000 steps is a LOT. I know, because I used to use a pedometer a lot. A workout too? Wow, your body, either your weight or your measurements is going to be getting quite a shakeup.
Shad -- I think a journey does contain discovery and realization AS WELL AS condemnation and self berating, the "bad" with the "good." It's awareness that is important and how we deal with all the elements of a journey. Though I don't like the times of self-criticism, I do believe those times are necessary to move me along and on to new ways of dealing with these feelings. They are ALWAYS going to come along. There is nothing wrong with self-criticism in itself, positive as well as negative. The reason I don't believe in all this "let's only be positive" stuff is that it is unrealistic and actually gives me more fuel when negativity and rough times come along to berate myself for feeling poorly.
I don't think being thin will entail a "better me." It may lead to another me. And I certainly will be perceived differently from the outside, which may lead to a different me. Better or worse, even. I know lots of people who have become snobs and little rats once they became thin. I think they were better people when they were fat. It's like noveau rich. A poor person may only be "good" until they have the choioce. Maybe I will become "better" in the sense that I will be able to use my abilities more in this world. When I think back on the worst times of my life, maybe back when I was 20 and very overweight, I am the same person in many ways, my thinking, my feelings, but I can deal with things so much better now, people, what life throws me. There were also other times when I was much thinner than now but dealing with other aspects of life in a very foolish way, one that caused me a lot of pain. Learning to deal with things better. I guess that's what this process is about, eh? If I think of that, I don't feel so bad about being a certain weight, or whatever things I would like to change. Hmm....now to remember this.
It's funny about the challenges not become "ingrained" as you say. I am the same. I know that if I don't do a sugar challenge, I will soon snowball back to constant overindulgence. If I don't do an alcohol challenge, I'll be out drinking beer several times a week. Whatever, maybe the "challenges" are more just that, not a habit-forming tool.
I'm glad you're carrying on bravely with your challenges, Shad. You are much more stalwart than I!
Last edited by redballoon; 09-18-2009 at 09:06 PM.
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Weight is every which way but down, and I will be struggling for another loss this week I think. Aaah well. How long have I got - to halloween or somewhere?
Gotta go. Things are moving along and I am not catching up. I will be back for personals later tonight.
Had a day of energy, just forced myself to be positive. Now, however, the pain in my back is back in force....maybe I will have to see a doctor to see what I should NOT be doing.
Challenge-wise, I stuck to most of them, but decided to hold off on sugar and evening eating. I need a break on those. I was good with food though and took the journal seriously. Two good days of getting everything down.
FOOD/EXERCISE JOURNAL -- Day 2 completed
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Hi, I just wanted to jump before it got to hard to keep up with everyone. I am still on the no beer with one pause, but I've been unable to stick with the wii. I'll get back at it soon, but I'm not so sure its all that important. I need to get on an exercise schedule, that would produce some results, I hope!
Sorry I wasn't around when you hit a rough patch Red, it looks like you are doing OK though.
I have to run, I am expecting company any minute. I'll check in again soon!
recuperating....
Horror details later...
I'm in the Two Teens!!! 
in a bad funk....
Deal with it! ....still, any kind words are most welcome. I'm really feeling like a loser...in the usual sense of the word. 
musings....
