Scale is being kind but I've been here before. And not for long. So I don't really believe it. Maybe in five months and if my weight is still going down.
I didn't do great calorie wise today. I thought I could push some calories to my next tally but it will put me over for that tally. Now, I am frantically calculating the 'real' number for my calorie limit. My typical calorie limit has a relatively large margin for error. This is an example of magical thinking. Oh, I can find a way to say I was still under a calorie limit. The truth is over the limit is over. The only question remaining is do I count it against the the tally ending at 5 pm today or the tally ending at 5 pm tomorrow?
So did okay on the scale. Nothing confirmed today but there is potential to confirm a loss next week. For yesterday calorie wise, I was barely over with 20 calories above my maintain limit. Today, I was way, way over and essentially took a break from dieting until 5:00 pm. Back on track now and we'll wait for the damage report.
Still at my last official weigh-in weight. If it stays this way, I'll be able to confirm a 1.5 lb loss on Sunday. I think I would qualify it as a whoosh.
Hopefully, today was the final damage report from overeating last Sunday. I am up 2.5 lbs from yesterday. I can always count on my scale to keep me humble.
I really struggled with fatigue today and ended up crashing for an hour. One minute somewhat okay and the next, I needed to lie down before I fell over. So frustrating. I went to the rec center on schedule this morning. I missed out on skating today because of a schedule issue. I am still trying to get my walks in. I didn't do the first one until 7 pm and got rained on. Time for another one- the day is running out.
All week until yesterday, it looked like it was going to be a great weigh-in today. It was not. Up 2.5 lbs from last week despite being on plan everyday with the exception of last Sunday. I haven't seen this high of a weight since a month ago. I was really hoping I was on the cusp of change but it is seems more and more like I am on the cusp of another failure. It looks like my metabolism slows faster than I can cut calories to get under it.
Lots of energy seeking behavior today and like last Sunday, I overate by a sizeable number of calories. I'll need to put the breaks on this pattern! It would be much easier if the scale was cooperative on weigh-in day. Currently showing a gain of 2.5 lbs for the month. A total gain of 1 lb for the year.
Weight is still up. Didn't make great choices for dinner. I must make better ones tomorrow. Tomorrow is going to be rough! I need to be up by 4am. I am not a morning person. Even worse, I get my best sleep between 4-7 in the morning. Typical folks get their best sleep shortly after falling asleep.
Today was indeed rough from getting up early. My eating definitely showed it. I will be over calorie wise tomorrow. I just don't have it in me right now to keep my eating in check.
I've been telling myself. Neigh, I have been promising myself I will eat better. Of course, true to form, I overate a lot today. It is such a struggle! Goes to show me that obesity is really more of a disease than a character flaw. Interestingly, weight was a little down today from where it was on Sunday.
Weight is down to -26.5 lbs. So two pounds down since Sunday. I'd usually say let's see if holds but we already 'NO" the answer.
I had an amazing ice skating session. The ice was really smooth and there were only four other people on the ice. A student and their instructor and two amazing figure skaters.
The figure skaters were really good and very elegant. They were doing routines to Disney music. I love Disney so that was really fun. It was like a private tour of behind the scenes at Disney On Ice. The routines seemed rather sophisticated for just playing around. So much so, I am wondering if they were preparing for a tryout or maybe even rehearsing routines. Either way it was really fun!
