Hello all!
Sore and aching little Frus today, but in a kinda good way.
I'm being bullied at kickboxing. There is this guy who has been training for 12 years and is teaching and he
thinks he knows it all. However I have just got my brown and white belt and he is still training for his!
And for some reason he's jealous that I am getting "involved in the club" as he puts it... Well duh, I'm an instructor!
So anyway for some reason this guy feels threatened AND he hates women. Great combination. Anyway, so I'm sparring with him, and I haven't sparred with him for a long long long long time because the last time he sparred with me (when I was barely a beginner) he grabbed my leg and threw me on the hard floor without mats.
Not something we do. Not even a proper controlled take-down. Anyway we're sparring last night, and it was a small class so I thought I'd give him the benefit of the doubt and spar with him again and see what happens. I think Lee has had a word because he wasn't actually attacking, just defending my blows and BOY was that boring. Espescially since I have progressed from one hit, back off, one kick, back off. So after a while of single blows I decided to step in and work his body and he was SO mad that I was actually hitting him!
So anyway, after I step out and carry on kicking, he grabs my leg and puts me on the floor.
THEN he says
I need to show some control
FUME Steam coming out of my ears, makes me even more mad, makes me want to hit him harder.... So we carry on and after I've done some more body work on him he stops and says, "You need to show some control alright? You need to be slow and controlled. Either you show some control or we don't spar. Give me a sign that you understand!!!!!"
WTF
I need to show control??? ME?
and where does he get off talking to me like I'm a
******?
Anyway, so I shrug and say, "Spar." Because Lee has told me to ignore what he says and just carry on practicing like I need to. So I'm sparring with him again and come in close and he grabs my leg again, and before I have time to react, or hit him or kick him, he walks backwards and pulls me onto the floor. AGAIN. Fortunately time was called shortly after and I unfortunately I didn't get to kill him.
I think this happened because Lee wasn't there - it was his daughter's birthday. And Dipsh*t, sorry Dilip, thinks he's in charge, when he clearly wasn't.
So I got home all angry and sobby and ranted at DH. Bless and I just needed to get it all out and DH says that I should say to Dilip, "Could you not take me down every time we spar?"
Yeah, cos that's the problem. Problem is that Dilip has a problem with me. I saw him grab other people's legs and not take them down.
I just think if I answered him back when Dilip was ranting at me I just lower myself to his level. If I hit him back hard, or fight dirty like him, I'm just lowering myself to his level. And I don't want to ring Lee and go telling on him but I think he has to know. DH says Dilip will respect me less if I tell on him by talking to Lee. I say that Dilip already has no respect for me and I don't want to lower myself to his level by answering him back or playing dirty.
GAH!
But
APART from that it's all good! IE is going well, the scales are behaving and I haven't found the need to eat chocolate or much ice cream!!!
I wanted to eat a big chocolate bar last night 'cos of Dilip, but then he would've won wouldn't he??? So I didn't! HA!
Oh I'm going to see Kylie (Kykaree) tonight and her Fiance.
So any messages I can freely pass on