well melissa- i agree with you. I know my lack of (hmmm for me i think the word is) commitment to a lifestyle change has fallen by the wayside. i think that is why i am not posting so much. I am .. (pick a word here: irritated, annoyed, embarresed, ashamed, disgusted and just plain

at myself for not sticking with what i need to do. and i think i have fallen into a WHINE poster mentality and i feel no one wants to hear how crazed and what struggles i am having. but that's my own weird voice in side my head- saying stupid things. It needs to say STOP MAKING EXCUSES and just do it.
We had a wonderful meeting with my inlaws today and my MIL told me that i need to feel as if this is going to be my home - we weren't just staying there. and we may even have some extra $$ every month. we will be paying a portion of the mortage and some bills but other than that it is good. and we now know we are being given the hosue in 3 years when my MIL retires.
we are moving the weekend of the 18 of march as we have to give a notice to our landlords. MY fil is very worried about his health and wants to start walking w/me! YAY! and i will have a sitter for jocie so i can go for faster walks and have time to EXERCISE!

I will also have HIGH SPEED - NO DIAL UP :edance:theire house is networked for wireless
I have already been digging thru stuff and tossing things

I am making piles of Ebay, yard sale and TRASH- maybe i need that show clean sweep to come in?? I know one thing i AM NOT waiting to pack up - no last minute for me. I agree Melissa- I hate the thought of moving after 6 years here.
One stress off my mind now is that my oldest daughter has landed a wonderful live in nanny position for 2 -7 YO twins. room and Board and pay- good pay- and she has all day until 3 free- i am glad cause she's been out of work for over a month.
my NSV for today is that i bought beautiful peaches, plums and nectarines today instead of the ice cream i really wanted. The good stuff was on sale for b1g1 free and i so wanted chocolate - but the stuff with splenda gives me an upset tummy if i eat too much so i went and bought fruit. 1.59 a pound and i felt guilty at first but then i realized they got ice cream for 5.50 a gallon so

on my guilt! i guess I had 2 NSV's- one was buying the fruit and the second was I stopped feeling guilty about the cost.
Ok i am going to recommit to 1 NSV a day and a daily post- i also starting a Monday challenge for any takers to commit to 120 minutes of exercise a week for Feb.- I know it doesn't sound like much to some of us ( Kayelle- Theresa

But I need to start somewhere and I want to be a summer starter that ends with a summer success!
any one else wanna toss out a challenge??
thanks Melissa for

I needed that
Sandi