Ack I am in a sinus medication haze....I am sick...I have been running a low grade fever and finally today, my body caved into it and now I have a sinus cold infection to deal with. So tired and sleepy...I don't know if I will stay until 5pm. God give me strength because I need the money.
As I'm falling asleep at night.....I imagine myself thin. I imagine wearing cute "thin people" clothes. I imagine myself exercising and being active. It really becomes real in my head and that makes it easier to stick with it the next day.
I am sorry I have not posted I was on vacation in the Outer Banks of North Carolina and this week just tried to catch up with house work.
O.k. I am in a food weight crisis...I have gained back everything I lost last year and keep trying a new diet every day... by mid-afternoon I am off the diet and eating junk food. I think about trying adkins and then I start eating bread so then I try a low fat diet but then a chocolate craving gets me. I am so upset with myself! Lisa thanks for the motivational words and Cyan and Newie your weight loss is also helping me but I just can not get the willpower to resist ....
Well, I am hoping thqat once the boys start school I can get back into some kind of food and exercise rountine. Here is a list of things I am going to try to start Sept. 1.
First my goal weight for December 1 will be 120. I am currently 142 and body fat at 36% I want to lose 20 pounds and get down to 25% body fat.
Here is how I will do it...
1. When I feel like eating I will try to see if I am just bored or what I am feeling.
2. I will post here at least once a day.
3. I will keep a food journal every day.
4. I will go to the gym 4 times a week
5. I will sign up a the local weight watchers.
6. I will lose 5 pounds the first week and then 2-3 each following week. It is 12 weeks until Dec. 1 so even if I don't lose 2 pounds i might just get close to my goal.
7. I will try to find a food lifestyle diet that will include me...not buying junk food, eating more salads and veggies, drinking more water, letting myself have a treat once in awhile, eat in moderation, take vitamins, having my family also join me in eating and exercising more.
8. Treating myself once a week to a non-food reward.
-Week 1- manicure and pedicure,
-Week 2- body wrap
-Week 3- facial
-week 4- new jeans two sizes smaller
-week 5- massage
-week 6- book
-week 7- new makeup
-week 8-highlights
-week 9- new dress in two sizes smaller
-week 10- earrings
-week 11- a special healthy lunch in the city
-week 12- a full day of beauty at a local spa as my reward for making my goal.
Good morning, ladies! I'm off to school this morning to put bulletin boards up and organize my desk, file cabinet, and storage locker. I'm really glad to get back--I've been thinking about what I want to do. It's time now to get to it. It's ironic, though, things have been relatively calm over the summer--I have to think it's so I could get a little stress breather--thank you, God--but as soon as I start on my regular routine, the "you know what" hits the fan. Remember that little transmission change in our car I told you about? Well, that was taken care of, but the "check engine" light went on again Saturday, so I'm calling the car dealer shortly to discuss our next move--cars--can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em!!!! Then hubby learned on Thursday that his employer sold the operation he is part of to another company which is part of the same Ford supplier campus where he works. According to management, all jobs will be retained, but management will be different, along with all the changes that entails. I'm mostly thinking about insurance. I've been putting on hold a couple of things--getting my meds through the mail, and vision appointments for myself and my younger daughter because of only one income this summer and all the details of starting on new insurance--which just started in June!!! Now I'm sure with new owners the insurance will change; I'll be very surprised if it doesn't, so that means putting those things on hold for another month at least, till the business transfer is complete at the end of September. I also have to look at the insurance I am eligible for with my school to see if it's something I want to sign up for as secondary insurance---AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!--That's a scream--a venting scream.
I need to tell you ladies a funny story about what happened to me yesterday. It did result in me drinking a large Baskin Robbins cappucino blast mocha flavor--no whipped cream or cinnamon, but I got a stomach ache because it was too much, so I paid for it. You will easily understand how I could have done such a thing when you hear my story. I am smiling as I write this, so the experience is something I look on fondly. My older daughter (13 1/2 going on 23) and I are going to a wedding next Saturday. She didn't have a dress. We've been trying to find her one, without a lot of success because she has this hourglass figure that is rather shocking for a girl her age. She is developing by the minute, so I've had trouble keeping her in clothes that don't make her look like a tramp because of tightness. She also tends to the pear shape with a very tiny waist. So yesterday I took both girls for haircuts and then shopping for a dress for older girl. I felt safe taking younger girl, 9 1/2 going on either 3 or 12, depending on how much sleep she's had because the last time we went looking, she had a tantrum in the store borne of jealousy because she couldn't go to the wedding--only two people invited--and she promised there wouldn't be any more. Anyway, most dresses older girl tried on were way too tight in the assets area--that was my daughter's word, which rather surprised me. If that section fit, the top was way too big, or so low cut that she was "busting" over the top of the neckline. That's my word--ha, ha! We went to every store in the mall that carried dresses, and a saleslady in the most expensive store we went to asked me if I was the grandma--EEEKKK! I've gotten that question before because my hair is quite gray, and I had no make-up on at all, but yesterday was not the day I was in the mood to hear it again! Older girl was the typical teenage drama queen, literally yelling, "Oh, my gosh!!" nearly every time she tried something on that didn't fit, which was many times. I can't tell you how many times I felt like digging a hole, crawling in, and pulling the dirt in over me. I didn't lose my temper though. The young woman who asked me if I was the grandma did tell me I must have a lot of patience. I believe she was right. The younger girl kept "helping" find various dress possibilities--I think I heard "What about this one?" 75 times between noon and 4:30 p.m. Then at one point younger girl's feet started hurting, and despite a snack, hunger set in, so then there was the whining--she must have been tired too! I suggested a top and skirt several times to older girl, but girl wanted a dress to show off her new figure!!?!!?!! I think I need to be worried about the next few years. Would locking her up help?--ha, ha!! Finally, even she couldn't take it anymore and gave in to hunting for a skirt and top. So we went back to the very first store we started in when we got to the mall, and found a pink and black leopard print skirt and cute black top in no time. We had to buy her a black bra because of the size of the armholes showing her bra, so that meant going to another store. I refused to spend more than $10.00 on a bra for a teenager!! We also got her some appropriate earrings--somewhat dangly, but not too much. Thank goodness I had found a dress for myself on Friday while waiting for older girl at her reading class--black, oriental style, fitted in bodice, with V-neck and cap sleeves, along with pink and cream embroidered flowers on one side of bustline and opposite hip line--size 16--very pretty on me--I just have to shorten it--on sale--I paid $21.65!!!!! If I hadn't, I think I'd just wear whatever I could find in my closet--mercy me! What an afternoon! Anyway, that was the experience that prompted the trip to Baskin Robbins, and I didn't even feel better afterwards--just had a tummyache that lasted all evening. I must be continuing to progress in this relationship with food. Anyway, I thought you might enjoy that story. Well, I've got to get going--there's stuff to do. See you all later.
LIsa thats a very good idea..I sometimes do that and I find that it puts me in the right frame of mind for weightloss. I did pretty bad saturday with food but pretty good on sunday so I guess they cancel each other out. I am feeling better...I havent felt this good in more than a couple of weeks so I guess I had been fighting some kind of virus..and I finally kicked it to the curb LOL
Anyway, I am still in the challenge Lisa so my big weigh in will be august 31!!
Hey Debee...sounds like you are getting ready to recommit...I send you lots of will power...let us know how you are doing once you get started.
Hello ladies. Newie, sounds like you're busy once again. I know how good it feels to have had time this summer to catch our breath and take a break. Debee, glad you are back. We missed you. cyan, I am still up to the challenge. Weightloss had kind of slowed a bit, but i'm not giving up. Yesterday at the weekly sunday dinner, the mother-in-law had mashed potatoes, sweet rolls, fresh watermelon, and apple crisp with ice cream to go along with the turkey and squash....so I had turkey and squash..oh yes, and fresh home grown tomatoes. IT was so hard!!! It smelled so good! But I made it through and today I was up a pound!!!!!! Can you believe it??? But I am not discouraged. I will keep going!!!
Well, I'm in a hurry...stuff in the oven and sleeping baby. Must take advantage of the free time!!
Newie..I must of missed your last post..oh that was funny...it must be hard bringing up two girls that are changing fast and growing up too quickly.
Hey Lisa...stay focussed..I know I get angry when the scales dont behave. I am having a hard time too but I am not giving up...looks like I am losing a 1/2 pound to a pound a week so I probably wont make my 7 pound weight loss but I wont give up until aug 31 and hopefully I will get close to my 155 weight.
Hello girls. Well, it's Hump day once again. I'm up half a pound..even though I told myself I wouldn't weigh again until Friday....I couldn't help myself. I got my hair done yesterday. My sister-in-law is a hair-stylist and she came and put highlights in my hair. I'm not sure yet....but I think I like it. I guess I was very used to the solid brown..that the blonde and caramel highlights are just different. Hubby has been working very late. He has worked 2 12 hour shifts the past two days. That's good because we need the overtime. Today I think we're going to take the kids to go feed the ducks somewhere. That would be fun and I decided I need to start enjoying my kids more and be a fun mom. I received my web course information in the mail so I can officially start school now that I have access to the online courses. I put together my syllabus's last night in notebooks and made cover pages. The key is organization for me. I have to organize my time especially, organize all the paper work mess, and organize study papers and assignments. I am determined to get an A in both classes, Nursing and Pathophysiology.
Okay, today....
breakfast: bacon and eggs
lunch: hot dogs
dinner: meat loaf and pea salad
snacks: sugar free candy, low carb chips
drink: water and diet dr pepper
exercise: going to the park to feed ducks and breastfeeding!
Hello...I am sticking to my exercise plan although food wise yesterday was bad...had way too much ice cream and a very fatty lunch...but at least I got my walking in, cycling and pilates. I hope to do the same tonight.
Meal Plan for today
Breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk and metamucil
lunch: 2 small chorizo sandwich on portuguese buns with fresh figs
dinner: homemade vegetable soup with pork chops
snacks: yogurt and cherries
beverages: diet cola, tea and water
Cyan I know you wiull make your goal by August 31!
Lisa, I love the photo even though you were annoyed with kids and mom.
I am wondering why I was in such an eating binge in the last month...I think I am am mildly depressed and since my youngest will be in school full-time.. I guess I am at a cross road at what to do next with my life...I was emotional eating because I do not want to decide what to next with my life. Once I discoverd this the binge eating has stopped...today I had a cup of coffe for breakfast and half a hard roll, lunch was a BLT and coffee, dinner was a salad and whole wheat pita, and snack was popcorn, I also drank some green tea.
Weight today- 141.3/34% body fat
Goal by Dec.1-121/25%
Tommorrow I plan to try to cut down on coffee and try to walk a mile.
Debee I hear you with the mild depression..I think I am in one too...I hate my work...dont feel like doing any of it...and I should feel lucky about working in such a nice environment with nice people and a nice boss...but I feel angry all the time. I am so looking forward to my week off in september..I need to work on my attitude...I have to come back with a positive outlook and ready to work 100% This is not fair to my boss ...so I plan on working on this bad slump I find myself in.
I too have been binging as of late...I ate chocolate and ice cream again last night and my calories were at 2000 calories...I havent seen those numbers in a long long time...thank goodness I have been working out diligently all week...or else..oh dear..I think I would of gained.
I stick to my meal plan...but then I add to it with ice cream and chocolate or lemon pie and that blows it...its usually when I am at home...I think I am the most depressed then...taking care of my Mom is hard...its saddens me to see her deteriorate. Anyway...I realize my stressors so I need to find a better coping method instead of just stuffing my face.
Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: whole wheat pasta with spaghetti sauce, parmesan cheese and stuffed green olives
dinner: broiled salmon with green salad
snacks: banana
Hi Ladies....just wanted to check in to let you all know I'm still alive and well. (at least usually well, still have my days lol) I miss all of you and I am trying to find time to get in here more often. I havent gained anything lately but havent lost either. I have got to get remotivated. I really want to lose 40 more lbs. Have had lots of stressful things (too much to go into) going on the last few months and ready for things to get back to normal. I think of you all often even when I dont get in to post. THanks for always being here!
Hi, everybody! Sorry I've been away so many days--it's been a busy week. I have been working in my classroom and going to meetings every day, plus the usual running around and bingo--Mercy--what a week this week--no operating partner showed up to work with me--usually there are two people, and my opening caller didn't show up. Guess what those people do when you don't start on time? It's very mature--they pound on the table--I'm not kidding. I was practically hysterical till a player who knew how volunteered to call till I could get the second caller to come in early. Only one more week, and then September 22! On to my food situation--I haven't weighed myself since I was at the doctor Monday, and I had lost 3 pounds from the previous month I was there. I have been eating erratically because of being so busy--sometimes not eating, and other times eating things I shouldn't--not really eating too much ever. I get full very quickly. Ice cream has seemed to be a problem for me lately. I don't think I've gained anything, and when I went to the wedding yesterday, the dress I bought last week was actually looser than it was the previous week. I've got a couple of problems I am taking care of that are complicating things--first, hubby's car is still having problems--engine light still goes on even though transmission was replaced. I'm taking it to the dealer again tomorrow. I am going to have them keep it till they find out what is wrong with it. I'm going to rent a car for the few days till I know. It's easier than borrowing Grandma's car, and the rental place will pick me up and take me to the car place so I don't have to make extra trips with hubby. Poor thing is working 10 and 12 hours a day, 6 days a week. Then we had an undetected water leak (shut-off valve that was under a sink skirt) that ruined the floor in our half bath--it's a peel and stick floor. I laid the floor myself, so I was devastated. We will probably have to replace the wood underflooring too because almost the whole floor under the tile was wet for who knows how long, and since our daughter is allergic to mold, I don't want to take a chance with her health.
Well, that's about all with me right now. I was reading your posts, Debee and Cyan, about your feelings of depression. Cyan, your feelings in particular remind me of how I felt last year a little while before I quit my job in the teacher's store. I also was angry a lot. Also, Debee, transitions and letting go can be very hard on a person, especially if you're not sure which way to go next. I learned this summer that even though it was great to be off work, I really am more productive and happy when I have a routine and a clear purpose in my life. Thus, I am glad to be going back to school. Lisa and Miki, take care of yourselves. Well, I'm going now. It's back to school in the morning to continue preparing my room. Kids come on the 30th. First, of course, I have to take the car to the dealer and call the guy who does floors. He did our other bathroom floor about 11 years ago--really nice job--I know we can trust him and his work. Bye for now.
