Hello everyone,
I hope you are all doing good. I have read some of the posts and it seems like everyone is having their days.
Well, so sorry I haven't been in touch. I don't know if I mentioned in my last post that I have been really really ill lately. I was losing weight and I finally broke out of my 190's and hit 189. Well, you can look at this two ways. Things went very bad and now it is kind of good.
I ended up in the hospital the first week of June, and they thought that I had gallstones, and it turned out to be kidney stones. Which I had to pass. Then I wasn't getting any better and eating was becoming a thing of the past. Well, through a couple more weeks of sheer pain, and coming home and going straight to bed with vicodin on a daily basis, I ended up back in the hospital on June 30th. It turned out that I had a gall stone lodged in my bile duct and and it was about to rupture. I had to have surgery on July 2nd to take out the gall bladder and all the stones outside of my gall bladder. I was released from the hospital on the 4th of July. Surgery went fine and my recovery was great, it was nothing compared to the pain I had endured daily for over 2 months. So it was a piece of cake. Well 5 days after the surgery, I was still unable to keep any food down(which by the way was only toast and broth). At this point you can only image the weight I had lost thus far.... I ended up back in the hospital, because I had complications from the surgery and I become jaundice and septic(I still don't know what septic means, Lisa, do you?) So I was in the hospital again for 4 more days. At this point food was something that I have no interest in, because after the jaundice was gone, they said that I developed a gastrointestinal virus, and that was causing me to not keep anything in my system. Because it was a virus they had no reason to keep me, so they released me and I have been home since. I just started eating solids on Monday and I have to say they aren't all agreeing with me. I don't look forward to food, nor do I look forward the pain of my body rejecting food.
Now I can only say that when my dr. gives me the okay to work out again, i am sure I will see the reprecussions of my not eating for weeks. But right now, I think I have lost more inches than anythign else.
Let me stop and say, Miki, I am so sorry to hear what had happened to you, your husband and your marriage. I am celebrating my 8 year wedding anniversary today and let's say a week ago, I didn't think we would even be talking. Men don't take well when the woman gets sick. My hubby got scared and just shut down on me, so my recovery has been slow and lonely. But I got him to open up this weekend and talk to me, because I saw where it was going, and if I don't fight for my marriage, no one will. Miki, be strong and I am sure everything will work out for the best. I believe everyone is given an ultimate test, and now that you have had yours, you can continue to grow as a couple and flourish beyond your dreams TOGETHER>...
I am off to bed now, I need my rest. I am very weak from the lack of food, so I have spent most of my days in bed. I am on disabliity from work right now, and I don't know when I will be going back.
I just wanted to let you all know that I am alive and recouperating and I wish you all success on your goals.
Debee, thanks for the email, Once I am up and about, I am sure looking forward to a challenge anyday.
Take care ladies and I am always thinking of you all.
Reina Mia
Reina...wow...sorry to hear that you have been so sick...poor you...hugs and lots of good energy sent to you. I sure do hope you feel better and that you get your strenght back very fast.
Debee...sounds like you have put together a good plan of attack and that you will soom be back down to your goal weight. It's hard when the weather is good and everyone is enjoying fast food...its easy to slip back in.
as for me...I am plodding along...last night was very hard ...my Mother had another episode and she kept me up till 2 am screaming. I think its the aspartame..it must be mixing in badly with her meds...I have noticed that on previous occaisons when I have given her diet food containing aspartame ...she reacts this way...very aggitated...screaming and un repsonsive...she is diabetic and every once in awhile I will give her a sugarless drink or dessert but i think its doing her more harm so no more foods containing aspartame from now on.
I walked to work and home last night and did a bit of pilates
I walked to work this morning but I will take the bus home because its sooooo hot and I think it will thunder storm tonight.
Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk and metamucil
lunch: poutine..home made...oven fries with cheese curd and sauce
dinner" tuna salad
snacks: yogurt and some kind of fruit
beverages: water, tea, coffee and diet cola
Wow, I've missed a lot of posts. Like Newie, I stopped receiving e-mail notification of posts! I think it's because they re-did their homepage and stuff.
Miki, I am praying for you. I've imagined how I would react in a situation like this and I don't know how I would get though it. My husband and I did go through a rough situation one time that took a while to get over. If you ever want to chat, I'd love to chat on Instant Messaging or something. I'm here for you! We all are. I hope you know that.
Reina, septic means you had an infection. Whenever someone has surgery of any kind, they are at risk of infection. We try to keep the OR and the equipement as sterile as possible, but there is always the risk. So, at sometime in your surgery, you were infected and your body wasn't able to fight it on it's own because it was already weakened by everything else going on.
Well, girls, I'm FAT FAT FAT!!!!!!!! I dropped Atkins and started eating everything in sight and I'm up to 207!!!!! I haven't taken my anti-depressant in weeks and I'm depressed and feel ugly!!! On top of that, there is lots of stress going on in my life which leads to more eating. We're trying to sell our house so we can start building our new house. When we do sell our house, we will start living with my in-laws while our new house is being built. AAAAArRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!! Oh...the sacrafices we must make for the greater good...right??? Also, I'm waiting to see if I will get financial aid this semester. I'm on suspension since I didn't pass last semester. I've appealed it. We'll see. I don't see how I can go to school if I don't get financial aid.
So, tonight my husband and I and another couple from church and their baby girl and our baby boy are going on a double (triple actually) date tonight. We're going to a new Mexican restaurant in town and I"m going to eat like a pig. Then tomorrow, I'm going to start my low carb lifestyle again. I can do it. I have to. Not just to look better, but for my health as well. I cannot stay this big. It's just not good for me. It's just frustrating because I can't do the induction phase of Atkins (which sets me up for fast weight loss) since I'm breastfeeding, so the weightloss is really slow I am just to impatient.
So, wish me luck. I hope you are all having a great weekend. I think of all you daily and hope that one day we can actually all meet in person!
Hi, ladies--I was in reading the posts this morning, and somehow I missed the last two days' worth of entries. I don't even want to know how it happened. Luckily there was a notice on my e-mail tonight, and the last page was on it.
Reina, you poor thing! What a horrible last few weeks you've had! Actually it seems to me that you are actually pretty lucky to be alive, with what you've been through, with the stones, their complications, and then the infection and virus on top of it all. I know people who have died of infections they contracted in the hospital. I'm glad you are finally getting better, slow as the process may be. I also know what it's like to have the hubby come apart when the wife gets sick. When I even get a cold (which for me is a pretty serious sickness because I get croup and bronchitis and sinus infections, and I'm restricted in what medicines I can take because of my thyroid condition), he pretty much freaks out--gets all crabby, basically cannot handle it AT ALL!!! He even openly admits when I get sick, the whole place falls apart. I won't even go into the hysteria that was in my house 14 years ago when our older daughter was born, and I wouldn't stop bleeding because of an endometrial infection and 5 weeks after giving birth ended up having a D&C because it was getting worse and worse. We had been married 14 months at the time! Oh, brother!!! So believe me, you're not alone in that experience. I'm glad you worked things out with him.
Lisa--it sounds like you've got a lot on your plate too these days--new baby, worries about school, a house to sell, living with someone's parents instead of on your own, breastfeeding, feeling fat--I noticed you said you hadn't taken your antidepressants in weeks--is it the breastfeeding that is preventing you from doing so? I don't know why you were taking them, but are they something you are supposed to be taking for your well-being? Just from my own experience with OCD (and the depression it causes), I know that medications like this can make the world of difference in your life and the lives you touch. I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but are you in touch with your doctor at this time? I'm sure you know you're still postpartum, and especially if you're breastfeeding, your hormones are not in the normal place, and your moods might be changeable. Don't forget to take care of yourself. I've learned in my own life that I can't take care of anyone or anything if I haven't taken care of myself. I sort of know a little about what you are going through not being able to do the Atkins induction, though your situation is much more extreme than mine. I really can't do it either because I get sick from eggs, and eggs are a big part of induction. I'm doing some kind of Atkins/South Beach/low-carb mixed up plan. Like you, I wish the weight were coming off faster. I lost one pound this week. But before, I was going up!!--and I hated that. I also feel better just being off sweets. I don't know how you'd feel about this, but have you thought of just trying to get into a habit of eating healthy for baby now, and then go for the weight loss after baby is weaned? Like I said before, I don't want to seem like I am telling you what you should do (only you know what is right for you), but you sounded kind of overwhelmed by lots of different pressures, and that it was getting to you. I've been to the overwhelming place, and it's not fun to be there, so please be understanding of me if I seem extra concerned about you. I just care.
Cyan--you sound like you've had a rough few days too--Alzheimer's is such a painful disease to watch and be a caregiver for. Take care.
Miki--how are you doing? Well, I hope. Let us know what's going on with you so we don't worry.
I'm doing pretty well--like I said, I lost one pound this week. I'm just trying to do the best I can--I do feel better being off flour. I am eating Atkins cereal before bed and Atkins breakfast bars, along with cheese or sugarless peanut butter for breakfast. That's how I get around the eggs. I also eat cottage cheese and low fat yogurt. The metamucil keeps me from being constipated. I take it twice a day to be regular. Tonight we went out to dinner after church, and I had a great chicken caesar salad--roasted chicken strips, romaine lettuce, tomato wedges, cucumber, Greek olives, and caesar dressing. It made me really full. I'm still glad I increased my Prozac. I just feel better all-around.
Well, I'm off to other sites. I'll keep all of you in my prayers in the next few days--things will get better! Bye for now.
Newie, thank you for all your kind words and advice. I do not see it as you trying to tell me what to do. I appreciate all your instruction. I really really do. I crave that kind of direct honesty in my life. Thank you! The reason I haven't taken my anti-depressant is because I ran out, and my insurance doesn't cover it anymore. So, now I have to pay full price, but I only need 10 mg a day so my dr prescribed 20 mg a day so I can cut them in half and then the price is the same as before. So..... I have just been too lazy to go get the prescription filled. That's part of the depression, not being motivated to do anything. It's a cycle. I take it (Lexapro) because of depression and anxiety. I get stressed and then I take it out on people, mostly my kids, and I get depressed and feel sorry for myself and start hating everyone. It's not pretty. I will get it filled hopefully tomorrow.
We had someone look at our house this evening. We don't know how it went since we weren't here, but we hope it went well. Tomorrow there is an open house. I really hope someone wants it!!!
We had a fun night out with our friends. It was great to just be out and relax. We went to a really nice restaurant and we talked and laughed and just relaxed. It was nice.
As far as eating, I'm just going to be mindful of what I'm eating and make good choices. I have lots of knowledge about food and nutrition, I just need to apply it when I make my eating choices. I know how and why the low carb lifestyle works and so I will eat accordingly and as long as I don't eat candybars and cheesecake and such, I won't be too hard on myself. I will also drink more water instead of diet pop all the time. (does anyone else call it pop?)
I am off my plateau of 163.5 woo hoo...I stepped on the scale sunday mid morning to see the numbers 162.5 on the scale.
I hope to continue the weight loss this week too but I know my weaknesses...it happens almost every evening when I get home...good intentions and all..somehow it quickly dissipates and I wind up eating off schedule...ack...if I could stay on target in the evening I can probably lose another pound...which will put me at 161.5..not the 160 I was hoping for but I will take it. So wish me lots of luck and strenghth and hopefully I will be able to stay on track in the evenings
Hey Lisa good to hear you had a good weekend and the restaurant outing with your hubby and friends sounds great...it sure is nice to do that every once in awhile...I must of been channeling your evening cause on sunday we went out to get some thai but our favorite thai restaurant was closed so we had mexican instead...and it was good too...I had chicken enchilladas with mole poblano sauce with rice, beans, salad and cheese which they melted over the beans. Oh boy it was soooo good.
Meal Plan for today
breakfast: peanut butter sandwich on whole wheat and low fat pb
lunch: turkey breast deli sandwich on whole wheat and homemade potato salad
dinner: baked trout with carrots and salad
snacks: yogurt and fruit
beverages: water, tea and diet cola
exercise: walked to work and pilates in the evening
Just a quick note...spent last week at the lake with friends...lots of fun and food. Didn't start adkins yet and we will be going on vacatiion to the outer banks soon so I think I have to revise my diet plan and schedule.
Reina I was so happy to see your post but so sorry to hear about your gallatones...I had a gallstone blocking my bile duct and never had pain like that before...I kept vomiting and thought I would pass out from the pain...I had to have emergency surgery and I will tell you the pain made childbirth seem like a breeze...I will send you my prayers...oh by the way, my hubby is also so bad when I am sick...I thought it was only me...I guess woman are always the caregivers and that is why men don't go through childbirth!
Cyan, so happy to hear about the weight loss..you are really doing it!
Newie, hope you are enjoying the rest of the summer. When does school start?
Lisa, sometimes lots of stressful things come together...just remember this to will pass.
Hey Ladies ..Just a quick post ...I had an off night...I didnt exercise at all and I didnt eat well either...let me explain...I didnt walk to work or home..I bussed it instead...ack! When I got home, my Dad had home made coconut pound cake...so I ate it...then I had my dinner which was whole wheat pasta with shrimp and scallops in a butter white wine olive oil and parmesan sauce...sigh! It was good. And then my friend showed up and she brouhgt pop corn so...as you can see...the party in my mouth continued.
Meal Plan for today
1 slice of bread with peanut butter and metamucil, blueberries, plum and tangerine
lunch: dinner leftover
dinner: dont know yet
snacks: yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola and maybe coffee
exercise: walked to work, maybe walk home and pilates
HI all....just a short second but had to check in. I'm doing ok, as well as to be expected I guess...definitely still on an emotional rollercoaster. Poor hubby never knows if I'm gonna be up or down either..lol Good enough for him right??? Gotta keep him guessing and on his toes. Some days are fine, almost like nothing ever happened, then some days the slightest thing hits me wrong and I am like a wild woman lol. I'm assuming that's all normal and will pass in time. Today is a good day, yesterday wasnt. I guess it just takes time to heal such deep wounds as I have experienced over the last months. Not giving up tho and I honestly do love him with all my heart. Thanks again for all the kind words. Soon I promise I'll get in here and respond to each one individually.
Hi, ladies! I've been puttering around the house a lot this week--trying to take advantage of what's left in the summer. Actually, Debee, my summer is really drawing to a close. The first day of school for kids is August 30, but I am going to several teacher workshops--two are toward a church requirement that I have certain religious education background, and one is a reading workshop. Anyway, the reading workshop is Tuesday--1/2 day--at a high school not too far from here. On August 10, I have another 1/2 day workshop on creating religious services and liturgies for children. That's somewhere in downtown Chicago. Then on August 11, I have another religious workshop--on one of the Gospels of the New Testament--at a church north of Chicago--about 50 miles from my house--eek!--I know the area--driving will NOT be fun. I get to get into my classroom on August 16, and I have to go to two full-day math workshops at my school on August 18 and 19. So, anyway, in between that, I am trying to balance doing whatever I want as much as I can with house projects and chores with planning for the school year. On August 21, my older daughter and I are driving to Milwaukee--about 90 miles north of here--for a wedding of one of hubby's cousin's children--hubby didn't want to go, and I know better than to force him if I am looking to have a good time. I really have to go because the cousin is also a teacher that I see at various meetings, and she personally asked me to come. Anyway, it will be a girl's day out--we'll drive back that night--the first grown-up dress for daughter--it's been fun shopping, though we haven't found anything--she has this woman's hourglass figure--I'm trying to help her look pretty but not trampy--not easy these days.
Foodwise, I'm very frustrated. I lost one pound but no more. I've been feeling very deprived and bored--not a good thing. I'm not sure what I'm going to do, except eat very sensibly right now. Maybe that's the best thing for me to do. I really do not need to stress out over food. Stress over anything is not worth it for me. What I really want is to be HAPPY!!! Anyway, I'll keep everybody posted.
My hormones are also acting up--of course normal for being 48 years old. I've been trying to get a migraine headache all week, and today it finally arrived. I slept a few hours this evening, with my head under a pillow to keep out all sound, and had some ibuprofen and coffee. It's more manageable now, but not quite gone. I think these headaches come from a drop in estrogen. That's what I've read.
Well, I've got to go. Miki, hang in there. The rollercoaster is to be expected--you've had a trauma. Cyan, I wish I had your determination. Debee--don't lose hope. Bye before this internet cuts me off--it's been trying to.
I was out of town this weekend. I left Thursday and went to my mother's and then we went to my grandmothers so that we could help take care of my great-grandmother and great-grandfather who were recently put on Hospice and needed some extra help this weekend. It was bittersweet getting to visit with them and talk to them, and seeing how old and unwell they are. My great-grandmother has Congestive Heart Failure and rheumatoid arthritis. She is 89 years old. My great-grandfather is 92 and as ornery as can be. He has had some "mini strokes" and has lost his short term memory. So, for the four hours I spent with them on Friday, he asked me who I was at least 10 times...probably more.
Well, tomorrow I'm on the road to weight loss and I'm not looking back. However, Cyan, (and anyone else who's willing to dish it out), I would really appreciate a GIGANTIC cyber kick in the "you know what." I have been making excuses for too long and I am ready to be a better mother, wife, and person with the energy I need to do all those things!!!
So, this is the last time you will hear from the fat, lazy me...from now on it will be the healthy, active me!
WooHoo Lisa...you go girl....out with the fat lazy you and in with the healthy acive you...I can't wait to hear about your weight loss successes..it will motivate me to stay on track too.
The month of July was basically a write off for me...I only lost like 1/2 pound...but now its a new month and I am motivated to get off of the 160's and move into the 150's with gusto.
So I am recommiting myself to my weight loss plan and giving up the excuses as to why its okay to eat desert every night and not exercise.
Meal Plan for today
breaksfast: banana with skim milk
lunch: homemade lasagna
dinner: minute steak sandwich with asparagus and carrots
snacks: grapes and a pear
beverages: water, tea and diet cola
exercise: walked to work and cycling for 20 minutes tonight
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! You go Cyan. I am fired up and ready to lose!!! I'm having fried eggs for breakfast...yummy and then I'm off to my TV to do my new exercise video. Snacks will include my low carb popsicles and lunch will be hamburger patty with cheese and a side of cooked zuchinni. Dinner will be cooked broccoli with cheese and chicken.
I WILL lose weight.
For accountability I am going to post my weight as of today. It is..... 204.5!!! I will weigh again on Friday.
Hey Girls...day one of my mini challenge for the month of august went very well. I was able to stick to my food plan and not deviate one bit although at around 10 pm I wanted to eat all the little debbie cakes my dad has in the pantry and the lemon pie he has in the fridge...yes..I know where all the junk food is and I dream of them during my moments of weekness.
Anyway,
Meal Plan for today
Brealfast: special k cereal with skim milk and one pear
lunch: cod fish cakes with carrots, cucumber and olives
dinner: baked salmon with one green sweet pepper
snacks: cherries and yogurt
beverages: water , tea and diet cola
exercise: walked to work and cycling for 20 minutes
Its me again...looks like everyone is busy...I am doing well..although I did have a slice of lemon pie..my favorite..it has been in the fridge for the last couple of days and I couldnt resist any longer..so down the hatch a slice of pie went...sigh
I plan on walking home and doing some pilates tonight
Meal Plan for today
breakfast: peanut butter sandwhich and strawberries
lunch: rest of home made lasagna
dinner: salmon cakes and side salad
snacks: yogurt
beverages: coffee, water, tea and diet cola
Hello Ladies
