:wave: hi everybody, Thank you for welcoming me i really appreciate it . I feel comfortable here and i like it. Today i started my 6 week body makeover plan. I drank 70 ounces of water and did good on my diet. I feel better and i hope i can keep this up. its been pretty easy so far (hehe first day is always easy) Yes ive had many first days lol. since this is my first day i weighed yesterday and i am 130 I fluctuate 5-7 pounds a lot, so i think thats good, i think drinking all this water will take lots of weight off. Of course i dont want to lose just water weight. I havent exercised yet. I think im going to do that next week because, i want to start one thing at a time, unless i get a really big urge to go do something. So anyway. I think things will go well and thank you all for your support.

:carrot:

Early this morning..."I am awake and cant get my jammies off.wooohoooo! My big Avon order is in!!! And it was a great day. Everything went ticketyboo. I went for a massage at 8:30. I am pretty relaxed at the mo and should probably get DS ready for school. I cant even get myself dressed.la la la la la la .....
My earning should be around $800. Not bad . Wish it was like this all the time. I am going to put it right into savings.
I have turned down 4 dinner/party invites in the last 2 days. I already said no to 3 others. Can you imagine how crazy it would be if I did them all???? I have in the past. I like the new me. LOL!
I have the Candle Light Vigil tonight, where I am speaking.
I have 6 regular kids today and then 2 extras to help out a friend. SHe is going to have DD over on Thurs. I love that she called and asked for help.
I really must get tidying today and sort out laundry etc.
I have every pot in the house washed and sittnig on the counter ready to put away. I also need to make and grocery list. May take the preschoolers and do that tomorrow. I need to get jammies for DH and DS for their stockings.
OKay, time to get DS on the bus. Maybe I will get dressed."

I showered AND got dressed before 9am!!!! 8 kids playing happily. Just about to make some lunch for the troops. Got my baking list sorted out.
I am going to do some spiced nuts too.

Good for you Holly-My kids wore me out and it took me a looong time to get dressed this morning, but I had to I have to go to work this afternoon. :D Good luck with your speech tonite, I wish I could be ther to hear it.

I was pretty good yesterday

B-Water
L-1/2 chicken breast on some salad
D-1chicken breast, stuffing, and mixed veg
Desert-2 pieces of candy
Total calorie count:1255

Have to go figure out what to make the kiddies for lunch

Hey everyone,
Just a quickie. I have to work all week. Food has been so-so. I haven't made it to curves this week. I really don't expect a loss this month. I Just wanted to let everyone know I check in and read even if I can't take time to post.

:welcome2: all the newbies. I so glad to have ya'll here.

Love you guys. Thanks for everything.

Later

Mornin Deb, Ladies,
aaaahhhh some peace.......................................
I actually ONLY babysat yesterday. It was amazing. I had time to tidy up after the kids and do the dishes. No phonecalls or emails of a pressing nature, no deadlines........
I spoke at the vigil last night.

It was touching and beautifully done. I spoke off the cuff. I figured there was no point in planning until I was there to get a feel for the tone, the content and where I fit into it. I talked about how scary it was to send my 4 year old son off to school,into the big bad world and to experience the compassion and caring of the staff at our school and the peace program and then my part in participating in the workshops and school council and how my/our goal was to raise a generation of young people who will have skills in resolving conflicts and commincation and be able to avoid violence in there lives.
We walked through the downtown with candles. There were over 60 there.
I ended up with a flat tire. Got a ride home with someone else we’ll go back after supper and fix my tire.
I was going to get groceries but didn’t. I ahve just finished the last speck of coffee. There is no bread and milk.I do have apples and some celery and a freezer full of meat. I will be creative.
3 little guys all day. 4 in school. More puttering and laundry. I am feeling like cleaning out stuff again. My kids are pack rats. I will see what I can toss.

-7C/23F today, sunny, clear and beautiful!!
HUGS chickies!!

On my way to onederland
 

Hey, I just found this thread. I am currently at 216 after having lost 22 pounds so far. I would LOVE to be at 199. Onderland would be wonderful! It has been so long since I was even close to 200. I feel much better after the 22 pound loss but I'm not stopping there of course.

I am 48 years old, married and have a obese husband who does not share my new healthly eating plan! He has hypertension and high cholesterol and still is not interesting in changing his eating habits.

I have been having problems with my back but since the weight loss it has barely bothered me at all. Hopefully it will go away completely when I lose some more. I am terrified of getting diabetes so I knew I had to do something about my weight. And I want to be around to enjoy my grandkids when I have some! Well, have a great day everyone! :grouphug:

hi ladies (and gents if there's any out there)!

I hope you don't mind if I join you :D I'm a 21 y/o married woman currently going to school and working in the tax accounting field. I'm an exercisin' fool and I've been cutting calories for about 2 months now... which brought me down 35 pounds from my high weight of 295. The last time I remember weighing under 200 bs was eighth grade (I think I weighed 180), but that summer I ballooned up to around 200. Throughout high school I gained another 40lbs, which I lost during the summer before college (very unhealthily)... I got to 200, but never did make it to that magical 199. Over the course of 3 years, I've gained it all back and then some! :o

I'm looking to lose it the right way now! Since dropping 35lbs, my blood pressure has gone down significantly and I'm hoping to keep improving it with more weightloss (I don't want to have to take pills!) I look forward to getting to know you all! Thanks and sorry for the long intro! :hug:

Good morning everyone!

I haven't checked in for awhile but I thought I would pop in to see how everyone is doing?

I did one of my weigh-in's today and am down to 202.2! A 1.4 pound difference since Monday. I am getting excited, it is so close, I can taste it. :D

Hey everyone,
I had to come home early from work. We had a small ice storm. The rural roads got the worse of it. Dh called me twice telling me how bad it was getting, then ds called. I felt bad leaving but everyone else lives close. I have a 28 mile drive.
I didn't think I did that bad on food. But when I added up my points I was over by 4.5. I made venison chili for dinner and I know it's leaner than beef but I couldn't find out how much. So maybe I'm not over by as much...:crossed:


Luckyme: :bravo: You should be so excited and proud. Good job.

Cagedjade: :welcome3: Glad to have you here. Everyone is very supportive on this site.

Betty925: :welcome2: Maybe when Dh see the great results you have and how much healthier you are. He will join you. My dh bp was out of control. Even with a high dose of meds he still had a bp of 140/90 range. He dropped 40lbs and is on a minimal dose med now and its staying in 120/80 range. So it does help.

Holly: :hug: I am so proud of you. I know your speech was fantastic.
WOW... no coffee. :coffee: :nono:

Sarah: :wave: How is the body makeover going?

Okie74: :dance: fantastic loss. You go girl


Susie,Annie,Judy,Girlie: Hope you are all well. :grouphug:

I walked 2.25 miles in 40 minutes on the treadmill tonight. Eating was so-so (I have discovered the new Club cracker Snack Sticks in Honey wheat flavor and I munched on too many after school today).

They're predicting freezing rain and up to 3 inches of snow in the next 24 hours--YUCK! But I'd probably get more exercising done if it happens!

Have a nice night!

Michele :wave:

Hi all! and:welcome: to all the new ladies. Holly it sounds like your speech went very well Congradulations!

I did really well today until I sat down witha bag of chips. I had to run around all day and I only got a few errands done. Thats what happens when you move 40mi from everything. (not everything, but alot of important things) So, I just couldn't help it, I am so worn out. But all in all I still ate less than 1500 calories today, I just have to drink extra water do the sodium does not make me balloon out!

Official weigh in is sat but today I am down 2lbs.:carrot: I just have to do better tommorrow so I can hold on to this loss. Good luck ladies and remember to take it one day at a time!

dammit


I woke up really sick. Raging sore throat, headache, dizzy, hot and cold flashes. 4 kids here. I managed to get DS on the bus.
Last night, all 4 of us went in hubby’s car with the newly inflated spare tire to put it on my van. We desperately needed groceries. kids wanted to come. I just assumed hubby would go back home. He stayed until we were done so he could follow me home. Sometimes he acts like he might give a sh*t, LOL! Shocking .
There are downsides to being capable and independant. 1) I dont need help with very much. 2) I assume I have to do everything myself. 3) I automatically do everything myself.


I was laughing about the women chatting( in the journals) about hubbies not wrapping Christmas gifts yesterday. My hubby has never bought a gift.... he has still to propose marriage......... It is not the end of the world.
It was -17 C this morning going up to -6( 24F). I feel bad for my guy working outside in this weather.
Last night before bed I felt monumentally fat and incredibly ugly. I am now assuming it was this bug.
There is a lot I want to do but today will involve laying on the couch and feeding kids. Best go do that now.
HUGS!

Good Afternoon, Ladies. I'm munching on sushi - MMMMM I love it!
Glad to see there's been a lot of activity - and new people!

Welcome, CBETA!!!!!

Welcome, Sarah!!!! BTW, I go to STL often - my brother lives there. I was just there over Thanksgiving. :)

UPSWIFE - What part of IL do you live in?

Debbie, Holly, Annie, & Friends -
Glad to see you. Hang in there, everyone...the holidays can be tough!

I haven't changed my eating too much. Some days I'm hungry and some days I'm not. I've been eating more salads lately just because I'm hungry for them. Been choosing grilled or broiled instead of fried too. Trying to stay away from French fries and have succeeded for a while.

I'm so proud - for about a month now, I've been going to the gym every morning before work at 5am and getting in my hour of elliptical. This morning I made it 4.75 miles...I've been kicking it up a notch because I want to be able to hit 5 miles in an hour and it's the hardest thing to try to do. I wonder if it's unattainable? I can do it in 65 minutes, but I don't know - I would really be going crazy. So maybe I should try for 4.8 for now?

Anyway, that's what's going on. I feel strong...not necessarily lighter though! But I'm happy that I've got this routine going, 5 days a week. I have given myself the option of going on the weekends because I don't want to overdo it and get burned out. 1 hour of cardio five days a week will be good for now. I pray, pray pray, that I can keep this up through the winter.


Stay well everyone! And WARM!!!

Hello Ladies, I'm really glad I found this thread. My first goal is to get to wonderland by Feb next year. I'm trying really hard to achieve my goal but the pcos isn't helping much. But I'm trying to stay positive and make it happen! :D

Girlie~ you are sounding fab!!!!!

My sore throat turned into a wicked tummy virus. By 10am I was hurling.
Between hurls I called parents to get their kids. DD went on a playdate and I spent the day hugging the toilet or sleeping. Today I woke up feeling fine.
Lots of snow over night but busses are running. Just 2 toddlers this morning. My Avon is supposed to be in.
I really need to clean the upstairs. It is depressing me.
DH ran the dishwasher and washed all the pots but 1. LOL! Wouldn’t want to do a complete job.
DS has hockey tonight and DD has her gymnastics recital. I have the market in the morning and then a Sam’s club run.
DS has more hockey on Sat and then my boys are going to a pro game Sunday night. My Christmas gift to them.
Gonna take it easy-ish today.

Good morning all! I was sooo bad yesterday. We got about 4-6in of snow and I just was feeling cruddy. So we ordered pizza and italian beef sandwiches. I have to be really good today~I weigh in tomorrow. I am feeling better, so hopefully I will be able to get some errands done. I shoveled the driveway this morning, so now I need to get a hot tub, my back is killing me! :D Well I have to be off, still plenty to do. Have a great Friday Everyone!

Good evening everyone,
TGIF...**** week is over, and it was worse than expected. Not only was it the biggest sale of the year but we had to deal with ice and record low temps.
Luckily I know how to dress. Some of my co-workers ran around about to freeze because they don't understand the concept of layering clothes.
I didn't make it to curves this week but I did watp 3x. I weigh tomorrow, but I don't expect a loss. I hope for even a half pound. :crossed:

upswife: :bravo: Great loss. Hope your back is feeling better. We never have to worry about shoveling. Our snow just turns to ice as soon as it hits the ground. I had never seen snow blow and drift till I went on the road...LOL

Holly: WOW girl don't you even slow down when you are sick...FEEL BETTER MY FRIEND. :hug:

Jigglybits: :welcome3: Glad to have you.

Girlie: :hug: I got some strange looks when I ate a salad at 11 this morning. It was only 20F outside. But it was what I wanted. I'm glad you are doing so well. :bravo: Great job getting to the gym...You go girl.

Michelle: :wave: Great job walking :tread:

Sarah, Annie, Judy, Susie: :wave: Miss ya'll


Later

Deb~ I didn't clean. LOL! Enjoy your weekend!!
Hello to everyone!!!
Off to market.
Good day yesterday. I napped a couple of times. Definitely weak. I shoveled snow in 1/2 hour spurts.
It was a peaceful day around here. Very enjoyable. DD had her gymnastics recital. That in done til the new year.
Santa parade in town at 6:30 tonight. The boys have hockey at noon. DD and I will go to Sam’s club. They have a big customer appreciation thing on today. I will planning on lunch(samples) there.
HUGS!!

:cloud9:
I just got back from curves and I did my monthly weigh in. TA..DA..Drum roll..
I'm down 8lbs and 5.65" Making a total since 3/7/05 of 42lbs-40.40" and 31.59
body fat lbs. I'm sorry to brag but I'm decided it's ok. Before I break my arm patting my self on the back... Thanks guys for all your support ya'll are the best.

LOVE YOU GUYS :grouphug:

Oh Wow!!!!!!!!!! HUGS!!!

Congrats Debbie thats great!! :cheer: :cheer: :cheer:
I really hope to loose some this week. I've been sticking to my plan and exercises, will just have to wait for my weight-in on tuesday :halfempty:

Debbie, that is awesome. :) That's not bragging, it's just sharing. I love to see other people lose weight, it helps me realize that maybe I can do it too. :D

Hi everybody! Sorry i was gone!
Agh!
wednsday i did good on my Body makeover plan But then wednsday night i had back spasms and it hurt to walk or anything i couldnt move. So i had to go to my mommys house so she could take care of me, And of course i cant follow a plan like that there, so i totally ruined it. Also it was hard to eat as often because i was on pills for my back that made me nauseous. I tried to keep my portions low though. i just couldnt eat as often or eat freshly made food. my back is feeling a little better and i can finally come back to my house to weigh, and i weighed in at 225 !!! imagine if i wouldve done the diet the whole week!!!!
Anyway, as soon as i come back home i am getting back on it. But while im not at home im going to eat small meals like i have been doing. last night i went out with someone and had some beers. I just have to get back into the groove of things, which i will. :) thanks for your support!



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Hey everyone,
We just got back from a ride on the m/c. I hate texas in the summer but love it in the winter. we had a ice storm 4 days ago with temps in the teens. then today its in the mid 60's. Good weather for a ride.

Sarah: :cp: CONGRATS!!! thats a fantastic loss. Take it easy with your back. Hope it feels better soon. You are doing great!!!

Kristina: YOU CAN DO THIS.

So much going on inside me.
Dont know where to start.
I had my last farmers market yeserday. Got out a bunch of orders. Collected a bunch of cash. By noon the last few days I am so weak I have to stop and sleep. Still getting over this bug.
The boys went to hockey. DD and I went to Sam’s club. I was supposed to get a gift there. It was a really ugly coffee mug. It’s going straight to the thrift shop.It was filled with chocolate. I gave that to the kids. Speaking of the thrift shop(also food bank) I took all our white gift sunday stuff over after the market. There was tons from our little church.
Came home and rested. DS had a great game. They were losing 20-0 with the old goalie. Now that he is in net they are losing 3-2 , won 1 and tied 2-2 yesterday.
Made a quick chicken finger and cut up veggies for supper and went to the Santa parade. it was sweet. Kids got there pic taken by the local paper on Santa’s knee.
DD was a bear on the way home and was sent to her room. She fell asleep in secs. Slept from 7:30- 7. DS was soon to follow. Hubby watched hockey and I went to bed and watched Trading Spaces and conked out.

I am trying to figure out what to do about my weight. I keep starting over every so often and it is always on my mind. I end up feeling like a failure.There is so much that is great in my life and this brings me down.The thinking about it not the actual weight. When I look in the mirror naked or see pics I realize just how big I am but otherwise it does not define me.
I know I am looking at a health issues down the road which is my main reason for trying to lose weight. It is hard because currently I am very healthy, strong and fit and it does not inhibit me at all. I eat a 90% balanced healthy fresh diet. I am movin all the time but dont get vigorous exercise. When I have emotional/psychological issues I work them thru. The only thing i do do most days just for me is journaling. it is important to me. I have my SIL and 2 good friends from afar I keep in touch with with email. I seem to a formed some friendships thru school council which feels pretty darned wonderful. Hubby and I are in a good space right now. He has been tender and loving. I will take it!!!!!!I am feeling more rested in away. I went into the last few months knowing it would be hard and a lot of work. I have met my goals. I received the $500 bonuses available to new reps from Avon on top of my sales!! My holiday sales are equal to a rep with 10 years experience. I am proud and it was enjoyable.I completed the parent handbook, set up a communication system for our church and the photo directory wil be delivered soon. I have declined over 8 dinner/party invites for this month. We are only going out for a few hours christmas day to my Sis’s and then we will be home. I am not sure how much i will be babysitting over the hols but I am hoping for a few free days. Both my kids need a break.
I desperately need to tidy/clean/ organize this house. I KNOW we live here, there are 10 people here every day, most of them under the age of 7 and we are busy with life. It does get me down some days. The kids have been good at tidying when asked. Hubby is “trying”.
I want to toss some more old toys( stuffed animals) but DS remembers who they came from and when he got them and wont part with them. no-one plays with them. What to do?

This is where i am at. I reached the goals I set out for myself, with grace, quite frankly. I am happy. I am at a bit of a cross roads. What next. I need to focus energy on hubby, kids and myself. Nurturing.First I want this house cleaned up.In a BIG way.

Kids had a jammy day and i went to church by myself. Peaceful.
I have a turkey meatloaf in the oven. Got the kids to part with a some junk.
The boys are going to a semi pro game tonight and then I will do some shoveling. Steady snow for a few days. I will pack Avon orders tonight and hopefully get some out tomorrow.
Hiya Deb, Sarah, Lucky, Jiggly,UPS, Betty,Caged...Susie, Jody, Judy,Suzy, Girlie...!


HUGS!!

Hello Everyone.
What a wonderful bunch of ladies you all are. I've been so busy and haven't had much time for the board, but I know that you are out there and you understand that I can't be here every day right now. I'm hoping that changes soon, or rather I feel that I can change it and just do it..just be here.

We didn't have a TOPS meeting last week due to a snow storm..thank the LORD for answered prayers! I had been very busy last week with social committments and didn't get in my workouts. I know I would have been in trouble ladies at the scales, so I've gotten a break and I've been working on no rootbeer and only one sweet a day. I will get in 4 workouts this week.

Debbie: I can't tell you how I cheered when I read your post. Lady..you better brag about it! You have done something so wonderful for yourself and you inspire me.

Holly: I can relate to the crossroads that you are at. I think you are feeling that way because you do so much (I'm preaching to the Choir here). I sometimes feel like I'm cool with me just the way I am. I feel successful because I am involved in so much and it seems like everyone loves me or that they feel that I can do anything I want...well..I haven't. I want this weight off and I haven't done that. I think about Oprah and how she was very successful in so many areas of her life..except the weight loss and that's the one thing she wanted to so badly. How do you all think she finally was able to do it. I don't mean through the dieting and exercise but what in her mind changed it for her? I need that key. How do I find it?

I've got to run. DH just got home from the store with the grocery's. Thank god he loves to grocery shop because I hate it!

Susie

Hey Susie~ glad to see you in. LOL at preaching to the choir! I think about Oprah's journey too. Wish I had the key. i would gladly share.
Maybe Deb knows. Things have changed for her in the last few months. Deb, what made the difference?
HUGS!!

Happy Monday All....

Welcome to all the newbies...Betty, CagedJade, and others I may of missed.

Shuuweee what a snow storm we had last Thursday. 7.7 inches of snow. I love it as it was happening but not so much on the way home from work. Took me 2hrs & 45 mins to get home, normally a 45 - 1 hr drive. My neck was tensed up when I got home. I don't mind driving in all that stuff, it is just the other drivers that make me nuts.

Eating has been terrible, just decided to wait till the first of the year instead of trying to re-start every couple of days, then feeling like a failure. Too many goodies around here. Trying to keep it at a minimum, but holy cow!

Holly - hope you are feeling better, we mom's have no time to be feeling puny.

Sarah - BRAVO! Great loss!

Hidee Ho to everyone.!!

Have a lovely day

Annie

Good morning everyone! Weigh in was Saturday and I am down 2 lbs! (small steps):wl: Not a bad weekend, I worked Sat, but had to stay late, I usually work 6-7 hrs but I was there for a little over 8. I left with the sun just coming up and I left and it was dark! (I hate winter:( )
Sat
B-coffee
L-sf bar, tea
D-spagetti with motzarella cheese
Sun
B-coffee (again hubby makes it on the weekends)
L-2 tamales, spanish rice and 1 small chicken taco(soft)
desert-half a lemon pastry
D-3 square pieces of pizza


not great but not too bad considering all the food I could have eaten!! :D

Hello everyone! Sorry I haven't been back in a while, but I'm sure everyone knows how busy this time of year gets!

Congratulations on the losses!

Annie and Holly~ Sorry Just had to chime in, that you're not a failure if you're trying! Corny- but you know those nicorette commercials where they say "Maybe all those time you tried to quit before were just practice?" I think that's kind of similar to the life changing decisions we're all making. Well, practice makes perfect! Just keep at it, I know you can do it! I have a pure hatred for the word "failure" lol

Since it's final exam week, I won't be meeting with my weightloss group, so no official weigh-in until January :s: I just have to remember that that's not license to eat whatever I want. Last week I was down 6 pounds in one week... weird! I'd started adding interval training to my exercise routine, so i wonder if that had anything to do with it. I can't say I wasn't excited but it worried me a little :dizzy:

:) Hope everyone is doing well! Have a wonderful day! I'll be back later :)

Continuing the crossroads thought process.........
I have seen hubby’s sarcasm the last few days as pathetic. Better than being hurt by it. I happen to be feeling pretty content and strong ,so it is easier.We had words at supper last night. DS was pretending to check his potatoes for headlice. Silly. DH told him not to be so stupid. I said Oh, DH it’s not a big deal. He got really angry because I belittled him in front of DS. A few minutes later DS was scraping his fork across the table. I asked him to stop because he would wreck the table. DH pipes up, It’s okay Luke dont worry about it.Every time I spoke DH contradicted me to “make his point”. DS was getting visibly upset so i shut up.
After supper I asked DH if 2 wrongs make a right. He was hurt because I didn’t support him with DS. That is understandable and he was right but he INTENTIONALLY did the same to me many times to prove his point. Where is the love and compassion in that. He didn’t have a answer.
I dont understand attacking someone to get what you want because all you do is hurt them. There has to be as more loving way to do it. He stayed snarky and didn’t come to bed with me later. I see that as his choice that he has to live with.

DH and DS went to the Knights game at 7pm. They got home at 10:30. My son was just glowing with happiness. It was soooooooo sweet. A well spent $35. He just loved the whole experience with every fibre of his being.

About the weight thing..... I know my weight is emotional without a doubt. Protection. I know it comes from not being nurtured and cared for by my parents and the tape that plays in my head about being ugly, worthless, a freak, a loser, no man would ever want you.....( their words).The lies from them and the false relationships......And then a long series of friendships and relationships that reinforced it.This includes my marriage but I see that more in terms of a journey for both of us. I/we work at it all the time.We have both evolved steadily the whole 10 years.I love it.
I feel like I have had a break through lately. The tape doesn’t play all the time or as loudly.No contact with my Aunt and limited contact ,always on my terms, with the folks and Sis has been the most personally powerful thing I have ever done. Some days it pisses me off that It took 40 years. Especially with my aunt. She is just an aunt but I believed her and trusted her....arrrg.
I have been feeling disconnected from women in the international forum I have become friends with in the last 2 years.Not because of them, because of my busy life. Most are older than me and often I feel like the dumb little sister. I had a misunderstanding (minor) with an issue there, resolved it and then decided to take a break from it.
I have such a hard time of letting go of people, good memories etc. but when I do another door always opens.
I still email T and M ( best girl friends of 20 years) every so often and never hear back but I dont give up.
At B’s party a few weeks ago( haven’t seen these old friends in over a year)....L works with M and saw T in the summer. L and I have been friends for 25 years. I asked her if they ever ask about me or “gossip” about me ( didn’t want to know details just yes or no) and she said no.She did say that T, M and Li are VERY close and spend lots of time together. So, it is apparent that Li has replaced me in their lives. Their choice.She also said that T’s hubby was really quiet(sad) and had lost a lot of weight. Also that M had gained even more weight since her wedding and L was really worried about her.She was bigger than at our wedding when she got married 2 years ago. I was worried then. Kinda heartbroken for her. Li had also recently called the cops on her husband, father of her 4 children and he was doing weekends. And they saw my life and choices as something they couldn’t be a part of.
I did reach out to M after the party. No response.
Basically they are all in the same place they were at in life when they cut ties with me 2 years ago. I feel sad about the loss but I see how much my life has changed. I have come into my own and I wouldn’t change it.It is blending the old H with the dynamo spirit, taking the world by storm with a different more peaceful focus of her family and community. Same skill set and heart with a different perspective.
I could not have gotten here without my online journal and the incredible women I got to know. I love them in the true sense of the word. I really miss the gang that was here 2 years ago. Many have moved on. Some I keep in touch with. I hope they know how deeply they have touched my heart and my life and I hope I have touched them as well.
I think about my 3 friends who husbands were killed in 2003, the amount of loss and pain and I see the phoenix rising for 2 them. It is beautiful.
I feel and see a new confidence and maturity in my son that I thought would never come. He is still wiggy on a good day but I see my work with him succeeding. I have a daughter who is self confident, self loving, knows her heart and mind and is carefree and light hearted.Yahoo. That fulfills the dream I have had for myself and have never gotten to but it frees my spirit to watch it in her.

My weight is down 18 lbs from where i started. I have kept it off for 2 years. I always knew the weight was a symptom so as I continue this journey I may yet get to the source.
In the meantime life is pretty freakin wonderful!!!!

Whew, that went off on a tangent.
It is no wonder I have always journaled I would never sleep.

Love you!! H

Good evening,
I just got back from curves. I had a good workout but now I got to get busy on this house. I don't know why but my kitchen table catches everything. If its misssing, look there. Of all our habits I wish we could break that the main one.
Ya'll asked what made the difference in my weight loss. Dh new job!! Dh leave for work before I get home most days. I fixed dinner in the morning on days I work. So I don't have the temptations I heat up a ww meal or something light.
On days we are off together it is a real challenge. I keep track of my points on ww on-line. That helps me stay focused. I'm not sure if it will last but I'm going to keep trying.

Holly: You are a work in progress. It is so wonderful that you can look inside yourself. I've lost touch with myself. I know how I feel but I often just supress it because it doesn't really seem to matter to anyone.

cagedjade: :cp: That is a fantastic loss. Good luck with finals. Remember to get enough rest.

upswife: :bravo: 2lbs is a big step! YOU GO GIRL

Annie: :hug: Just hang in there.

Debbie~ Write it out just for you, It gives your thoughts and feelings wings. I dont really have anyone in "real life" that gives a rats ***. i have found a couple at 3fc who really do listen and care. I have always "needed" a creative outlet when I was yonnger I wrote constantly( child/teen) then I got more into art, then owning a business, now my home, family...I have come back to writing.I am a voracious reader too. It frees the spirit.
Think it , feel it. Sometimes it is soooo hard cause it's not all pretty. Ask for guidance and to let it go.
HUGS. You are wonderful.

Holly~I am so impressed with what you have been able to accomplish. I can't even begin to imagine what it must have been like. I have always been supported (even through some mis-steps) and it still seems so hard to get anything done. I need to look into myself more and begin to express what I am really feeling. It sounds like you are doing a great job with your children! It is so rewarding when you see all your hard work payoff in them.

P.S. We only got 6-7 in of snow here and thing got really messy, I don't know how you do it up there. My last bout of shoveling only lasted an hour, but I probably would not have made it if there had been more.

Good Morning All You Fine Ladies........

Firstly, Holly, you are in a great place with things, just keep your attitude. I am proud of you and your mindset.

Debbie and UPSwife....YOU ROCK! Great job of the loss!

Hello to everyone else....

My daughter made dinner last night. Cheeseburger macaroni. Wasn't the greatest healthy wise, but what could I do or say, she made dinner for me and DS. God love her. I ate some but not too much, I think.

Our Christmas tree fell over yesterday. I laughed till I cried. Sooooooooooo, DS put the tree back in the stand crooked cause the trunk is kind of ruined, and now our tree is leaning up against the wall. HOW FUNNY!

Now that is creating memories......

I need to get busy, everyone have a simply marvy day!

(((HUGS))))

Annie

Mornin'

UPS~ it is heartening to know someone who had a supportive childhood. Part of me alway thought is was just the way of the world to live with put downs and then to overcome it. I have such great hopes for my own kids.

Annie~ my hubby told me the other day that we are the only family in town with a kitten powered spinning tree. LOL!!!! Tooo funny. Bless your DD.


All is peaceful at the moment. Clyde is eating. Rainbow is locked in the bathroom. She is a piggy and jumps all over Clyde while he trys to eat.He is not amused.
Both kids are still sleeping. Looooong day for them yesterday. Hockey practise right after school every Monday is the WORST time of our week for all of us. It is wretched.
School Christmas concert is tonight. Dressed rehearsal this aft. I made a horse costume for DS last night. He is in a play called “A Holiday Mooseical”.DD Is opening with 3 songs.

Yesterday was a sort vacation for me.LOL. I took the time to connect with 3fc friends and looked up recipes. I had 4 kids here. Packed some Avon. It was really cold -15C, sunny and the snow on the trees was sooooo prettty. My camera was out of batteries.Bummer.

Communication with my hubby is a chore some days and others it just flows tickety boo. The exchange I wrote about yesterday was only a few minutes out of a whole day. It’s something we work at. He IS without a doubt a loving man. He is an incredible father and always has been. He is a work in progress as a husband, LOL.We had a nice evening last night.

Not sure what today holds with kids. I have 1 family off for a week because the oldest had her tonsils out.It is a school day for the big kids.2 other may be off. Dad’s a farmer. i have them less in the winter. But it is deer hunting season and good snowmobiling weather so ya never know. I had 1 guy arrive by snowmobile yesterday.
I need to finish up Chirstmas shopping. Santa needs to get Bella dancerella for DD and a Soccer ball for DS.I may even get some cards done. Baking too.

HUGS!!

Good evening,
I'm enjoying a quit evening alone. Dh is at work. The oldest got a call to a fire. The youngest is out visiting a friend. It is nice. I got a diet van coke and am just veggin out...LOL.
I made it to curves today and food's been fair. all and all a good day.


Holly: After 31 years of marriage Dh is also still a work in progress. He is mellowing out. He finally out grew that crap of thinking he's the boss.
I'm always telling him I love him but I don't like him....LOL.
You just have to keep working at it everyday.

:grouphug: LATER

Good morning ladies,
You ladies are great, I'm glad everyone is doing okay!
I freaked out yesterday when I stepped on the scales, I thought I gained 2 pounds and went crazy and almost started crying. I stepped on today and I'm glad it was just water retention so I lost 1 pound :D
Everyone have a great day **hugzzz**

YAAAAWWWWWNNNNN!!!
Need more coffee!!

The Christmas concert was brilliant!!! My DD sang the loudest out of everyone, LOL!! May have a rockstar on my hands.
DS also did very well. Damn ,these little guys are cute.

Just got DS on the bus. Time for coffee. 4 kids here ,2 more coming.
Made some caramel popcorn for the first time yesterday. It vanished. My family loved it. Will have to make more for gifts. Made fudge too. Will put 1/2 away and let my vultures have the rest.
Had a great night with hubby. Stayed up too late tho. I dont have a book right now and I watched TV til 1.
Need to get some orders out and pick up some baking supplies and lunch meat. I have a couple parcels to build and get in the mail.
It is quite cold but fresh and clear. -14C.

No great epiphanies today.

HUGS!

I weighed Monday and was up 2 pounds! But I think it was just water. I was so disappointed but then decided, what the heck! Tomorrow is another day. I wanted to be at 199 by the new year but I don't think I will make it. But that okay. I'll just set another goal day. As long as I do it, that is what counts.

Have a great day everyone! :carrot: