McDonald's Coke.....Get's me Everytime!!!!!
 

Good Afternoon (now)....I tried to post first thing this morning....wrote a whole wonderful post to all of you and then this darn computer froze and I lost everything I wrote...so I actually truly am an early riser believe it or not.

Had an o.k. day yesterday...started off terrific, just a small bowl of cherrios, frosted ones but hey it's better than the usual mcdonalds breakfast sandwich and hash brown on the way to driving my hubby into work right????

Had a power bar at lunch but obviously wasn't enough for me on my first day back at this so I heated up a tomato soup at hand and drank it while surfin' the net. Day went pretty good from here on out.....
When I got to the house where I watch 7 children from 4 - 6 M-F, it was everyone's snack time, including mine....didn't pack anything for myself today and boy oh boy did those untoasted pop tarts strawberry flavor look GREAT!!!! BUT BUT BUT....I WAS AWESOME!!! I DID NOT GIVE IN and i settled for a little bunch of grapes instead...wasn't as satisfying as those pop tarts might have been, BUT....i passed em up..... Dinner came....At a Zanatarian Rice Bowl....Lots of sodium in that though so I figure i shouldn't have been given too much credit for that choice, although, it wasn't a huge meal....

NOW THE DOWN FALL.......10pm...OH GOD>!!! HERE WE GO!!!!
Mcdonald's 2 cheeseburger meal and fries w/ THE MCDONALD'S COKE!!!!!
I LOVE MCDONALD'S COKE,,,,not diet, not juice, not milk....but their COKE!!!! something about it that i love it....I dont like regular coke, pepsi, or cola...but MCdonalds Coke, Forget it! I order one everytime...no matter what!.....

I have to drive 30 minutes into morrisville to pick my hubby up from work. On the way home, he always like a ritual wants mcdonalds...he was gonna let me drive right by last night and i should have but instead...I'M THE GUILTY ONE....I SAID..."DO YOU WANT MCDONALDS?" I didnt have to twist too hard...he exclaimed! YEP!!!!...and there ya go so the night ends at 10 w/ that darn 2 cheeseburger meal! AUghhhh! Why did I do that....I knew I'd be asking this morning...why I did it! and sure enough!!! HI EVERYONE?????WHY DID I DO THAT? .....

:?: DO YOU GUYS ALL WEIGH IN SAME DAY AND REPORT OR DO YOU HAVE YOUR OWN DAYS AND JUST REPORT THEN?

~~~~~DEBBIE~~~~~
My sister lives near Houston, TX.....She loves it there too!

~~~~~SUZIE~~~~~
Thanks for the welcome!!! Glad to have the "been there" and "doing it too" support!

~~~~~ANNIE~~~~~
GREAT JOB ON THE 5LBS DOWN AT WW.!!!! I hear ya on the stair issue....I remember when i was losing all my weight back in '99...(85lbs)....but i gained it back and here i am now...but when i lost all that weight, we had moved into a new house that had like 20 stairs from 1st to 2nd floor. I could run those moving boxes up and down those stairs 50times over and it boosted my ego every time cuz i knew that i had accomplished a huge hurdle in my life by getting myself healthy..... No i can't even do the cross trainer or the treadmill for 10 minutes without poopin' out! but HATS OFF TO YOUR WEEK>>>HERE'S a lucky guy to help you thru a new one!!!!~~~ :p ~~~

~~~~~HOLLY~~~~~
I Love your journal...Thought maybe about using it myself. I think it's great. It keeps you in line with where you are, what you want, and where your headed...plus...really fills us all in!....I saw your journal entry this am. i skimmed it cuz it was kind of long, so as far as everyone else being bored with it....not sure, they probably don't read the whole thing (from a new comers point of view) bUT....all of us being your daily chick-in buds! We read it don't worry!

ONE MORE THING....DID YOU NOTICE...THE 199 CLUB...ALSO COULD BE CALLED E-GIRLS....debbIE, suzIE, AnnIE, HollY, and JerI.....haha...just a little laughter...

THANK YOU FOR INCLUDING ME AND GIVING ME YOUR SUPPORT!.....
HOPE THIS ONE WASN'T TOO LONG FOR YA'LL.

((HUGS))
Jeri :dizzy:

Good afternoon everyone,
I've kept my headache all day... What a drag. :headache:
I did fair on food till my neighbor showed up with some wedding cake. I ate a piece but she told me it didn't have any calories...And she would never lie to me...LOL.
I never made curves. I hope I'll feel better tomorrow.

Jerri: The fact that you have regrets about your McD says you are on your way. It takes time. We all have tempations that drive us nuts. Weight loss is a daily struggle. If you slip up just forgive yourself and start over fresh. Every day do something good for you. No matter how small it might be. Every little change matters. Passing up a cookie. or just drinking extra water. It all adds up.
We all have different WI days. When one of us looses we all celebrate.

Hope everyone had a great day :grouphug:

Hi Gals!!!

~~~~~Debbie~~~~~
Thanks for the encouragment.....
Be careful of that "magic" no cal wedding cake....
Heard it can be full of bologna! ;)
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Hey!!! I'll have you all know.....**I WAS DOWN 1LB. THIS AM!!!!!!**
....Only 1, but after my mcdonald's bit...I'm likin' 1 lb.!!!!

New Day...New Motivation.

Hope all of you find some motivation early on in your day today...seems to help!....
Have a terrific Day everyone!!!
PS. Where can I learn all these abbreviations? WI?....um i'm sure if i sit and think about it, I'll figure it all out...but makes for slow reading when your new!!! haha LOL....

You guys are great...talk to you later!!!
Love,
Jeri

What to do? What to do? I woke up confused as to what day it was, who went to school, and what was on the agenda. Icky. So, after a coffee it is all clear. it IS Wed, DS goes to school.
My list-
Make changes to School council minutes and email to R; prep notes for Official Board meeting at church at 7:30 tonight; fine tune photo directory bill etc for same meeting; stamp and date Avon books; put away my laundry; wash the kids laundry; tidy my bedroom; sweep kitchen floor; clean up sandbox toys and put away for winter( kids will help);plan my meals;call grandma; email H for plans for costume party at church of Fri; come up with a spectacular craft and baked treat!! for same party; breathe and smile a LOT!!

A great morning so far. Everyone is happy and cooperating and being kind!!!!!

Daily Journal
1.My renewal statement for the day. I CAN do this.
2. Weekly weight. 230
3. Exercise-type, how long, what level. oops
4. % fat, carbs, protein.
5. # meals and snacks. 3 meals 2 snacks
6.# fruits, # of veg. 3 cups veg
7. How many glasses of water.8
8. Time of last food intake, time I went to bed. LAST FOOD 6PM!!! ,BED 11:30PM!!!!!!!
9. Why and when I ate due to stress or emotions.~ I didn’t
10.General feelings about food, exercise, life.~ I ate a 1/2 c of ww pasta with supper, not SB phase one but still a great choice and portion control!!!!! Life is glowingly delightful.
11. Any really good events or feelings today.~ sure. I felt monumentally calm all day. I did some church and school council business. I had good interaction with the kids.I ate very well. I had mushy convo with DH.I put in a $800 Avon order!, I watched Gilmore Girls. I slept well.
12. Overall, how did the day go.~pretty darn wonderful.
13. How can I improve for tomorrow. um, keep on this wave.

4 kids in the AM,2 more in the aft.


up~down- It didn't look like you ate enough nutritious food during the day. But then we dont always eat cause we are hungry. Good luck with beating the habit. WI=weigh in.
Deb~hope the head feels better.

Good day everyone, just in to check in quickly. I had to log in THREE times before I got on! How terrible is that! Serves me right for being gone for a while!

How is everyone doing on their Halloween goals? I haven't been to the gym in a couple weeks...terrible...so I am not sure where I am! I'm getting over another sinus infection and have decided that tonite is the night to get on the ball...can't use sickness another night as an excuse.

I'm really disappointed in myself. I really am. Geez, I know I can do this.

What makes us not let ourselves do it?

Sometimes I lie in bed at night and think of how I want my day to be, and how easy it will be...but I never seem to be able to act on it, and then another month goes by and I'm still in the same boat.

BUT, I do have a positive comment. I've been doing really great at drinking water. Not like a gallon a day, but at least 48oz. Three bottles. I have realized that I hate tap water and the only times I tend to drink water is when it is bottled. I'm sure it's just a mind thing, it sounds silly. So DH and I have decided to buy bottled water just for me so I know I will get my water in. We get a 35 pack at the bulk foods place. I'm afraid of kidney stones again! So my goal has been 3 bottles of water a day, and then with my morning cups of tea, I should be getting around 60oz in a day. So it's a good start for me...soon, I'll make it 4 bottles minimum. My friend, who drinks water constantly, told me that once your body gets used to a certain amount of liquids a day, I should become thirsty for it.

So, that's a good start, eh?

Hope you all are well.

G

Hi Gals,
This is a quick check in. It's been a crazy day for me at work. I'm determined to not let it get to me, and eithier cause me to comfort myself with food, or hold the stress in my body. I'm more important than what is going on with my daily job! It should not define me; I should define it.

I went to my first Pilates class last night. WOW! I worked muscles I didn't know where there, but you know I didn't do as badly as I thought I would so that's a plus.

I've read the posts; it looks like everyone has there mind in the right place. Keep thinking of how you want to be and see it in your mind so you can become it.

I've got to run. See you all tomorrow.
Susie

As much as I truly want to be thin.
As much as I truly want to have will power
I can't ever seem to really punch it forward.
I let everything overcome me all the time. I hate it!

Today.....

10:30 Campbell's Soup at Hand Tomato
12:30 Power Bar
1:00 2 Peanut Butter Sandwiches....Not a lot of pb
4:00 Gave in to those damn pop tarts...they just kept starring at me for 3 days
6:30 10 smiles fries w/ ketchup

one thing you girls are sure to find w/ me...I'm honest...I tell it how it is and i own up to my stupidity and lack of effort!

hubby get's paid tommorrow...going grocery shopping...overhaulin' cupboards....

:(

i'm considering moving back to NY. I've only been here in NC since July. I closed my restaurant in NY for hubby to take job in NC. It hasn't been what we were promised since we got here in July and we're very discouraged and considering moving back. This is very stressful for me because my nephew 6 lives here and when i told him aunt jeri was going home for xmas *at the time, not in conj. w/ moving* He said...Yeah. aunt jeri? you're not gonna take your stuff with you are you?....so of course, we've developed a relationship and now, i'm thinking of leaving and part of me is sooooooo stressssssed cuz i feel bad!!!!!.....I also, have 5 kids that i watch m-f that family rely's on me soooo much and i feel bad that i may have to go to them within the next week and tell them i'm probably going to only be available to them for the next 5 weeks....

I get nervous and i munch to feel better...no doubt about it....

i have my mom and dad in ny and my best friend....and i'm just so torn right now!

thanks for the E-distance friendship!
Jeri

Good evening everyone,
I had a great day. Headache all gone. I made it to curves this am then did a lot of walking at work. My B-fast was the usual yogurt and applesauce. I forgot my lunch so I had Taco Bell. 2 chicken soft tacos. I ate the filling and thru out the tortilla's. I had a WW meal for dinner and a sf jello.
I was down 1.5 lbs at WI. I really think it was 2. I was wearing shorts last time and jeans this time. When your my size that much demin could weigh a half a pound...lol. I keep my tracker to the even lbs. Speaking of weight tracker. I love the holiday tracker that ticker factory has but I never can get them in my signature. Any one have any ideas.


Girlie: :grouphug: so glad you stopped by. It sounds like everything is going well for you. Stop by every chance you get. Good job on the water. Getting enough can be a real challenge.


Jerri: CONGRATS :balloons:
That how it works. 1 lb at a time.
When you restock your pantry. Try to sneak some low-cal snacks for you. I've got my whole family eating sugar free jello without a fuss. Check out some of the 100 cal snacks. It sure makes dieting eaiser. And of course lots of veggies. Ditch the poptarts. Oh heck! I love the brown sugar ones. I don't buy them because I don't have that much selfcontrol.
You really have a tuff decision to make about moving. It's hard to be away from your family. Would be moving to NYC?

Susie: Are pilates hard to do? I'm a klutz.

Annie: :) Hope you had a great day.

Well chicks this got a little long. Gotta go to that little room.
(((BIG HUGS)))

Good morning,
I figure I better get here and check in or I might not get to it later.
I weighin tonight. I think I'm going to show a loss. I've worked really hard this week to get there. I've not only journaled, posted and recorded my food, but I've worked on managing my stress and to make a point of being more happy each day. I've been reading "The TOPS Way to Weight Loss". I'm not very far into it, but I've read a lot of things that are "turning on the light" for me. Such as "motivation is maintained by doing, not by feeling"

I also thought this was good: "Weight loss isn't about the food. Getting people to lose weight by providing nutrition information is like treating drug addicts by teaching them the chemical structure of narcotics. The information is very interesting, but in the absence of other very important variables-such as motivation, commitment, hope and belief-it's powerless to change anything".

I've been contemplating those two statements all week and what they mean to me. What they mean to me is that I have to get things inside me in order and then I'll get thin, and that being happy is not about being thin, but being thin is about being happy.

Jerri: Keep working on those things that you want to change and take it one day at a time. I understand about the delima of not knowing where to live. I have a friend that has two little girls, and I'm so close to them. I see them everyday. I've thought about moving to find a better job and such, but I can't imagine not seeing them everyday. It's hard when you feel like your heart is in two places. But remember that comforting yourself with food for things like that won't change the feeling nor solve the situation. It feels better when we do it..but only for the moment and then the regret starts. Keep trying..This is new to you and it's not learned overnight.

Debbie: Congrats on the weight loss. You are correct that jeans are heavier and can make a difference at the scale.

I'll see you all tomorrow.
Susie

R there really any smilies past the one's in that little box -->?
 

I'll tell ya....every time I click the (more) button in the smiley's box to see what else I can use for graphics...my darn computer freezes up...but get this!...not til after i've already wrote a whole bunch and then i have to start over!

We'll as you all probably have read....I did have a very stressful night last night...w/ my smile fries and all!.....

BUT....I didnt let myself end like that...I went to the gym on the way up to Morrisville to pick up my hubby from work. Worked out 30 minutes....

DRANK A TON OF WATER yesterday!!!!! I had to pee so bad after pickin' him up I stopped at Wendy's to use the bathroom and my husband was gonna get himself a sandwich. THEIR DINING ROOM WAS CLOSED!!! OH GOD! I THOUGHT I WAS LITERALLY GOING TO PEE MY PANTS!..
I saw the manager walk out the door to take garbage out and kindly asked if I could please please please please please use his restroom cuz i had a long drive ahead of me...he let me thank god!

My husband went thru drive thru, still open. He ended up getting me a caesar salad (a tiny one). HEY!!!! BUT ITS A LOT BETTER THAN THE USUAL 2 CB MEAL AND FRIES FROM MICKEY D'S RIGHT?

GOT ON THE SCALE THIS MORNING!!!
~~~~~DOWN 2 MORE LBS.!!!!!~~~~~
YEAHHHHHHH!! HURRAY FOR ME!!!!!!!!!

This usually happens to me though when i try to get back OP. I start drinking all the water and it flushes my system even if i don't eat well. If you think about it, I kind of need that result because it ends up helping me build my will power cuz eventually after a few pounds I love seeing the changes and then I do stay away from all that junk just to see the higher number at the scale.

AS FAR AS THE JEAN THING GOES>>>>>
It definately puts you up at the scale.....
One day at a WW meeting in Buffalo (by the way...NOT NYC...but Buffalo is where i'd be moving back to if I move again)...I'm originally from Lockport, NY (North of Buffalo)
Anyways....back to the jeans...
This girl in our meeting was soo frustrated that she didn't hit her lifetime goal that one of the leaders told her it was cuz of her jeans and there were no guys in the room and she had one of the other members shut the door...she whipped off her jeans and got on the scale and she went done .8 which took her to her goal.....so don't be discouraged!!!!!

Ok. Love you guys.
Talk to you all later
Have a super OP day!
I'm remotivated!!!! NO SMILE FRIES TODAY!!!!

Jeri

Hello,

Welcome Jeri.
I have a tip for you to start small. I sometimes crave pop-tarts myself! Did you know there are low fat pop tarts? At least that would be a start. And with the 2 peanut butter sandwiches, if you are using whole wheat bread, that's would be good. Actually, if you get hearty, high fiber whole grain bread, you may not need to eat two. I really feel the same as you in your posts!

Question for everyone -

Do you get in your water? Do you "plan" it, or does it just happen? What's your strategy! I don't get thirsty much at all. So I'm basically forcing myself to drink a bottle at morning, noon and night.

Girlie

HI Girlie~ Noce to see you in!!! I easily drink 8-12 12 oz glasses of water every day. I have 2 coffee in the AM and tea at 1ish.I pee a LOT.
I have always have been a water drinker it is what tastes good to me. I dont like pop or juice.
HI and hugs to everyone.

I have made some positive diet changes for the first time in months. I got to thinking last night about the whole process. When i first started to really focus on weight loss it was 2 years ago. I did well in the beginning but then the old habits crept in. Emotional eating. I have kept that initial 18 lbs off, thankfully.
Then a bunch of weird and tragic things happened and the bottom fell out of my world. Stir that in with a high needs son and I had used up up all I had to give. The process then became more about emotional healing.I ended up letting go of my closest friendships. Regaining closeness with my husband. Finding new strength to cope with my son. The last leg of this has been confronting and standing up to my family. It has come to a decent resolution too.
I am working at a home based business which is what I love to do. I am an entrepeneur at heart. I have found a great niche at the school.I feel good about my work at church. I am earning okay income and still am at home for my family.
It finally feels like I am at a place where I can put the energy into planning my food and following a plan without all the baggage.

Daily Journal
1.My renewal statement for the day. I WILL do this.
2. Weekly weight. 230
3. Exercise-type, how long, what level.
4. % fat, carbs, protein.- 39%,34%,27%
5. # meals and snacks. 3 meals, 2 snacks
6.# fruits, # of veg.5 c salad with other veg tossed in
7. How many glasses of water. 8
8. Time of last food intake, time I went to bed. 10pm had some pinto beans-bed at 12:30am
9. Why and when I ate due to stress or emotions. didn’t
10.General feelings about food, exercise, life. All is good and possible. I ate a small chocolate bar without thinking yesterday, I had found peanut free bars I wanted to give to a boy I babysit with an allergy. 1 was on ther counter I ate it without thinking first.
11. Any really good events or feelings today.- wow, yes. Good day. I got the laundry done and some vacuuming.I did everything on my list for the day except the minutes. Didn’t feel minute-ish.LOL. Had a great meeting last night for church. I was feeling empowered and at peace.
12. Overall, how did the day go._ great. I stayed up late but just wasn’t tired. i puttered and watched the tube. The solitude was nice.
13. How can I improve for tomorrow. -make lower fat protein choices.

Today started out pretty good.....

10:00 - Campbell's Soup at Hand and a Propel Berry Water
11:00 - Had to Pee
11:30 - Had to Pee
11:45 - Oh God...Had to Pee Again!
12:00 - Picked up daycare client
12:30 - Hubby went to McDonald's on way to work...(He's there anonnymous spokesperson, cept he's too busy eating there to tell anybody) I ordered just a $1 pack of apple dippers...Pat on back..hurray for me!
12:45 - Opened another Propel Berry Water
1:05 - TICKED OFF HUSBAND CUZ HE WAS LATE FOR WORK AND HAD TO STOP A STORE .........TO PEE!!!! .......
1:45 - Had to Pee
2:00 - Walked around Target to find Halloween accessories for my 10 year old.
3:00 - Picked up 2nd Daycare Client from school
3:30 - went to Goodwill to find crazy dress for daughter's halloween costume
4:00 - Arrived at Daycare clients house
I HATE THEIR HOUSE..... They have it stocked to the max with all the
good food and as their nanny they allow me whatever I want....BAD
PERK!!!! BAD!!!!! Today, we sampled, a bite of left over cotton candy from the state fair.... uhhhh ok, so it was a BIG Sample!....How embarrassing when their 12 year old got home from school and said..."who's been eating my cotton candy"....who me?.....nope...wasn't me?....couldn't tell ya sweetie!!! uhhhh!. Getting out the donut holes for the 1 child.....she didn't finish all four....guess who ate her last one?...... Cheese & Cracker snack for my daughter wasn't easy to open today...paper stuck real good to it...got some on my finger...damn...had to eat one!...
It's like I binge on little bites of everything when i provide snack for 7 children at 4:30 everyday!!!

HOW CAN I GET PAST THAT!!!! IT'S HARD...I'M NOT SATISFIED W/ DRINKING WATER....IT DOES NOT MAKE THE FEELING PASS!

6:00 - Lean cuisine shrimp 5pts and NE Clam Chowder soup at hand....low cal, low fat...

6:22.....HI,, it's me!....I'm content now!

AM I INSANE!!!!

I've decided i'm gonna go to the Y again tonight and work out for 1/2 hour on the way to get my husband, that felt good. Quiet around there around 830 pm so it's kind of nice.

I'd put a funny smiley here ( ) BUT, i'm afraid after all this typing, the computer will freeze up and i'll have to start over....

Have a happy night!
Talk to you all in the morning
Love Jeri (((hugs)))

Hello,
I had a LOSS last night!! I was down 2.25 lbs. I was feeling so great about it and not just the weight loss, but because I choose this week to work on being happy about all things and it really helped. I've been journaling and getting real with myself and I'm also trying to stay on the sunny side of life. I know that bad things/ hard times will come, but I can't control those things..however I can control my reaction to them.

Jerri: First off all..you did a very good thing by going to work out. Pat yourself on the back for it. I use hard candy to help me get past a craving and water doesn't seem to do it.

Holly: It takes work to get where you are feeling you are. I say.."Well done!"

Girlie: I had to learn to drink water, but now I thirst for it. Just start slowly. Maybe set reminders on your computer to pop up and remind you. If you really want to do it, I know you can.

I must get to work. Talk to you later,
Susie

T G I F ,
Sometimes I feel like I'm wishing my life away. I just can't wait for the week to end. Getting older every minute.
I've not been doing real well eating. I had 2 tacos last night, but I worked my rear off for it. I really need to get more veggies in my diet. I look back at my journal and see I rarely get 5 a day. That's a goal I will start working on. I kicked the sweet tea habit I can do this too.
I plan to go to curves in the am.


Susie: :bravo: That is a fantastic loss.
Sounds like you are on the right path.
When problems arise you will be in control of them. Like they say "Don't sweat the small stuff"

Jeri: That pee is a great thing. You are cleaning toxins out of your body. And
loosing all that water weight. WEIGHT is WEIGHT. Keep drinking.
You and Holly have the same kind of crazy busy days. :crazy:
I love it up by Buffalo. Anyplace upstate is beautiful. I'm a country girl so I've never care much for any large city.
Hope you enjoyed your exercise at the Y.

Holly: (((HUGS))) Hey! My busy friend. You are doing fantastic. You have a great family. A good outlook, and some fantastic goals. You are such a inspiration to all of us.

Girlie: The schelduled water is good start. Later it will just be habit. My boss hates water so she started drinking crystal lite and the kept making it weaker til now she just drinks water.

Annie: Hope you are well.

Good morning everyone,
I got up this am and made it to curves :dance:
I stopped by and bought some groceries. I've got to go to the farmers market for some produce. This little store is way too high. Of course all our produce come from the south of the state or california. At least the produce stands are affordable.
I'm just waiting quietly for Dh to wake up. He didn't get in till 7:30 this morning so he'll sleep most of the day. I might get out and find some yard sales....Very Bored.


Later chicks. Everyone have a great day. :grouphug:

Good Afternoon!
Doing okay today. Had a halloween party last night for the kids at the church. I knew I would eat some nachos and taca dip so I planned my food around that. Not OP but still good in my book. Today is OP so far.
Just home form the fasrmers market. it is a sunny crisp fall day. After i fed the troops I will transplant some periwinkle and then writye our church newsletter, print it and then clean the damned house.

HUGS ladies!!!!!!

Hiding From my E-gals!!! :)
 

INVISIBLE BLANKET

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JERI

Good morning Ladies,
I had a BAD food day yesterday. I just could not talk myself out of eating sweets. It lasted all day. I was so mad at myself. I will just go on and make today a better day but I wanted to admit to myself, in writing that I just totally gave up control yesterday and it made me feel awful...in my mind and physically.

Today will be a better day. I'm going to catch up on a lot of things I need to get done around here. I think part of the reason I stuffed those sweets in was because I have so many things undone around my house and I know that I don't function well in that sort of environment. I have to have things orderly.

I'm also going to rest today. I was so greatful for the extra hour of sleep today. I know I need to get to bed earlier; when I'm tired I tend to overeat...I guess I'm looking for energy, well, I just should get more sleep instead of burning the candles at both ends. I wil be putting my focus back on what makes me happy and nuture myself. I know that this is the key for me.

Debbie: I'm so proud of you for going to Curves and for looking back into your journal and seeing that you need to eat more veggies. What did you buy at the produce stand?

Holly: I missed your journal. How are you doing?

Jerri: Come out from under that cover...and let's have a good food day...I'm waiting to read your post about how you handle things today. I know you can do it girl...just believe in yourself.

Hubby just said breakfast is ready...got to run.

Susie

Happy-Happy Sunday,
I have had the greatest day. I went for a m/c ride with dh and some friends. It is the first time we have both been on a bike together in years. I had my own for 12 years then after we sold mine. I felt I was too heavy to ride with him so for a year and half I've just been making excuses and staying home. I can even fit in my leather now...:cloud9:

B- eggbeaters, 1 slices ww toast(dry) sliced tomatos
L- sliced bbq beef, beans, coleslaw. roll
everything was ate late enough that that will all the foods for today.

Jeri: One of the greatest things about posting your sucesses. You can also put a voice to your failures. Putting it down make you accountable. No one here will be critical. We all have days we would like to stick our heads under the cover. I saw a sign just today..." Failure is not falling down...It's not getting up".
Just keep posting and I promise you all us chicks will do everything in our power to keep you on track...:grouphug:

Susie: We all need that "ME" time. I'm also short some on energy. I blame my age. I never made it to the produce stand. Hopfully tomorrow.

Holly: Hope you had a peaceful sunday. Are the kids excited about halloween? Did you make their costumes?


I plan to go to curve in the am.
Everyone have a blessed day

Good morning,
I'm not feeling energetic this morning. I did get a lot done yesterday, maybe that's why I'm tired. I think I also have a few things going on hormonally. My face is all broke out; I look like a teenager! I don't usually have such issues. I don't have periods anymore due to a hysterecomy (I still have my ovaries). I think they kicked in this month.

Anyway, I need to sit down with my journal and get my thoughts in order so that I can keep on track this week. We are starting a new contest in TOPS this week. It's a 10 week contest to take us through the first of the year. It's a contest to have a "No Gain" each week. We are all putting $1 into the pot, then each week at weigh in if you gain you have to put in the equivilant amount of $ for what you gain. If you gain 1/4 lb, you put in 25 cents, 1/2 lb, 50 cents and so forth. We did put a cap of $2.00 on it so it wouldn't be a finanical burden. We will have a poster with presents on it and when you don't have a gain you color in a present. The one with the most presents colored in at the end of the 10 weeks wins the money. If there is a tie, then the amount of pounds lost will be looked at. I really don't want to have to pay any money, so I need to keep my focus on this contest.

Just wanted to stop by this morning. Looking forward to seeing the posts.

Susie

SUNDAY~Laughing my A$$ off.
I slept til a glorious,beautiful 8:30am. Lounged in bed for a bit. Made a coffee, sat down at the computer, DH was reading the paper , the kids were watching cartoons, life is just peachy and then AAACKKK! The time change. The kids and I scrambled into clothes and ran out the door to church. UM! No one was there. FALL BACK. BACK.It was 8am not 10am. Weeeeheee. SO now I am home again having coffee #2 and will have some oatmeal in a few minutes.

Daily Journal
1.My renewal statement for the day. I will focus on food today.
2. Weekly weight. 229
3. Exercise-type, how long, what level.
4. % fat, carbs, protein.
5. # meals and snacks. 3 meals, pie for dessert, no snacks
6.# fruits, # of veg. 3 veg
7. How many glasses of water.
8. Time of last food intake, time I went to bed. supper at 6pm, bed at 11:30

9. Why and when I ate due to stress or emotions. I bought a homemade apple pie and the market. I ate one piece. it was soooo damned good. It was a treat for all of us but I REALLY wanted it. Kind of a reward for a week well done. Not good to reqward wiht food. Just knowing it was a good week should be enough.

10.General feelings about food, exercise, life. I need groceries and to prep more food so it is accessable.
11. Any really good events or feelings today. It was agood day all around. I LOVE having my Avon bootha t the market. I also realizae dthta I am paying $5 for solitude. It is so kid free andpeacefgul there. I bought the paper and actually read it. I stamped books. I had adult conversation. The added bonus is that I am getting the Avon books out to new people. An older fella came in. Bougth us all coffee. He is the prez of the local Lions Club. He offered to pay for a flyer to advertise all of us and the farmers market to go out in a mailing. Yahoo. I will design a flyer and off it goes.I LOVE this community. I came home and ignored the housework and gardened for 2 hours. It was sunny and breezy. Thern I made a roast pork loin dinner. I had fopund a jar of prepared kale and the store . I mad eit up for myslef,mmmmm. My Oma always served kale when I was a kid. It grossed everyone else out but I loved it. I burped East Germany all night. AND it is super healthy.
I wrote the Nov church newsleeter in the early evening. DH vacuumed upstairs!!!! I watched some skating and then Trading Spaces, tidied during the commercials.
It is all GOOD.

12. Overall, how did the day go. great

13. How can I improve for tomorrow. dont eat pie.

Church this morning and then home for lunch and then into the city to see Grandma and do 2 other hair appts.
Love to the chickies!!!

MONDAY~I have DD home sick woth a very croupy cough. She rested on the couch all weekend. Mostly on daddy’s lap yesterday. Good excuse for him to be a couch potato. DS hung out with me all day. We had the BEST time. He was so easy going. It was wonderful!!!!!
Avon order comes in today and I have lots of flitting about to do. I need to make a healthy snack for DS class party today. He also has hockey from 4:30-6 and home for trick or treating. I will make a cabbage casserole in the slow cooker minus the rice.( I always use brown but I have to detox from that pie).
I worked all weekend and now I get to work all week. I really hope I earn some money over this season with the Avon.That is the whole idea of the time I am putting into it.
My goal is $500 every 3 weeks. I am almost there now.I keep telling myself that is good for a new rep,of 7 months. The ladies with 20 years under their belt do double that. I want it!!!!

Daily Journal
1.My renewal statement for the day. Pay attention!!!
2. Weekly weight.229
3. Exercise-type, how long, what level.
4. % fat, carbs, protein.
5. # meals and snacks. 3 meals, 1 snack
6.# fruits, # of veg. 4 veg
7. How many glasses of water.lots
8. Time of last food intake, time I went to bed.8pm, bed at 10pm
9. Why and when I ate due to stress or emotions.
10.General feelings about food, exercise, life.
11. Any really good events or feelings today.LOOONG good day.
12. Overall, how did the day go.
13. How can I improve for tomorrow. Dont eat junk.

My LIST for this morning is overwhelming.
I am going to take a bath first and then the slowcooker casserole and then tick it off one by one. I am tired already. LOL> The boys were WILD this morning before school. I feel for the teachers today.Yikes.

Hi all.....Everyone for the most part sounds great. I have a terrible cold, ear ache, etc. and am going home to bed.

Sorry so short, but wanted to check in.

Annie

I'm having a fair day. Been on the run to home depot, walmart and appliance store. I got a new vent hood. I just wonder how long it will set in the box before it is installed. I have a roll of 6month old vinyl for the bathroom floor. standing in the corner of the hall just waiting to be layed. I'm sure glad I live in a home with 3 grown men...LOL

I didn't make it to curves yet, but will go when dh goes to work.
Lots of food today.

B- yogurt,applesauce
S- eggs sandwich w/cheese
L- roast turkey, stuffing, sweet potatos, green beans, Roll
I ate all of turkey, and green beans and left half of everything else.
I plan to just have a green salad with ff dressing for dinner

Annie: Hope you are feeling better. :balloons:

Holly: the time change messed up a lot of people. It' great you enjoy selling avon so much. Hope DD :angel: is feeling better.

Susie: the TOPS contest sounds like fun. I love to be challenged. I love my money, I wouldn't want to part with it either. Good luck.

Jeri: Come out, come out, where ever you are!

Everyone have a great day

Who knew nachos aren't a diet food :shrug:
Dh is a bad diet infuence. I did make it to curves. Good thing, now I'll only gain 10lbs not 15..LOL

Good night

Hello,
Just wanted to pop in and say that I'm OP. It took a few days to get that sugar that I had on Saturday out of my system. You know, I felt out-of-sorts until this morning and I know that sugar contributed to it.

I received my Area Captian information yesterday to fill out. I'm really getting excited about being an Area Captain and to represent TOPS. I know that the best way I can do that is to get this remaining weight off my body and I'm looking forward with a positive attitude about it.

I did figure out an email address for my TOPS contact. Not sure if it will let me type it here but I'll try, it's [email protected]

I thought it was pretty clever, what do you think?

I just heard yesterday about a local job that I'm really interested in. I made a job change about a year ago and it has been very stressful. It's not turning out to be something that I like. This other position would use my Administrative skills and it presents itself as a higher than normal type of position. I've submitted my resume and was told they would be interviewing starting this week and I would be hearing from them. I'm hoping so. I'm ready to make a change to this job. I don't regret making the first change, I needed to do it to get me moving again in my job market, and change is good sometimes;I've learned a lot.

Well, I need to get back to work. Just wanted to check in.
Susie

Hi everyone,
I guess everyone is busy. I've had a good day I didn't make it to curves but I'll go in the am. I had to do inventory at work so I had a lot of walking.
B- 2 egg white omlete w/ ff cheese.
L-1/2c chicken and dumplings
D- ww meal and green salad w/ ff salad dressing

I'm thinking about doing ww-online. I may try it for a couple of months and see if I like it.

Susie: your TOPS e-mail address is creative. You did good. I never can come up with anything good.
Good luck with your job hunt. If you aren't happy there. You sure need to find someplace you will enjoy going to work. My job is very deadend and low pay but I enjoy (mostly) working outside, so it's worth it.

Hope everyone is well,
Later

Hello,
I had an awesome workout last night. I did the Pilates class; I'm really enjoying it, it's very challenging. Then I walked on the walking track for 35 min, then biked for 10 min, then did my 3 min on the stair climber-I went 25 floors. I will increase my time next week and try to increase my floor count by 2. That machine kicks my butt!

Food was OP yesterday. I'm working hard to have a loss at this week's TOPS meeting, I think the contest has got me motivated. I don't want to have to pay any money.

Today I'm going to see about getting a photo taken for the Area Captain application. I need a head shot and a full lenght shot. I've not had my picture taken professionally for years, so I thought I would look into it. I'm just going to go to Walmart and see what they have to offer. I don't want to put a lot of money into it, but it would be nice to have some professionally done.

Debbie: Did you make it Curves today? I used to think that it was important to make a lot of money and have a title at work, but I'm getting to the point where enjoying it has a lot of value to me as well. I"ll keep you posted on the job hunt.

Where is everyone? Come on..post up..we need you!
Susie

HI,
Everything is good. I have a cold this week. ds is over it and dd is sick, been home all this week. I am just so darned busy. It is all good but a LOT to organize and cope with. So many people count on me. I am really tired today. I am filling Avon orders to get out. I am working at the farmers market Sat mornings, which is good. I really want my business to do well. My sales are really high for a new rep.
My Mom was being a knob last week ,had to deal with her. Hockey is busy.The volunteer church "secretary" job is quite busy but it has changed the whole atmosphere there. I said I would set it up and organize it but am hoping someone will take it on. I am doing less with Sunday school.And then school council.
DH is feeling pretty neglected. It is DS's Bday on Sat( as you know). I will be setting up my booth at the market and then taking DD to B's and then taking 4 of DS's friends to adventures on Wonderland and then home by 3, go get DD, make supper, DS has hockey at 6, then we are going with both grandparents over to Tim Hortons for cake and tea. Most days are like this.
DS has been asked back to play net. He didn't want to make the commitment but the new goalie was awful and didn't like it. DS is more confident now and really loves it. His first game will be this SAT.All the parents from the team went to the coach and asked for DS!! Pretty cool.
I wish someone would do the housework. I dont mind all the cooking.
The new kitty is well hidden right now. And the quiet kids are here now, wait til after school. She is sooo pretty.

Love you!!!!

**********************It’s a GIRL!!!!!*******************************

DS and DD are the proud new parents of a lovely medium haired, golden eyed, calico tabby, ten week old kitten!!!!
Her name is Rainbow in keeping with their cousin’s calico named Rambo.DD thought Rainbow was more suitable for a girl.giggle.

Parents a kitty seem to be doing well.

Clyde is also doing fine. We are making sure he is still king of the household. We haven’t had a baby kitty around in almost 17 years.

By the way~ this was all DH’s idea but I did have Rainbow in a box and in the van and at the vet within a 1/2 hour of him suggesting it.

Good evening everyone,
I did made it to curves and had a great workout. I was busy at work. So we did lots of walking. I feel good about my activities.
B- yogurt, applesauce
s- sf jello
L- ww meal
s- 2 bite sized peanut butter cups. :(
D- ww meal, 1 c mustard greens.

Holly: Wow.. Saturday you are going to need some luck to keep everything going smoothly. In all the right directions...LOL. If anyone can do you can. You say most days are like that. ?? I'd get confused and leave a kid at the wrong place..LOL. Welcome to Rainbow kitty.

Susie: Fantastic workout. I think when I loose down closer to 199, I'm going to join the local gym. I love curves but I would love the pool and other neat stuff.

Annie: I hope you are feeling better.

Jeri: we hope to hear from you soon.

I did sign up for ww on-line. It's cool! I was getting bored so maybe this will keep me on track.

Debbie~ good for you for getting to curves!! Maybe most days aren't quite like Sat but many, a few a week anyhow, I am that busy every day but at home, on the phone or computer.....

boom boom boom!!!
That is my head. Holy sinus ache batman. Started last night. Woke with it this morning. I will be taking drugs.
I have 8 kids ALL day then DS too after school. YIKES!! Our neighbour is coming at 2 to help. It is suposed to be nice out!!! good.

Daily Journal
1.My renewal statement for the day. I CAN do this.
2. Weekly weight. 229
3. Exercise-type, how long, what level.
4. % fat, carbs, protein.
5. # meals and snacks. breaky, lunch,snack, went to bed no supper, wrap with cheese and lettuce
6.# fruits, # of veg. 1 fruit, 2 veg-not enough!
7. How many glasses of water. 5
8. Time of last food intake, time I went to bed. wrap at 9, bed at 10
9. Why and when I ate due to stress or emotions.- didn’t
10.General feelings about food, exercise, life.- no thoughts today
11. Any really good events or feelings today. - definitely,Rainbow hid under the spare room bed all day, I dug her out after the kids went to bed. I put her in the litter box she went immediately and then ate and then played with every speck on the floor and jumped sideways....I LOVE kittens. We let the rabbit out for a run at night, Clyde and the rabbit play and then snuggle but he kinda lays there and whacks her with a paw every so often. Rainbow had the rabbit doing serious laps around the house. It was hilarious. ALL 3 seem to be getting along. Watched Martha-apprentice. These people are supposed to be experienced business people. I could run circles around them. This show is right up my alley.Ejoyable. I felt really crappy in the morning. You gotta love a job where you can lock the doors, put on the Doodlebops and go soak in the tub. lol. That helped a bit. I did get the Avon sorted ,bagged and bills written. DD was still home.I lost steam by 6 pm and took a nap. At 7 DS came with me to deliver Avon and stuff mailboxes. He had been in a great space the last week. It is a glimmer of how great he can be without all the anxiety. He declined playing goal for hockey this year cause the coach said that they needed to choose their position for the whole year. Sept in not a good month for him, he panicked and wouldn’t do it. Another boy wanted to try. He is not good and doesn’t like it. The other parents went to the coach and requested DS be asked to play net. It was quite an hoour for my boy. He LOVES playing goal and in a way 2 months as forward had shown him just how much. He will play net on Sat on his bday with all the grandfolks there. Pretty exciting!!

12. Overall, how did the day go. okay considering I am sick.
13. How can I improve for tomorrow. dont sneak chips from ther kids.

Hello,
Tonight is my weighin night at TOPS. I think those scales will be down. I'm going out to lunch with a friend today and I've already told her that I'm not having a heavy lunch because today is a weighin day and I know that I have to be careful what I eat at lunch because I've gone out to lunch before and I knew that I would be down on those scales and then I ate something that had me holding water or something and had a .25 lb gain. I'm not letting that happen this time! Our new TOPS contest starts tonight and I want to start out strong.

I got a call for the interview I've been wanting. It's set up for next Tuesday. I'm excited about it and I'm ready to go out there and show them just how much they need me in that position.

I've got my photo shoot scheduled for Saturday @ 2:30. I'm sort of looking forward to it.

Holly: I love kitty's too! I hope your cold is better.

Debbie: Good for you for joining WW on line. You are doing something that is a positive in your weightloss journey.

I've got to run.
Susie

Hi everyone,
I'm dragging. It's been a very busy day. I work 10 hrs except for my lunch hour I've been on my feet. Feet feel like a couple of stumps.

B-yogurt,applesauce
L- hamburger/mustard and sm order of onion rings
D- 1 c goulash

Holly: I love kittens also. I have 3 adults and 2 kittens. The momma cat hid her kittens and they are wild. We can pet one of them if he's eating but the other is so wild we don't even know it's sex.

Susie: You have been working so hard. I know you lost.
You are going to dazzle them at that job interview. You are so brave. I hate changing jobs. I was on my current job for 1 month short of 10 years. Then I worked with dh on the truck for 6 1/2 years. Now I'm back at the same old job. I'm not much for change.
You go girl (((HUG))).

Annie, Jeri and Girlie : HI! we miss ya'll.

I'm going to bed. Later

HUGS Debbie! Hope you feel a boost in energy today.
Susie~ were the scale gods kind??
Feeling better. No headache at least. I am VERY excited that all the kid will be in school and I have 2 little guys just for the morning!!
I am baking a cake this morning for DS’s Bday for his class. A hockey rink and then I have player candles. I will absolutely clean the darned bathrooms!!! EW! I will sort and tidy Avon supplies and file misc stuff.

Last night I printed off our bank statements since June and went through each month breaking down our spending.
We dont “waste” any . There is the odd thing that we didn’t need but ya gotta live a little and nothing was frivilous.
The monthy average beyond our daily living expenses and spending is $1000. Yikes. That covers car repairs, sports,babysitters,kids clothes,shoes, renovations.........
We had a bad year in 2004. Right now income is good but we are paying off a debt. Small debt but debt none the less.
I am not as worried as I was. I hope DH can work steady this winter. This has been a great job so far!!!

Daily Journal
1.My renewal statement for the day. I can do this!!
2. Weekly weight. 229
3. Exercise-type, how long, what level. raking
4. % fat, carbs, protein.
5. # meals and snacks. 3 meal, I snack/meal before bed
6.# fruits, # of veg. 1 apple, 2 c salad, celery
7. How many glasses of water. 8
8. Time of last food intake, time I went to bed. 10pm-pizza, bed 11-pm
9. Why and when I ate due to stress or emotions. - ate because I felt crappy all day, I boght frozen pizza cause i could face cooking or the dishes, I munched at night to nurture myself.
10.General feelings about food, exercise, life. I am sick and everything is harder.
11. Any really good events or feelings today. yes~ the kitten is a spazzy blast. She hung around all morning even with 8 kids here.The day went well in spite of a horrific headache. Rainbow has been a wonderful gift to DS. He hates to be alone and play alone now he has a companion.Both kids are sooo excied to feed her and watch her.
12. Overall, how did the day go. okay
13. How can I improve for tomorrow. no freakin pizza

Good morning,
The scale gods smiled on me. I lost 2 lbs! I'm at 246.25 again. This is where I had trouble the last time...but not this time ladies, I'm going to be down again next week. I feel so much better about myself. I don't know why I feel better about myself. Maybe because I am an intelligent person, and I'm contoling my emotions and not letting them control me. (part of the TOPS pledge..I've been saying this line to myself alot!)

Everyone is asking me how I got going again and I can only say that I've decided to be happy in all things and not stress about those things I can't control. It all came to me when I was thinking about Oprah (my idol). She didn't lose weight and then get happy. She got happy and then lost weight.

I know this is all about what is in our minds. It's there that we defeat ourselfs. Granted, you have to take in less calories than you can burn in order to see a loss at the scales. We all know that, and we all know which foods we should eat. But knowing that is not enough. I'm reading, "The TOPS way to Weight Loss" and this is what I read last night. Tell me what you think about this.

"Weight loss isn't about the food. Getting people to lose weight bt providing nutrition information is like treating drug addicts by teaching them the chemical structure of narcotics. The information is very interesting, but in the absence of other very important variables-such as motivation, commitment, hope and belief-it's powerless to change anything."

Ladies, I challenge each of us for today to have hope and belief and put that behind what we know to do...it will change our lives.

Just being on this board shows that we have the hope...belive in it!

Debbie: How do those feet feel today? You should go have a nice pedicure every once in awhile..they feel so good!

Holly: Stay away from the pizza girl! Are you feeling better? I can totally relate to seeing that you are overspending more than you thought. When I added up what we have paid out this year in medical and prescription expenses I know understand why I always feel broke!

Have a great day ladies. Oh, my challenge today will to not overeat at The Olive Garden tonight. I'm reporting this in to you all tomorrow. Keep me accountable.

Susie

Good morning,
Where is everyone? I wanted to report that I did pretty good at the Olive Garden last night. My husband and I split the pumpkin cheese cake. I will admit that I was very full when I left and I know that I ate a little to much, because it was somewhat uncomfortable to breathe for about a 1/2 hour later. I came home and wrote in my journal about how that made me feel physically and what it did to my emotions about staying on track.

I feel ok with what I had, but I should have only had 1 breadstick, instead of two and I finished my entree and I could have taken about a 1/4 of it home instead.

It's ok...it's was a learning lesson.

Have grocery shopping on the list today as well as getting my photo taken. I also have laundry.

I better get cracking.

Susie

Susie: :cp: I never doubted you. 2lbs is a fantastic loss. I hope you have a good time today. I absolutely hate having my picture taken. I just have a bad body self image. I've never been comfortable with my self. They say to lose weight you have to learn to love yourself. I'm working on just liking my self. One step at a time.

Holly: :) I hope you are having a great saturday.

B- eggbeaters, sliced tomatoes, dry ww toast.
L- WW meal
S-2 hot dogs

Morning Susie, Debbie!!!!!

Lots going on in my head.
First this darn sinus headache that comes and goes but then when it is bad I toss in a tension headache from coping with the pain, OUCH!! Thank goodnees for drugs that take the edge off.
We had a beautiful day yesterday. I tried to have a good talk with hubby. DS had a perfect and wonderful Bday.
My Mom was not a knob.I am loving my cats. The laundry room now has two kitty apartments. The geriatric one for Clyde and the baby one for Rainbow. I am happy I dont have to go anywhere ar do anything for at least 3 hours and then after church I ahve the afternoon free.
Food has been so so. Good breaky and supper, awful lunch with the kids at the Gym place. There were no good choices. I felt too crappy to pack a lunch sigh. Who knew you could deep fry mac and cheese? Weird.

My day looked like this:
Got up at 7. DH was just leaving for the the hockey Trainers course.He will now be on the bench for DS’s team. Had my coffee, fed the kids and myself. We all got dressed. At 8:30 DS’s friend came( his folks were golfing). at 8:45 I packed the van and went to town to set up my table at the farmers market, drove DD to a friends house for the day, got home at 9:45am and Sis and BIL were waiting. They had bought a new couch and brought me their old futon. BIL and I moved that in.Gave Sis Mom’s Avon order. 2 more of DS’s friends came. Put everyone’s booster seats into the van and loaded in 4 7 yo’s. It was an enjoyable 45 min drive.We spent 5 hours at the jungle gym place. A year makes a difference. These kids were pretty independant. I sat and relaxed. Closed my eyes,rested. It was nice. I enjoyed not having to look at this messy house. Drove back to our town and dropped all the kids off. DH got home at 4. I popped some chicken in the oven. Their were left over potatoes and veg. I started cleanig house. DH sat and talked with DS and then cracked open a beer and watched TV. I asked him for help. He said no.I cried. He got mad. Then we discussed it.
Our views differ. I am not sure if there is a right or wrong.
I asked him to hear me out with out commenting and then I would listen to him. He interupted twice but we got through it.
My point went like this: We need $3000/month to live as we do.He earns 2/3 of that but his income fluctuates. I need to earn money to make up the slack. We have made choices together about my job to not compromise what we want for our family. That is all pretty good.I started the Avon biz to earn more $$ and because i like it. It is taking up time. It is in a building stage and I am not earning a ton but if I grow it well and I am: next year this time I will be earning thousands. DH stops working as much in the winter and every winter we struggle financially. So, as I see it my extra few thousand over the holiday season makes a lot of sense.The problem is that my time is well used and i run out of time every single day to do household chores and it it really depressing me. I am asking for him to help more.
He got defensive about me bringing up money and income. I said it is the reality. If you want me to be just a housewife and mother he either had to earn twice as much income or we gave up a lot, possibly our home and got an apartment in the city. He argued we live simply. Yes we do! Life is expensive. He argues that I am home all day and he is gone 10 hours a day. True but I am working at home. He says what i am supposed to do come home form work eat supper and clean? I suggested we do it together. He says relaxing is as important as the housework and it is also when he spends time with the kids. True again. I asked if he would at least take on the job of washing the pots and pans after supper each night it only takes a half hour. He didn’t answer. He said the reality is we are both really busy and there is not enough time to do everything that needs to be done so what is the point of being upset. There is truth to this. He was gone for 8 hours yesterday too taking a course to help DS’s hockey team, which again is monumentally important to our son’s well being.I am here all day every day. the clutter and mess is really getting to me. I went to bed early 3 nights this week because I am sick and sooo much didn’t get done. I know for a fact he sat and had a beer and watched TV. He did not step up and help when I was down. He told me to go to bed and rest. I knew I needed to so I did. Now I feel like I am being punished with extra work for being sick and taking care of myself. Why should I have to pick up his empty beer bottle in the morning and put it away before my kids start to arrive????He thinks I am stupid. This is how I feel.
Anyhow. The discussion is over. We heard each other out. Will anything change?? He didn’t hold a grudge so that is good.
At 4:45 we ate supper. At 5pm we left the house. Picked up DD on the way to hockey. DS played goal for the first time this year!!!! It was spectacular. All the parents were shouting and cheering him on. He made stellar saves against a really tough team. Out in the parking lot the other team was going on about what a great goalie our team had!!!!! my boy just glows when he plays net. He just LOVES it. it is such a funny thing that the only time he is ever calm in on the ice in the net. He gets this beautific smile after a game when he comes off the ice. All the grandparents were there to watch. Then we all went over to Tim hortons for birthday donuts. Hubby’s folks gave him a hockey sweater and my folks gave him a watch. It was all soooo nice. We were home at 8:30, kids into jammies, talked about our days and then to bed. I watched Trading Spaces,fed all the critters and went to bed.
I had a great deep sleep. No headache yet but my sinuses are full. DS is palying with some new toys. DH and DD and snuggles into bed together.
The other thing on my mind is the hand me downs from my family. We have quite a bit furniture from my parents and Sis. It kind of bugs me because when ever they are around they comment about visiting their old stuff etc. Thing is they buy really good expensvie stuff and then dont want it a few years later. What they consider junk is way better then anything we would ever buy or could afford.So they give it to us. Sometimes I feel like the poor pathetic relative and then others I think they are foolish for what they spend on new stuff etc. Why not take what they consider garbage? It is all about choices. I guess I wish they wouldn’t comment on it when they are here.
We are thankful and gracious about it. I dont tlike the comments about our “quaint” country life, how hard working we are, about my voluteering..... I cant tell if it is a dig and pride on their part. Really it is none of their business to comment on any of it.

Today I will eat well all day. I will take time to relax and I will get the downstairs cleaned up.

Have a glorious day!!

Good morning,
I'm in an awful mood this morning. I'm tired, my house is a mess because I was sick all weekend and couldn't do much of anything. My DH was suppossed to clean for me. Well, he about half did it. I recleaned the bathroom this morning. I'll take one room at a time each morning and try to get it back in shape.

Holly: I can relate to the cleaning thing and husband. Also, I earn more money than my hubby. He works hard and long hours, but then so do I and I am the one who takes care of the house, the checkbook, the laundry..he does the cooking.

Like I said...I'm in an awful mood this morning. Still not feeling well. It's a stomach thing.

I hope that tomorrow I'll feel like myself because I need to be upbeat and "on". My interview is tomorrow. I did manage to get a suit bought on Friday night before I stated getting sick.

I've got a lot to do at work today, and I might go home early. Talk to you later.

Debbie: I think you are a very easy person to like. :) Keep working on liking/loving yourself.

Susie

HUGS Susie, I hope you perk up today. Have a great sleep and dazzle them tomorrow!!! Men have it made!! LOL!

Hiya Deb!

I am feeling better so far today. Just 4 little people here. Going to storytime. the sun is shining. I am aiming for an OP day. Considering I was sick and the amount of candy in the house I didn't completely get derailed.LOL!