Good morning,
I've had a great couple of days. I have to work m-w instead of my usual w-f
But its ok. I have to get going but I just wanted to let everyone know I'm thinking of ya'll. :grouphug:

I'll post more this evening. Everyone have a great day
Love you guys

Woke up with an achey body. Probably all the pie trying to get out of my system, LOL! In spite of my best intentions I ate pie for breakfast with coffee. YUM! The rest of the day was about puttering, storytime, putting away the good dishes. I napped, yes napped in the aft for 1 1/2 hours. My daughter is such an angel and always happy to play on her own. I was at hockey from 4-6, which was much smoother than last week. Came home for left over turkey dinner, YUM. And then off to school council meeting. We had a role playing session for the conflict resolution skill training and then a reg meeting. I was super pooped but it was fantastic. Came home and went right to bed. I picked a light book for reading when at the library but it is toooo light. Needs to have some substance.
Great morning.Kids slept in a bit but it was not rushed.
I must, must, must get at the Avon orders today. 3 preschoolers here. I will do my yoga tape to stretch these kinks out. The pie is thankfully gone.
HUGS dear friends.

I'd love to join this group...I just added my race to 199 ticker to my signature!

Hello,
I feel like I've been gone forever instead of just a couple of days. Monday was a whirlwind at work because it was my last day of training with the girl who's position I am filling. I was off work, yesterday, today, and then again tomorrow and Friday. We are leaving for MO in just a few hours; I have so much to do before then! However, I know it's important for me to check in and remind myself that I have a plan and a goal to get to ONEderland...and I'm not going to blow that off now that the holiday season is here.

I did some shopping yesterday. I've got half the list done. I really enjoyed it to. It was just me and me alone. I like spending time with me! lol

I'll check back in with everyone on Sunday. Have a wonderful holiday and remember it's not about the food but time spent with family, friends and make some time for you too!

Susie

Good Morning Gorgeous Gals.........

Everyone have a marvy Turkey Day tomorrow. (Holly too!) I will try to get back on Friday but it may be Monday before I can.


Love and Hugs to All

Annie

Thanks Annie. happy Turkey day to you too!!
Bone weary today.Power YAWNNNNN!!! I am just plain tired out.
The kids and cats are buggin me for no real reason. I could have stayed in bed much longer.
We got a few inches of snow over night and are expecting quite a bit more today and tomorrow. Have to put my winter driving thinking cap on. I stayed up and got all the Avon sorted and bagged!!!!!! Whew. That is a weight off.

The damn clutter keeps creeping back. i am trying to keep it tidy now that it is tidy. It is full time job. I already have 3 other fulltime jobs. Arg!

There was a beautiful pink sunrise through the trees this morning.

I had Pringles for snack in the afternoon and before bed yesterday. Not a good choice. My meals were bang on. Gotta do better.

DD had her first ever fullblown temper tantrum this morning for a couple of hours. She was mad as heck. It was hard not to laugh. She was too cute in all her fury.I have 4 more kids than anticipated today. Yikes. there will be much dressing and undressing for the snow play today. No need for me to go out driving anywhere tho!! I will shovel the driveway!@!! I love shovelling the diveway. 2 hours of exercise with a purpose!!! Nice.

Happy turkey day everyone,
I had a good few days. Mon when we had the tex-mex potluck. I did really well. I made healthy choices and ate small portions. My friend and I split a brownie for dessert. I was proud. Then today, It's just the 4 of us so we ate a small traditional turkey dinner. So we went into the living room to listen to "Alice's resturant" (a family tradition) I pushed my keyboard back and ate at my desk. When I was about a quarter way through with my food. I knocked my plate off. My family was rolling on the floor they said one of the "fat chicks" had decided I had enough...Ok, Who did it?...:rofl:
Needless it to say I was through eating. I quess laughter is good for a diet.

:welcome3: Lean4me, Amanda. We are glad to have you.

Hope everyone is well. I will do personals later. :grouphug:

Oh my goodness, I ate so much yesterday, I stopped counting. Today, is a new day, and I am fasting today. It is not really hard to do because I AM STILL FULL from Thanksgiving. I knew it would be diasterous.

Came in OT this morning at 5:00 am, between getting up early and a full belly, I am having a hard time keeping my eyes open. I have the drags and sleepies.

Not doing much the rest of the weekend. Just trying to stay OP and get a bit of exercise. I am working here on Sunday morning in the mailroom processing checks from 5:30 am to 9:30 am.

Kind of strange not going into Kohls, but must say I don't miss it either. This is such a busy time for retail, and people are quite cranky this time of year. Yeah, peace and joy.

Have a wonderful Friday and weekend, I will chat at cha all on Monday.

(((HUGS)))

Annie

Susie~ how was your time off?
Hiya Annie! Enjoy your weekend.
Deb~ glad it was a nice thanksgiving.

Snowed in again. Makes for a 4 day weekend!!!!!! It is beautiful out today. Not storming. Big fluffy flakes falling.
The playschool auction was great. I got some much in demand local hockey tickets. had to hip check( seriously) and threaten a couple of guys to get them.
My body is sore from hours of shovelling and then standing all evening. It feels good. I have several hours of shovlelling today once it stops snowing.
DS has 3 hockey games this weekend. I have the farmers market all weekend. there is a Christmas tour coming out from the city.
Much tidying to do again.

Food was better but not great yesterday. Aiming for great today.

The suitcases under my eyes have carry on luggage today.

Love to the chickies.

Good evening everyone,
I'm sick of turkey! My leftovers are going in the freezer. I did fair on food today. At least I didn't drop my plate, but thats a great deturrent(sp?) for overeating. No exercise. Curves was closed yesterday and today. Well to tell the truth its been a week because I worked m-w last week. At least I've walked a few times.
I didn't go shopping today. I decided to let the crazies have it all to themselves. The news footage of some of the malls is nuts.

Holly: Snow!! that sounds so nice. I think it is beautiful. :snow4:

:grouphug: Hope everyone is enjoying the holiday with your families.
Love you guys.

Good morning everyone,
I was just cleaning out a drawer that has a bunch of pictures from when we were on the road. OMG... some are beautiful. Like postcard or calendar beautiful. It really made me miss the road. When I grow up I want to travel again. This time have time to stop...LOL
Dh kept me busy this am and I didn't make it to curves. I WILL be there monday.

B- eggbeater,tomato slices and 1 slice dry ww toast.

I hope everyone is having a great holiday w-end. :carrot:

Happy to be home
 

I am soooo tired. Standing and chatting for 7 hours. I did have all my customers come in and pick up their orders so I have a big wad of cash and I did get books out to a few new people. I am not going to hockey.DD and I are staying home. Hubby just went to pick up pizza. I will have 1 slice and I ordered a greek salad as well.
Lookng forward to laying down and watching decorating shows.
Big day at church for the kids tomorrow. DS's class is doing the whole service for the 1st subday of advent. They are ages 6-9.All the kids will be singing. Back to the market tomorrow aft. if there is not a lot of traffic I will come home.
My glorious husband ran the dishwasher AND washed the pots. That just makes tingle with joy! LOL! Sad but true.:dizzy:

Is anyone else having trouble with clicking on last page and being sent to a post from april? I checked my settings and they are still the same. Set to show last first. :dunno:

Hello,
We rolled up to the house last night at 12:15 (after midnight). We had a wonderful trip to vist our friends and help celebrate Deb's 50th b-day and to send Tyler (her son) off to the Air Force.

I'm glad to be home and have a million things to do.

I did well with the food; I weighed myself before I left and I just weighed again and the scales are .25 lbs lighter. I'm happy about that. I really tried to watch it when I was gone.

I've got to get busy, but wanted to check in and keep myself going in the right direction.

I have a meeting today with my Area Coordinator. On December 1, I am officially and Area Captain.

Good morning,
I just got back from cleaning my van. That's real job...pain in the rear.
We stopped by our local cafe and had b-fast. I had eggbeaters and sliced tomato and dry toast. Anyone notice I eat the same stuff over and over.
Oh well, It could have been worse. DH had biscuits and gravy.
It's wickedly windy today. I don't think we are going to do much else today.

Susie: Sounds like you had a wonderful trip. :cp: And came back lighter.
Great job.

Michelle: You are going to be busy. Make sure you take a little time everyday for yourself. You can't be everyones Wonder Woman If you don't take care of yourself. And delegate, delegate...LOL. Ok It never works for me either but it sounded good. :carrot: great job meal planning. It really will help you stay OP.

I have been at market all weekend at a craft tour. I made some sales and I also took sevaral orders and handed out books to many new people.
I slept til 8:45. I laid down in bed a watched the tube last night from 8-11. I was too pooped to move. Kinda enjoyable really.
Curch was at 10. The kidsdid the whole service for the first advent sunday and singing in Latin. The kids are ages 3-9. Pretty amazing! I had goosebumps and was teary the whole time. Glorious!!
I am roasting a pork loin roast for supper with root veggies.
I am snacking on some grape tomatoes and red pepper dip at the moment.

Michele~ I am monumentally organized and I do a LOT. When over whelmed I write everything down, random, then prioritize by date "need to do" status and "want to do" status. When I host big family gathering there is tons you can make ahead and freeze, like potaoto casserole, veggie casseroles, dessert...do pot luck side dishes too.My days are sometimes scheduled into 15 min sections. Right now I am giving myself a 1/2 hour to sit here and visit with my friends and put my feet up. Then I will tidy for a 1/2 hour......

HUGs Deb, Annie, Susie!!
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Hi all I am really trying to get to 199! I just came accross this thread, and thought it would be fun. Just to get things started I am 26, I have three kids (5yo boy, 3 1/2yo girl and 2 yo girl) and I work part-time. I have just recently gotten back on the wagon and I am hoping to lose between 15 and 30# before February(DH is planning a cruise!!! have to be able to get into a bathing suit you know) Oh, I live in the CHicago area, so it is already too cold for me :p

Idid well on thanksginving, but had a couple of parties the last two days and did not do so well. On the bright side I did not gain any weight at my official weigh in on Sat :) well that is all for now see you all soon

Good Morning Ladies.

Today I recommit myself to a healthier life. My eating has been diasterous for the past 5 days. Truly. I am past being disgusted with myself. I pay for Curves via monthly withdrawal, therefore by not going I am wasting precious money. I will re-start that again and not waste money.

Michele - take one thing at a time. Overall it can be overwhelming. Holly has the right idea, try her suggestion on organizing.

Susie - welcome back home, what a great job on losing while you were gone.

Debbie - I think your breakfasts sound delicious. If you are not tired of them, keep on eating them.

Holly - breathe.

Hello to all I have missed.

(((HUGS))) to all of us powerful, wonderful women.

Annie

Oh and welcome to the race UPSWIFE. Jump right on in, we are a great bunch of women.

Annie

Thank God it Monday!! and a school day for all the big kids!! Just 2 preschoolers today til noon. Hubby is at work. He wasn't sure he would go because of the rain. I am letting the fire go out because it is +6C(42F) and feeling muggy in here.
I am in desperate need of a shower but will wait til after the bus.
I did a fair bit of tidying yesterday evening. I should be able to vacuum today.
4th day of hockey in a row with a practise at 4:30. The kids played 3 fab games over the weekend. Much improved. DS was quite the star.
Food has been willy nilly but not horrifc in content or amounts. Just not in the forefront of thought. I haven't weighed in a few weeks. I was getting disappointed by the same number while really trying to lose.
I sent a friendly email and pics to an old friend last week and haven't heard back. Every couple of months I try. It makes me feel sad.

Storytime this morning. I need some ideas for myself for reading. Entertaining yet with a little substance and thought provocation. The Mark Twain Letters for book club is interesting but quite heavy.Getting thru it bit by bit.
This was the astart to my day.

I have been journalling a bit about mixed feelings about my family. I saw my Dad briefly on Sat when he stopped into the market to pick up mom's Avon order. I was struck by how handsome and fit and happy he is.
These are this morning's thoughts....
I hate that the fam takes up energy. It is worse than it has been for a long time as my kids get older and I have memories of my own childhood. I get so conflicted because my folks are decent people. The are narcisstic , small minded in many ways ,but good people.
I get tired of being misunderstood and disliked.
I think I am pretty wonderful.
The whole convo at the dinner table last year at christmas was abut how it was impossible for any online relationships to be real.Every blog/group etc was a scam and everyone online was some deviant trying to get something from you. I came home and read journal/forum posts all night. I know it is their loss to be so fearful and jaded but it hurts that once again I was the family freak who actually believed I had an online friend or even friendS( egads more than one person who likes me).
Sad.

The preschoolers just wanted to stay home and watch cartoons. kinda nice. I am off to putter.

Good morning everyone,
I just got back from curves, boy was I sluggish. I can tell I missed a week.
I never got my pulse over the 75%. I usually am in the 80% range. I'm making my Dec goal to work out 3x a week.
Boy its been a windy couple of days. Everything is so dry we have had lots of grass fires. The scanner is buzzing. I hope they die down some this afternoon.
B-yogurt,applesauce
S- a couple of bite of the guys left over scrambled eggs

Holly: I, for one am very greatful for my online friends. I know that if we lived closer we would all probably still be great friends. :grouphug:

Annie: I also need to take time to recommit myself. I feel like I'm loosing focus.

UPSwife: :welcome3: Great job maintaining you weight over the holiday.
Sounds like you are on the right track.

Do we need a challenge for the next few weeks???? Hmmm.
Whatdoya think?
Hollyhock's 4 week challenge~ I will do 15 min of some form of exercise every day. I will eat grainless breaky and supper and snacks.I will eat 4 c of veg eah day! ( starting Nov 28 2005)

Hello,
Just a quick note. I'm already feeling the stress of my new job, but I have a 3 hour block of time with my boss to go over all these things that people are asking me questions about. I told him that I don't want them to pile up on me and I want to get these orders entered. Entering orders was the only thing I was trained on..nothing else. I felt like crying most of the afternoon.

I'm not going to let this get to me. I might not be around everyday but will try to post something a couple of times a week. I also might not be able to do many personals but know that I'm reading them and will try to jump in there as well.

You guys are the best! I won't disappear completely. I don't want to..I want to get this weight off and I need to be here with you all to do it. It's very important to me.

Welcome to the new people. For those of you who are getting back on track..life is a new beginning every day...just concentrate on using it to your best ability and getting the most out of it for yourself.

I'll talk to everyone soon.

Susie

Good evening everyone,
I just got off my rear and put my watp dvd in. I was only able to do 1 mile but I did curves this am so I'm sure its enough. :carrot:

FOOD
D-small pork chop, baked potato w/ butter spray. green beans

Holly: I agree, My Dec challenge is to exercise 3x a week. And walk on days I don't work.

Susie: Hope things get less stressful soon. Just give yourself time to adjust.
Try to relax... as we always tell Holly...BREATHE :hug:

Later chicks

Michelle: :cp: That a great challenge :carrot: And you are off to a great start. I can't do but 1 mile yet but I'm working on it.

Hello,
Quick check in. I spent some time this morning organizing things at home. Feeling a little less stressed because I have some things in order there.

I sheduled my boss to spend 3 hours with me this morning going over things so I can get some of these questions answered and hopefully feel better about what I'm doing.

Thanks for the reminder to breathe.! :dizzy: I did have a good workout last night and will go to Pilates tonight...I love that class!

Have a wonderful day.
Susie

Good morning all,

Just quick update today. I really want to try to post more often.
My exercise regimen has been pretty good. For two weeks now I've been getting up at 4.45am and hitting the gym, doing 1 hour on the elliptical. I'm getting very much used to waking up, and it's becoming a routine. I haven't changed much with food except to try not to snack much, only "approved" snacks that I bring myself, like applesauce cups and pretzels and yogurt.

I have a bagel, juice and a cappuccino from a mix in the mornings and that holds me over until lunch pretty well.

I am hoping to continue this. One great part - my husband has been going in the mornings as well! He doesn't get moving quite as early as I do, but he usually comes into the gym while I'm on my last 15 minutes and it's cool.
I didn't make my Halloween Challenge, and I want to take the rest of the year to just focus on keeping my schedule of working out, and not focus on the numbers so much.


Hope you all are well!!!

Breathing is essential!!!!

This is a lot and some has been posted before. I have spent a lot of the last tweo days in tears just releasing.

I have worked for years to be in a good place with myself.
Little things creep in and I start to disbelieve everything. My feelings, thoughts, memories, anxieties are all a myth.This is what I have been told over and over by my family.

My Dad stopped by Saturday to pick up an Avon order. He looked tall and handsome and happy, and he is. He is also the same man who told me many times he just didn’t care about me.He is the same man not willing to break into his comfortable life( and golf games) to care for his own mother.And also refused to believe the truth about my aunt’s quality of care. Choosing to blame me somehow for being too emotional about it.

I had myself convinced that I was somehow broken. I also believed that all women went through these experiences as a rite of passage into womanhood.

I have great fear of my own children having the angst and the pain and loneliness and heartache I did for more than 20 years.
I do not want to be the root of their pain.
I know I am not or will be a perfect parent. I hope and pray that I give them enough love and support and guidance to be fulfilled human beings.

Now that I have my own parenting experiences to gage it against. it is even more painful for me. I have clear memories of being my own children's ages. An example is being in Grade 1 and peeing my pants. I was berated for humiliating my family and mother in such a way. How embarrassing.......

Last year when DS was in grade 1 he **** his pants at school several times out of anxiety. I nurtured him and talked to his teacher, found a way to help him.He was never berated for it. I certainly did not take it as an afront to our family.

My experiences were so subtle that my family can fluff me off and they validate each other over and over about how wonderful they all are. They make subtle digs about every one in their lives.

In the recent months i have come to see things differently because of many things.

Maybe I really do exist .

I had the most wonderful day. It has been a wonderful few months really. I want to be happy and fulfilled and it feels so good.I dont want the rug pulled out from under me.

Ah, so my journey in my mind keeps leaping to Christmas day. I really do want to see my family. I have set limits and it feels good and right for me/us. Can I let the whispering and snotty digs and plain dumbass conversation slide past me without being hurt? It is only 3 hours. It will mean the world to my Grandmother and my children. They are real and matter as much as my own life.

I hate that the fam takes up energy. It is worse than it has been for a long time as my kids get older and I have memories of my own childhood. I get so conflicted because my folks are decent people. The are narcisstic , small minded in many ways ,but good people.
I get tired of being misunderstood and disliked.
I think I am pretty wonderful.
The whole convo at the dinner table last year at christmas was about how it was impossible for any online relationships to be real.Every blog/group etc was a scam and everyone online was some deviant trying to get something from you. I came home and read journal/forum posts all night. I know it is their loss to be so fearful and jaded but it hurts that once again I was the family freak who actually believed I had an online friend or even friendS( egads more than one person who likes me). My best friend in the world right now is a woman I met online 2 years ago and chat with daily. My friend B met her for lunch recently and can atest to her wonderfulness.
These are the same people who boycott bottled water because they assume people on the assembly line spit in it.The cup is definitely 1/2 empty.

My father was one of the first people to use a computer in 1960 in Canada. He is in the top of the computer industries on an international level. People have paid millions for his services. Excluding my mom ,the family is all University educated and have always lived in metropolitan centres. The most open minded is my 95 YO grandmother.
I suppose this is what baffles me; but then being brilliant about some things does not necessarily make someone wise about their own emotional life or personal relationships. My parents and aunt have travelled and lived all over the world for the last 30 years. Maybe I am unfair about their "weaknesses" and "small mindedness" about others "lesser" than them in their eyes, and expect too much.

I will take along a pretty jello mold!!! So we can all talk about how pretty it is.

Just when you are feeling a little down something great happens to boost you up. At least I think it is great. I am honestly still getting my head around it. I have been invited as a guest speaker( with 2 others) to talk about my part in our school peace project at the Annual Canadian National Day of Rememberance&Action on Violence Against Women. It is in Memory of the 14 women killed in Montreal on this date( Dec 6).It is in a town 15 min from here hosting for all the rural centres in the area.
I am beyond overwhelmed and it was just assumed I would do it. I think I will but it is a lot to take in. I am having trouble thinking I have anything to offer to this. It is a meaningful event. I am honoured.The motto of the event is “First mourn.Then work for change.” I am speaking on the “work for change” and talking about our project at school and how our goal is to have a community trained in peaceful ways of communication and the potential for the adults these children could become.
There just has to be some worth and value in the handbook I started up and being the pilot school in the Thames Valley school board to be offering the programs we are.

I am going to take my hubby up to the diner for dinner with a gift certificate I got at the auction last week. I will have my helper here for the aft and will ask her to stay with our 2. We need to connect. He has been busy with hockey too.

Good morning,
I got up and made it to curves. With my WATP last night that 3x this week already. :dance:
It's a beautiful day here sunny and 60f. I'm sitting her sipping green tea waiting on the temp to get up to 60...LOL
FOOD
B-oatmeal

Holly: The chance to make that speech is fantastic. They made a great choice. Since you are all about change. Making a happy home for your children. You are stepping out of the cookie cutter of your family and giving them the home you want them to have...good job. Being your own individual is not a curse it's a blessing... Just be your self. :hug:

Girlie: It's great to hear from you. Sounds like you are doing great.

Susie: Great job on the workout. I still haven't tried Pilates. I am a klutz.
Good luck with your meeting.

Hi, ladies--

I just wanted to pop in and say hi! I read your posts every few days, but the fall was crazy, and I knew I wouldn't be able to contribute regularly, so I content myself with lurking. It's good to see that you are all still on the journey, and so inspirational! Thanks for still being there, Holly, Susie, Debbie, Annie, Girlie, and everyone.

I've been backsliding and off program a lot, so I also set some December goals, too: to do some sort of sweaty workout five days out of seven; to eat on program while out of town (as I will be three times); to maintain, not gain, and to commit to a class or program for the gray months of January or February. I'm still going to Curves, but I wasn't able to walk as much as when my schedule and the weather were more conducive. And the exercise room in my building hasn't been revamped yet, so I don't use those machines--the ones that work, anyway--as much as I could. But my mantra for December will be "no more excuses, no more pounds." Maybe I'll copyright it....

Be well, and keep making good choices!

hugs--judy

Hello,
I'm doing a quick check in at lunch. Feeling much better about the job..except I feel like my brain is fried at the end of the day.

Holly: What a wonderful thing you have been asked to do. I really wish I could be there to hear your speech...I am just beaming with pride for you!

Debbie: I don't think you are as klutzy as you think. You move around a lot at work..so I know you aren't!

Judy: I love the slogan...it's a good one. I put it in my journal.

Girlie: Nice to see you again.

Got to run ladies.

Susie

Hello, Everyone.
45 mins on elliptical and 15 mins on treadmill today.
Breakfast was half a croissant (ouch!), a bagel w/cream cheese and juice.
Lunch is salmon, corn, broccoli and cucumber.

Holly:
Big hugs to you. This sounds strange, but I love your posts regarding your family struggles - of course, not because I like hearing you struggle, but because you're so darn REAL. I've "known" you for quite a while, and I have no doubt that you are the kind, considerate mother that you feel you are. You are so very giving of yourself, and it's a hard thing to do because you can't help but start get get empty if you give so much. But you should constantly find those things that help to fill you up again so you can keep on giving - just as long as it's not food :) You go, Holly!

Hope everyone is doing well. DH has friends coming over tonite and I may pick up something on the way home. I plan on watching March of the Penguins tonite! I hope it's a nice "feel good" documentary.

Girlie

Hi ladies, Today has been pretty good so far. I got up early and I exercised for an hour, then got my son off to school. I took the girls(ages 3 and 2) for a walk around the block but that was all they could take, it has been cold(30F). Calorie count for today has been 500, so I am planning on 400-500ish for dinner and snack. Keep going and have faith that we can do this!

Girlie~ HUGS dear girl. I AM very real. It can be a downfall in awolrd where glossing things over, lying, covering up, pretending are often the norm, many poeple have disliked, are offended by, intimidated by me etc
It hurts because my heart is wide open all the time.

Earlier someone online wrote this: "I feel compelled to say that these postings can be read by anyone, you know. A reader doesn't even need to be registered. What would you think about hearing what you have posted here being read by your gossipy neighbor out loud in the line at the grocery store? Edit is an Excellent Function".

At least they would be reading the truth and not some jiggled up half truth. I cant imagine feeling i had something to hide from anyone.
Needless, to say I was in tears. I felt chastised for being open and genuine.

Yesterday my Chair from school council wrote to me after sharing my insecurities about speaking tues night: "H, I appreciate the glimpse into your struggles with who you are as a person, as a woman. I also know from my own experience that questioning who I am in the world has softened some of my harder edges, made me more compassionate and led me to a richer partnership with life. While I don't think that self discovery has to be painful, I do think that struggle is a sign of life fighting for expression against the deadening of the status quo. The trick is not to make the struggle the only way we assure ourselves that we have value, I guess that means for me the struggle can lead to a revaluation of who I am, but I need to go beyond the struggle and really accept my gifts/strenths/talents and then share myself to really fulfill the promise of the quest/struggle. I say all this because I think we are a culture with a strange attachment to suffering, I think we find it hard to really truly celebrate ourselves and accept our ok-ness. In this world, joy is the most radical and subversive way of being. For what it's worth, I know you as a woman of deep caring with many strengths and much to offer and I want to apologize for my careless remark to you last night about having a week to figure it out...I had no idea that you were doubting yourself in this way and regret my insensitivity. That you question things (especially yourself) is part of what makes you vulnerable, open to new things and people and I believe that is the greatest and also risky way (but in a good way) to spend our short time here. Sorry to wax philosophic but this is one of my favorite subjects."

Incredible, eh.

I am still trying to accept that these people who are 10 years plus older than me and have incredible careers and obvious eloquence consider me a peer. I just dont feel it. yet........

Good evening everyone,
I had a good day. I walked a lot at work. Then managed to go to curves after work. I've ate op today... strange but op.
B-yogurt, applesauce
L-ww meal, sf jello
D-ww meal, mustard greens
S-1/2 oatmeal raisin cookie

Holly: YOU GO GIRL!! Wow, We are so proud of you.
I agree with Girlie. You just keep being "real". We love you for it. :hug:

Judy: WELCOME BACK! It is great to hear from you. We are just raceing on to onederland. Just jump back in.

UPSwife: :cp: Good job staying op today.

Girlie: OMG.. I love bagels and cream cheese. YUMMMM
Let us know if the march of the penguins is good. I want to see it. Maybe I'll rent it when dgs comes this w-end.

Susie: :) Glad you feel better about your job. We spend so much time in the workplace that it's important to be at least comfortable with our job.

Good evening everyone,
WOW.. We were on the back page. That doesn't happen often.
I just got in from work and thought I post before heading to the shower. Girls... I really blew it at lunch today. I ate 41 points at lunch. I only get 28 for the whole day. I went to the mexican buffet. :mad: I'm glad I had a very active day.

B-oatmeal
L- OMG...:ink: 2 sour cream enchiladas, spanish rice, green chili stew
3 flautas.
D- water

Hope everyone is well.
Later

I did not do too badly today even with a trip to McDonalds thrown in the middle. I had to run around with the kids to find boots. It snowed overnight and I found this morning that none of the boots I had fit anyone!(they grow so fast!!) SO after my son came home from school we went for a trip to the mall. THey were pretty good there, but by the time I found boots for all of them they were pretty hungry and I knew I didn't have anything fast to give them at home, so I caved in and got mickey d's. :mcd: I did not get a chance to do any extra exercise, but I did chase three kids (5, 3, and 2) around the mall for an hour or two! That counts right???;) ;)

B-water
L-big and tasty burger, med fries, and med reg coke
D-sf snack bar and water
Total calorie count 1230

Have a great Friday everyone! Time for the happy dance! :carrot: :dancer: :cb:

My banana's don't want to dance anymore :(