Ladies~ Needing a collective hug. I went to bed at 1 and slept for 2 hours. I haven't woken any more clear headed.
Some of the stuff is done but not all.
My neighbour just called saying her brother was going to throw out beds and beds of perrenials, did I want any? She was off to rescue what she could. Yup! More work, of course. Cant refuse free perrenials. Oh ,so overwhelmed. Hoping for a BIG sleep tonight and then decisive thought tomorrow.

Susie, that is exactly how I feel. Right now, my main focus is losing weight (well, besides school, of course). When I get to my goal weight, of course I'll be ecstatic, but I want to be at the point where I'm still watching what I eat and exercising but not always thinking about losing weight. Really, though, what am I going to do once I'm there??

Holly, sending hugs your way!!!

Hey ladies, just an FYI here... hubby lost his job (long issue, but in the end it was over him not closing the freezer door for 5 minutes... and his boss had been trying to get rid of him for awhile...)

So we're leaving today for our hometown, so we won't be around too much over the next few days... *sigh* Wish me luck staying with my plan... because it'll be so hard at my mother in law's house! Especially because she tries to help DH feel better with food!

HUGS LB!! Hang tough!!!
HI Haley

Thursday is starting out better than Wednesday.
I felt weak and pukey all day yesteday.At 1pm I laid down and slept for 2 hour which took the edge off.
I did accomplish the Avon stuff and eveything else just had to wait.



I do do stuff for me and it may not seem like it to others. A Mom asked me yesterday,” why do you bother?” Well, because I love to do it.The domestic stuff, like canning,freezing,gardening, although work ,are mostly for me and because I LOVE to do it. Likewise with the choice to be home with and for my kids and family. Coming here to 3fc is definitely a break from reality and nurtures my soul in a big way. So is journalling.
I had a really good talk with my little family over supper about how I am feeling and what needs to change. For a small start the kids will pick up all the toys every night. Dh will clear the table and sweep the kitchen floor. We will all benefit from my Avon sales.Once again, although work, I an a entrepeneur and this fits. I am great at direct marketing. It is good to connect with business women again and the women in my community. Part of me is a little shocked at how fast it has taken off. I need to reorganize my life a little with help from the rest of my family.
Hubby DID clear the table. The kids DID pick up toys. The floor should have been swept and table wiped but it is progress.
I had a good sleep, thankfully. Today I will list priorites and make a chart for cleaning.
I need to make an office area and set up books for book keepig.
3 kids going to bible school, 3 here to play.
Food yesterday was odd because I felt odd. Plain bread was eaten in the early part.
I have a casserole to make this morning and then beans to freeze.
I am getting a big load of wood chips to snuggle up old beds and cover new ones till I plant.

Have a fruitful day!!!

Hi all, WI was good today - I'm down 2 pounds! :cheer: for a total of 21! :cheer: Just think of where I would be if I had actually been as dedicated to losing when I started this 5 months ago as I am now. But no looking back - only looking forward from this point on!!

I forgot whose signature I seen it in where it says "I can't lose 100 pounds, but I can lose 10 pounds 10 times" that is so the case! I've already done it twice, I can do it 8 more times right?

Holly - I can totally relate to losing yourself. I'm just at the point where I am starting to find myself again. And I didn't even realize how lost I was until suddenly I was alone - with plenty of time to find me. But I am so happy with what I found. And you will be too - follow your heart, if it's telling you to run a business than I say take off running! If there is one thing I have discovered in the past couple of months is life is too short to be unhappy. So follow your heart - it will take you where you need to go. :grouphug: hope things get a bit calmer for you soon.

LB - sorry to hear about dh's job. hope you are able to survive you mil house ok. :grouphug:

Kelly~ thanks for the feedback. I am pretty selfaware and I do delve into the soul searching stuff. Maybe too much. I need to organize the parts of my life differently so that there is flow and peace and down time.I am excited about the business stuff. I was my very happiest and most complete when I owned a business. I was single and then newly in a relationship tho. It was easier.
Take care.

TGIF!! That's where the group from work is going tonight-TGIFs. I am saving most of my points for the adventure

I had a small victory today, I got into my size 20 jeans WITHOUT having to lie on the bed, suck it in and zip like crazy. Just a normal, put on the pants and zip this morning. It is amazing how when pants fit looser, they get longer in the leg length. Very excited.

Kelly - Congrats on your 2lb loss, that is wonderful! You go!!!

Legally B - Sorry to hear about your hubby losing his job. However, you know when one door closes another opens. Hang tough, and be ready for good things to come to you.

Not much going on this weekend. Don't work at Kohl's as my son has his first football game tomorrow. He is a lineman for his HS team. However, he did some major damage to his ankle last night playing basketball. It is swollen huge and is on crutches. The trainer at football is going to look at it this morning, then let me know if he needs to be seen by the doc. Sheesh. So I go to the game tomorrow to watch my son sit on the bench. Bleacher mom's need ribbons.

Everyone have a terrific weekend, stay focused, and I am going to do the 25 crunches today and all weekend!

(((HUGS)))

Annie

The bug seem to have left town!!!
Well, I either had the flu or needed to sleep around the clock. Maybe both.
Anyhow the Mom’s I sit for got home early and I went to bed and slept. Hubby did supper and all the kid stuff and I slept. I was up at 2 am for a while but went back to sleep.
My tummy is better. I have made a list this morning.It is already up to 14 items of things to do. I cut out things like baking banana bread. I am still trying to get my head around the Avon business. I need to keep at reorganizing. I must say my hubby and kids have consistantly kept things tidy all week!!!!! It is such a relief to me.It makes everything else seem possible.
I will also have more “free” time when the kids are back in school. 4 of them will be gone most of the day. Makes a big difference. The babies/toddlers nap in the aft too.
I am scared and excited all at once.

I saw a picture of me at bible school with the kids. I was sitting. I always look in the mirror when I am standing. Sitting is just plain horrific. I am huge. No question about it. I am feeling lke my old self in a lot of ways. The body just doesn’t fit. I was 190 then. Fit. Happy. Dynamic.......... I want the body that goes with this feeling.

Off to acheive greatness with my day!! LOL!!

Hi!
I've been MIA since Thursday. It seems that as the week ends, I just get busier and busier.

I had a good weighin on Thursday. Down 1.5 pounds. Now I need to focus on this week's 1 pound loss. That's what I'm going to do each week...focus on the next pound. Not five, not ten, just a pound a week. The lady who did our program on Thursday touched on that subject from the TOPS book, The Choice is Mine. To just focus each week on one pound. It would soon add up wouldn't it?

It's been a very long week since I last posted. Ladies, my family needs your prayers and good thoughts. My sister-in-law found out Wednesday that she has breast cancer (this is my biggest fear!). She had a cyst removed a week ago and everyone thought it wasn't anything. The report came back that it was cancer and it's not showing up as Primary. Meaning that it must be somewhere else in the body. She is going though a lot of test right now and is very scared. I'm scared for her. She's 41. They found the test in a mammagrom and it didn't show that it was something to worry about eithier but the thought of it being in her breast freaked her out so she wanted it out...good thing!

Then on Thursday morning, I heard the news of the Marines who were killed and I knew one of them. He's from my home town, Sabina, and I am friends with his Aunt. This is very hard on our community and I know there are countless others who are going through the same thing.

It's a reminded to be happy for health and family and live each day to it's fullest.

Which I am not doing with keeping this weight on! I've been waiting on doing so many things after I loose this weight..well..forget that approach. I'm going to do those things AND get this weight off! Who is with me? It doesn't matter how many times you have tried, started over, whatever...let's start today. I'm back in this Race ladies!!

Holly: I totally get that "Body doesn't fit" thing. I'm willing to do what it takes to change it to get that feeling...sounds like you are too.. we CAN do it!

Annie: I bet it felt wonderful when those jeans slide on...keep hold of that feeling.

Legally: I'm sorry to hear about the job loss. That can be scary. Hopefully he will find something soon. How did you do with your plan at MIL?

Dkkrf: Congrats on the weight loss. YES you can do it eight more times...I love that saying..I hadn't seen it before.

Well ladies, I have a few things to do this evening to get ready for the work week.

I just had to stop in and get my thinking process right...that's what this site does for me. Thanks for being faithful in your posting.

Susie

Susie~ i want to change it in spirit and in my head but I dont seem to do it. I have been thinking about that a lot.

This is our pic from the church directory.

I have house reno pics too!

I need a Monday morning kick in the pants!!!!!!!!! Get with it Hollyhock!!!!!!!

I posted house pics in my journal.
Go to the top of this page, click on journals, scroll through til you find Hollyhock, click on read more, ta da.

Happy Monday Everyone!!

Weekend was okie dokie. Still have not diverted one time from the points system. Yahoo! I am always full and find myself looking for stuff to eat to be sure to use up all my points, unbelievable! Cut grass yesterday then took it easy the rest of the day. Took my son to the hospital Saturday for x-rays, ankle not broke, thank God, however a very serious sprang. He is in an air cast.

Several associates bring in goodies from their gardens and lay them out for the taking. Today I have gathered, 3 red tomatos, 1 yellow tomato, 2 cucumbers, 1 green pepper, 1 hot pepper, for my ZERO points treats for the next few days. YUMMY!!

Holly - you can do it-achieve the greatness, reach your goals. What a very lovely, attractive family you have.

Susie - Thoughts, prayers and many hugs!

WI tonight, I feel as if I have done a good job this week, will let you know tomorrow!

HUGS to all

Annie

Susie, lots of good thoughts and prayers your way.

I took a break this past week and have gained 3 pounds, I'm not going to worry too much about it and just focus on eating 1200 calories a day and exercising 5 days this week. Hopefully with being very strict I can lose those 3 pounds and a few more, but right now, I'm aiming for 3. I don't think I'll take another week off thing, I just gain weight I've already lost, how redundant!

Good luck this week!

Susie~ It took some time to digest your new about your SIL. I hope thay can find the source and she can start the healing process.
Hi Annie~ glad DS is mostly okay.These boys!!!
Haley~ I am with ya!!!

Hi girlies,

Monday, ughhhh. Yesterday was a wonderful day. My mom's sister, and brother both had birthday's so together we did a brunch. It was nice. My mom planned the whole menu, I just went over and helped her prepare and get the thing in gear. I am not really an egg person, but the spinach quiche and the green chile bake were great hits. Really way to much food, but it was fun to start the day off with Mimosas. Yum
It was fun seeing everyone. My aunt has retired, and has moved away, so I haven't seen her in over 6 months. She was very surprised to see me also. She said about a dozen times, how great I look, and that I just seemed more comfortable in my body. I have a long way to go, but it was nice to have someone notice, and to be able to comment on it. It was a nice day.
Meals have been good, I am doing what I can. I weighed in last Wed, and was down 2.4, dreading tommorrows WI, as it is TOM (AGAIN). YIKES

Susie--prayers, hugs, and strength to you. Our health is so important, be sure you are taking good care of yourself, getting lots of excersise, but also rest. Stress can really take it out of you.

Holly--LOVELY pics, your children are just beautiful. You are a gorgeous woman, and it really shows. A great family photo. A while back you were talking about a photo of you with freinds sitting. I just had a photo given to me that was taken about 2 weeks ago. I agree. I look good standing, but HORRIBLE sitting. YUCK. I want to burn it, but decided, to add it to my collection of "this is my journey", and hopefully in a year, I can look back and see a difference.

Haley--Keep trying girl. Don't give up.

Debbie--Hi, hope all is going well with you. I think about you when our TEMPS go up to 90+, and think that you are in this all day long. Yuck

Annie--Great loss girl. Keep on going. WOW

Have a great week, take care, and take care of YOU.

Sandi