That's awesome Ani!

Julia, bootcamp sounds hard but great!!

I hit the gym for 1.5hrs tonight - an hr on the treadmill and 1/2 on the bike. I jogged for 5 minute intervals tonight! I know it sounds pathetic, but that's a long time for me to run! The first time I just didn't look at the time and ran as long as I felt like, looked down and it was 5 mins so then I made that my interval. I actually felt pretty good jogging (8kph), albeit slowly, but I get beetroot face something terrible!

Gen 5 minutes is not pathetic, it's awesome!! Don't sell yourself short mate, you're doing reallly well.

Ani congrats on your book that's really great news Can I ask what the title is or would you prefer to remain anon? And as for giving you a bollocking, I won't do that. I'm just glad you're back, that's the important thing

I did my hill walk tonight and knocked another 2 minutes off the time to get to the top. First time I did it it took 55 mins and tonight it took 43!

It'll be a rest day for me tomorrow as I'm working all day and then working in the evening too.

Hope you're all doing well!

Wow Ani! That's fantastic about the book - what type of book is it?

I'm devastated tonight!!!! I will not turn to food!!! Quick run down - My son has emotional and social issues. I included ex in paedritician appointment today. He came said everything to undermine what I had to say and turned it around to his partner. Together they authored an email and sent it to me.

I feel defeated, I try to include him and I get this treatment plus a threat tonight that he should come over and knock some sense into me with a baseball bat. He hang up after that statement and I ran back to speak to his new wife, I spoke about how we need to work together to help our son and then slipped in did you hear what ex said to me, she turned it around and said..." no vanessa he said Liam should get a baseball bat and knock some sense into you."

I rang the police but feel dammed they will arrest him for intimidation. He wont sign papers. I include him in decisions and he still wants to control me. Doesnt like that he cant have the only say about Liam.

I will phone tomorrow for some support when I sleep on it. I feel so over whelmed!
Vanessa

big hugs Vanessa xoxox

Vanessa I'm obviously not familiar with your circumstances but do you have anyone to talk to, or get support from? I don't think it's reasonable to expect you to go through this without some legal/emotional support.

I had another good day yesterday. I ate 1520 calories, drank 2.4L of water and according to my pedometer I walked 8.7km while at work.

It's going to be hideous at work again today. Anyone who has ever worked in retail will understand this: we are stocktaking, it's almost a full moon, and it's 37ºC and humid here.

But I will stick to my goals because I am determined to lose something on the scales this week!

Ugh I hate the heat - it has been bloody freezing here this winter and I am going through gas heat like noone's business (not to mention the hot water bottle in my bed every night - love it!) but it's so much better than the heat!!

I do have to go to Orlando, Florida in a couple of weeks - looks like it's been 75-80 deg every day there which sounds better than the 20's here!

Didn't really feel like it but I went to the gym tonight to watch Biggest Loser - 35 mins treadmill (mostly only walking) and 40 mins elliptical. My hips have been getting sore if I pound the treadmill too many days in a row - added in stationary bike last night for a change. I do think I need to add in some weights - just hate it because I can't watch the TV while I'm on the machines!

Ate 1150 cals today - but have to eat stuff I can mush around without chewing due to my fangs! Over a little from usual but given that I have been working out I guess it's ok.

I have had legal advice. It costs and the only way I can continue paying now is if I sell the house I have been paying off for 5 years. My house is the only security I have. I am continually praying he signs the paperwork. When he does this, I will then pursue the intimadation and harassment. I have my family, but my parents are retired and I can't ask them for money. They give me all the support I need. I have just decided to ignore ex in the short term and try not to let him get to me.

On a happier note, Liam suggested a boyfriend for me... whilst driving home tonight he states rather pleased with himself, Mum you should date Jon BonJovi, he is a good singer and is hunky. LOL I replied, Yeah he is hunky, but I think he is married. What made him say that? LOL

I went to PT last night and stayed on plan. I want my short term goal this Monday...here's hoping I lose 1.1kg this week.

Yesterday was putrid at work. It was 39ºC when I got there at 1pm and the humidity was oppressive. Hopefully today will be better.

I stuck to my goals, and ate around 1600 calories, and drank more than 4 litres of water.

I am about to write ANOTHER letter to the council, because the workmen across the road have started their machines at 6.40am. Great way to wake up after a really hot night and barely any sleep.

Ugh Ani that sounds dreadful! Thinking of that makes me very happy to have a job sitting in an air conditioned office

Vanessa I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time bloody men suck sometimes don't they!! Good on you for staying on plan though - you're doing well at the stuff you can control

As for me, I had a "rest day" yesterday because I worked 2 shifts back to back - normal job in the day and then 4 hours at Nitro Circus which was awesome. Those guys are nuts!

Back into it today and going for a hill walk with a friend after work. I've decided to start following weight watchers again so that's my plan for the weekend - get all the books out and do some planning and shopping.

I got to 80.2 on Monday, so close to the 70s! Then I went to 80.4 Tuesday, and 80.7 today! I have been to the gym every night and done cardio for 1-1.5hrs! Bloody scales. It does happen to me sometimes that I stay around the same then drop a bit, but I want under 79.9, dammit!!!

Look how far you've come already though Gen ... you're on fire! You'll get there soon enough

I did my hill walk again tonight. My god, my calves, quads, hips and butt were feeling it tonight!

Came home and had a couple of glasses of wine and with that dutch courage, sent an email to a cute guy on a dating site. !!! Doing that has made me realise how messed up my living situation is - not only am I 32 and living with my mother, I'm also living with my ex!! If I do meet someone and have to tell them that I would fully expect them to run like ****.

Hopefully the ex finds somewhere else to go SOON. Still not ideal that I live with my mum but that's a means to an end and not the end of the world really.

Thanks Julia. Listen after how he behaved, give him a date and get rid of him! Where he goes is his problem, he's a big boy.

I know you're right Gen but I'm so bloody soft. If I did kick him out he'd literally be living in his car and I just can't do that. Not because it's him but I couldn't do that to anyone.

I've been asked to go away for work for the next week so that will be good. Housesitting for a week after that too so at least I'll get some space in the immediate future.

It won't be long Gen, it's very exciting to see you so close to leaving the 80s . That's an awesome achievement.

Julia I have lived with an ex for a while, many years ago, and I understand why you feel you can't throw him out. It isn't easy though.

I had an OK day yesterday but I must say I am REALLY happy my working week is over and I won't have evening shift for another three weeks. The heat, the hours, the humidity were all hideous this week - and I'm not sure if I will lose much weight because I know my body is trying to hang on to whatever water it can right now.

Next week I work from 6.30am to 3.30pm, and it is meant to be around 33ºC all week - so that will be more pleasant, plus I will be able to have a more 'normal' eating/sleeping routine.

Vanessa how are you travelling?

One of the cardiac surgeons walked by me today and said (in his south american accent!) - "Genevieve, you continue to lose weight. If you don't stop soon, you disappear!" and made a "poof" gesture. Heh. It was cute.

On a less cheery note...

It is coming up to my birthday in a couple of weeks, and it couldn't seem more wrong that the woman who gave birth to me isn't in the world anymore. I really ****ing miss my mum.