[pacman12]

Well, Mum passed away peacefully at 6am this morning, holding my hand.

[LittleKiwi]

Oh Gen I'm so sorry, my thoughts are with you and your family. That's really lovely that you were there with her right at the end Let us know if we can do anything to help support you at the moment. If you need to come here and vent or talk or anything don't hesitate.

I've had a long day, starting with a phone call at 3:30am that my nana had had a fall and was being taken to hospital. Mum and I went straight down and stayed until about 9:30am. She's 94 and has dementia so was pretty confused and distressed and because she doesn't recognise us it was hard to calm her down. She's broken a bone in her knee so has been admitted and ironically will probably be on the same ward as dad (her son).

So food intake was pretty terrible today as I didn't have the time or energy to prepare anything for myself and I haven't been to the gym. For the moment I'm happy to be in bed and am looking forward to an early night.

It's a new day tomorrow.

[LittleKiwi]

Hmmm where is everyone!??!

I'm still not counting points, just not in the right headspace for it but I'm trying to eat sensibly still. Went to the gym last night and walked for 30 minutes but couldn't muster up the energy for anything else!

[7senuf]

Gen my heart goes out to you and your family. I don't think you ever stop grieving but it does get a little less intense with time. I lost my mum 17 years ago and i still miss her like crazy. And have a cry.

Julia I hope yr dad and Nan get better real soon.

As for me - have lost no more weight but am feeling pretty ok. Thinking of taking a couple of months of duramine to kcik start me back into it. I know i hear yr thoughts everyone - no drugs cause u just put it back on, but with me the mind set gets changed while on them. I havent taken them in years but I do know that because of the "no hunger" feeling I end up eating little and correctly and my mind gets in that habit so it stays with me when i am done. Just want 5 kilos shifted quickly and with crazy shift work i find it so difficult to motivate me. Anyhow better go do some child control.

Oh - Ani my daughter is going over to WA to see her girlfriend/ fiance in a few weeks. whats the weather been like there

[pacman12]

I'm onto my 2 wk starvation diet preop (Optifast 3 x day). So far I'm at 110.4 so down 7.3kg since June 1st.

Where are Ani and Lindor??

[7senuf]

Good luck with it all Gen. A bugger of a time for you to have to go through this as well. It is going to challenge you emotionally. Chin up and much love xox

[pacman12]

Thanks Vonni. Surprisingly not bad so far.. but plenty of days left!

[Lindor]

Gen, my thoughts are with you with your mums passing

I've been occupied with guests up until Tuesday morning, and since they left, I have been running around like a chook with it's head cut off! All of a sudden work has decided to pull their finger out with my return on Monday and I have been issued with one appointment after another! And to think this week (and last week) are actually booked annual leave days! Leave me alone dammit!!!

Diet has been totally crap since before my friends got here! I did manage a bit of walking while they were here - around a wildlife park with them and a few 3km walks to the shops and back with them too! That was until they realised when I said something was just a five minute walk around the corner was in fact a 15min walk and up hill as well!

I haven't logged on to Weight Watchers for a couple of weeks now, but fully intend to get back into it over the weekend with the hope of being able to stick to it next week with my return to work too!

I bought a heap of sh!t food for the 15yr old I had visiting, but she was a tad fussy and only wanted KFC or McDonalds for lunch and Pizza or some other crap for dinner. And her Mum felt obligated to pay for my meals as I was housing them for the time they were here. Consequently, I am now left with all this 'kiddy/teenager' food in the house!! Moderation Lindor! Moderation!!

I took Dixie out for a ride yesterday, the first time in a couple of weeks! Ouch! Never got around to it today, but should be back on her again tomorrow! I am also eager to get some more regular walking in too!

Gen, good luck with the optifast diet! Not long 'til the operation now!

Good to hear from you again Vonni! Shift work sux with dieting, I know that and I was only doing morning and evening shifts!! Can't imagine what it's like with night shifts as well!

Julia, hope your Dad and Nan are doing ok!

Amy? How goes the cycling?

And yes! Where is Ani??

[7senuf]

Lindor if yr fond of 15 yr olds and have heaps of **** food in the hosue u can borrow mine for a while lol

[Lindor]

Thanx Vonni, but no thanx!

I think I'd find it easier to eat the sh!t food in moderation than living with a 15yr old!

I just got back from a bike ride! I must make a mental note not to avoid bike riding (or any exercise) for a long duration! It just makes taking it up again harder!! But I will push on!!

Food intake still has a lot to be desired! Somehow I don't think triple chocolate biscuits and coffee make a healthy breakfast?

[7senuf]

no but it's very yum.

[pacman12]

Lindor - no moderation! Add dishwashing liquid and place in bin!

[Lindor]

Funny thing is Gen, that is what I'd normally do! It'd be interesting to work out how much money I waste by throwing food out everytime I try punishing myself for indulging.

Anyway, I just got back from a 6km walk. Walking didn't seem to hurt as much as the cycling did after a break. The plan is to do the walk again tomorrow. And Monday is a fresh start with dieting! And work! Ugh!!

[LittleKiwi]

Great to see a few more faces! Well done on your exercise Lindor It must have been tough trying to eat well with your visitors there. Hope you can get back on track now.

Vonni I can understand why you would want that kick start and if I'm honest I'd take those drugs in a heartbeat if my doctor would prescribe them to me. I've asked and she won't!

Gen how are you doing? I hope everything's going okay

My diet has been a mess lately and my exercise levels haven't been much better. Tonight for some unknown reason I got a sudden burst of energy though and I went out for a 30 minute jog. Feel brilliant having done it and I'm determined to get back on track again immediately.

I bought loads of fresh veggies today so will make myself a nice salad to take for my lunch tomorrow and I've already packed my gym gear. Excited to be headed in the right direction again!

[LittleKiwi]

Gen you sound like you're holding up really well. You've certainly got a lot on your plate! It must be scary thinking about the operation, especially as only you can decide whether it's the right thing to do. We're all here for you whatever you do

I've been making more of an effort with my diet but I'm still not totally in the right headspace. I forget if I told you all but my partner lost his job so instead of having stress about him having a low income it's now stress about him having NO income! Things seem to be moving in the right direction though at long last and fingers crossed he may have a job back with an old employer. If this works out it would relieve a huge amount of pressure and then maybe I can get back to normal.

Found out today that my dad fell out of bed early this morning. He's not injured which is good but he's really not doing well. My nana is being assessed by older persons psych services and may require hospital grade psych care now as her dementia is really bad as well as having a broken leg.

God I can't wait for my holiday! Only a month away now.