Another night at the hospital. Mom is doing well after a bout with her heart earlier today. Her plumbing finally worked today..yay..the doc. didn't expect it to function until Sunday, so that is excellent. Any of you who have been in the hosp. or had surgery know that they base a lot of things on BM's. haha...And especially if the surgery was on the bowel area. So in that regard she is doing good.
Looks like she will be moved Monday to a LTAC. Hopefully just for a couple weeks. When that happens I will stay home more and rest. I am thinking about painting her BR while she is gone.
I got 9 hours sleep in my own bed last night and feel like a new woman. (thanks to my daughter)
Lost 2 pounds this week...........I know it is from all the walking here at the hosp. (cause I didn't eat too well)
Well we didn't have the cookout. Everybody canceled on us. Oh well. Makes me want to just not talk to anybody, ya know? But I know people are busy and all that. So anyways.....
Sue -- to your MOM! I know that is a big deal. I hope she continues getting better. Glad you got some sleep!
Sue--glad your Mom is headed in the right direction. Tats nice that you are painting her room while she's gone, that and fresh flowers in there when she does come home will be welcoming. Woo hoo on the 2 pounds.
Sassy--sorry people cancelled on you but yauy for you adding another exercise dvd!!
my niece ended up in the hospital trying to keep contractions stopped since she's at 25 weeks, due in September...but little 3lb 3oz baby boy Bailey Ambrose didn't want to wait any longer. Mommy is doing well just stressed over not knowing what to expect and baby is breathing on his own...which is great
went for a bike ride with hubby--was a great day, we have both baby boys..I just love them
SASSY...sorry everyone baled on you guys, that totally sux! Hey, I love that WATP dvd and have it and the resistance belt whatever it is. I do feel a difference when using it but at the same time you don't really need it...maybe use some hand weights, I don't know. Hugs
SUE...good news about your mother and glad you were finally able to get some sleep. Good on the 2 pounds also!
JULES...a bike ride would be glorious! Hubby's not into the motorcycle thing, wish he was. Should go down the street and ask our neighbor, hubby's old boss to take me riding, lol...his wife might not like it. Anyway...glad the baby is doing well...so tiny. It's always a good sign when they are breathing on their own.
Hiya to everyone else
Not much going on here...doing some laundry and reading after sleeping half the day, lol. I have been so tired lately for some reason...well, I know why, I've been staying up too late and having to get up early. Of course I stayed up late last night also but with the intention of sleeping in!
Thinking I am doing okay with my eating this week...hard to eat right when you are on the go but I've been trying. Everytime I say try or trying I think of that mantra...There is no trying, you either do it or you don't or something like that. Did get a 60 minute walk in Friday, nothing today. Will do something tomorrow, exercise that is, just not sure what. I missed 2 days last week. Just getting so lazy and not wanting to do anything. Have my days where I don't care if I lose weight or not but in the back of my head I know that I can't just quit...I will NEVER quit.
Well, hope you all are enjoying your weekend. Adios for now
Thanks for your support. I'm kinda bummed. Not just about everybody canceling on us, I mean that doesn't make me feel great, but just feel blue. I just feel alone. Like there's nobody there except for my DH to be there for me or even care that I exist. That sounds terrible I know but its how I am feeling.
I just feel like shutting myself up and not talking to anybody, at least in the "real world" you all are wonderful. Maybe its just the hormones I'm being pumped with right now, I dunno but just feel so alone. I feel like I'm only "good enough" if people want something from me. Ya know? Like if I do this or that then I'm their friend. But I keep asking myself, "What do I get out of these friendships?" And I don't have much to answer, if anything. One friendship in particular really is one-sided. I know you all know exactly which one I'm talking about and I don't really wanna mention any details. But I just feel like its SO one-sided and I feel so stupid for continuing the friendship. I feel like "Why do I continue being this persons friend when I keep doing SO much for them and I don't get anything in return." So I'm thinking of just letting it go. Its already at the point where I try to not talk to them as much anymore. I honestly don't talk to anybody anymore. Except you all, my DH, my in-laws and my cousins. Thats it. Not even my own Mother wants anything to do with me. I know this sounds like a HUGE pity party, but its not, its just stating facts honestly.
So I dunno. You all know me pretty well, what do you think?! Honestly? Do you think its me just being "paranoid"?? Or am I a doormat? Or what? Also please don't put any details about my friend I'm talking about. If you need to PM me for more details then thats great. I just don't want any specific details. Thanks.
Sorry to lay this all out there but its been weighing on my mind lately.
About exercise, I haven't exercised since that video. Just zero motivation. I know that is a stupid excuse......but I feel so BLAH!!!!
Big to everybody!!!
Thanks for listening!!!
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Sassy--awwww, I don't know what to say, I have been a doormat myself at times due to my own iinsecurities...all I can say is the heat does make people feel blah...
Cristina-I like the mantra...will have to try it, antibiotics are kicking my butt
SASSY...I know exactly how you feel and am kinda going thru the same stuff. And I don't think you are a doormat. I think we both are nice people and like to do for others because we care and no one appreciates it. They take advantage and that's wrong but at the same time there are people who are that way...they think the world revolves around them and don't think about what they do...just their nature to expect things from others, or expect others to do for them. Years ago my first hubby told me that I know they are the way they are and I can either accept it (them the way they are) and deal with it or drop them. I compromised...I learned when to say no and not do so much for others. But I have to say too that I have dropped two friends because I had had enough. It's not right when you have friends and you feel alone...lots of hugs
JULES...good job on the 2 pounds!
Today is my WI and am happy to say I am down 1 pound. I am very happy with 1 because I did this last time and would rather see a slow and steady loss than a big loss that I am sure would jump back on my big ol' self.
That's about all I have...don't have Lily today so I slept in...just got up about 30 minutes ago and I am paying for it with a horrible headache and stiff body! Ciao
Cristina--I didn't lose anything last week, but it was TOM, I want to lose slow and steady, one to two pounds a week would be awesome. I didn't run last night and thought about doing it this morning but I was too tired. I went to bed at 7:30 last night and got up when the alarm rang at 5:45. Very good advice to Sassy. I will run tonight.
Quickie...Mom made such good progress over the week-end that if she does as well tomorrow they will not send her to Long Term Care, but let her come home. We are excited. I re-arranged her room tonight so she can get around with her walker. Took out one of her tables and set her bed up like a day bed..long ways..gives her so much floor space to get around. She has her recliner, which I am sure she will spend a lot of time sitting in. I am not going to have time to paint...bummer.
Going to stop at Wally World in the morning and get her a couple baskets for her meds. and bedside supplies.
I know having her come home will be hard, I will not be able to leave her alone at all they say...but she so wants to be in her room. I think we can make it.....
I haven't talked to that friend in a while and honestly it feels good not to be bogged down by their needs and their drama. I mean it gets the point where I never get to talk about myself or my life. How pathetic is that? Not that I have a lot going on, but still to not even ask anything about me? What kind of friend is that? Its always about them. ALWAYS. I'm just plain sick of it! I've looked back on my friendships and it seems like I always get the same friend over and over again. All absorbed into themselves and all wrapped into me doing a bunch of crap for them! I can only think of 1 friend in my whole life time that was not like that.
I guess I attract those people because they see that I am a nice and giving person and then take advantage over and over and over again until I get sick of it. I can see that in my past relationships as well. I think I'm done being a doormat. I can't hack it any longer. Its like either be my friend because you love and care about me, or MOVE ON!
Jules -- Thanks. I appreciate it. Just something I'm going through right now.
Cristina -- Thanks. Yes I am a giver, I have always been. My mom said that I have always been that way. That is my weakness I guess, making other people happy and then I completely forget about my own. Well I'm done! They can just do their own crap themselves and if I'm not enough without doing things for them, then they can just move on out! lol.
Sue -- Thats great that they are letting your mom come home! I know it won't be easy, but I know that everybody heals better at home. I know it was that way when they let my fil come home. They were thinking of putting him in a long term facility for his physical therapy and then they decided he could have them come to their home and he did so well! So BIG
Well I WI and I was worried that it would be a gain because I haven't ate the healthiest and I only walked 2 miles last week. But I did manage to lose .5 a pound! So a LOSS is a LOSS and I'm glad! But I'm trying to get back to exercising, I walked a mile yesterday and back to healthy eating. DH cooked boneless skinless chicken breasts for dinner, so its a new start.
I think honestly its just been me feeling so down about everybody canceling on us and then the stress of having a "friend" take advantage of our friendship.
I think in life it is hard sometimes to realize that something or someone is not good for you. Even though you have tried so hard to keep them close to you, you have done everything you could think of too keep them close too you but its no good. You can feel deep down that they are not good for you. Whether it be food or a person, sometimes you just gotta let go........
Sue--what great news on your momma!! keep us posted.
Sassy--i have been there myself, hubby and I aren't friends with a couple anymore cause they too much drama, hubby and I almost always ended up in a argument during the long drive home. With both grandboys on the weekends we are busy anyway.
Well I slept like 10 hours or so. So I should feel good, but not really. lol. Ah well.
Anywho. I do have an interview on Friday with Michaels. I wasn't too excited about it because I know I won't be making much money and also its not the one closest to my home. But I guess if it works out then I can't turn down work. I haven't told anyone in "real life" except for DH, so please do not mention it on facebook. I just would rather go have the interview and if I get it, I get it and if I don't, no harm done. Its just I know so many people want me to get a job. They think I'm in a depression because I'm not working. They worry about me. Its like if I don't have a job I'm nothing? I don't' get it. I take care of the house and all, isn't that a job? I know they mean well, but it just kinda makes me mad that they think that about me.
Jules -- Def. It takes a lot out of you that is for sure!
Just a quick fly-by...busy, busy, busy...will catch up Friday or Saturday but wanted to say HI and send hugs to everyone Have a good rest of the week everyone!
Oh well. Makes me want to just not talk to anybody, ya know? But I know people are busy and all that. So anyways.....
to your MOM! I know that is a big deal. I hope she continues getting better. Glad you got some sleep! 
I feel like I'm only "good enough" if people want something from me. Ya know? Like if I do this or that then I'm their friend. But I keep asking myself, "What do I get out of these friendships?" And I don't have much to answer, if anything. One friendship in particular really is one-sided. I know you all know exactly which one I'm talking about and I don't really wanna mention any details. But I just feel like its SO one-sided and I feel so stupid for continuing the friendship. I feel like "Why do I continue being this persons friend when I keep doing SO much for them and I don't get anything in return." So I'm thinking of just letting it go. Its already at the point where I try to not talk to them as much anymore. I honestly don't talk to anybody anymore. Except you all, my DH, my in-laws and my cousins. Thats it. Not even my own Mother wants anything to do with me. 
Thanks.
