I've been so out of it
Started teaching summer school for 3 weeks (4 days a week) for kids who failed their entrance exams on the EFL exam to get into this high school. It's nice on the one hand - I DO love teaching, but I sure as heck hate teaching EFL! Math is my passion. And I keep getting roped into teaching English and each time I swear - Never again!!! But they rely on my marshmellow fluff brain, haha. It's actually an interresting oppotunity for me to meet the kids in the classes because my daughter starts school there in September, and these will be her classmates.
But because of teaching - they have no fridge so I don't bring normal food (read: salad) and then I have to haul @$$ to get to my regular job and restart my day at 1:30!! It;s only for 12 days but I can't keep OP, and I can't go to the gym either because I'm worried I'll be late to school (I have the flexibility of being able to come late to the office) and now I'm just not doing anything...
Whatever. Life is a little askew right now - to say the least - in all areas.
I went to get my B12 shot today and I really HATE it - I have no pain tolerance whatsoever (says the lady who had 2 babies with zero painkillers, haha) and I decided to bail - went into the doctor and told him I want pills - no more shots (i already had 5 - 5 too many!) and that's that. Now I have pills. Yea.
It's so darn hot here I just want to cry. Where is the winter? Where?? I just want to crawl into a hole. I haveb't been watching the biggest loser either because my life is so uninspiring and glum right now that I can't even bear the opening song (What have to done today to make you feel proud) because it makes me miserable....
11 days down! I REALLY wanted to drink tonight, but did NOT. Is that amazing or what?!?!?!
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CB -- Good on the water but what's happening with the evening eating? I see you're using your pauses... Come on now, you can do this!
Apple -- Thanks for the congrats. You're looking mighty good yourself, 9 days down on exercise! Hurrah! Ok, non-normal person, weigh with your shoes on. I have learned to forego the scale. I am NOT weighing, just watching my clothes. Well, actually, I'm just sticking to my plan and that is helping, I can feel it. I have a jawline again!
jolly -- Thanks. Yeah, juice, expensive stuff in a bar! and no buzz! Oh well, no calories to speak of either! Great plan on that race. And I sure am glad you got home before the storm hit!
miriam -- Oh, I hear you on the heat. Hot, hot, hot here too, again from tomorrow and I am worried about my horse more than me. Your situation sounds really tough with staying on plan, but the job does sound like a great opportunity to get to know your daughter's classmates. That should help when she's talking about them later, instead of having eyes glaze over, which is what mine would do if I can't put a face to the name. Hang in there. Winter will be back. I've never seen The Biggest Loser, so I'm glad I don't have to feel miserable about it. Chin up, kiddo!
Red, you are just a rock. Great job. And actually, we didn't make it home before it hit. we were about 2 miles from home when it hit, and we had to go about a mile to get a ride. my shoes are soaked.
Miriam, that is why we are here. I had to vent to a friend for an hour or so yesterday, before I could get my mindset away from just saying to heck with this whole thing. It is too hard. You need to be able to vent, so you can move on.
I still got up early this morning, but am enjoying being lazy. Since this is the first weekend since I did the triathlon that I have not had to work, I took a 3 day weekend. Still answering emails, but it is better than being in the office. i realized I needed some time to recharge my batteries
Just very frustrated. I'm sure I'm staying within my calorie range, but I'm not eating at set times like usual, and here comes Saturday - hardest day of the week. Holy Moly - I don't know how I'm going to get through it! My husband is being SUCH a jerk and I just am not handling things well. I need to learn to be more assertive.... Grrrrr..... I'd like to get plastered. Wonder how many calories are in vodka!?
30 min exercise, Day 10, 1 pause left.
Not really in the mood to post but I have to jump in to cheer up Miriam! Chin up kiddo! It sounds like you have a lot to juggle right now, but don't worry, things will settle down. Anyway, move over in that hole of yours, I'm having a day like that too.
Oh, hurrah, hurrah!! My iPod, which I washed, is working again!! This was the SECOND iPod I have washed. Can we say STUPID??! I put it in my pocket at the gym while I'm working at and forget to take it out of my pocket, then throw everything in the washer. The first one only worked when plugged in but this one is going OK now. Yippee!!! I really need my music.
Have also discovered the world of free podcasts and my current favorite is learning Cantonese from a Norwegian woman in Hong Kong. There's a girl at work from Hong Kong and a Japanese guy married to a Hong Konger. I practice my "phrase of the day" and wow them. Of course, the Hong Kong woman comes back with stuff I have NO clue about, but I'm just so tickled that she actually understood me. It's like, wow, it worked, it worked!! OK. I am drinking coffee and the caffeine is kicking in. You see, I now can get really cheap buzzes going clean like I am. It is now two weeks without a drop of alcohol (I actually started before I started the challenge) and nearly two weeks without sugar!
My skin looks great, I can't believe it. Back in the early part of the year I was looking absolutely horrible, but the daily vegetable juice (yes, keeping that one up without a challenge! ) is working absolute wonders.
OK, the bad news. I am weakening. I can feel it. I am getting so high on my success that I want to celebrate and with me that means looooong nights out on the town (a town that never sleeps!) with barrels of booze. And I've got people emailing me and calling me on the phone wondering why I won't come out and play. God, what do they think I am? Some sort of constant partyer or what? Sigh. So, what do I do? My birthday is still a loooong way off (8/8). Guess I'm just gonna have to knock those cravings down!
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Apple -- You're moving ahead anyhow. Great work!
Miriam -- You poor thing. How's it going now? Can you go out, get some time to yourself? Well, I sure know the "want to get plastered" feeling but I'm holding strong. There are better ways. Exercise can be great. Can you do something? A boxing video? Great stress reliever. Just put your husband's face before you! No, seriously, hang in there. You've been doing so well. Remember your signature...."Doing this for ME!"
jolly -- yeah, a rock, that's me. BUT, it's getting HARD....oh, right, rocks are hard... No, really, I'm starting to crave sugar and fantasize about pint glasses (and their contents). Course, that said, I use a pint glass for my vegetable juice as well....fantasy is different though... sigh. Well, glad you didn't get hit by a falling tree or debris. I bet you did that last mile in record time, no? Ah, a three-day weekend sounds great. Enjoy!
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Heh, where are some of our other people?!?!? Come on back!! Fish, where are you? CBETA?
Yesterday was day 15
Wow how time flies. Sorry I haven't been around. Have 5 extra people in my house for the next month and it took everyone a little bit to get use to the routine of the house. Things are going good now.
jolly
All of us have times we don't do all the things we should be doing. You keep with it. You will get back on track and things will be great.
Apple
We all just need to keep on keeping on. We will get where we want to be. All of us, I am sure, would look better if we lost another 20 pounds lol. Even then, we will find a reason why we need to do something to look better in our bathing suits lol.
Red
Nice going sticking with this. You are tough. I am so glad I don't go to bars. Seems like it is pretty hard to not drink when others are drinking. I don't drink much anymore so that might help.
Miriam
We had a real nice weekend. Going for the week the first week in August.
Last edited by Shy Moment; 07-12-2008 at 09:58 AM.
30 min exercise, Day 10, 0 pauses left.
Well, I screwed up yesterday, and today is not looking any better. I guess if I'm going to get through this challenge I'm going to have to bear down. All the smoke in the air has been scaring me from running. At least it has cooled down again. I'll try to run tomorrow.
Love your new balloon, Red!
Shy, good luck with your crowd!
I had a weird SaturdAY - but I usually do... Family makes me eerie - I can only handle them in small doses. Like vodka - but without the high - haha,,,,,,
I have to reevalute my program - I kinda feel on hold because of this teaching, which mucks up my whole exercise and eating program, I know I'm not eating enough, and certainly not regularly - and I feel weak when people around me are eating FELAFEL - aargh!!!
And I sure remember why I left teaching - too much preparation! I have no time to myself at all and I am in serious need of some ME-time.
DH is taking DSS and DSD overseas to see their mom for a week in August - maybe I'll get some ME-time then. Or actually - the 4 little ones will get some THEM-time. Never a dull moment.
Honestly - sometimes I don't know what I'm thinking, read: WHY THE **** DID I TAKE OUT MY IUD?! If the stork doesn't visit this month - I'm putting it back in!!!
Red - hang in there! You cracked me up about your Ipod - like me dropping my cellphones in the toilet - I think I've don'e that twice and 3 times with the cordless phone in the house. You'd think I've given them some "death-by-water" wish..
Apple - still smoke in the air there? UGH! What exercise are you doing for your challengE?
Jolly - good for you for taking some time off for yourself. 3 day weekend sounds great. come to think of it - so dies a 2-day weekend, haha..
Wishing everyone some sanity! I think I'll meditate on the serenity prayer.....
Hey all. exercise has been going good, food - not so much. But, I am down to 215 as of today's weigh in. I am going to try very hard to get out of the teens in two weeks. Wish me luck.
Off to do my core work, then hopefully go play some tennis. Catch you later
Day 13 is done. I am getting so sick of the heat and the hardship. I want to eat sweets and drink beer and I am more aggravated by the fact that I want to do those things because they are so trivial and because they don't get me anywhere. So why do I want to do them? It's so lame.
Also, I can't believe that it's only two weeks, not even, and that I feel so deprived. That's even more pathetic.
Sigh. I'm just feeling bummed. Wish I had some motivation.
Jolly, that's great that you're down in weight. You'll make your goal or get very close if you keep at it. Work that muscle, burn that fat!!
I am trying to work the muscle and lose the fat, Red. I just need to get the eating under control. In the past, that has what has started a back slide. Fortunately, right now I am in training. That gives me some external motivation, when the internal doesn't kick in. However . .. I need to figure out the best way to structure things, to keep me moving in the right direction. I am toying with whether or not I want to put my calorie counts on my menus, keep one day "free", and have the challenge be to follow the menu? I just don't know.
So I hear you. I too feel like it is too hard, "being good." And I also feel frustrated that I still want to do these behaviors, even knowing that I don't feel good when I do. i really do enjoy the taste of fresh stuff, healthy stuff, better. But then the cravings hit . . .
Why do we do this to ourselves? Why don't the cravings and urges go away?
Oh, and I meant to ask - which of you all are from the California area?? I was looking into the Bay to Breakers race for next year, and had my sister interested. Realized that if I do decide to try a marathon next year, timing would be off for doing the local one, and I may try to convince her to do the San Francisco one instead. Anyone want to join, or come cheer???
Day 17
All is well . Well at least for food and exercise lol. Loss is going very slowly right now. Sure hope it picks back up. This is the pits to lose a pound every few weeks.
jolly
Many cravings do go away. There are a couple of things that I just don't eat. If I eat them I crave them. If I don't eat them for a couple of weeks I don't want them.
red
Sometimes we need to find things to replace the things we no longer let into our body's. There are things out there that give us pleasure and are good for us. I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee peanut butter cookies. I crave the darn things when I make them and only eat two. I found the south beach peanut butter cookies. 2 in a pack with 5 grams of fat. They are terrific and I don't crave more after I eat them. Sometimes, it just takes time to find substitutions.
Miriam
Sorry things aren't going well for you. You need to MAKE some me time. It comes to each of us at different times in our lives that ME is the most important person in the world. Others will get use to it.
Apple
I stick to my normal routine and let everyone else take care of them selfs lol.
Come on now, you can do this!
Great plan on that race. And I sure am glad you got home before the storm hit! 
I put it in my pocket at the gym while I'm working at and forget to take it out of my pocket, then throw everything in the washer. The first one only worked when plugged in but this one is going OK now. Yippee!!! I really need my music.
) is working absolute wonders. 
and with me that means looooong nights out on the town (a town that never sleeps!) with barrels of booze. And I've got people emailing me and calling me on the phone wondering why I won't come out and play. God, what do they think I am? Some sort of constant partyer or what? 
Sigh. So, what do I do? My birthday is still a loooong way off (8/8). Guess I'm just gonna have to knock those cravings down! 
No, seriously, hang in there. You've been doing so well. Remember your signature...."Doing this for ME!"
No, really, I'm starting to crave sugar and fantasize about pint glasses (and their contents). Course, that said, I use a pint glass for my vegetable juice as well....fantasy is different though... sigh. Well, glad you didn't get hit by a falling tree or debris. I bet you did that last mile in record time, no? Ah, a three-day weekend sounds great. Enjoy!
Come on back!! Fish, where are you? CBETA?
official two weeks...17 days off alcohol though....
