Hello to all you chickees! If I don’t respond to you tonight I still read everything.
Margaret....YIPEEEEE!!!! I’m so happy for your happiness! And you’re right, your experience does motivate me...and give me faith that a good relationship is possible! Way to go to both of you!
Froggie missed ya girl! I always enjoy “Spewer” stories! hehehe. Looks like the weight is coming off too huh?
Hey Deb, well it’s great that you’ve never cheated, but I must admit that it makes me kind of nervous too. Like when I had a 4.0 average when I first started college, and was TERRIFIED of breaking it. It was like setting up a Ming Dynasty vase in the middle of the living room and telling your kids not to break it or you would kill them. So when I got my first “B” I was liberated! I enjoyed my college experience much more (especially all the class I skipped.
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Now, I don’t think it’s necessary or healthy for anybody to “accidentally” go caveman on two dozen doughnuts, even once in a while. But even the Sugar Bust for Life cookbook said small amounts of “forbidden” foods mixed with large amounts of other foods are acceptable. I guess it’s all a matter of how you feel about it.
Like the other day I was about to go skating and it was too crowded at the park. I had a bottle of “wellness water” with me that I bought before I started sb. It’s like weak Gatorade, about 80 calories for a big bottle. (It was quite a shock that so few calories had
20 grams of sugar! Imagine those 22 ounce jugs of Coke and Mountain Dew I used to chug down EVERY DAY! But anyway.) So I was tempted to drink it anyway, but I didn’t. Later on I did skate for 1 ¼ hours after dancing for two hours and I’ve had experience with not replenishing my body soon enough after exercise (with dire consequences) so I didn’t feel guilty drinking it. However it would have been out of place just to drink, without exercise.
No there is no excuse for cheating....but with planning I don’t see anything wrong with the occasional indulgence.
Good idea about the start date; I’ve been kinda doing that already when I “restarted” my top weight at 164.
About fiber...I honestly don’t know how many grams. but definitely way more than before. When I think about how little fiber I was consuming it’s SCARY. Because low fiber is very typical of the American diet, and yet refined foods are so unnatural to the way our bodies are designed. I am still obsessed with my short term goals yes, but I also have a firm commitment to this way of life for LIFE! I’m not going back....I may slip and I may fall, I may even lie in the dirt for a little while but I’m going to keep walking, because this feels so RIGHT.
I’m holding steady on the ice cream, but I KNOW I definitely can’t control myself with chocolate, so I avoid it altogether, maybe forever. Those three boxes I inhaled over Christmas haunt me like a vengeful ghost of the way I used to be. I remember when I was 19 and severely depressed. I ate an entire ½ gallon of ice cream. Before that, but on the same day, I had cooked up FIVE POUNDS of chicken thighs in teriyaki sauce, and ate it on a WHOLE loaf of French bread with butter. There was more but I can’t remember. I still can’t believe it was me who did that. I mean that’s truly sick....for some of us overeating really is a disease. I digress again, but what I meant to say was that it’s a major accomplishment that you are able to handle chocolate so well.
Thanks for the compliment; I AM a writer, I just don’t have time to write!
I am going to write a great novel before I die....I already have the plot sketched out in detail.
Lisa I too had a question about the fruit and maybe you veterans can answer it. I have always thought that if you are going to eat carbs, they are absorbed more slowly when combined with protein and fat. So never to eat carbs alone. What is the deal with eating fruit alone ½ hour before or two hours after a meal? I’m sure there must be some rational explanation.
I’m glad that things are okay with your son and that you have gotten something positive out of his illness...a desire to improve your own life. Being overweight is not just a life-threatening disease....it’s a
LIFE-SPOILING disease and I for one am bound and determined not to waste another year of my life being a prisoner in this fat!
SolShine: Open a word processor program. Save your post as you go along. Hit reply. Copy and paste it when you are finished. (Yes I am blue in the face!!!!!!)
Now that I’m finished screaming. I really enjoyed your blading experiences and thanks for sharing them. Isn’t it fun????? (Trying to convert people.) Believe me if I find a butt guard I will buy it no matter how funny it looks!
I enjoyed your goals to no end! What a way to start the morning! LOL! Especially: “I want to be able to shave my bikini area without having to move anything out of the way!” LMFAO!!!!!
I am especially self-conscious about my “bikini area.” (If you are a prude close your eyes for a minute now.) Being in such close proximity to my lower abs it is a real stubborn problem area. Those two areas are why I’m longing to get a tummy tuck and a little liposuction so badly. But besides not having the money, I’m going to discipline myself and wait until I have maintained my goal weight for some time before I do it.
Also thanks for the kind words and the story about your friend who runs every day. You are right; reaching goal is only the BEGINNING of the excitement, the struggle, the pain and joy of living life to the utmost!!! I’m sure your hubby is to swoon for; I have faith that I’ll find somebody beautiful on the inside and the outside too someday. Since I have standards now.
StarChaser, RodeoMom and all you other newbies besides me, I’m glad to see you doing so well! Feels like we are “sisters” in this lifestyle!
Glory....Sharkle....I like that. I think I’ll change my userid now.
Laurie doesn’t it feel great to buy clothes! I’ve been so big that NOTHING fits....but I was too poor to go to a “special” store so I just squeezed into jeans that were at least two sizes too tight (sigh). Now I make SURE something is comfortable before I wear it!
Tonight’s ramble
Well it’s Monday nite gals. This is the third week in a row that nobody showed up to my OA meeting. I usually make lots of phone calls to rally people together but lately I’ve been putting so much time into working out and cooking that I haven’t had the energy. Sometimes it seems like I have to keep the dynamite lit under their butts. I shouldn’t say that but I’m frustrated. Maybe it’s time to let go of the responsibility for a while.
But I was pretty glad because I was dying to skate! It’s windy and rainy tonight, but I went anyway. I was wearing my velvet “party” hat to the meeting cause I didn’t do my hair from biking home in the rain. So I put on my gym clothes, skates and pulled the hat low on my face and merrily did 8 miles in the occasionally pouring rain, slowly so I wouldn’t slip and fall.
My roomie made a yummilicious meat sauce and spaghetti for dinner. I started cooking up some other stuff and he got all pouty, but I was planning to eat the sauce over some fresh asparagus sauteed in some light olive oil. Which I did, adding a few sun dried tomatoes and almonds. My “green spaghetti” was just divine! I ate my fill but was dying for dessert so I heated up a few shreds of ww bread (like half an ounce) and had them with some pb& “j”.
Yesterday he was bound and determined to make sausage and gravy with biscuits and eggs for breakfast. Didn't manage it until supper, but breakfast is good any time of day. Those biscuits looked about as divine as they could. But I ate my sausage and eggs with some brown rice and hot picante sauce and it was even better!
Two major temptations tonite: I’m doing just about ANYTHING to keep from eating more sf ice cream. That’s why it was important to eat my fill of supper. And also I’m cooking up a pack of bacon in the oven (for the first time) to mix with my veggies and salads and everytime I cook bacon a few pieces jump into my mouth accidentally. But this time I’m determined not to even taste any because after all WIW is coming up real soon! (Hmmm that oven thing works really well and much easier than standing over a pan of hot grease! I just put them in a roasting pan.) Anyway I am sure I’m going to make it through tonight!
I have had a real problem concentrating at work lately. My job is fairly high pressure; usually I do good work but I can’t focus on anything. This has been since I started my new routine. Part of it is that I am mentally although not physically exhausted and part of it is the tension between myself and my roommate/coworker. So today after talking to him it was better, but I got majorly busted today for neglecting to prepare for an appointment with a major client back on Saturday. I am usually the “miracle worker” and it’s been a long time since I got a lecture....and this one was pretty stinging. My boss is disappointed in me but I don’t think she realizes how completely unhinged I’ve been. I made a major effort to concentrate today and although I didn’t do as much as I could have, I’m making a dent.
I posted earlier that I have been on a campaign to stop biting my nails. This is really important to me because I’ve bitten my nails to pathological stumps for years now and haven’t been able to stop no matter how hard I tried. So I have been constantly working on them and putting on lotion like a zillion times a day and am happy to report that I now have short, but neat and ladylike fingernails! What a major difference in my attitude and self-esteem too. I sat in on a client presentation because I’m training to sign people up for IRAs and I felt so proud to be sitting there not having to be ashamed of my hands.
Okay I feel like I washed a TON of dishes and it’s very nearly midnight already. I’m busy every single minute of the day and still don’t have time to sleep. I wonder how I will ever take care of a little one when it’s all I can do to take care of myself.
Oh one last thing. I can sum up all my goals very simply: I want to be at peace with the woman I am. Not perfectly satisfied of course! but at peace. And I can’t delude myself into being at peace with my excess weight nor do I want to....but I have come a long way toward loving myself just as I am....flaws and all.
I’m pretty darn awesome and so are YOU!
Love,
Chris
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They catered food for the event--breakfast--all carbs and sugar. Lunch pasta salad. I was glad I had thought to put a couple of protein bars in my purse. They did have fruit. I asked if they could get me a salad for lunch and they did. When I explained what Iwas doing and how much weight I've lost they seemed more than happy to accompdate me. So here is my Tuesday tip: ASK FOR WHAT YOU NEED!!!!!! For dinner they brought in baked chicken, broiled fish, green beans and salad--no problem there. Sometimes you need to enlist others to help you stay OP. Now if someone could just jumpstart my fried brain. . . 
What a hoot! I looked so stunning in my new size 22 skorts that I actually shelled out the 20 bucks for the tourista photo at the gates and made everyone take a copy! 
I rushed out the door this morning and only had my cereal and forgot to take my Glucophage. I’m so mad at myself. I just started this stuff and I want to see RESULTS! It’s too soon for me to be forgetting these things. I can take it when I get home, but I’ve been trying to take it at the same time every day since it’s a one a day pill. I also know I’m going to be hungrier today since I didn’t start with protein. I’m already hungry! 
. I think the green goobs are gone. Head is still some congested, but hey, I can deal. Now, I haven't posted on exercise board because - ummmmm - I haven't been exercising (2 weeks now) 
I wasn't about to while coughing and hocking. I may have slung a lung
I am going to hop on the trusty TM morning morning and see how I endure.
